Are you there?

a watched nut never busts. or something. i dont fucking know what you people find funny anymore. 9/11.

why is this the one

take me to snurch (snail church)

happy 10 years to snurch

oh do not do this to me

@snailifier is this your grandparent?

I snuppose so! Snailol

Spin this wheel to receive a transformation potion ^_^

pool toy ….

Cosmic :> :> :>

psh, that's dumb, theres no way i'll-

wait-

oh no-

NOOOOOOOO

I AM WORM!!!!!! 🪱

'' Pests found in shipwrecks, coral reefs, rocky tidepools and deep underwater caves. Triton blennies love infesting our fishing vessels, stealing our food, and leaving a nasty mess of fish guts behind. For a small dragon with multiple legs, the only thing they got going for is their gnarly interlocked teeth, other than that... they're pretty much little defenseless marine scum. We roast them whole, boiled in a stew with mandrakes and other vegetables, and sometimes their legs get pulled out and served as garnish for soups, quite similar to the Swoopalüng taste wise- they're good eating, its just upsetting that they're almost everywhere we set sail to. ''

Bro.. Bro it’s SATIRE it’s SATIRE BRO

i struggled so hard w this but im rlly happy w how it turned out now so yaya 👍

close up ver. and an extra idk if i like or not under read more.

He's a character now, whateves. Her name is Wish and I have a full drawing planned for later ✨

rawr <3

VENT POST:

ADHD sucks and I hate having it. It always upsets me to see people "quirkifying" it online and saying shit like "omg ADHD chaos gremlin, my ADHD made me do *insert zany thing*" because this isn't cute or quirky or fun. It's so tiring.

Without a lot of constant management, going to college and taking classes with ADHD is so stressful and scary and hard. Not only do I have serious trouble studying because I can't focus on what I'm doing and/or get stuck in HOURS of doom scrolling/ADHD paralysis, but I forget to check my assignment calendars, or straight up don't know where to find informative on assignments, and I end up getting blindsided by things I didn't even know I had to do that are all suddenly due immediately. Granted, I'm doing a lot better now than I was freshman year, but it's still very hard. And it's frustrating because I know I DO have the intelligence and skills to succeed! When I can actually get myself to study properly I get good grades! I CAN do it! And it feels so deceptively simple, I just need to study! I know exactly what I need to do, and I should be able to do it, but I just.... can't.

Speaking of the doomscrolling/ADHD paralysis, it feels SO bad. I put distraction blockers on my phone that are literally unremovable, so it happens less, but it still happens on my laptop/after the blocker ends sometimes. Sometimes I don't even need a device my brain will maladaptive daydream so vividly it has the same effect. And It's not just a "I'm gonna laze about and doomscroll/daydream" type of thing. I'll be on my phone barely comprehending the videos I'm seeing and panicking more and more. I don't WANT to be doing that! I'm not enjoying it! My mind is screaming at me to stop!! And I cannot!!! It's so bad that I'll start getting physical symptoms. I'll start trembling, getting a pressure headache, and feeling lightheaded. If the paralysis is bad enough and lasts long enough I'll be so out of it that I don't trust myself to drive for an hour or so after. And of course even if it didn't last that long it somehow sets the mood for the rest of the day. I CAN kinda recover and turn the day around but it's difficult.

And then there's social interactions. I DO have friends, and a lot of them are close friends, but a lot of the time I still feel like an alien trying to pretend to be human and interact with real humans. I do and say things without thinking, talk way too much, over share, and generally fumble it. I feel like everyone else got a guidebook on how to be human and interact with humans and I didn't. And that feeling creates a subtle loneliness that is just unshakable. And a lot of the times I'm too busy picking up some mess in my life to even engage in social stuff ( frantically doing pprocrastinated assignments, trying to bump up a bad grade, rescheduling appointment I forgot about)

ADHD often makes me feel like a cartoon character dropped into the real world. What I mean by this is I feel like I'm just there to interact with people and things in the moment, to play a role in some part of something. There are times where I feel like I don't have my own life, my own consciousness. That I don't know who I am because I wasn't even able to master the skill of being anyone at all. Everyone else is living, I feel like I'm just existing. If even that. And don't get me started about thinking about the future, that's a whole different, terrifying concept.

Sorry, I know I haven't posted in a while and this isn't my usual type of content but I really needed to get this off my chest.

we take stuffed animals very seriously in this house

Finally! A video of all my beanie babies! Or at least the ones I have with me at college. There was supposed to be audio but capcut wouldn't let me upload the video with it

Weird girls with niche interests are going to save the world, I think.