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Raven Silversea

@ravensilversea / ravensilversea.tumblr.com

Hello! Name's Raven (she/they), general hot mess, and fanfic writer. My main fandom is KHR, but I'm ultimately a multi-fandom peep Can guarantee I'm probably procrastinating on something

The TLDR

My name’s Raven, and I’m a fanfiction writer for a variety of fandoms that no one, including myself can completely predict. My pronouns are they/them and she/her at the moment. General random stuff I may off-handedly mention are my cats, the existence of college, the 5 shitty semesters I spent as a creative writing major, and video games I’m playing at the moment.

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  • "Raven’s Pen” is my writing tag
  • Sometimes I make memes, which are found under “Raven’s Memes”
  • "Quoth the Raven” is my general posting/chatting tag
  • "Raven watches [insert show/movie here]” is for show/movie reactions
  • “Raven plays [insert game here]” is for my video game posts
  • “The Tell Tale Queue” is my queue tag
  • Ask games get tagged with “Ask away y’all”- Feel free to dive into the tag and dig any of them up at any time! Just give me enough information to find the context of the ask game

The Askbox aka “Ask away y’all”

  • Currently, it’s open and anon is on
  • Feel free to send me ask game questions or asks in general

Permissions Statement under the Cut:

why are time loops always only like 1 day long?

the real horror is a months or years long time loop. no speedrunning your torture here. you have to sit with the consequences of your actions for a loooong time before the release of knowing the consequences and actions have been erased.

but oh, all the actions and consequences are gone. those relationships you built? empty. you can never build them again without the constant guilt of knowing that it's not as real the second, third, thirtieth time when you already know all their secrets and they none of yours.

but you can't hide. you can't isolate yourself because what if this is the time the loop breaks and then what? years gone by of missed chances with people who have changed you a thousand times and now circumstances have changed. you can never build back what was washed away by your own inaction. they'll never be able to meet you like they did the first time if you don't choose to meet them the first time every time

genuine advice for people who aren't sure how to use tumblr:

  • reblog art you like
  • reblog posts that make you laugh
  • personalise your blog (change your icon/header/blog title from the default versions) so people don't think you're a bot and block you en masse
  • make 0 note flops like 'just ate some cheese'

Jod Na Nawood’s backstory is FASCINATING!! And makes SO much sense!!! Order 66 fucked up SO much in the galaxy, it’s so interesting (and tragic) to see what it’s done to the force sensitive children who were unable to be taken into the Temple. It truly supports how GOOD the Jedi Order is. How good the JEDI are. I can’t even fully comprehend everything the galaxy lost and suffered without them. And- Jod’s master. She didn’t have to take him in. He knew that. He knows she was desperate. But she took him in anyway and taught him what she could. We only get a very tiny glimpse of that backstory but it’s utterly gut-wrenching.

Imagine the survivor of a genocide. A Jedi on the run, desperate and hungry and grieving, running into a little kid just as lost as her and seeing that LIFE in him. Feeling the FORCE in him. What would that have done to her after feeling everyone she knew and loved ripped away from her. But here is this kid and he needs help and maybe she does, too. Maybe they can help each other. And so she folds him under her wing just as any Jedi would have done. She teaches him the ways of her people, knowing that their way of life lives on in her and that she is passing it on to a new generation. And that probably hurt. It probably hurt SO much. Because she can’t give him what she could have if the Order was still alive. And he’ll never understand what it means to be part of something so beautiful and long-lasting. But she does what she can, and they maybe never would have met if Order 66 didn’t happen. And it’s an awful thought, the worst kind of thought, but she can’t help but be relieved they found each other. Because she loves this lost little kid and maybe they’re broken together, but they’re more whole together, too. And maybe without Jod she could have run and hid forever. Maybe she couldn’t have, plenty Jedi were caught and murdered. But she knew the risk and she took it- and the way Jod talks about it (“they made me watch”) makes me think that he feels he’s responsible for her getting caught. And it makes me wonder how she felt when she was caught. Knowing she was one of the last of her kind, and that this kid was going to be alone again. Orphaned in a completely new, terrible way.

And I wonder, too, if looking after the kids reminded Jod of his old Jedi Master. And maybe he thought “I can’t get attached because then they’ll catch me too and I’ll die just like her.” And you know what, Jod? It did happen that way. You got caught because of those kids. But only because you forgot what it means to be a Jedi, which is to say that after your Master died you tore out that softness within you. Abandoned love for fear. Exchanged generosity for greed. And it’s true grief and trauma changes people. That a little kid alone in the galaxy does what they can to survive. But Jod isn’t a little kid anymore and it doesn’t excuse the choices you make. It’s a wretched world, one without a Jedi, and Jod suffered all the more for it.

And I wonder, too, what Jod thought when Wim paused in the elevator. When that little kid called out to him, despite everything Jod had done to him. Did Jod look at Wim and think: “Yeah, that’s what a Jedi would be” and then hate himself all the more for it? Well, who can tell. Jod is a fascinating character and I’m excited to see where the show next takes us.

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