Reverescents

Into the mist of Mt. Rainier

elliothawkey

@audy7

 A friend threatened me to repost so I will!

Basically, there r tons of fake asses on tumblr who just want comments and followers, so someone started this to see who's actually a good friend. Everyone I tag better repost (and tag other people and preferably threaten them in a creative way as well) bc I'm high on caffeine and newfound lesbianism and will resort to violence.

@ey-theys-was-coronas

@fangirlhehe

I would tag more people but they're the only ones I've really interacted with-

Hey queeeeeen!!!!! How ya doing with your newfound lesbianism?

@i-got-poisenality @gone5doll @theoneandonlypatches @above-the-foldd

I know I didn’t tag everyone, I just can’t remember all of my mooties and I’m tired lol

Uhhh- ill try to tag everyone i can remember, its been a minute since ive been active ok here.

@more-sonorous @ey-theys-was-coronas @newsies-lodging-house @sprace-javey

I'll do as many as I remember

@sobsloudlybutprettily @imnotactually-a-crouch @prongsie-piee @werewolf-from-mars @my-castles-crumbling @bigmack2go @ey-theys-was-coronas

@swirling-romantics @fifisettos @xerussquirrel @urgayoldercousinmags @nolonger-ams @soupdeewoop @eternally-wandering @liv-in-the-chaos @clodyghost i think thats most if not all of my people

@indigostation @astronomical-anteater @turtlesinatree @ literally anyone who isn't here just for meaningless engagement farming

I'm too bad at interacting with people for this lol

@starkayezer @blueberry-b4gel @astarsmindd

making actual friends yesssss

@woods3115 @mairon-goth-minion @sunshinerainbowsandlollipops @sage-way

not great at friends either🥲🥲 but here

@marauding-almond @ravensncrowsx @ariannabananasstuff and all my other mutuals

@kid-a-pessimism @glueandmorphemes HEY MY POOKIES I DONT KNOW WHO ELSE TO @ i don’t talk to many people 😖

imagine i’m @ you if you’re a moot i don’t talk to much <3

@reverescents<333

@idksomebody4

(don't reblog if you don't want I guess)

Life demands from me more than I can give.

I don't know how to adjust into society

Therapy and counseling and "mental health support" from professionals, etc. are often like treating (or helping manage) the symptoms, but not the disease. It's "helping" the individual, but it's not and it's not about solving the innumerable core global, collective, societal, systemic, world, etc. issues and problems.

The 'disease' in question, is (almost) everything. I think everything is interconnected. Everything. The world, the countless, core issues — "small" and "big" — with humans, parents, men and women, societies, governments, and the systems that have been created, etc. all impact us, obviously, and we are shaped in countless ways by them. Therapy can't just solve complex global or more 'minor'-but-not-really problems for the individuals it's helping..it can only do so much.

Another issue is many people also don't and can't go to therapy or counseling, and those who are going, many of them, are probably learning important, new things and ideas and are changing, even if it's in small ways, but they're always going back to the same environment that's harmful/that is harming them. They're also always going back to the same world, out of that room. Even that room and the other person in it aren't "free" from the influence and impact of the harmful ideas and problems that exist. Maybe the person receiving the help has and are gaining better knowledge and skills on how to deal with things now, but that doesn't erase the very real, large, "minor" issues that are affecting them and everyone and their mental health.

Some struggling, depressed, anxious, and/or miserable kids at schools in some countries may be receiving support and help, but that 'support' and 'help' is not nearly enough. All of them of course don't have "good parents" (not a thing), and they're being raised by those parents who are shaping and affecting them in countless negative ways, even without them knowing it or the kids knowing it. They, for an example of one of the issues here, even if getting "help", are always going back to the same environment (their parents/siblings/family). It's just..almost pointless and useless. Not only that, these kids are also obviously deeply affected by the kind of world, country, society, and system they live in, and the people surrounding them, even if they or the people around them don't realize or recognize that. They have their own complicated issues and problems and struggles, many of which are very personal, too. I don't know why school counselors and teachers or others sort of act as though there is an issue and it can be talked about and "dealt with" somehow, with, I don't know, some social worker, as if everything is not interconnected and the issue is simple with straightforward solutions. I think they don't realize that only so much can be done.

Parents are and always have been, for example, one of the biggest problems. Humans should go extinct anyway because having kids isn't right, but also humans should go extinct because there is literally no solution to..all of this. All these problems. I think it's too complicated. I don't know. There are way too many issues, I don't think people realize just how many there are, and the fact that it's all interconnected in even the smallest of ways.

And a lot of these issues aren't clear, or common enough to be obvious to people and get recognition but they are affecting tons of people, and there are also tons of issues that are "BIG" and common, but they are just not acknowledged and recognized at all, while still harming and affecting us and everything we do and say, in very negative ways. And also, so much, dare I say most of these problems, stem from growing up with very poor parenting (most parenting is very poor parenting) or from not having parents/caregivers, etc. Everyone has many very different stories and pain and struggles and issues. And everyone shares many stories and pain and struggles and issues. This whole 'parenting problem' is never going to be solved world-wide. It's IMPOSSIBLE. It can get better, in some places, but no matter what happens it will never be enough. All parents from the beginning have made major mistakes and done very poorly and it's only been a continuous cycle since then with notable improvements but it's still not nearly enough, and there are terrible, horrible, uncountable problems still with different parents from different countries and many "old" ones haven't vanished. Plus, people shouldn't even have children.

Too many people are too ignorant, willfully ignorant, stupid, immature, selfish, unaware, lacking in critical thinking ability, unempathetic, discompassionate, unwilling to engage in important discussions (privately or publicly), narrow-minded, indoctrinated, influenced in negative ways by countless things (all of us are), unwilling to change, to grow, unwilling to change/alter their views/beliefs/ideas or accept valid arguments, criticism, and evidence, and unwilling to change them even after being presented those things as well as ignorant of said arguments and criticism, too insistent on continuing to follow or believe whatever the majority thinks or believes in, incapable of understanding any complex thought, perspective, insight, or philosophy and unwilling to engage with it or be open to learning about and understanding it or any new and unpopular and "controversial" ideas and views, etc. Oof.

I can't even name every single issue that exists on this planet if I seriously tried to. Everything is so complex, and complicated, most of it seems so unsolvable because of the many factors, the main one being people and the way we are. Also, no one is even obligated to try to 'solve' things, none of us asked to be here. Therapy and counseling and mental health programs and all that can only help you so much, they are not going to "heal" you or help you really "heal", because many of the reasons why you are suffering are because of issues with the world, country, system, and society you live and (are forced to) participate in. They also are literally just helping you participate in and adjust and adapt to a terrible world, society, and system when you shouldn't have to do that at all. That is literally a problem in itself. They can't do anything more, anyway. "There are no individualist solutions to collective issues." What should be done instead? Well..I don't know that. Things could be improved perhaps, but I don't think all of this is "solvable". Humans need to go extinct.

The solution is that humans go extinct.

My guidance counselor talks as though I can get better if I talk to a social worker But I am highly suspicious of that. What does "better" mean here? More ignorant? Being wilfully ignorant of the issues in the world? Somehow not being affected and shaped by the suffering of others and the problems, small, big, core, underlying, deep-rooted problems that exist? Not being insecure anymore about something that is enormously valued and given importance to in this world and society? Being fine with being alive even though it makes ABSOLUTE sense for me to have many struggles and issues with it, especially because of the way this world is and the innumerable issues that exist, and since I obviously didn't choose to be brought into this planet and existence? HOW are they going to help me? I have multiple personal issues that can't be "solved". My issues are all too complicated, too connected to the way the world is (OF COURSE), the way society and social media is, and etc. etc. There is no "solution". I genuinely don't think they can "help" me much except listen to me, validate me, reassure me, understand me (they can try..), comfort me, etc. That is all. The guidance counselor also basically expressed the idea that we all have some bad days, some good days, and when the bad days outnumber the good days, something needs to be done about it (ie: getting support). He makes it sound so simple, like it's an idea being introduced to young children in a cartoon in a palatable, bearable way. Most, MOSTLY and mainly have not-great and bad days their whole lives, they suffer and struggle in life more than being happy or at peace, etc. And there are no simple, straightforward things to do about that. Just talking to a counselor, social worker, or therapist doesn't truly help or solve anything, except for some specific things. It's certain moments, which are temporary, that are good, happy, memorable, etc. and some days that are "good" for the majority, or far too many people. It's much, much more complicated and far deeper than "we all have bad days sometimes"..you can't look at the world and the ways people suffer and the on-going issues, millions of depressed and "mentally ill" people, living horrific or extremely boring, miserable lives as well as the unrecognized and unobvious problems and issues, and say that kind of sentence. (I'm not criticizing/upset with him, just that idea, which is repeated). I just don't get how they can say those things, the way they talk to me, the things they say, it sounds so silly and almost "lovely", so fake and superficial somehow, like they're being said in a children's cartoon, because it's so much more complicated, and for me, in my case, of course my issues are incredibly complicated and basically unsolvable because the larger factors at play are complicated and 'unsolvable'. Most of them are solvable only by death.

What do I do?