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继续饮笑笑,却无能为力。

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"You at war with love"

“Hope the wound heals but it never does That's 'cause you at war with love”

---Guy Sebastian- Battle Scars, ft. Lupe Fiasco

You’ve probably heard this sob story a thousand times by now. But I’m going to have to tell it again.

The first thing I’m going to say is, I love my mom. I’ve loved her for as long as I can remember, grieving for that love, and maybe some part of me always will.

But I’m done making excuses for her. I’m done telling myself that just because she means well, because she might love me too, it’s okay for her to say and do the things she does. I’m done telling myself it’s okay that she sometimes touches my body without my consent with the intent of humiliating me. That it isn’t so bad when she doesn’t allow me to eat as much as I need to the point I go hungry. I’m done, pretending that it doesn’t hurt to hear her call me a “useless piece of junk”. That it’s not stifling at all that I’m not allowed to go outside sometimes, all because she’s afraid the “neighbours will talk”.

My mom is very much in need of psychiatric help, but that’s exactly what she won’t get. I can’t save her, or try to anymore. I have to save myself.

So I’m asking those of you who can give, who have a little to spare, to please help fund my attempt to escape from this prison. I need about MYR 7,000-9,000 more, which is about USD 1,580 to 2,030. I will do my best to make as much of this amount myself as I can, but I don’t know if I can manage it all on my own.

So if you have anything you can spare, please go to my Ko-Fi and donate what you can. Every dollar counts. If you do not have Ko-Fi or cannot give anything, that’s ok; please follow me on TikTok (https://www.tiktok.com/@akirahobbit.draws) or Youtube, so I can eventually reach the subscriber count needed to earn my freedom. Other than that, I would appreciate shares/reblogs on this post as well.

Many thanks if you’ve read this far. I hope to see you all again soon, hopefully when I’m out--- and free.

i was going to do a rant about this before seeing this tweet but imma just leave this here

This goes hand in hand with pushing for only queer people to play queer roles. Which in theory sounds like a good thing to push for authentic representation when so much of the past stuff was bad.

Except the actual real world outcome has become queer leftists abusively dog piling any actor they deem "inauthentic" leading to actors being forcefully outed against their will before they were ready in an attempt to make the abuse stop. Including children. People have been justifying psychologically tormenting literal children for not publicly disclosing (and being firm and set in) their gender and sexuality in order to work.

In many wants it's set back queer media and made people just as afraid of queer roles ruining their careers and their lives as they were when bigots were doing it. Which is not an improvement to the situation! It's really only giving cover to people who want none of this to exist.

We could have just praised the process we wanted to see. Personally I love seeing Jim Parsons take that big normative sitcom money and fucking off to make emotionally powerful queer films with it casting queer actors whenever he can. But praising that will always be more constructive than bullying Kit Connor. If Daniel Craig wants to spend the rest of his career making charming gay detective movies about helping marginalized woman get revenge on abusive rich assholes, then I don't care what his sexuality is because it's still pushing queer media far forward.

We could have positively addressed rainbow capitalism by supporting queer-owed business. We could have accepted that mainstreaming queer iconography at Target (much of it designed by queer people who got to pay their bills making it) would make space for people buying that small batch t-shirt at Pride. It's not like people only ever buy one t-shirt in their life.

A closeted-for-safety trans boy buying his first binder at Target could have created an opening for the next one to be from Shapeshifters. Instead he may never get the chance to know what it would feel feel like to take the first step because the wrong packaging could endanger him and the (fair) price mightbe unaffordable.

We can't built perils into doing better. We can't keep calling nigh-impossible next steps"the bare minimum" and tearing into them for every imperfection if we want people to do them at all. At minimum that's a burnout machine. At worst it gives bigots leverage to maker sure we have nothing. Kindness and enthuses support of what we want to see happen makes way more progress.

Unfortunately many leftists are still so stuck in the purity-sin-redemption mentality, even when they surface-level reject Christianity, that instead of growth and change everything keeps getting treated as blasphemy unless it's perfect. Even though perfection is impossible. So the whole well is primed to be poisoned by the people who genuinely hate us.

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An updated amendment for all active personnel: If you’re going to fraternize with the leader of the Decepticons, make sure to do it while off the clock [and in private].

Credit for the dialogue is by my dear friend @thevioletathena , who made me wheeze with the idea while texting.

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hear me out cake - ff7 edition ✨

a non-jojo fanart on the amoebaebaa blog?? blasphemous. execute this fool at once

clouds hair is my arch enemy WHO GAVE HIM THIS MANY POLYGONS. be real

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Continuing the Apprentice AU megop series after TFP

TFA!Megatron works under Solus Prime! While being a highly skilled craftsman, his talents truly shines at being an entrepreneur. He handles businesses of the Forge. Meg still dabbles in forging and maintaining gadgets/weapons but mainly for himself. However he can never quite say no to a certain enforcer

TFA!Optimus is a model law enforcer- he's strict, committed to ensuring justice and never out of line. To him the law is absolute, and not even a certain little brother figure would receive mercy from him. He and TFP argue about his harshness quite often.

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How I imagine it, Optimus keeps breaking his grappling hook and goes to the maintenance centre so much he developed a crush on the guy working there. It's quite obvious and Megatron thinks it's cute, he's been waiting for the little enforcer to ask him out

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"For them, for all of your pain"

Thinking about all the TFA fanfics where the Decepticons are just war frames discriminated and banished after the serving in war and I got so sad

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Yes, Xeno, just like how you sent your fruity boyfriend to capture your prodigy’s friends. Your prodigy sent his hunk boyfriend to kidnap you.

Poor Xeno was playing 3D chess and this rascal with sentient lettuce hair was playing UNO

I was waiting for this.

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Jason: “Tim is a precious baby who needs to be protected at all costs!”

Dick: “Jay his body count is higher than yours…”

Roy: “Come on that’s not fair. Jason was dead for how long? He was just a late bloomer.”

Dick: 😐 “Kills Roy, how many people have been killed!”

Jason *holding Tim to his chest covering his ears* “Baby...”

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