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CHAPTER THIRTYFIVE.ᐟ ── fuck you /derogatory

SYNOPSIS: you and jay have been at each others throats for the whole time you've been enrolled at decelis university. the reason for the rivalry in question? the #1 rank on the academic leaderboard in the university. you went through your whole high school life being #1 on the academic leaderboard. you meet jay, who also had the same upbringing in high school. things then start to turn into a constant battle. leaving you constantly in second place and jay in first place every rank update.

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a.note; we're getting close to them talking their shit out. but not yet. mama needs to drag this shit out a WEE bit longer :3 also early post (its been a MIN), got scheduled for an 11 am shift... so here we are

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PART 3. FEVER CONFESSION

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pairing: musician!jay x reader (f)  

genre: coming-of-age, new adult, personal growth, sexual tension, fams dynamic, lovehate

wordcount: 15k

nb: jay's cursing words actually he's hello kitty bfr

a/n: SO SORRY I CHANGE THE STYLE. using spacing in paragraphs - after looking at it.. wow it doesn't look good^^ and made my fingers explode

From the moment Yunjin left, Jay made even more of an effort to stay in his room during the day. Aside from your intentionality joining him in the kitchen when you knew he was having his coffee, there was no other interaction.

It went on like that for a few days until the one afternoon that everything changed. You’d just gotten home from an afternoon shift at Yeonjun’s when what sounded like wretched hurling coming from upstairs caught your attention.Without thinking it through, you running up the steps to find Jay keeled over with his face inside the toilet.

“Oh my God, are you throwing up?”

“Nah. I’m giving cunnilingus to the toilet.”

“Did you eat something bad?”

He shook his head before another volcano of puke erupted within him. Looking away, you shut your eyes until he was finished. “Can I get you any?”

“Just go.” He flushed the toilet.

There was something about a person being sick and helpless that made you see the child in them. Despite Jay’s trying to act tough, he seemed virtually helpless in that moment. “Are you sure?”

“Leave.” Another round of vomiting commenced, you reluctantly went back downstairs. You could hear him returning to his bedroom. You stayed downstairs for about an hour. Things were unusually quiet.

On a normal day, he’d be moving around in his room, so you knew he’d either fallen asleep or was lying down. Being the paranoid person that you was, you started to imagine that maybe he’d passed out from dehydration. He hadn’t come down to get a drink of water. Given all that he’d thrown up, that was dangerous.

You sucked it up and marched up the stairs. Lightly knocking on his door, you didn’t bother to wait for him to respond before entering. “Jay?”

He was lying on his side, his head against the pillow, and his eyes were open. He just stared at you blankly, but his eyes seemed glassy.

“Are you okay?”

“No.”

Without seeking permission, you approached and placed your hand on his forehead. It felt hot to the touch. “You’re burning up. We need to take your temperature.”

You run to the bathroom and fished through the medicine cabinet for a thermometer before returning to Jay. “Put this in your mouth.”

He chuckled. “That’s normally my line.”

CHAPTER THIRTYTHREE.ᐟ ── MEN AINT SHIT

SYNOPSIS: you and jay have been at each others throats for the whole time you've been enrolled at decelis university. the reason for the rivalry in question? the #1 rank on the academic leaderboard in the university. you went through your whole high school life being #1 on the academic leaderboard. you meet jay, who also had the same upbringing in high school. things then start to turn into a constant battle. leaving you constantly in second place and jay in first place every rank update.

word count; 1,192

exiting the bathroom you spotted keeho and the others standing by the door. the crowd long gone, only leaving a few stragglers in the venue. taking hold of ningning’s hand, you quickly walked over to them.

“okay i’m ready!” your voice was cheerful—excitement evident in your body.

you weren’t a hundred percent if jay truly did feel the same way as you. but as you recalled everything up until this moment. there was no way he wasn’t. or at least jay might have something for you.

leaving the venue you headed straight for the backstage exit. laughing with your friends distracting yourself from your growing nervousness. before reaching the exit area you stopped everyone.

“okay. to run over the plan. i’m gonna tell jay that jake is taking sunghoon home. so there’s no room for me to fit in the car. i’ll then ask jay for a ride home cause of that. that sounds reasonable right?” you slowly began to overthink your excuse.

“you’ll be fine. i’m sure he won’t even think too much on it.” keeho replied.

“ugh. i’m so nervous!”

“girl. i’m nervous for you!” ningning excitedly clung to your arm.

“just know if he says no. i’m aiming a nuke straight on his forehead.” ningning looked at you seriously, causing you to laugh.

“oh i’m so so loved!” you exclaimed hugging her this time.

chatting a bit more before focusing back on the task, you notice a familiar head of blonde hair. excited to see beomgyu, you ran up to him.

“beomgyu! you guys did so well!”

beomgyu turned around flashing you a big smile. “yn! i’m so glad you got to come. and thank you! it means so much to me!”

“oh before i keep talking. these are my friends! keeho, jake, ningning and sunoo!”

“it’s nice to meet you all!” beomgyu flashed everyone a cheeky smile before focusing on you again.

“uh real quick. do you know where jay is by any chance?”

“hmmm yeah. he should be back stage still. you can enter by the way. don’t worry about getting flagged down, i don’t think the staff will mind.”

“thank you so much! everyone else if inside as well right?”

“yeah they should be.”

you smiled at beomgyu once again, before leaving for the stage entrance. before leaving, the others were quick to reassure you they would be fine. they all wished you luck before you entered the back stage.

walking through the hallway, you were a bit lost. that wasn’t until you bumped into taerae.

“taerae!”

“hey yn!” he happily called out to you.

“i just saw beomgyu outside but again i just wanna say, you guys were awesome!”

“thank you! it was honestly so surreal. so what brings you back here?”

“um. i’m actually looking for jay!”

“ooh i see.” taerae raised an eyebrow at you. his reaction caused your cheeks to heat up. you waved your hand at him denying what he was thinking. even though he was probably right.

“beomgyu said he was back here. but i don’t see him.” you let off a soft pout.

“oh he’s actually at the stage. packing away his oh so precious guitar.”

“thank you taerae! we’ll chat more later okay?” you were quick to bolt off to the stage before taerae could respond. not wanting to waste another second.

once you made it past the curtains, you immediately recognized the light washed jean jacket jay wore. guitar in his hand, while the case was settled behind him on the stage. your cheeks rose as a smile grew on your face.

before you could even make it down the steps, you noticed a girl talking to him. you hesitated for a second as you watched them. she had beautiful ash blonde hair, styled in a way that made her adorable even from far away. for some reason she look familiar, yet you were too focused on the both of them. you couldn’t help but eye the way she smiled at him, to then notice the way he smiled back at her.

your heart ached at the feeling. you were subtly confused on why he was talking so earnestly to another girl. did you misunderstand his actions? you quickly denied your thoughts as a simple overreaction, but then you saw something else. jay handed his phone to her. you felt your heart drop.

you then saw the girl type in her number on his phone. that’s when you fully realized what was going on between them. not wanting to witness another second of it you turned away, immediately bolting down the hall to leave. as you ran you bumped into someone, the person happened to call out your name. yet you drowned out everything, only the scene of jay and that mysterious girl lingered.

luckily jake and the others were still outside—taking the chance to get to know beomgyu. the first person to notice your distress was jake. stopping his conversation, he walked up to you. hands placed on your arms to help you catch your breath.

“what happened. i thought you went to—“

you quickly cut jake off. “i wanna go home” was all you could breathe out. your head hung low as bit back the tears forming. jake watched you, heading turning to the others utterly confused.

“yn what happened—“ this time keeho was the one to speak up.

“can you guys. please. please just take me home…” your voice subtly cracked this time. noticing this, they all said their goodbyes to beomgyu. except for you.

to caught up in your own head to even acknowledge him, all while tears threatened to fall from your eyes. you faintly heard him ask about you. jake replied to him, telling beomgyu you would reach out later. not wanting to stress you out anymore than you looked, beomgyu let you go.

the walk to the car was silent, no one wanting to ask what happened. not in fear of how you reacted earlier, just worried that maybe jay did reject you.

even when you reached your apartment you didn’t say anything. you felt like you got rejected without even trying to tell him. as you excited the car, you weakly waved bye to everyone. before walking away from the car, keeho called out to you.

“yn.. are you okay? what happened?” you looked at keeho, eyes tired as slight tears pricked the corner of your eyes.

“i. i’ll tell you all later. i need a couple hours to myself..”

keeho’s smile held worry in it, scanning your face once more. “just. please reach out to us. we’re all worried…”

“i will.” you tried your best to smile. yet it felt so insincere, maybe it looked insincere too.

turning away from the car you headed up to your apartment. your steps were heavy, as if you were dragging yourself along. finally making it inside you headed straight for your bed. still in your outfit, you crawled into the bed. pulling the comforter over yourself as you curled up.

then slowly the tears began to form. the rest of that night you softly cried to yourself over everything you saw.

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a.note; now before you come at me with pitch forks and shit. just think about how i warned yall. i told yall i was gonna be evil. and i did just that. but dw, it won’t be for long :3

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JAY SERIES

pairing: musician!jay x reader (f)

genre: coming-of-age, new adult, personal growth, sexual tension, fams dymamic

wc e/a ep: ≤33k

a/n: im back, don't know if I can get used to writing again ㅠㅠ it takes time I would like to start it again 𖹭

synopsis: two childhood friends are forced to live together in an inherited house and deal with old feelings that resurface.

not when it's jay, the only person you'd ever loved who now hates you. when your grandma died and left you half of the house on aquidneck island, there was a catch the other half would go to the boy she helped raise.

the same boy who turned into the teenager whose heart you broke years ago. the same teenager who's now a man with a hard body and hardass personality to match.

you hadn't seen him in years, and now you two living together because neither one of you is willing to give up the house. the worst part? he didn't come alone. you'd soon realize there's a thin line between lovehate. you could see through that smug smile. beneath it all, the boy is still there.

chapters: on progress

start: tba

end: tba

CHAPTER TWENTYTWO.ᐟ ── i fear. maybe. maybe he wants you???

SYNOPSIS: you and jay have been at each others throats for the whole time you've been enrolled at decelis university. the reason for the rivalry in question? the #1 rank on the academic leaderboard in the university. you went through your whole high school life being #1 on the academic leaderboard. you meet jay, who also had the same upbringing in high school. things then start to turn into a constant battle. leaving you constantly in second place and jay in first place every rank update.

word count; 651

my head suddenly jolted up at the jingle of the cafe door opening. i immediately recognized the familiar burgundy hair that heeseung had. despite feeling calm seconds before. my heart was once again thumping in my chest.

the aching pain that followed alongside my heart beating rapidly in my chest felt unbearable. but all that mattered was me finally here patching up things with heeseung.

“hey…!” i couldn’t help but greet heeseung awkwardly. it had been two and a half weeks since we last spoke. the only natural way i could act was in total awkwardness.

“hey yn. how have you been?” heeseung greeted back. he let off a soft smile as he pulled the chair out to sit in front of me.

“i’ve been good. could be better?” i looked away from heeseung as i let out a meek laugh.

“uh… what about you?” now i was the one to ask heeseung the same thing.

“i’ve been good as well. happy that we finally get to patch things up though if i’m gonna be honest. did you order anything yet?”

i shook my head no at his question. “i have some plans after so i didn’t think of ordering anything…” the air fell into silence as i replied to him. after what felt like forever but was mere seconds, i broke the silence.

“heeseung i’m sorry. i shouldn’t have acted the way i did. i’m sorry for running away from everything instead of confronting you and having a genuine conversation with you. most importantly i’m sorry i hurt you… i understand if you want me out of your sight for a while…” my voice broke the silence as my head hung low. my leg bounced as the creeping anxiety stirred again, while my eyes were fixed on the table.

“it’s okay yn. i get it. the situation was bizarre and out of left field. but come on yn lift up your head. i will admit i was hurt like you said. but i wouldn’t let this situation create a rift into our friendship. even though our situation is that of now cousins i still wanna hold a friendship with you.”

my head lifted up at his words. the anxiety that formed began to clear away at heeseung’s words. despite my actions he still held out a hand for our friendship.

“of course i’d still like to be friends.” the corners of my lips turned into a smile.

“i’m glad! and truthfully speaking. i was just as embarrassed as you were. who knew my mom’s boyfriend was your uncle.”

my hands covered my face as i recalled the events of everything. heeseung was just as embarrassed yet i had acted like a total asshole to him.

“god. knowing how you feel makes me feel even more shitty. please let me make it up to you! i’ll treat you to lunch, dinner. you name it!”

“i’ll take you up on your offer for lunch then. we can arrange it sometime in the future?”

before heeseung and i could continue one with small talk his phone rang. heeseung pulled his phone out from his pocket to look at it.

“oh i gotta get going now. gotta go figure some stuff out from a past meeting we had. i’m really happy we got to settle this out yn.” heeseung’s smile looked more happy this time.

“me too!” i couldn’t help but return a happy smile back to him.

“now that we’ve fixed this i better see you at the next meeting! i’ll text you later about that lunch though okay?” heeseung then packed his things getting ready to leave.

i waved goodbye to heeseung as he exited the cafe. exhaling a satisfied sigh i leaned back in my chair. finally the conflict between heeseung and i was resolved. once sitting back up, i fished in my purse to find my phone and text jay.

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a.note; finally hee and yn can be normal and be friends again. life is so good. now i focus on building the enemies to friends to lovers pipe line :3 also sorry if the writing portion wasn't up to par. my brain was not working with me this time around :(

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CHAPTER TWENTY.ᐟ ── yeah i'm goated ik

SYNOPSIS: you and jay have been at each others throats for the whole time you've been enrolled at decelis university. the reason for the rivalry in question? the #1 rank on the academic leaderboard in the university. you went through your whole high school life being #1 on the academic leaderboard. you meet jay, who also had the same upbringing in high school. things then start to turn into a constant battle. leaving you constantly in second place and jay in first place every rank update.

word count; 2,471

“god what a mess…” leaning against the rough wall of the house i let out a stressed sigh.

being here at youngji’s party was a way for me to not think about addressing the conversation heeseung and i should have. but here i was once again avoiding him and the whole situation. my fingers comb through my hair as i frantically think about what to do now. keeho was right i shouldn’t have avoided the inevitable conversation for this long… why didn’t i just do the right thing and talk to heeseung right away. if i did i would have been able to enjoy this party. instead of being outside hiding from him… mentally beating myself up i was unaware of the sound of approaching footsteps.

“hey.”

my body jumped at the sudden deep voice. as well as a small yelp coming out from my mouth at the shock. my thoughts began to run about fearing that the person standing next to me could be heeseung. sooner or later i was gonna have to face the problem, but i didn’t think it would be while i frantically thought about it. slowly turning my head to the unknown person, a sigh of relief left my lips.

it was jay.

“god you fucking scared me.”

“sorry that’s my fault.”

“what do you want jay…” the tone i had towards him sounded cold. i softly bit my lip at the realization of the way i sounded

“i saw you out here all by yourself and wanted to check on you.” jay’s tone sounded unsure and regretful. in many ways it made me feel guilty for how i spoke to him. before i could say something else jay spoke up again.

“truthfully i’ve been worried about you… you haven’t been at the council meetings for a week. you’ve never missed a week worth of meetings before…” his voice trailed off as he realized he started to speak too much on the matter.

my eyes scanned him in confusion. jay had been a jackass for all i could remember. but lately he had been acting weird. sending me texts messages and then now showing concern for me.

“well truthfully to me why does it bother you?” i crossed my arms while raising my eyebrow at him.

i noticed jay letting a deep sigh out as he readied himself for what he wanted to say.

“look. yn. i know we’re not on good terms. i don’t blame you for being avoidant towards me. first i wasn’t nice about the ranking to begin with. second i created a meaningless competition between us when in reality i should’ve been way nicer from the start. not just with the rank but with you as well…”

my body froze in place as i listened to jay word vomit an apology towards me. out of everything that’s happened within the last two weeks. jay apologizing had to be the last thing that would go down these past two weeks. funny enough i listened attentively to his words.

“i’ve been a jackass from day one and i just really regret it. especially after i saw the way jake talked about how serious you take the rank. it made me reflect a lot on how i treated you and how i acted in council meetings as well. i’m really sorry yn truly…” jay’s head hung low as he stopped talking. i could tell he was worried about how i would react to his apology.

out of everything i had to hand it to jay. apologizing face to face takes a lot of courage. even though the action was small it made me find a new respect for jay. which was ironic compared to me not facing heeseung at all. i let the silence simmer a bit more before i eventually said something.

“thank you for the apology. honestly i’m a bit shocked. didn’t expect an apology from park jay at a lee youngji party.” i stifle out a small laugh as i remember where we are. jay laughed nervously as he too realized how bizarre the scenario was.

looking over to notice the way jay rubs his neck nervously had me smiling. in that short moment i couldn’t help but think jay was being cute. shocked at my own thoughts i mentally swat my thoughts away ignoring it entirely.

“does that mean we can be friends?”

my eyes met jay’s as he asked the question. his expression was so different then the one he usually had. it was more of a cat giving cute eyes versus the sharp look he always has. deep down i knew jay was genuinely serious.

“yes we can. but it’s gonna take me a bit to get used to this okay?”

jay shook his head happily hearing me agree to being his friend. seeing how much it made him happy made me smile once again at him. i noticed the way jay looked off into the distance noticing something or perhaps someone.

“oh i see heeseung do you want me to get him?” jay suddenly pointed to the end of the house. focusing my eyes on the figure at the end it was indeed heeseung.

“no don’t!” my voice was a bit loud as i answered jay in a bit of a panic. my hands were placed in his viewpoint as i waved no to him.

jay dropped his arm to look at me confused. my mind raced as i tried to find an excuse without truly letting jay know the real reason.

“i thought you guys were a thing?”

“uh it’s complicated right now…”

“do you wanna talk about it?” jay’s voice was filled with genuine concern as he noticed my mood drop.

a debate went off in my head at jay asking if i wanted to talk about it. i would love to talk about it. but i was unsure of telling jay about what exactly happened. but what else could i say to give the excuse of the quote on quote complication between me and heeseung. this was also something i didn’t want jake sharing with sohee, seunghan and sunghoon. but maybe. if jay was serious about being my friend i can test his trust with the truth behind everything. it was a lot to bet on, but part of me knew i needed to at least give jay some benefit of the doubt that he was serious about his apology and wanting to make amends.

“if i tell you. you have to promise not to tell anyone. i’m trusting you with this jay…”

“of course..” his voice was more serious. it made me feel better about telling jay and trusting him.

“i don’t wanna say it here though. can we go for a bit of a walk?”

jay nods his head in agreement and turns to start walking down the drive way. following close behind i quickly catch up to the side of him. as we walk a bit down the sidewalk in silence i finally speak up.

“okay… so the reason why it’s complicated between me and heeseung is because my uncle and his mom are getting married…” my pace slowed as i mustered out the sentence. jay matched my pace quickly. the air was silent as he processed the information.

“so that’s why you’ve been missing the meetings. you’re avoiding heeseung because of the fact you found out you were romantically into your soon to be cousin.”

i let out a groan of embarrassment as i relive the memories of what had happened two weeks ago.

“god i can’t believe i told you. you can laugh if you want.” my hands covered my face. stopping in my tracks i stand there as i wait for any kind of laugh to escape jay’s lips. i couldn’t help but once again mentally beat myself up.

“what’s there to laugh about? i’m sure you were really embarrassed… have you tried talking to him yet?”

my eyes widened at the way jay didn’t stifle out a teasing laugh or make jabs at the situation. not to mention he was spot on with how i had felt. it made me feel a bit happy to know that i wasn’t truly crazy for feeling the way i did.

“uh no…. i havent.”

“you should really try talking to him yn.. im not the best of friends with heeseung per say. but i’m sure he wants to figure it out with you. i’m positive he won’t have any ill intent about it. besides. maybe he’s embarrassed too. since the situation does go both ways…”

“fuck you’re right, why didn’t i stop to think how he felt too. i’m such an asshole oh my god… heeseung is a sweet guy he doesn’t deserve how i acted. i’ve just been too afraid to face it. but the more i ignore the situation the more im gonna hurt him too... who knew talking to you about this would make me feel better?”

“don’t know. must be a secret talent i have.”

“yeah okay.” i laugh as i roll my eyes at jay’s response.

“hey. since you told me that. i’ll share a secret with you too.”

“what is it?” my curiosity was peeked leaving no hesitation for me to ask about it right away.

“well first i can’t really say it. i’ve gotta show it to you.”

“you’re not gonna take me anywhere weird are you? keeho told me to be careful of weirdos.”

“first of all ouch. can’t believe you think i’m a weirdo now.”

“well if the shoe fits park jay.”

“second, you just gotta trust me on it okay?”

“fine. but the minute it is something weird i’m telling jake.”

jay had told me we would have to turn around and head back to the house and take his car. i was still standoffish but jay swore it was because where he wanted to take me wasn’t within walking distance. as we got back we bolted down the sidewalk in front of youngji’s house to get to the car. hoping to not be possibly spotted by heeseung. once settled inside the car i turned to jay to ask him something.

“if you took your car here. how are sunghoon and the other two gonna get home?”

jay started up the car as he laughed at my question.

“eh they’ll figure it out.”

the drive was silent but short. it was a nice type of silence, not too awkward but also comfortable enough to enjoy. jay ended up parking the car infront of a studio apartment complex.

“where are we?” getting out of the car i looked around the area. it was an unfamiliar neighborhood but i could tell by the street names it was close by the university.

“just wait yn. you’re not the patient type are you?”

“okay let’s calm down.”

escorting me into the lobby we headed straight to the elevator. once on the correct floor jay stepped out first ushering me to follow behind him. he stopped at one of the doors and pulled out a pair of keys.

“i’m pretty sure some of them are home.”

“who?”

jay didn’t answer my question as he continued to unlock the door. once entering i immediately noticed the drum set as well as a keyboard, two guitars, and bass settled up in the living room. taking off my shoes i walk over slowly to eye the instruments. unaware of anything else around me i nearly screamed at a unfamiliar voice breaking the silence in the air.

“jay? i thought you were busy tonight? and who is this?”

heart thumping in my chest i turn my head shakily to see a man with ash blonde hair sitting on the couch. he looked to be around my age as well. then i noticed the three other people sitting on the couch.

“ooooooh jay brought a girl over.” this time a man with longer black hair spoke up. his voice came off teasing to poke fun at jay.

“kai it’s not like that.” jay sighed out as he placed his jacket on the kitchen counter.

“so then who is she?” someone else spoke up this time. he also had black hair like the one named kai. but his hair was more shorter along with a very noticeable mole under his eye.

“she’s a friend from university.”

“never thought we’d see the day of jay introducing us to his friend from college!” the blonde haired guy sounded joyful but also held a teasing tone as well.

still confused on who these random people were. i tug onto jay’s arm having him look down at me. my eyes said it all to him. i wanted jay to explain to me what was going on. clearing his throat he spoke up.

“yn. i want to introduce you to my band mates.”

“band mates?!” my voice came out shocked and confused. i had zero recollection of jay being apart of a band.

“yeah. the one that scared you earlier is beomgyu. heuningkai is the one with the longer black hair. the other black haired guy is taerae. and then you have taerae’s little brother yujin.”

i took note of everyone’s appearances and names to remember. didn’t wanna make another embarrassing memory for myself by forgetting their names.

“it’s nice to meet you guys i’m yn.”

“it’s nice to meet you to! also yn you can call me hyuka!” heuningkai beamed as he rushed to stand infront of me and shake my hand enthusiastically.

“but jay i didn’t know you were in a band. i’ve never heard jake or the others mention it.” i leaned over to jay as i asked about the new learned information.

“yeah this is more of a on the side hobby thing.”

“we’re his side pieces he’s ashamed of.” the person who was named taerae pretended to wipe tears away from his eyes as he faked having his feelings hurt. jay let out a chuckle and rolled his eyes at taerae’s playful demeanor.

“so they don’t know then?”

“no not really. i don’t know why i never disclosed it to them. maybe having a secret band made it more fun in a way?” jay laughed a little as he finished his sentence.

“so since you told me your secret. here’s me showing you mine.”

i looked at him a little shocked that he would be so open with sharing this type of secret let alone information with me. he really was serious about making amends between us then. in some way it also made me happy that i was the only person in his life at college that knew about it.

“so what’s the band called?” my eyes gleamed with curiosity as i waited for jay’s reply.

“the band is called toenze.”

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a.note; okay was a bit iffy on this development of the story. but honestly adding toenze is a nice touch. erm i still need to figure out how to implement them a bit in the future so if you're wondering why i haven't updated the mlist chapters that is why. i was in a slump. but i am pushing the story out cause i wanna still stick to the schedule i have and stuff. but enough yapping hope y'all liked this chapter :3

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©myjjongie 2024

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN.ᐟ ── i live in a world

SYNOPSIS: you and jay have been at each others throats for the whole time you've been enrolled at decelis university. the reason for the rivalry in question? the #1 rank on the academic leaderboard in the university. you went through your whole high school life being #1 on the academic leaderboard. you meet jay, who also had the same upbringing in high school. things then start to turn into a constant battle. leaving you constantly in second place and jay in first place every rank update.

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a.note; hehehehehe party chapter time :3 saw someone say "lee youngji is like jackson wang in those fanfics cause he's always throwing parties, since she's everywhere right now" and i used that and ran with it istg. plus she's an 02 liner as well which makes it so much more perfect for the plot of the party plot

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R.E.M 🌙

jay x f!reader ,, smau

࣪𖤐.ᐟ GENRE: influencer jay x influencer reader, smau. WARNINGS: swearing, harmful jokes

❗️this in no way, shape or form represents any of the individuals mentioned, their faces are used for the sake of storytelling❗️

࣪𖤐.ᐟ FEATURING; all of enhypen, natty (kiss of life), kai (txt), side characters: jiung (p1h), sophia (katseye) and bahiyyih (kep1er)

STATUS: ongoing

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

࣪𖤐.ᐟ PROFILES: yn’s angels // jay’s clowns

CHAPTERS:

01 | operation: dream guy

02 | fight ur fears

03 | dream guest on my youtube channel (written)

04 |

a/n: this is my apology for being away for so long 😿😿 hope you enjoy!!!

HIT TWEET !

eight. he can NOT handle allat

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NO DOUBT、I LOVE YOU! — ENHYPEN MEMBERS TELLING YOU THAT YOU’RE THE ONE!

LEE HEESEUNG

The unfamiliar feeling of deep green envy bubbles up your chest and straight into your heart as you stare at your boyfriend — who’s familiar lean figure is nestled between Jay and another girl you’ve yet to get to know. And yet here you are by yourself, swept in coldness by the absence of your boyfriend by your side.

It was the first time you and Heeseung had argued since you got together five months ago — a rather long honeymoon phase. Your teeth gnaw fervently on your lips in slight panic, eyes glued on your boyfriend’s figure, overall too consumed with jealousy to notice his lack of comfort.

Even though Heeseung sits squished between two people, the lack of you makes his heart feel cold. And he notices the way your tongue sweeps over your lips, eyes darting away every time your gaze catches his. It’s too cute the way you’re obviously jealous.

fast forward - pjs

pairing. jay x fem!reader

synopsis. After yet another romantic disappointment in the form of one Jake Sim, you go to the well you’ve always believed to grant wishes and ask for your one and true love to appear. That night, you go to sleep in your bed but wake up in a strange house. When you head downstairs, you find a man washing the dishes and telling you your favorite meal is waiting on the table for you. You’ve spent hours glaring at the back of that head, you could recognize it anywhere—it belongs to none other than Park Jongseong, your high school sworn enemy... and future husband, or so it seems.

genre+warnings. high school au, the type of e2l where they never really hated each other to begin with, they act like they're academic rivals even though they're not particularly academically gifted, jay has a thing about german the language, sunoo and kazuha besties, heeseung is a loser, jake and sunghoon are assholes sorry, ive liz is german, 02z get into a white-boy locker-room fight, attempts at banter etc, they're a little bit silly

word count. 26.6k

a/n. had the idea for this listening to fast forward by somi LAST SUMMER... and only wrote it this summer and only posting it now <3 i hope u guys enjoy reading this as much as i enjoyed writing it !!!!! jay is an absolute cutie here pls love him as much as i do.... as always let me know what u think and remember to vote for @zreamy president in the upcoming elections, shes the only one i trust to beta-read and hence to run a country <3 no it doesnt matter that shes scottish put this woman in the white house

alone together ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 . . . location

── taking comfort in the thought that you are together in aloneness through late night talks, heartfelt confessions, and a genuine connection. with your shared experience of recent heartbreaks, you wonder if getting together would be all worth it. in which you find solace in each other's company, that you are alone together.

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꩜ notes .ᐟ um hai..... its been a hot minute and this has been sitting in the vault for a min ! i miss updating this fic so here's an update...... that being said written chapt next..

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THAT FEELING WHEN / ’she looks perfect’

one thing heeseung loved to do was watch his pretty girlfriend sit in front of her huge mirror while getting ready. loving the way you’d apply lip gloss on your lips knowing he’d kiss it all away in a minute anyway.

it was always one of those moments when he’d get to admire you as much as he’d like, his eyes chasing after every detail of your face in fear he’d forget about it if he didn’t.

“seung, can you pass me my bag?” you ask, unaware of the way his eyes glazed over, doe-eyed. “‘seung?”

“yeah?” he said, absentmindedly. you turn to him with a pout and only then did he snap out.

“my bag—“

“do you know how perfect you look right now?” your eyes flickered to his, “you look perfect all the time— how do you always look this pretty?”

LUCIFER (2024) — ENHYPEN

FIXED COMFORT | SUNGHOON

“Hey, do you think you could come get Sunghoon from the bar? He’s been asking for you for the past hour.”  

Jay’s phone call pulls you out from a deep slumber on a Saturday night that falls on a day with no plans other than pure relaxation. Sunghoon had been preoccupied with work and classes this past week and wanted to unwind by drinking at his favorite bar with his closest friends and all you wanted to do was sleep the weekend away. 

Since the two of you started dating six months ago after being friends for a little over two years, you both agree on the notion that you’ve found a good balance between time spent together and apart respectively. Nothing fundamentally changed with the exception of kissing and touching one another in the way a couple would. He still respects your independence and you respect his time away from you as well. 

Sunghoon learned quickly that you’re the type of person who values your alone time more than anything else. When he first started developing feelings for you, grappling with your absence wasn’t easy. He initially thought you weren’t interested in getting to know him the way he was with you because you weren’t afraid to decline invitations and telling people ‘no.’ Slowly, over the course of many months of pining and late night conversations, did Sunghoon learn that you’re typically your best self after a moment of isolation. 

Your boyfriend is somewhere in between an introvert and extrovert. He tends to be shy when he meets people he isn’t familiar with while his loud, rambunctious attitude is typically reserved for those who know him best. He likes to keep to himself for the most part, giving some of his personality away when he feels his walls start to crumble naturally. You love that he has a good head on his shoulders and that he’s able to tell you about his feelings while maintaining an air of confidence. He doesn’t inherently need anybody; he likes your company and will do anything to keep it.

Moments like this are when your heart feels softer for Sunghoon than when the two of you were just friends.