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Im yours, but you're not mine

Azriel x Archeron!reader

Warnings: Angst, fluff

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Sitting down at the table, Y/n watched all the happy couples in her family partner off.

Rhysand was running his fingers through Feyre's hair while little Nyx babbled happily in her lap, Nesta and Cassian held each others hands under the table, Amren was quite literally on top of Varian and Mor and Emerie were sat gossiping and drinking wine.

Y/n turned her gaze to her twin sister, Elain. Who had, not only one, but two males trying to get her attention. Her mate, Lucien whom she had recently been trying to get along with more was sat to her left smiling as she spoke.

On her right however, sat the shadow singer, Azriel. Someone Y/n had been practically infatuated with since she arrived in Velaris, yet, he payed her little mind, opting to speak to her sister instead.

Azriel sat listening intently to Elain, adding little comments here and there and paying no mind to anyone else whatsoever.

It struck Y/n suddenly, like a stab to her heart, she was alone.

The only one out of her sisters to not have a mate.

Alone.

The word hung in her mind like itch she couldn't reach, and she felt tears well up in her eyes.

Attempting to push them back down Y/n sucked in a breath and Nesta turned to her looking concerned. She raised a perfectly groomed eyebrow as if to say 'are you alright?'

Y/n meekly swallowed and stood up "I- I'm just going- i'm just going to go to the bathroom"

she quickly walked into the bathroom where she began to sob.

"Y/n? Y/n are you alright?" Elain's voice traveled past the door.

"Yes Elain im okay-"

"Please let me in, I know you aren't"

Y/n reluctantly opened the door revealing her sobbing form.

"Oh Y/n... what happened!" Elain cooed pulling her twin into a hug

"N-nothing I just- I- I was looking at all of you, happily coupled and- I just- I started to feel lonely..."

Elain's face morphs into an empathetic frown as she strokes my hair.

"it's so silly- but- I cant help being jealous of you. W-why d-does nobody want me?" Y/n said quietly, her voice cracking.

Elain abruptly groaned loudly "Honestly why is it always me sorting out relationship issues!"

Y/n's brows furrow, hurt by her sudden discontentment "w-what"

"no! no I didn't mean it like that I meant- wait here"

Elain gets up quickly and leaves.

Y/n sits on the floor of the bathroom wiping her eyes as Elain comes back.

"Here." Elain then shoved Azriel in front of Y/n

"Im so done with your guys' bullshit please just speak and leave me alone." she walked away muttering to herself.

"Azriel?" Y/n questions, confused.

He shuffled from side to side, nervous and completely out of character.

"Y/n... I need to tell you something, can we go- outside?"

Y/n nodded getting up off the floor and following him outside.

"Azriel... what's happening- I-"

"Y/n you're my mate." Azriel blurted out.

"w-what? but- but I thought you and- you and-" Y/n stumbled over her words completely overwhelmed.

"Me and Elain? absolutely not, she and Lucien are serious now- she was just helping me with- well- letting me talk at her about you really..."

Y/n let out a shaky breath "Are- are you pranking me?"

Azriel's brows furrowed "No! gods no y/n not at all!"

he moved to encircle her into a hug "I'm yours if you'll have me sweetheart."

"Ive- ive liked you ever since I first saw you Azriel- I just- I thought you wanted Elain."

"Oh love" he sighed kissing her hair. "I want you- all I want is you- day in day out, I talk Elain's ear off."

Y/n smiled tearily up at him.

"There's that pretty smile hmm?" he cooed looking down at the girl.

"can I- can I kiss you?" Y/n murmured.

"You don't even have to ask" Azriel whispered.

Suddenly, their lips attached in rhythmic perfection, holding each other close.

a chorus of whoops and cheers are heard from inside and the pair start laughing into the kiss.

"mate." Azriel murmured into Y/n's soft lips.

"mate." She replied.

Maybe she wasn't so alone after all.

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my requests are always open!!

Hello.

HELLO I AM STILL ALIVE AND WELL!! i was wondering if anyone would be interested in me writing Throne of glass fics?? im going to start KOA soon and to say iā€™m obsessed is an understatement. Iā€™ve been MIA for way too long and iā€™m so sorry itā€™s just so much has happened so hopefully iā€™ll be back writing soon!! Also feel free to send any requests through!!

Azriel Appreciation Week: Belonging

Rhys said to Azriel, "If I had not met a shadowsinger, I would not have known that it is the family you make, not the one you are born into, that matters. I would not have known what it is to truly hope, even when the world tells you to despair.ā€ -ACOWAR Chapter 69

For this piece, we really wanted to capture a young Azriel finally finding a place where he belongs. A mother figure to love him as her own, brothers who tease him lovingly not cruelly, a family he chose for himself, and a place to call home. One of the sweetest parts of this piece is the quiet joy and tenderness in Azriel's expression as he looks on his found family.

We can not thank aurithemoon enough for bringing this piece to life for us. She captured everything that we were envisioning in a way only she can. It is such a pleasure and honor to work with someone so talented, so accomplished, and so kind šŸ’™

šŸ¦‡ Art by aurithemoon on instagram

šŸ¦‡ Commissioned by @emilyondemand @elainsvisions @theseersgarden and myself

šŸ¦‡ Characters belong to Sarah J. Maas

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sorry im late but day 2, fox for @lucienweekofficial šŸ‘€šŸ¤²

this is the lucienā€“ lucien capital R Rake ā€¼ļøā€¼ļø that everybody and their mothers be talkin abt

and and here is the no mask ver šŸ˜³šŸ¤²..

is it getting hot here or..

The Sun Shines Through

Lucien Vanserra x fem!reader

Reader and Lucien are mates, this takes place after Lucien finds out Helion is his father.

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Lucien Vanserra had never truly fit in. As a child, his father was neglectful and cold and his mother, no matter how hard she tried, could not possibly care for all of her sons and give them all the love and attention they so desperately needed and therefore Lucien was often left to his own devices.

When he was exiled, and Jesminda killed, he felt lost. Like he was floating around, unable to find somewhere he felt settled.

When he met y/n however, this changed.

He met his mate in the spring court, much to Tamlin's dismay. The two quickly accepted the bond and swore to each other they would only ever face the world together.

This is how the pair found themselves somehow working side by side with the night courts inner circle and ultimately discovering that Helion, high lord of the day court, was Lucien's father.

Months had passed since Lucien found out his true beginnings.

In these months, Lucien and his mate, Y/n, had moved in with Helion who had been somewhat overly accommodating, arguing that he needed to make up for all of the years he missed with his son.

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Sun glimmered through the white cotton of the curtains in Lucien and Y/n's bedroom, causing the redhead to stir, rubbing at his eyes or... eye for that matter.

Lucien turned to face y/n, finding himself smiling at her relaxed features. Even all these years after accepting the bond, Lucien still felt his heart thrum at the sight of his mate, not quite believing she is real.

"I can feel you staring, creep." She mumbled into the pillow. An eye opening in faux annoyance.

"Oh shut up and let me admire my mate." He sassed as she huffed into the pillow dramatically.

It took a few minutes for Y/n to open her eyes fully. She gazed at her mate before he pulled her onto his chest and began to trace constellations on her back.

"We should probably get up." Lucien sighed.

"Yeah but... I don't want to." Y/n replied, tilting her chin to look up at the male who just chuckled.

"Helion will come in demanding our presence in a minute." He laughed as she groaned.

"Your dad is just as annoying as you sometimes."

"Yeah but I'm way more attractive." Lucien responded, running a hand through her hair.

"Hmm no, Helion is definitely a DILF."

"WHAT?" Lucien pushed her off him grumbling. "That's not a very nice thing to say."

Y/n began laughing at the dumbfounded look Lucien had plastered across his face.

"oh Luc I'm just-"

A knock sounded at the door.

"Wakey wakey! a new day is upon us!" Helion's voice echoed from the hallway.

The pair groaned in unison, but began to very reluctantly get out of bed.

Y/n swung the bathroom door open as Lucien buttoned up his shirt, gazing at her pinning her hair up in elaborate day court fashion.

"You're staring again Luc." She spoke a few minutes later.

"Sorry sweetheart." He smiled. "You're just too beautiful."

She walked over to him, sitting on his lap, bringing her lips to his.

"I love you."

Maybe Lucien had finally found somewhere he fit in.

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a/n: IM NOT DEAD. guys i'm so in love with Lucien its painful.

Queen of Shadows -> spoilers!!! Fair warning!!!!

*sighs*

  • like what the actual fuck you guys
  • i finished QOS a couple days ago and i am still processing.
  • i worship the ground SJM walks on from this point on
  • THAT WOMAN IS BRILLIANT; her storytelling, though extremely aggravating is, perhaps, something from the gods
  • the point where (almost) every character's POV meet up in one spot (manon, dorian - demon dorian OMG, aelin, chaol, rowan) holy fuck brain melting
  • i loveeedddddd that scene with the witches and the king

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OKAY OKAY OKAY

Manon āœ‚ļøŽšŸ•·šŸ§Ø

  • okay first of all i am heterosexual until manon blackbeak is mentioned
  • because holy fuck
  • SHE IS SO --
  • idek i dont have words
  • and of course of COURSE manon saying dorian's name is gonna be enough to keep him holding on, OF COURSE
  • i love them
  • i hope they're mates
  • THE WAY SHE WENT BACK
  • THE WAY HE WAVED AS IF THE LAST TIME HE SAW HER SHE DIDNT BASICALLY BRING HIM BACK TO LIFE OKAY
  • god
  • i am so passionate about manorian already
  • love, love, love, love
  • and cant wait to see what she does with the 13
  • AND JESUS THE FIGHT SCENE WITH AELIN!!! that feels really really important
  • and her + asterin
  • omg nothing better fucking happen to asterin. i. will. lose. it.
  • POOR ASTERIN
  • PROTECT HER FOREVER
  • i hate the witch queen grandma freak ong

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Aelin + Rowan šŸ§øšŸ’›šŸ†

  • okay first of all, sjm let these dudes FUCK jesus christ
  • they're so horny LMAOOO
  • i love it, too
  • mates mates mates mates mates
  • i can feel it in my bones
  • and no i cant explain it, maybe rowan is just a lucky fucker who has 2 mates, maybe maeve has something to do with it IDK
  • but mates? yes
  • why? when dorian stabbed her (OW MY HEART @ THAT SCENE) rowan screamed in feeling it
  • kismet
  • i love them
  • i also have an extremely hard time envisioning a "metallic gold, skin-tight, night gown?" but whatever floats your boat rowan LOL
  • nonetheless, i loved that scene. ate it up. cleaned the plate. left no crumbs.
  • i really really just am absolutely whipped for how intensely rowan like pretty clearly loves aelin
  • she has so many males p whipped and im envious but also, i get it. i understand.
what else do i have to say????????

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OH FUCK-

DORIAN ā„ļøšŸ’™āš”ļø

  • i was so relieved to see him unscathed
  • and how again think brain think how did he get free
  • OHHH THE RING
  • omg aelin is so damn smart - she was SO clever throughout this entire book
  • i did NOT see that coming, and actually SJM did a great job, once again, of totally switching gears towards the end of the book.
  • i predicted nothing and was FLYING through the last hundred pages
  • i am obsessed
  • cant wait to see him become the KING he was meant to be
  • ... do not know what to think about the king of adarlan (the now dead one)
  • tho i am glad they kinda pivoted focus on the villain because i was not understanding how the plot was gonna extend for another 3 books
  • that being said i am not fucking excited to read tower of dawn

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other honorable mentions!!!!

  • ps: i am literally at work writing this LOL
  • boss makes a dollar while i make a dime... im going on tumblr on company time HAHAHAH
  • elide -> i like her but also she was kinda annoying in morath and her constantly trying to escape, like obvi stay with the wing leader-- BUT i am excited that she is the daughter of marion (?? is that her name im having amnesia rn) and to see how her storyline will tie with aelin's as she seeks out for aedion + the gang
  • chaol -> lol why does he have an entire book? i would much rather have a book on rowan.!!!!! hence my procrastination with Tower of Dawn but whatever i'll read itttttttt. also (TOD spoiler i guess) i feel like i've seen yrene + chaol fanart which im like???? what about nesryn????
  • lysandra -> can i just SAY: i am so thrilled that i read assassin's blade before queen of shadows!!!! It makes me appreciate and love her story so much more. god i LOVE HER. im so glad aelin made her a part of her court. and she's so badass. i want to be a shapeshifter - you would never see me again (:
  • sad to see that ress + brullo did end up dying, but i can see it was inevitable? i guess? the king's way of punishing
  • i love aedion always and forever but as of now my brain has nothing to say for him besides he is the cutest thing for protecting rowan in the sewers ++++ wearing the dagger rowan gifted him in thanks constantly, i hope him + lysandra develop something but i might be alone in that boat
  • also, lol, him finding out about the blood oath
  • i felt bad
  • but aelin's solution "the more the merrier" LMAO

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anyways

i love this series

it was a very slow start

and AGAIN, i am really procrastinating reading Tower of Dawn but i've heard it's worth it for a handful of reasons

tbh, i've already decided that my first re-read- ima just skip to HOF because how the fuck do we only meet rowan in the third/fourth book depending on how you read

wont lie on the slight panic i feel nearing the latter half of this series, but i will persist

cant wait to do aelin collages i see her most vibrantly amongst everyone, well her and manon

and rowan

because HOLY FUCK DO I LOVE ROWAN

he is my second sjm husband, rhy remains #1 (for now LOL)

okay im done i need to go back to work i suppose (BOOOO)

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