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@spontaneousnirvana / spontaneousnirvana.tumblr.com

Grant; mid-30s, cis, he/him, woke California progressive. Blog is 18+. Why am I here?
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Reblogged thetouchof118
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sometimes its just like *street lights reflecting off the wet asphalt at night* maybe life isnt so ugly after all

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#photography#cityscape#one of many reasons i enjoy early morning and late night drives by myself with some good music.#sometimes the lights of the city against a sunrise / sunset / night sky can make everything seem okay for a little bit.#even more magical when driving by the beach at night and seeing a slight outline of the water with the city lights in the distance.
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I've thought a lot about how I would develop and execute Buck and Tommy's eventual reconciliation throughout the rest of the season. It's surprisingly different from what I initially wanted, which was definitely an 8×15 makeup — which I would still very much love, don't get me wrong. This isn't a prediction, to be clear — as I highly doubt we'll actually get anything like this — it's simply what I would personally like to see, as a viewer and BuckTommy fan.

8×15:

While Buck and Tommy reunite and work together, they do not reconcile.

Buck is too distraught over Bobby. Tommy doesn't feel that it would be right to even focus on their relationship at a time like this, and Buck agrees. They hug, Tommy clearly wants to kiss Buck, but it doesn't happen.

"See you at the ceremony, Evan. And... I'm very sorry we couldn't save everyone."

"Yeah. Yeah, me too."

"Bye, Evan."

"Hey, Tommy?"

"Yeah?"

“Thank you. For being there. For trying.”

"Of course. Anytime, anywhere."

When Tommy is far enough away, Buck smiles through sad (for Bobby) and touched tears (for Tommy). "Yeah, I see that."

8×16

Maddie demands that Buck visit for dinner after the ceremony. "You're hurting, and I'm not letting you do that alone. You're coming over. And bring a bag, because you're staying over."

Off Buck's expression. "Just for tonight… and maybe tomorrow.”

Buck and Tommy do not interact at the ceremony, save for a brief "How are you doing?" from Tommy and some silent exchanges before and after the march. After the ceremony, Buck watches Tommy from afar while deep in thought, but we don't know what he's thinking.

At Maddie and Chinney's, we see Maddie, Chimney, Buck... and Tommy sitting at the kitchen table.

After dinner, we realize that Tommy is only in attendance as a friend. Still, there's a lot of unspoken (yet affectionate) tension between the two men, and Maddie quietly observes the two from afar.

After Tommy leaves, Maddie tells Buck to go for it.

Buck is surprised, "I thought you said I should learn to be alone. Besides, after Bobby..."

"Yeah, I don't know why I said that. That was silly. I guess I thought I was protecting my baby brother... but I see that I was doing anything but, wasn't I? Anyway, I just remembered something. I'm not sure why, because I'm confronted by it every day. So are you." Maddie laughs solemnly.

"What?"

"Life... can sometimes be very fleeting... and just too unpredictable and short."

Buck doesn't respond to that.

8×17

Tommy doesn't appear. Buck mainly mourns Bobby, but there is a scene where Buck pulls out his phone and hovers over Tommy's name. He puts the phone back in his pocket. Not this time.

8×18

The big Buck and Tommy reconciliation happens surprisingly early into the episode before the big main event (Bobby being alive or something else). Buck is the one to initiate it when Tommy stops by, you know, as a friend, to see how Buck is doing.

Tommy is hesitant - citing Bobby as the main reason and at least partially meaning it - but Buck pushes back. "That's bull. If you don't want to be with me anymore, then just say that. But if there's one thing my time at the 118 has taught me, it's that... life is fleeting. And too short, to not fight for what I want. No, for what I know is right. And Tommy, I'm sorry l didn't make it clear. I really thought I had, but I guess not. You are right. Not Eddie, not anyone else. You."

They agree to get back together, but also agree that they need to really sit and actually, you know, discuss their issues some more before truly moving forward.

We get one last moment at the very end with Buck and Tommy. I have two scenarios in mind.

Scenario 1:

Buck and Tommy cook dinner at Buck's (or Tommy's) place. The last we see of them is Tommy cooking at the stove, turning and noticing Buck watching and smiling at him, and Tommy smiles back. We pan back to Buck, who hasn't looked this content - in maybe ever? He's in deep. They both are.

Scenario 2:

We finally get to see Tommy take Buck on a date via helicopter.

Unfortunately for us, we only see Buck and Tommy hugging and kissing with a sunset backdrop before climbing aboard. This date is theirs and theirs alone.

#911 abc#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#911 spoilers#because of the bobby mention.
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Reblogged noahwhyle
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the world is getting so ugly and bleak and it’s hard not to feel so hopeless. but we have to remember that they want us to feel that way.

it reminds me of this quote by dan savage - “During the darkest days of the AIDS crisis we buried our friends in the morning, we protested in the afternoon, and we danced all night, and it was the dance that kept us in the fight because it was the dance we were fighting for.”

joy is resistance. it’s really scary times but we are all in this together.

#text#i really dislike that i initially scoffed when i read this#because it means that everything happening in the world has began to make me jaded and cynical and bitter#(how can it not - if one has a conscience and cares about other people)#but at the end of the day - i agree with all of it. and that's a really poignant quote.#i'm still tired and angry - as any decent person is -#but i'm also stubborn and petty and not giving no maga/gop bigot the satisfaction of a towel throw.
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Reblogged arcanejude
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The fact that we've saved as many people as we have is a fucking miracle.

#the pitt#noah's performance here is IN-fucking-CREDIBLE.#listen. i don't care about awards and certainly not award shows. but if this doesn't earn him the emmy...#also: i'm going to be really busy tomorrow and may only have time for one show#so it might be a choice between 911 and the pitt#... and i'm going with 'the pitt'. especially because it's the big finale. i am NOT missing that. it's lovely to experience event tv again.#tw blood#oh and noah said he couldn't wait to film this scene#because it would give him an opportunity to let out his anger and sadness at everything happening in the world right now#and i feel that.
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Reblogged hbothelastofus
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I was never afraid before you showed up.

THE LAST OF US (1.03) → LONG, LONG TIME

#the last of us#this episode is a masterpiece.#and the cool thing is even if you don't want to watch 'the last of us'#you can still watch this particular episode and understand about 95% of it.#it’s also extra special because#how often do we get to see gay couples grow old together?#and not just in a show like this but in general?#and the fact that the episode also happens to be a masterpiece on a technical and storytelling level#is just a huge bonus.
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Reblogged serlocks-blog
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Red fox with a rare black coat hunting in Lamar Valley (Original Photo by Pauline Murrill)

#photography#animals#this reminds me: a fox once wandered onto my old college campus late at night#and it would occasionally scream if people got too close#so i resorted to briefly waving and shouting 'well aren't you a fuckin' cutie!' from afar#and my friend walked away from me in embarrassment before circling back lol.#good times!#also i just really love foxes.#come to think of it i have a lot of college stories involving animals.#my campus also had a ton of geese#and one tried to charge at me while i was walking along a path#and i continued walking by while looking over and calmly saying something to the effect of ‘i’m not in the mood today#and i suggest you take that energy and use it on someone else…’ and the goose actually stopped lol.
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Reblogged unfuckablebogtroll
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We ask your questions anonymously so you don’t have to! Submissions are open on the 1st and 15th of the month.

#poll#about me#depends on the day and mood - but partially or fully clothed.#it feels strange being naked anywhere other than in the shower or during intimate acts with someone.#and i even sleep in a shirt and underwear.#my last boyfriend loved sleeping naked and asked me to try it with him#but i only made it two nights before wearing at least underwear from that point forward lol.#oh and not neurodivergent as far as I’m aware.
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Reblogged lgbthenry
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made me think of some of you <3

#text#yeah… as a gay man it can get a little exhausting when people in fandom#obsess over top and bottom headcanons#and ‘monster cocks’ (people in fandom seem more obsessed with dick size than literally any gay/bi man#i’ve ever met in real life) and it can feel very objectifying especially when it comes from straights#(but hey - it’s a small preview into what women must go through every day. doesn’t make any of it right or good#but it definitely adds perspective.)#it’s also frustrating because there’s so much more to gay intimacy than just top and bottom#or monster cocks.#half or more of these people who hyper fixate over top and bottom probably couldn’t process the idea of gay ‘sides’#which is indeed a real thing.#that one is always a shock to many - that not every gay/bi man likes ‘monster cocks’ or even anal.#i realize i’m looking a little too deeply into this and fixating on something that is ultimately silly#and by silly i mean ‘fandom behavior’#but it IS something i’ve been reflecting on lately because this fetishization and stereotyping of gay/bi men is everywhere online lol#including from people who seem to mean well (like some of my fellow bucktommy shippers for instance).
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Reblogged lgbthenry
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#911 abc#bucktommy#i’m stealing buck’s shirt pull in that last gif the next time i’m intimate with someone.#and here’s hoping we have some more scenes to reblog in a couple of days!#bracing myself for the possibility that we will have to wait until the following week for tommy’s return.#but ah hell. i’m feeling optimistic and think we’re going to get some really lovely moments when all is said and done.#my gut is telling me we won’t get anything sexually suggestive for the rest of the season.#i’d wager - if we do get a reconciliation - they’re going to focus more on soft intimacy:#hugs and maybe a slow sensual kiss and comforting caresses and words of affirmation. which is (more than) fine by me.#that said - if we get something like buck jumping up and wrapping his legs around tommy’s waist while they kiss - i am never shutting up.#but let me not get ahead of myself too much now.#i’ll be content with a simple hug and kiss if it means they finally work things out and reunite.
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