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Genderqueer Transfag | He/They | Adult | Black & Nerdy | Cringelord Supreme | Assigned Rad at Birth

About time I made one of these, huh?

About Me

Hiya! You can call me "Moth". No particular reason.

I'm a genderqueer butch in their late twenties. He/They pronouns please.

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Alice Isn't Dead by Joseph Fink

Piranesi by Susanna Clarke

Witch Hat Atelier (manga) by Shirahama Kamome

Paper Girls (comic book series) by Brian K. Vaughan and Cliff Chiang

Children of the Sea (manga) by Igarashi Daisuke

The Bruising of Qilwa by Naseem Jamnia

A Psalm for the Wild-Built by Becky Chambers

Little Fish by Casey Plett

look i normally hate it when people univeralize jewish concepts to describe all oppression but everyone needs to know about ostjuden

anyway today i met a trans guy who said he hates it when people who look like me (long hair? not on t? sports bra instead of binder? i guess) use they/them or think we have a place in spaces designated as being for transmascs and afab nonbinary people

like 15 minutes earlier he was trying to convince a trans woman to come to his transmasc group because i guess she doesn't present fem enough for him to see her as a woman

right i skipped the part where i tell you about ostjuden. it means "eastern jews." german jews in the early twentieth century were antisemitic towards eastern european jews who they saw as too primitive, superstitious, yiddish-speaking, religious, poor, dirty, folk-y, etc.

so. basically there's a phenomenon where people adopt the form bigotry targeted at their group but you wouldn't say they internalize it, because they don't direct at themselves; they direct it only at other members of their group who they perceive as somehow lesser.

not a direct comparison to the above example because viewing someone as inferior (like the ostjuden) is different from like... viewer someone as a poser, in terms of the power dynamics involved.

anyway, we should talk more about this kind of oppression, because it's not exactly internalized oppression but it's like. internalized oppression's cousin.

When one of my ancestors came to America he changed his name from Krasny to Roth (not the actual names, but you get the idea). Family lore has long held it was to sound less Jewish, but recently I've developed the hypothesis that he was trying not to seem ostjudisch

yeah this was a huge part of it. the ostjuden were poor country bumpkins who who spoke yiddish and were not assimilated. they were "too jewish" which was embarrassing.

(also, i'm sure it was not all german jews who thought this way, i realize i implied it was in my earlier reblog)

which means that german jewish antisemitism can only be understood through the context of the antisemitism that said german jews experienced. it pushed them to assimilate and to want to separate themselves from populations of jews who they feared would cause antisemitism to be directed towards them. especially given that that is in fact exactly what happened; nazi ideology was able to pick up steam because the ostjuden were immigrating to germany, and people were anti-immigrant. the right wing playbook hasn't changed much.

the takeaway here is not "german jews sucked," it was "bigotry has a lot of complicated effects and one of them is lateral bigotry."

which means i also need to understand trans folks' transphobia through the context of the transphobia they experience; they likely perceive the presence of "agab-appearing" nonbinary people as a threat to people seeing them as legitimate. the bigotry isn't originating from them; it is passing through them like a prism and taking new form. which does not excuse it, but affects my approach.

finding a term that you’ve never heard before but it resonating with you so deeply is a really cool experience

and that is why research on queer identities, whether gender, sexuality, or romance, is so needed!

from Ace Voices by Eris Young

[ID: photographs of pages of a book. Transcript follows:

Aegosexuality An aegosexual person is someone who may enjoy or be aroused by sexual content, masturbate or have sexual fantasies but has no desire to have sex with someone or get into a sexual relationship with another person. [1] An aegosexual person's fantasies might be in third person, "as though you're watching it on TV", and might feature fictional characters, celebrities or strangers, rather than people they know. This term was specifically coined by an a-spec person to describe an a-spec experience, in contrast to an earlier exonym, coined by psychologist Anthony Bogaert, "autochorisexual". [2] Of the Ace Census respondents, 1.3 per cent preferred to themselves as some variation on "aegosexual" (a few did use the word "autochorissexual").

/end ID]

Not “Only my reading of canon is correct” or “Interpretations are subjective and all valid” but a secret third thing, “More than one interpretation can be valid but there’s a reason your English teacher had you cite quotes and examples in your papers, you have to have a strong argument that your interpretation is actually supported by the text or it is just wrong and I’m fine with telling you it’s wrong, actually.”

If the text says the curtains are blue you can argue about what that means; but if you’re going to claim they’re actually yellow you’d better have a really good argument.

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