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my name is max, 21+, I like western art music, writing, art, fandom, cute subby boys, and I am a proud supporter of the "stop gatekeeping intellectualism" movement.

Hello there! I'm Max, I'm an adult, and this is my main+multi-purpose blog. I'm an aroallo trans guy, and I think sex is super fascinating, so if that's not cool with you, you probably should not follow me.

I mostly use this account to reblog posts I find funny, insightful, or interesting, as well as occasionally talking about philosophical/introspective things on my mind.

I love all forms of art, but I'm particularly interested in Western Art Music (i.e. Classical music), visual arts (such as illustration), and literature.

I also really like anime/manga, video games, sciences, languages, and any kind of human expression that feels meaningful to me.

Feel free to send a dm or ask at any time! My stance of online messages is that it's like having a pen pal--There's never an obligation to respond quickly (or even at all!). I'd rather have well thought out responses than have my conversation partner feel obligated.

Current fandom fixation: streamer rpf and not one of the popular ones (please ask me about them I would like to spread my otp agenda)

I wish something people talked about more with depression (at least from my experience) is that while yes, you do feel numb, it is extremely painful. As in, a physical pain. Physical pain so bad you can barely stand, barely eat. (And oftentimes, physical pain does manifest.)

So, my advice for anyone currently experiencing this is A. You are in real, tangible pain. It is not simply existential. B. The โ€œnumbnessโ€ is exhaustion, itโ€™s not that you donโ€™t care about anything, because you probably do. C. Take care of your physical body!! I donโ€™t mean just exercise and eat healthy, I mean eat something. I mean take painkiller when you need them. I mean keep a routine even if itโ€™s just for waking up and going to bed. Carry a bottle of water around with you so itโ€™s right there and easy to access.

Take care of your body first, and then you can get at the emotional side of things! Because rolling into the numbness and denying the fact that youโ€™re in pain only further denies the emotions youโ€™ve denied yourself. (Talking to myself in past tense.)

This is why accessibilityis so important.

To everyone saying they recognize the program this was made in and thinks this was an architectural software โ€” NO IT WASNโ€™T. This is a player wearing an orca avatar in an MMO at a public humiliation/exposure fetish place and as soon as the orca entered that place he found it was a bunch of real life photographs of old guys bending over and exposing their assholes. After staring at a certain German guyโ€™s picture for too long the guy in the picture noticed this (he was zoomed in) and messaged the orca some shit like โ€œdoes Sir like what he sees?โ€ โ€œthe slave thanks you for looking.โ€ the orca didnโ€™t have the social skills to handle this, tried to be polite, panicked, tried to turn around but since the avatar is so big it was like the Austin Powers truck driving scene and every way he turned he saw more babyboomer asshole. how do i know this? that orca, was me

fandom friendships can be so weird like

yeah this is my friend scrumblyj97. no i don't know their 'real' name i just call them scrumbly and they live over 1000 miles away. we've written 50k of fiction together.

One thing that has made me a much more well-adjusted person is a clip I once saw of Hank Green saying that anyone can be in amazing shape as long as being in amazing shape is one of their top three priorities.

(This is obviously a generalization that isn't true for everyone. But it is true for most people and I'm proceeding from there.)

This "top three priorities" framing has genuinely reduced my tendency toward jealousy and self-comparison a lot. Now when I feel envious of someoneโ€™s spotless, aesthetic home, I think to myself, โ€œHaving a spotless, aesthetic home is probably one of their top three priorities. Itโ€™s definitely not one of mine, so I shouldnโ€™t expect my home to look like that.โ€

Or when I see an influencer with a body that takes a ton of work to maintain: โ€œMaintaining that body is obviously one of her top three priorities, because itโ€™s her livelihood. My livelihood is my brain, so Iโ€™m never going to prioritize my body like that.โ€

It also helps me to identify areas that I actually DO want to prioritize more. I realized in recent years that my envy for my friends who prioritized writing more than I did was NOT going away, so I started to prioritize writing more. (Not top three, but higher priority than it has been in the past.)

my dashboard simulator

mutual 1: I am going to kill all of you

mutual 2: *70 consecutive reblogs of a fandom you've never heard of until today. every time you refresh there's 30 more.*

mutual 3: *image of a guy in a dog collar* why did he do this

mutual 4: *reblogs of beautiful picnic scenes*

mutual 5: everyone get fatter now

mutual 4: just thought about dunking them in blood again ๐Ÿค

mutual 3: *image of the same guy but blurry and far away* is this allowed

mutual 6: I love music ๐ŸŽต๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŽต๐ŸŽบ๐ŸŽนโœจ๐Ÿ’–๐ŸŒˆ

mutual 7 that we are all beginning to suspect is actually a dog: do you guys ever think about chewing on bones haha

mutual 6: anyone ever heard of this shit called music? *image of stickman covered in blood*

mutual 5: make him a woman NOW!!!

mutual 8: if you ask me about my ocs I will kiss you on the mouth

mutual 9: hey what happened to mutual 10

mutual 10: day 173 of being lost in the mountains. I have begun to recreate my family's faces out of the river clay. at night I recite my favorite songs so that they may never leave my memory. I am beginning to forget birthdays. I haven't tasted a grain of sugar in months.

mutual 7: that mailman will pay.

hi, a lot of you need a perspective reset

  • the average human lifespan globally is 70+ years
  • taking the threshold of adulthood as 18, you are likely to spend at least 52 years as a fully grown adult
  • at the age of 30 you have lived less than one quarter of your adult life (12/52 years)
  • 'middle age' is typically considered to be between 45-65
  • it is extremely common to switch careers, start new relationships, emigrate, go to college for the first or second time, or make other life-changing decisions in middle age
  • it's wild that I even have to spell it out, but older adults (60+) still have social lives and hobbies and interests.
  • you can still date when you get old. you can still fuck. you can still learn new skills, be fashionable, be competitive. you can still gossip, you can still travel, you can still read. you can still transition. you can still come out.
  • young doesn't mean peaked. you're inexperienced in your 20s! you're still learning and practicing! you're developing social skills and muscle memory that will last decades!
  • there are a million things to do in the world, and they don't vanish overnight because an imaginary number gets too big
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