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I'm a clown, welcome to my circus

@zehina / zehina.tumblr.com

II side blog of skzoologist II for reblogging all kinds of stuff II If you want content, go to skzoologist, cuz this blog is just a chaotic mess of reblogs. Source: trust me dude

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About me

II '01 liner II fine with any pronoun II big weeb/otaku and avid gamer II shy giant II suffering in Europe II

II main writing blog: @skzoologist II side writing blog: @ihatedtoadmit II II If I blocked you on any of those blogs (probably because you looked like a bot), send me a message here and I'll unblock you II

II current hyperfixation: SKZ, with a side of ATEEZ II II cursed with pulling Lee Know in every album, next time he does this, I'll put his ass up for trade, I'm not even kidding (only because I have not a single Felix or Hyunjin pc) II

II last hyperfixations: Undertale, Solo Leveling, BNHA and Ao no Exorcist II have written for these full out series, I'll finish them one day and post them somewhere (because I'm still not normal about them) II

II hobbies: daydreaming, drawing and writing II cursed to perpetually create more OCs to deal with my adoration/deluluness II

II struggling with a shitty body and about to mcfucking lose it II

II my blogs are a safe place for those who don't like smut II

II fic rec. tag: #fics to remember II

II anxious being, but open to make friends slowly II

II currently matching pfps with @writingforstraykids dear (no Niki dear, I am not cheating, please-) II

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i’ve really been into vampire chan recently. hehe. and i’ve also really been loving your writing. 🩷 do you think you could try out some vampire stuff? if you don’t want to write it for chan, i’d be fine with any member. (but yk he’s my fave)

or if you don’t want to write this at all, that’s fine too. i’ll read anything you post :)

🩷🩷🩷

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VAMP! BANGCHAN X FEM! READER

a/n: thank you so much for your request!! I hope you like it 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

warnings: fluff and a bit angsty

One night, you and your boyfriend Chan are sitting on the couch. The air is thick and you ask him what’s wrong…

shaking myself (very gently) . being in pain takes a lot of energy!!!!!! being in pain is exhausting!!!!!!! you are not lazy or weak because you need to spend so much time resting, this is your body coping with how much pain you’re in literally 24/7!!!!!!!!!

addition: feeling big emotions is exhausting & takes a lot of energy!!!!!!!! needing to rest after having big feelings isn’t a sign of being weak or lazy either!!!!!!!! your body needs time to rest & recover even when it isn’t for a ‘normal’ reason

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"your ult bias and how you need to be loved"

till the end of forever

you need to be loved unconditionally. you need to be reminded that love is not temporary, that you deserve it. that those who love you will not leave. you need to be loved the way angels love humanity. or how devils love angels. you need to be loved in greatness, in fullness, you need to be loved hard and fierce. loud, shout it to the ends of the earth, your love won’t leave. you need to be loved when nothing else will be. you need to realize you are worthy even through the end.

tagging: @bangtanintotheroom @kiestrokes @minisugakoobies @chans-room and anyone else interested

Well. This was tragic fun. Because I can’t pick one Binnie 🌚

like you can love again

you need to be loved in a way that shows you love is sacred, it is divine. you need to be loved so purely, so lightly, so you can learn to love. you need to be loved in the way oceans rise, but also fall. you need to be loved in the way wind rushes through leaves. you need to be loved gently, and patiently, and understanding. you need to be loved in a way that even if you cannot love, you will still be loved.

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I picked my two ult biases ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

till the end of forever

you need to be loved unconditionally. you need to be reminded that love is not temporary, that you deserve it. that those who love you will not leave. you need to be loved the way angels love humanity. or how devils love angels. you need to be loved in greatness, in fullness, you need to be loved hard and fierce. loud, shout it to the ends of the earth, your love won't leave. you need to be loved when nothing else will be. you need to realize you are worthy even through the end.

tagging: @eureka-its-zico @j-a-nuary @chimivx and the girl reading this 😘

light of my life ~ lixie boi ~ the ult of the ult

like the snow melts

you need to be loved patiently. you need to feel the love slowly creeping in, a warning, a way to back away if you’re too scared. you need to be loved cautiously, as if you’re fragile. you need to be loved gently, because love is messy and muddy and makes your socks wet and hurts if the sun gets too close. but you need to let yourself be loved, because when you do, it’ll feel like spring.

going to cry now, thanks @chans-room 🙃

tagging: @j-0ne25 , @minkieater , @bangtanhoneys , @lookitsjess , @b1ueboi-jjunie , & anyone else that wants to play 🫶

Thanks bestie love u @chimivx

like a child loves the rain

you need to be loved in happiness and foolishness. a puppy love, a love so purely good, so full of happiness it makes your stomach ache. you need to be loved in a way that reminds you of the childhood you didn’t get to have. you need to be loved as if you’re feeling the rain fall upon your cheeks for the first time. refreshing, and clean.

i loved it so much, thanks @lookitsjess ❤️

like you can love again

you need to be loved in a way that shows you love is sacred, it is divine. you need to be loved so purely, so lightly, so you can learn to love. you need to be loved in the way oceans rise, but also fall. you need to be loved in the way wind rushes through leaves. you need to be loved gently, and patiently, and understanding. you need to be loved in a way that even if you cannot love, you will still be loved.

wow, really felt this one 🥹 also it's so jinnie and me coded (?)

Thanks for the tag @jehhskz 🫶🏽

This is true I believe what do I know though ha 😅

Thank you for tagging me!! @moonchild9350 🖤 ily these tagged games are always so fun and make me all happy when I see them tyyy

Stop- this is so accurate. This really a call out post to myself I guess😂

ty for the tag !

like a child loves the rain

you need to be loved in happiness and foolishness. a puppy love, a love so purely good, so full of happiness it makes your stomach ache. you need to be loved in a way that reminds you of the childhood you didn't get to have. you need to be loved as if you're feeling the rain fall upon your cheeks for the first time. refreshing, and clean.

🏷️: @giddyfatherchris @bluejutdae @hyuuukais @hyunjins-orange-slice-too & anyone else who wants to play!

so maybe i almost cried doing this quiz what about it?? 😭 tysm for the tag!!

Sunday morning rain is falling ig-

I am utterly Chan coded sometimes, I noticed... @writingforstraykids see this? You know why I am saying it with what we've been working on lately.

Tags are left open, as always!

hehe oh yes, and you'll see mine is so fitting to me and what we've been working on, it's ridiculous 😂 (also I can't choose because I'm MinChan biased😇)

We're so ridiculous OTL Also I can shout that for you once my walls are broken down, it just takes time-

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𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒: 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡, 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ "𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 + 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒," 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑎𝑔 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒.

Athena-core was fun to search 😍

Thank you for tag @jinnie-ret hun 🤗🤗💗 Ngl Sonali core was really fun to search!

(wanted to tag more people but it shows 6 people only :(( )

Ty for the tag lovely. It was hard to find things for my user name so I just used my own lol

Thank you for the tags, Ash, @jinnie-ret and @palindrome969 dears!

Can't and won't tag 6 people, I apologise. Most, if not all my moots have already been tagged long ago.

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new picrew dropped, stolen from the besties over on nsfvv twitterrrr

this is me in all my soft glory (the background options are fucking hilarious btw)

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may may mayyy i love it!!

this is meeee!! all chocolate brown&pastel green 😌

non pressure tags : @starlostastronaut , @catiuskaa , @hanjsquokka , @skzonthebrain , @j-0ne25 , @hyungszn , @facioleeknow , @atinyniki 🤍

AAAA MARSY I LOVE THEM PICREW GAMS TY TY TY

wish I looked that buff irl lmfaoooo but that’s me!

You meet me in the woods, offering you a plushie. What do you do?

Tags are left open, feel free to join!

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I love you - I doubt it

Pairing: Chan x gn!reader

Word Count: 1571

Summary: Chan gets a message that would've made him the happiest man on earth only a while ago. Now, he doesn't know what to believe anymore.

Warnings/Tags: angst, chan centered

A/N: This is for you, pretty @zehina, my fellow angst lover🤭 Hope you like it🖤🖤

do not repost, translate, or plagiarize my works in any way here or on other platforms. ©️writingforstraykids 2024 -

Chan sat on his bed, staring at the glowing screen of his phone. His room was dimly lit, the soft hum of the air conditioner the only sound filling the silence. He had just finished scrolling through the usual notifications, his mind dulled by the routine of checking emails, missed calls, and scattered messages. But then, amidst the noise of daily communication, one message stood out, its simplicity pulling him out of the monotony of his scrolling.

I love you.

It was from you. He blinked, momentarily frozen. The words, clear and concise, hung there in the quiet air, reverberating in his mind. There was a time when those words would have lit up his world. He could still remember the first time you’d said them—how his heart had leaped, how his breath had caught in his throat. The flood of warmth, the feeling of being seen, of being valued. But now, as he stared at those three words on the screen, something had shifted.

He didn’t feel the familiar rush of emotion. Instead, his first thought was cold, dispassionate, and bitterly practical.

I doubt it.

He immediately regretted thinking it, but it was the truth. He couldn’t escape the gnawing doubt that had been creeping into his mind for months now. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to believe you still loved him. It wasn’t that he wanted to give up on the idea of you and him. It was just that, over time, something had changed. And he wasn’t sure if either of you had noticed it, or maybe you were just better at pretending it hadn’t.

I did love it, so much so that I got emotional. But then again, that might be for an entirely different reason... I'm afraid of becoming this person, of being the reason for doubts and lingering fear. And I am afraid exactly because I know I can become one entirely too easily, hurting those who I once cared about. I don't want that version of myself... And I am not pretty, get that out of your head, you stubborn menace.

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