๐๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค๐ฌ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ.
โฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธต
๐ฏ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐. ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.
โฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธตโขโฟ๏ธต
๐๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐๐ง๐ญ ~ แดถแตแตหกแตแตหขสธ, สฐแตสณแต, สฐแตแตแตแตแต แตสณแตแตแตแตโฟแต, แตโฟแตหขแต, หขแตแถ แต แถแตโฟแถ แตหขหขโฑแตโฟ
The bar had the same scent it always did โ old wood, cheap whiskey, faint cigarette smoke clinging to the walls no matter how many times they painted over it.
You liked this place. It had a certain hum to it. The kind that made people loosen up. Laugh too loud. Tell stories that werenโt entirely true.
Tonight, it was just you, Hank, and Buster โ the usual trio, sharing a booth in the corner like always. Buster had launched into some dramatic retelling of a botched sting operation, arms flying, voice rising with each exaggerated twist.
โ and you were laughing. That easy kind of laughter that made your shoulders relax and your voice ring out across the table.
But across the table, Hank barely touched his drink.
You didnโt notice it at first. Not until the third or fourth time you leaned toward Buster to swat at one of his jokes, only to glance at Hank and find him watching.
Not smiling. Not annoyed.
His fingers were curled loosely around his glass, but he hadnโt taken a sip in a while. His jaw was tense, like he was grinding back something he didnโt want to say. His eyes โ dark, unreadable โ flickered between you and Buster with something almost guarded. his gaze hovered on you for a second too long before flicking away again like it burned to look.
And for a second, you meant to ask if he was okay.
But Buster cut in again, halfway through another story, waving his hands dramatically as he leaned across the table and launched into the next ridiculous part of his rambling saga.
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐,โ he was saying, eyes bright with mischief, โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐, ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โโ
You laughed before you could stop yourself. Not because the story was particularly good, but because Buster had a way of delivering even the stupidest line with such conviction that you couldnโt help it.
And in that second, you missed the way Hankโs eyes dropped.
A tightness in Hankโs jaw. A sudden flick of his eyes toward the door. The way his fingers went still around the glass, not tapping anymore, just clenched.
And in that split second โ lost in the humor, the hum of the bar, the warmth of a familiar night โ you didnโt see Hank stand.
You only heard the chair legs scrape back.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐.โ
The words were flat. Dull. Like he wasnโt really talking to either of you.
No explanation. No glance back.
Just the scrape of his boots across the floor and the hush of the bar door swinging closed behind him.
You and Buster both watched the door swing closed behind him.
The moment hung in the booth like smoke.
Your brow furrowed as Buster leaned back, eyebrows raised.
โ๐พ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐?โhe muttered, reaching for his drink. โ๐ฎ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.โ
You didnโt answer right away.
Your eyes lingered on the door, heart skipping in that way it only did when something felt off. You replayed the last few minutes in your head โ the shift in his expression, the tight grip on the glass, the way he hadnโt looked at you when he left.
โ๐ฏ๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐,โ you murmured.
Buster scoffed. โ๐ฏ๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐ โ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ณ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐.โ
โ๐จ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐,โ he added with a half-grin. โ๐ด๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.โ
You pushed back from the table, sliding out of the booth.
โ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
โ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐
,โ Buster said, picking up your drink and draining what was left. โ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐,โ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ โ ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.โ
You didnโt reply. You were already moving.
Because the way Hank had left โ quiet, clipped, not even glancing back โ it wasnโt just him being tired or needing air.
It felt like something deeper.
The air outside was cool. Crisp. It bit at your skin, sharp against the heat of the barโs glow.
And as you stepped out into the night and spotted him at the edge of the parking lot, standing alone beneath the dull glow of the barโs neon, you felt it in your chest like a weight.
This wasnโt just a mood.
This was ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ .
And you were about to find out why.
You approached him slowly.
He stood, the wind tugging at the helm of his jacket , his hands buried in the pockets, shoulders drawn up against the cold, stiff - like he was holding something in so tight it might break his ribs. The air was sharp, laced with the distant scent of gasoline and earth, and the hum of the neon sign buzzed faintly above you like static tension.
You stopped a few steps from him, not saying anything at first.
You didnโt want to startle him.
Didnโt want to push him either.
โ๐ฏ๐๐๐?โ you said softly. โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐?โ
He doesnโt turn. No response.
You stepped closer. โ๐ฏ๐๐๐โโ
โ๐พ๐๐ ๐
๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐?โ he muttered. It was low , barely above a whisper , but you could still hear the bitterness. Not like him. He never spoke to you in such a way.
You blink. โ๐พ๐๐๐?โ
And the look in his eyes makes your breath hitch โ something cold and sharp and ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ simmering just beneath the surface.
Then he says it. Quiet. Clipped.
โ๐พ๐๐โ๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐?โ
It lands like a slap. Not loud โ just ๐๐ฎ๐ญ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ . Measured like he wanted it to hurt. Like he chose those words on purpose.
You blink, taken aback. โ๐พ๐๐๐?โ
He lets out a humorless breath. Not quite a laugh โ more like a release of pressure heโs been holding all night.
Subtle. A shift of his head. A glance back toward the bar, toward the window where the yellow haze still glows behind the glass. His eyes flick back to yours, but not before you catch the way his jaw clenches โ the barest, smallest motion of his fingers twitching at his side.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
You blink. Eyebrows furrowing as you tilted your head to the side like a lost puppy โ๐จ๐ ๐๐๐?โ
He tilts his head, just slightly โ a non-answer that says everything.
๐๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ.
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐โ๐๐๐๐? ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐?โ
โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐,โ he bites out. โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ซ๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.โ
Your arms fold defensively. โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.โ
โ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฐ, ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
?โ
Your heart stutters in your chest.
You feel a flare of disbelief, and then the sting of something deep inside. Heโs not saying it outright, but the meaning is there โ thick in the space between you.
Thereโs a meanness in him tonight youโve never seen before. A bitterness curling around every word, like itโs been fermenting in his chest for weeks and finally found a crack to escape through.
You try to stay calm. Try to read past the sharpness to whatโs ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ going on underneath.
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐?โ he asks, voice low and tight. โ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐? ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.โ
The words hit you like a punch in the gut, unexpected and cold. They hang in the air between you, heavy with something unspoken.
You blink, your chest tightening as you try to make sense of what just came out of his mouth.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ The words come out softer than you meant, as though youโre trying to make it clear that there was nothing behind it โ but his accusation burns in the air, leaving you feeling raw.
He tilts his head slightly, the edge in his voice sharpening. โ๐๐๐๐? ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐.โ
The moment the words leave his mouth, you feel it.
The casual cruelty in his tone makes your chest tighten. You know he doesnโt mean it, not in the way it sounds, but the hurt still cuts through you like a knife. You swallow, a bitter taste rising in your throat, and try to keep your composure. But itโs hard.
The weight of what he just said settles in your chest. Itโs not the accusation that stings most โ itโs the way heโs looking at you, the way heโs watching you with an intensity that feels more like a ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ than a question.
You see the brief flicker of regret in his eyes as soon as the words escape his mouth. Itโs subtle, but itโs there. His eyes dart away, as if he wants to take the words back but canโt. The tightness in his jaw betrays the sudden ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ง๐๐ซ๐๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ข๐ญ๐ฒโ like he didnโt know it would hurt you this much.
He runs a hand through his hair, the frustration clear, but itโs too late. The damage is done.
The silence between you two is thick, suffocating, as the weight of his words sits between you. You feel every second of it โ the space between you widening.
You want to say something, to defend yourself, but instead, you find yourself shrinking under the weight of it. His words cut deeper than you want to admit.
You take a slow, shaky breath, trying to steady your nerves. All of a sudden like a switch being turned on, the anger started to well up inside of you and you couldnโt hold back anymore. your voice sharpens โ a defense, but also a truth that needs to be said.
โ๐ด๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐,โ you snap, your words a little more cutting than you intended. โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐?โ
His eyes widen for a fraction of a second, as though he wasnโt expecting you to fire back like that. The regret flashes in his eyes, but it doesnโt stop you. Itโs not enough this time.
โ๐๐๐โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ฏ๐๐๐,โ you continue, your voice still rough, still raw. โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐บ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
His face falters at your words, but you donโt give him a chance to speak.
โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ซ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
You donโt wait for his reaction.
You turn on your heel, boots striking the gravel with force as you make your way back toward the bar. The heat is rising up your neck, twisting with the cold in the air โ your chest aching from the weight of everything you couldnโt say, and everything he said too damn easily.
You shove the door open harder than you mean to.
Inside, the warmth hits like a slap โ too loud, too bright. Laughter carries across the room. Glasses clink. Everything is normal in here, but you feel like the airโs been knocked out of your lungs.
You head straight for the booth where Busterโs still sitting, hunched over a beer, cracking a joke to someone who barely reacts. He doesnโt see you at first.
โ๐ซ๐๐๐, ๐
๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐โ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐?โ Buster calls out when he notices you approaching, grinning like heโs got another dumb punchline coming. โ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐โโ
His eyes flick up when he sees you โ and the way your face looks must say it all, because he straightens.
โ๐ฏ๐๐,โ he says, eyes narrowing, โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
? ๐พ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐?โ
โ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐,โ you say flatly, reaching for your coat draped over the back of the seat. Your voice is clipped. Tight. The kind of tone that says ๐๐จ๐งโ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ก ๐ฆ๐.
Buster blinks, surprised by the sharpness.
โ๐ฏ๐๐๐
๐๐, ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
? ๐ซ๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐?โ
You pause โ just briefly โ coat halfway on, breath shallow in your chest. You stare at the table, at the empty glass you left behind, at the small bit of warmth you no longer want any part of.
Then you meet Busterโs eyes and say, โ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฏ๐๐๐. ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
Busterโs mouth opens โ maybe to ask more, maybe to argue โ but youโre already pulling your coat tight around you, moving fast.
You donโt want to explain.
You donโt want to relive it.
You just want to get out before your voice breaks.
Before Hank walks through that door.
Before you see his face and forget why you were angry.
Because you ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ heโs behind you โ or will be, any second now.
You pass the bar, shoulder brushing the edge of a stool, and push through the front door just as it swings open behind you.
You just walk out into the night and let it swallow you whole.
Youโd gone home with your jaw clenched and your coat still half-zipped, kicking your shoes off somewhere near the door and pacing your apartment for the better part of an hour โ furious, confused, and heart-sore in a way you hadnโt expected.
The silence left behind by the argument was ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฎ๐.
It followed you from room to room. Into bed. Into your dreams.
Hankโs voice kept echoing in your head. That cold edge. The way heโd looked at you like you were a stranger โ like everything youโd built, slow and careful, had been imaginary.
And worse, the part where heโd hesitated after.
The part where it looked like maybeโฆ he didnโt hate you.
Maybe he hated himself more.
You spent the entire day in a quiet daze.
The anger from the night before had dulled, replaced by something heavier โ something you didnโt want to acknowledge. Youโd spent the morning trying to go about your day, but the ache in your chest, the echo of Hankโs words, kept creeping in.
You were still clinging to a thin thread of hope โ that maybe heโd show up. That maybe heโd come by before noon. That maybe heโd knock on your door and say I didnโt mean it. That heโd take it back.
You hoped heโd ring. A simple apology. A reason. Anything.
You stayed home all day, pacing your small apartment. Making coffee you didnโt drink. Turning the radio on, then off again. Watching the hands on the clock drag across the numbers like they were mocking you.
Every creak in the hallway made you pause.
Every voice outside your door made you glance toward it.
But none of them were him.
By the time evening settled in, that thread of hope had frayed and snapped.
And in its place was something worse โ not anger, not even disappointment.
Because you werenโt asking for a grand gesture. You werenโt asking for him to beg or fix everything in one breath.
You were just hoping heโd care enough to show up.
So you sat there in your living room, curled on the corner of your couch in the fading light, arms wrapped around yourself, and whispered to the still air:
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐.โ
You were still curled up into the corner of the couch, blanket wrapped around your legs now, and let the soft crackle of the heater fill the silence. The TV glows across the room, muted but flickering, some late-night rerun playing on a local channel โ a sitcom youโve never really cared for, canned laughter rising and falling like itโs mocking you for sitting there alone.
A familiar record hums low from the turntable on the shelf nearby, something instrumental and old, layered under the buzz of the TV and the low hum of your building settling around you. something familiar, something comforting in theory, but your mind has long since tuned it out.
Thatโs all any of it is now. ๐๐ก๐ข๐ญ๐ ๐ง๐จ๐ข๐ฌ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ค๐๐๐ฉ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐.
You shift a little, pulling the blanket higher over your shoulder, head resting against the cushion. Your body is stiff, your eyes heavy โ not from comfort, but from emotional fatigue. All day youโve felt like you were moving through molasses, every second stretching into something heavier than the last.
The kind of tired that sinks into your bones.
The kind that doesnโt come from staying up too late, but from caring too long with nothing to show for it.
Your eyes blink slowly, lashes fluttering against your cheek as the flickering TV pulls you just far enough into the edges of sleep. Your breathing steadies, slow and shallow. For the first time in hours, the buzzing in your chest quiets to a low hum. Itโs not peace โ not really โ but itโs as close as youโve gotten all day.
๐๐ก๐ซ๐๐ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐๐ค๐ฌ.
You jerk slightly, heart lurching in your chest. For a second, you donโt move โ not because youโre frozen, but because part of you thinks you imagined it.
The heater clicks again, the record scratches softly as it shifts into the end of its groove.
And thenโanother knock.
Slower this time. Heavier.
You sit up fully now, blanket falling from your shoulders. Your heart is racing, but not from fear. From something else.
Something you tried to put to sleep.
You glance at the clock on the wall โ just past ten. Too late for neighbors. Too late for anything casual.
You rise to your feet slowly, your socked footsteps soft on the hardwood. You move toward the door with the weight of someone holding their breath.
Because you ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ.
Somehow, deep in your chest, you ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ.
You reach the door and pause.
Your fingers hover over the knob.
You almost donโt want to open it โ because if itโs not him, itโll hurt. And if it ๐ข๐ฌ himโฆ youโre not sure what heโll say.
Your fingers hover over the knob for a beat longer than they should. Your heart is racing, not with excitement, but with something more fragile โ like hope thatโs been dropped too many times and barely put back together.
Hank stands just outside your doorway, the soft golden hallway light washing over him in a way that makes him look both familiar and completely worn down. The light catching the tired lines under his eyes. His jacket is zipped up halfway, his dark hair a little tousled from the wind, eyes shadowed with something that looks like itโs been haunting him since last night. He looks rough around the edges โ not in the way he usually does, not casual or unbothered โ but like heโs been dragging around the weight of something heavy since the second you walked away.
And in his hands โ clutched awkwardly against his chest โ is a paper bag. A little bent at the corners , slightly creased like itโs been clutched too tightly for too long.
And for a second, all you can do is stare at him.
He looks at you โ eyes soft, almost uncertain
His voice breaks the silence first, quiet , almost too softly,
โ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐.โ
You donโt answer. Not yet.
He swallows hard, shifting on his feet like the floor beneath him might give out if he stays too long.
โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
. ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐.โ His voice is low, worn at the edges. โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
โฆ ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐โ๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ณ๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
You watch him, arms folded tight across your chest. Still silent.
The hallway is quiet โ just the soft hum of an old wall light above and the distant thrum of a car moving down the block.
He shifts slightly on his feet, eyes flicking up to meet yours, then quickly down to the bag in his hands. His thumb traces the folded edge, a nervous motion, almost absentminded.
Then his eyes drift up again โ not just at you this time, but past you.
The faint glow of your TV still flickers behind you. The low scratch of a record you forgot was even playing hums somewhere near the back of the room. The space feels dim and lived-in, but quiet. Still.
He looks back to your face.
And then โ barely above a whisper, like heโs afraid the words might break something between you โ his voice almost catching in his throat - he says:
โ๐ช๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐?โ
His voice is soft. Not just polite โ tentative. Like heโs not sure if heโs earned the right to cross your threshold anymore.
Not just for permission to step inside your apartment โ but for permission to try and fix what he broke.
And still โ you say nothing.
Your arms are still folded tightly across your chest. You watch him โ the way his shoulders stay slightly hunched, the way his eyes donโt quite meet yours now, hovering somewhere between your face and the floor like heโs bracing for rejection.
Because slowly โ deliberately โ you unfold your arms.
You shift your weight, take a single step back.
And without a word, you step to the side, opening the door just enough to let him in.
That small gesture โ quiet, unspoken, but unmistakable โ feels louder than anything either of you could say.
Hank blinks once, like he wasnโt sure youโd actually let him in. Like heโd already prepared himself to walk away if you didnโt move.
But now, he takes a breath. Just one.
And steps past you quietly, careful not to brush your arm as he moves through the doorway. You catch a faint trace of something warm โ the scent of coffee on his jacket, maybe, or the cold still clinging to his collar. Familiar. Distant.
You close the door behind him.
Not hard. Not fast. Justโฆ deliberately. As though sealing off the rest of the world, if only for a few minutes.
The lock clicks into place with a soft snap.
He stands just inside the entryway, his boots still on the mat, shoulders slightly squared like he doesnโt quite know what to do with himself now that heโs here. The bag is still in his hand, wrinkled at the corners, thumb still absently smoothing over the folded top like a nervous tell.
Your apartment is dim. A nearby lamp casts a warm, amber circle across the floor. The record you forgot was spinning scratches softly under a melody that now feels almost intrusive in its intimacy.
Hank takes a small step forward, eyes glancing around the room before settling on the couch.
The blanket youโd been curled under is still rumpled in the corner. Your cold cup of coffee sits abandoned on the table. It all feels quiet. Lived-in. Heavy.
He turns to face you instead.
Youโre still standing near the door, arms crossed again โ not in anger now, but in something more self-protective. Something aching.
Hankโs gaze meets yours. He doesnโt look away this time.
Thereโs a pause. The kind that stretches into something fragile and full.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐
๐๐๐.โHis voice is rough, edged with nerves and something else โ maybe guilt, maybe hope. โ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
.โ
He lifts the bag in his hands slightly, almost like he forgot he was still holding it.
โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐,โ he says. โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐โฆ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
. ๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐.โ His lips tug into something thatโs not quite a smile. โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
You donโt say anything. You donโt need to.
Because heโs trying. Heโs choosing every word with care. And youโre watching him closely enough to feel the weight behind every one of them.
He sets the bag gently on the coffee table, then straightens again.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐,โ he continues. โ๐ฎ๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐. ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
. ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐.โ
He takes a step toward you. Not close enough to touch โ just enough to feel more present in the room.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐
๐๐๐๐. ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐โฆ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐โ๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐
๐๐
๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐.โ
He takes another step forward, just a little.
โโ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐จ๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐โฆ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฐโ๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐.โ
You feel that. Somewhere behind your ribs.
And even though part of you wants to stay guarded โ just a little longer โ the walls are beginning to shift.
Because his voice sounds different tonight.
Less like a man trying to prove something.
More like someone finally letting himself be seen.
He shifts slightly where he stands, like heโs bracing himself against somethingโonly itโs not you, itโs everything heโs about to say.
โ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐,โhe says finally, his voice lower now. Thicker.
His hands are in his jacket pockets again, and he stares down for a moment, at the hardwood floor between you, at the place where your blanket slipped off the couch.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐,โ he says, voice quiet but steady. โ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
, ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐. ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
You stand quiet, unmoving, your heart kicking against your ribs.
He looks down, jaw clenching for a moment before he exhales slowly โ like the words are heavy in his chest, but theyโre coming anyway.
โ๐ฐ๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐โฆ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
Hankโs eyes finally lift to meet yours, and for onceโhe doesnโt look away.
โ๐ฐโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐โฆ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
. ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
Thereโs the barest curve to his lipsโsad, self-deprecating.
โ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐ฐ? ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐. ๐ญ๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐บ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
He steps forward again. Slowly. Carefully. You could almost smell his cologne.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐โฆ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฐโโ
He falters. Your eyebrows furrowed as you watch him take a breath in.
Not once did his eyes leave yours, as his voice drops to a whisper, softer than anything heโs said all night.
โโฆ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
The words fall into the space between you like something sacred. Not loud. Not desperate. Justโฆ real.
And for a beat โ just one long, stretched-out moment โ the air shifts.
You donโt respond right away. You just stand there, the weight of the sentence settling into your chest like it belongs there.
Your breath catches โ not loud, but enough that he notices.
Your hands tighten at your sides, fingers curling slowly into your palms like youโre trying to steady yourself โ like bracing against a wind that never quite comes.
Your shoulders lift slightly โ an instinct, a defense โ like part of you wasnโt ready to hear it. Not tonight. Not from him. And especially not after everything.
But you donโt move away.
And thatโs what Hank notices.
Still standing in front of him.
Your breath leaves you in a slow, uneven exhale, like your ribs are learning how to move again under the weight of his words.
And then, slowly โ so slowly itโs almost cautious โ you take one step forward.
His face is unreadable for a moment. Still, open, afraid. Like heโs waiting to be turned away, like heโs already heard every version of rejection in his head and heโs bracing to finally hear it from you.
โ๐พ๐๐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐?โ
Itโs not angry. Itโs not even disappointed.
Plain and soft and aching.
Hankโs eyes flicker. โ๐ฉ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐโ๐
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐
๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
You nod once. That makes sense. It makes too much sense.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐,โ you say, your voice barely more than a breath. โ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ โ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.โ
โ๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐,โ he says instantly. โ๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.โ
You look up at him, eyes shining now, but not from tears alone.
โ๐จ๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐,โ he says. โ๐จ๐๐
๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐
๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐. ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐
โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐. ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
Then: โ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐.โ
He flinches slightly, like the words hit โ but then your voice softens.
โ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐.โ
And that means something.
He steps forward now โ not all the way, just enough to close the space a little more โ and he lifts his hand like he might reach for you, then hesitates.
You reach for his hand gently, your fingers brushing against his knuckles, and itโs enough. The contact is small, barely there, but it feels like the deepest exhale youโve had in days.
He grips your hand with care โ like heโs afraid he doesnโt deserve to โ and when your fingers tighten around his, something breaks open between you. Something warm.
He leans in slowly, giving you space to pull away.
His forehead rests gently against yours, his eyes fluttering shut, breath shaky between you both. His hand, still wrapped in yours, tightens just slightly โ like if he lets go, you might vanish.
โ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐,โ he whispers again, just for you this time. No distance. No fear. No hesitation.
You close your eyes, your chest rising and falling in slow, steady rhythm.
And this time, you donโt hesitate either.
โ๐จ๐๐
๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐,โ you whisper back. Your voice is low. Barely above a breath. But the way his body responds โ the way his fingers flex against yours and his shoulders drop just slightly in relief โ it tells you he heard it loud and clear.
His eyes open again, and his lips part โ not in surprise, but in something like disbelief. Like he wasnโt expecting to hear it, not really. Not after everything. But there it is. Said. Real.
Not big. Not immediate. It starts slowly, the corners of his mouth twitching like heโs trying to hold it in.
His bottom lip catches between his teeth.
He ducks his head slightly, like he doesnโt trust himself to react without messing it all up somehow.
You feel your own laugh bubble up โ soft, tired, but real. And when he sees it on your face, hears it in your breath, he lets out a small chuckle too.
A quiet, nervous kind of joy.
Like youโre both breathing again for the first time.
And then โ finally โ you both lean in at the same time.
The kiss is slow, unhurried, a quiet collision of everything youโve felt and said and feared in the last twenty-four hours. His hand cups your jaw gently, thumb brushing your cheek, grounding you. Your hands slide up to his chest, gripping the fabric of his jacket like heโs the only solid thing left in the room.
And when you pull apart, just far enough to rest your foreheads together again, youโre both smiling this time โ really smiling.
Because for the first time, neither of you is hiding anymore.
Authors Note: This one was a long one! But my daughter has written this because of my love of Lou DP. Please give her credit. Merissa ๐ซถ๐ผโค๏ธ