when I first started 9-1-1, it was after being inundated with gifsets and even a few theories here on tumblr. my knowledge amounted to: although I couldn't tell the three white-passing boys apart, I knew they had some kind of in-show tension, and at least some of it was gay canon. yay! I was also positive i knew some echoes of the future storylines, and one I was so sure of, was that, at some point, buck had gone to work for another station. I had no idea if it was permanent, if that storyline was still going, if he did it for bad blood or opportunity or what, I just knew it was coming. I had such absolute dread the closer I got to catching up. where was it?? is he still gone???? but he belongs here!!!! I can't have him be gone!!!! this is the buck buckley show!!!! the 118 didn't become the 118 until buck brought too much heart and not enough self-preservation, you know????
all this is to say, when I got up to speed, at the end of 8a, I sat there in relief, and a not-insignificant amount of puzzlement. It confirmed to me how much I really couldn't tell the white/lightskinned men apart on the show, and that I didn't really know anything beforehand, just jumbled spoilers
however, when Buck suggested jumping ship, end of 8b, I was excited. my dream, my ghostly premonition, I was prepared for this eventuality. and of course, he'd return, triumphant, but I was greedy for the drama of him actually giving up on the team
alas, twas not meant to be, but I still dream