this crushed my soul in the deepest way possible. i have so much empathy for mabel, she could not help it but if there’s one thing i know, she loved. she loved her children, her husband and his friends, even if she showed it in a way that may be deemed as “abnormal”. she only lashed out when she felt threatened or misunderstood or afraid of losing her family. i felt deeply for this whole family honestly. watching this film…

“i wanted to see him so bad that i didn’t even dare imagine him anymore”

i think i just found a new fave. this film is so beautiful, tragic, painful, hypnotizing and unique. the beginning was so mysterious and i had no idea what turn it would take but once the storyline started coming together, the more questions arose in my mind. this film just made me feel things. travis is so gentle and patient and awkward but loving and…

what lynch did here is something i don’t even have words for. he is my favorite director and this is the 3rd or 4th time i have rewatched this, there’s more to digest each time and more that is revealed with every watch. sheryl lee gives the performance of a lifetime and it is beyond me how she didn’t have every director begging to work with her. twin peaks is one of my fave shows of all time and it…

probably the saddest horror film i’ve ever seen. so brutal, so difficult to watch. seeing laura alive in her last days after only hearing others talk about her and what she was like was so personal to see. sheryl lee gives such an intense and heartbreaking performance. made me want to scream at moments and cry at others. i can understand the backlash this film got and that it isn’t for everyone but i personally thought it was very well…

tw // drugs, substance abuse

we all know leo is an amazing actor, but do you ever watch a film and you completely get lost in it to the point where it feels the character is no longer an actor at all but they are one. leo was jim, i was no longer watching leonardo dicaprio act but i was watching jim carroll’s life story. leo no longer existed, my brain completely detached the artist from art. it seemed so…

“Life and death. Energy and peace. If I stopped today, it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I have made and would have unmade, if I could. The pain that have burned me and scarred my soul. It was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, though it, in it and above.”

i really loved this film…

“Sometimes it feels like we're all living in a Prozac nation. The United States of Depression.“

i saw some reviews saying that this film wrongly portrays depression. i have to disagree. for 1, depression manifests different in everyone. it’s not a one size fits all. 2, lizzie was dealing with more than just depression: she also struggled with other mental health issues. 3, this is an adaptation of a biographical book so basically a biopic on elizabeth wurtzel, a real…