“time wasn’t right. it was moving too fast. and then i was 19. and then i was 20. i felt like one of those dolls. asleep in the supermarket. stuffed. and then i was 21. like chapters skipped over in a dvd. i told myself ‘this isn’t normal. this isn’t normal. this isn’t how life is supposed to feel.’” and “what if i really was someone else? very far away on the other side of a television screen.”
when i…