triggering on a deep level for me (religious trauma & 'rents who go on loud [opposing] rants/lectures at each other (ever so ideologically incompatible, amongst other things) or at us (me, my sister) has left me completely unscathed...)
i was already in a bad mental state today (went to bed weighed down & near-smothered by a dark onset or maybe rather just a sudden deepening episode/low point of a chronic depression (aided by thinking about the state of the world, the overwhelming…