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Through Fire And Flames

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Bereft of Reason
Know that you can’t save everyone.
Remember that you have to try.

I've been on tumblr far too long.

(^banner by @aberrat19n )

Bumble, They/He. Pls subscribe on YouTube and Twitch thanks <3 You can find me chatting in Technoblade’s offline twitch chat at basically all times. I live there <3

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  • Twitch/youtube: for whom the bell tolls
  • For Adam: up and adam
  • Talking tag: bumble rumbles
  • Art tag: bumble does art for once
  • Asks tag: the bell tolls for you
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  • Fucking with my health to try to fix it: bumble does science
  • Fandom wank: fandom wank
  • Duck, my golden retriever: duck the dog
  • Echo, my cat: echo the cat
  • Bean, my rabbit: bean the bunny
  • Trying not to kill houseplants: bumble's orchid adventures
  • Dumb shit i've said to my friends that got immediately screenshotted: quote room

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for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

When I tell that I LOVE solarpunk

Oh, I remember this, the edit was done by youtuber Waffle to the left.

They didn't just cut out the parts with the oat milk, they skillfully edited over all the god-damn branding and replaced the audio.

But what I still find most hilarious about this whole commercial is the fact that everything they show in this solar punk world seems to be made with sustainable, zero waste and reusable materials.

Everything EXCEPT THE FUCKING CHOBANI BRANDED STUFF! The only plastic you see in this whole commercial is all the straight to the landfill packaging made by the very corporation that tries to sell how sustainable and "green" they are. Unintentional self satire at its finest.

They couldn't even show their yogurt and milk in (basically infinitely reusable) glass containers because they pretty much only sell their shit in plastic

It is such a perfect example of the true face of "green" capitalism, it's hilarious.

The punk in this solarpunk comes from cutting the corporation out of the picture

ALSO

Another really interesting thing about this edit is that they changed the label on the side of the apple-picking machine.

From "donations" to "commons". It's a subtle change, but it makes a huge difference in the world-building of the video. The former implies that this big orchard belongs to an owner and that they're donating the fruits to "the less fortunate" (and, by extension, that poverty is still a thing); the latter implies that the orchard belongs to everyone and that the fruits are free to take in the spirit of solidarity.

Waffle To The Left brought out the potential in this gorgeous video and made it an actual solarpunk utopia — without brands and without corporate pandering, complete with true common ownership over land and resources.

Why is everything on my dash really big. What’s happening. Did I enlarge the UI and then black out??

my sister didn’t realise until last year that she’d been a bully in high school of the mean girl variety. she’s 23 years old. if you think all harm has to be intentional for it to count you’re kind of missing the part where this shit happens all the time. nobody goes around thinking they’re being evil. sometimes they do shit that sucks and nobody calls them out on it and they go home and find ways to justify it to themselves in their head. causing harm + ‘being a bad person’ + fucking up on purpose are all independent variables

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A sweet weekend comes to a close...

Yesterday, the most awesome man in the world and I celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary and the 3rd anniversary of his cancer diagnosis - he's been cancer-free since 9/12/22, we'll be together 16 years in April -

and today was my 63rd birthday! (we met 23 years ago today, on my 40th birthday, on the sidewalk outside the sleaziest bar on Folsom Street after last call...)

(Not bad for 35 years with AIDS - I nearly died of wasting in 1996 but medical cannabis and the people who risked jail for providing it to me saved my damn life, thank you Dennis Peron and Brownie Mary and the saints who ran the underground cannabis clubs in San Francisco, bless you in eternal light forever.)

In times like these, it's good to reflect upon what's good and true and right. We can't know what the next day or the next hour will bring, but we can be sure of where we are now.

And right now, I am sure that I'm the luckiest mutt in the whole damn world.

Woofs and wags to you, awoo!

-Alpha Pup Bruzr, aka Animal J. Smith

Okay okay we all know Johnny cash did his cover of Hurt and we were all like “ok he owns that now” but I watched the music video he made and I’m like “oh he OWNS it owns it”

It’s totally wild to me because most people agree that Trent Reznor is a master of his craft and Hurt is considered one of NIN’s best songs. Imagine having this great hit and 8 years later a musical legend who hasn’t done anything great in a long time and is ostensibly dying takes your song and fucking. Just fucking obliterates you

Taken from the Wikipedia page. Even Trent Reznor said it's not his song anymore.

in case you hadn't seen

Holy hell that's video is…painful and stunning. If you grew up listening to Johnny Cash I think it'll hit even harder. And June Carter Cash is in the video, which takes hard and doubles it.

I'm glad people who didn't know who are discovering it's a cover, not just because Trent Reznor deserves that much, but because I think the fact that Cash did not write it is crucial to the power of his version. This is a young man's song about suffering, about addiction and self-destruction in youth. And Cash is, in the most majestic possible way, taking that and going "oh kid, you have no idea", and changes the meaning without changing the lyrics (except for a single word). In his voice, on his face, in his aged hands on the guitar and piano, it becomes about the agonising brevity of life, the irretrievability of mistakes, and the inevitable loss of everything, including a recognisable self. But the creativity of repurposing only shows if you can still see what was originally there.

I like too, that Cash’s version doesn’t feel like he’s scoffing at the young man’s pain. He’s using the same words and he’s saying kid, the hurt never stops. You can get friends back until they’re dead, you can uproot your whole life and start over until your body can’t drag your suitcase any further. You have time to restart. You can do it again. Don’t let this young man’s hurt become an old man’s hurt.

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I’m laughing, but there’s a super useful corollary, which my husband calls “the Red Balloon.” He was a defense lawyer and had a fair number of drug addicts come through, and there is a thing where if you’re like, on your first offense, they’ll do a thing where you can go to treatment and if you complete it they’ll take the conviction off your record.  And he would tell his clients, “Look, everyone’s going to tell you not to do drugs. They’re going to say it over and over again. And it’s like, if people tell you not to think of a white elephant, you’re going to think of a white elephant. But the trick to not thinking about a white elephant is to think of a red balloon. So you need to find your red balloon. For some people it’s yoga. For others it’s woodworking. For some people it’s scrapbooking or gardening or any of a long list of things to do. They focus on that, it’s a lot easier to succeed in ignoring the white elephant.” So yeah, “watch yourself” is one thing… but the better idea is to watch something else. (Even if it’s fanfic about werewolves fucking.)

It’s a form of productive dissociation, and is super, super helpful. It’s easy for me to get bogged down in how much pain I’m in… but some of the most painful periods of my life have also been the most productive, writing-wise, because writing is one of my red balloons. 

There is a phrase I use A LOT in my parenting and my son gets very sick of it, but it’s true:

The thing you practise is the thing you get good at.

You may not intentionally be practicing “being grumpy” but if you don’t put effort into practicing “not being grumpy” then I’m afraid that’s what you’re doing. It’s hard! It’s really hard! Sometimes, for some things, it’s pretty much impossible and that sucks!

But being carefully aware that you are going to get good at the things you do most of is a good way to be more careful of what those things are. If that makes sense.

You gotta appreciate sometimes how tumblr works in such a way that everyone who wants to reblog this interesting or useful psychological advice is also forced to reblog the thing about werewolf fucking

Forced? That’s a privilege, frankly

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