another url change because 8x13 made me emotional

eddiediazdefensesquad→ eddiesfuckasstruck → eddiebestdaddiaz

because he is the best dad, and we should all clap and cheer about it 😭

can't wait for a season 9 plot where helena and ramon are coming to visit, and buck just looks like this all episode 😬🙄🤨😡😓. he will be constantly torn between trying to please helena (because eddie loves his mom and he loves eddie) and thinking that she is the devil incarnate (because NO ONE is allowed to say one single negative thing about eddie or chris in front of buck 👊)

and then we can parallel 8x13 where eddie stands up for buck like he did chris... he may have failed shannon with his mother all those years ago, but he will not fail buck

it's just... buck is the only one who has seen the entirety of eddie and chris. his diaz boys. he was there when shannon came back, and then shannon died. he was there for the fall out of fight club, and the grief eddie went through when he lost shannon and then felt like he couldn't reach buck. he took care of chris when eddie was shot, and he was the first one chris called when he was scared for his dad. he's the first person eddie goes to for help, and the person who chris ran to when he is upset. buck was the only person who knew eddie well enough to know how screwed up his family was back in s5. they are each other's safe space.

but most importantly, buck was there when christopher left with eddie's parents. he was there for chris' birthday as eddie's smile fell from his face. he was at work with eddie, and he was at eddie's house almost daily when they weren't working.

even if buck isn't a parent himself, he knows better than anyone else in the world what eddie's been through. because he has seen every single moment of the journey. and when the time comes, of course he knows what eddie needs. because there is no one in the world who knows eddie better. so while buck still feels like his heart is breaking every time he is reminded of the fact eddie isn't coming back, he knows eddie and chris need each other. and as much as he feels like he needs them, buck knows what it is like to have parents who don't care. the fact eddie cares so much? it makes buck love him more. and even though he feels like it is breaking his heart to only get eddie through a screen, he will take any piece of eddie diaz he can get. he will keep giving the advice and being the support pillar. because even a sliver of eddie diaz is better than nothing at all.

and that? that's love.

the only good part of tommy being at bobby's funeral is the possibility for the most unhinged, ridiculous scene. tommy is still bitter after the events of 8x11, and he is going to make some bitchy comment when he sees eddie like 'oh, i should have known it was too good to be true. of course, the competition came back.' eddie is like.... what the fuck are you talking about, dude? obviously eddie is focused on the funeral of it all, and uh, maybe buck hadn't mentioned his run in with tommy yet. meanwhile, buck, who was already grieving and devastated, is now close to a panic attack and telling eddie not to listen to tommy. tommy just rolls his eyes and gestures towards buck. 'the competition for him. everybody could see there were three people in our relationship.' buck thinks tommy is outing him for feelings he has convinced himself he doesn't have, and he is trying to tell eddie it isn't true. that he doesn't feel that way because he knows eddie is straight. meanwhile, it all clicks for eddie instantly - what tommy is insinuating about *him*, not buck. eddie's face goes white like..... oh, uh...... and buck is still spiraling with terror in his eyes. tommy just stands there like this 🧍‍♂️ because this is just confirming what he already knew to be true

and then EDDIE has to examine why tommy would think that.... yay :)