hi im whiskey/jason/vee/kian im in my 20s and my pronouns are he/him (sometimes she/her if i'm feeling silly) my ao3 is Whiskey_With_Patron if we were mutuals on my old blog and i don’t follow u back here it’s ok we r still mutuals in my heart i just don’t want an endless dashboard and will check ur blog like the daily newspaper sometimes <3 i’ll edit my pinned more later i’m still not gonna b online a whole lot rn

being trans has a lot of complicated feelings!!!! sometimes figuring out ur not cis can come with like. a sort of grief, i guess??? that ur not who u thought u were. breakdowns will happen!!!! god does it happen!!! it happens so much!!!! it can be breakdowns over dysphoria (if u experience that), it can be over the idea of telling ur loved ones about it, it can be about feeling like you've failed your younger self because you're not going to grow into the kind of person you wanted to, general confusion about your identity and what labels you want to use (if any), figuring out how you want to present to try to feel more at home in your body and your identity, feeling like you're faking being trans somehow (which is impossible btw, even if u decide ur cis later, your identity is up to you and you alone) and like. so many more things!!!! being trans is not a walk in the park!!! if u break down when u think about ur gender, that is so normal actually!!! genuinely!! the amount of breakdowns i had in the shower over this shit especially when i was a teenager is fucking. uncountable i think!!! figuring urself out will often come with crises, and maybe you'll settle into it and find something that works for you and work out whatever's bothering you soon, or maybe it'll be more of a slow acclimation to being who you want to be and the breakdowns about it will become less and less and eventually you'll just kind of look at urself and realize hey. im trans and im happy about it <3 it's rly complicated!!!! and it's different for everyone!!!! i hope u can figure things out soon and feel better about all of this, but many many trans ppl know what ur goin thru and ur not alone <3