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Castiel Derangement Hot Zone

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Laura | 30s | they/he/she | U.S. | writer | AO3 I have never had a heterosexual thought in my life and my toxic trait is that I like the show I'm in a fandom for. Icon by X

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About

  • This is, broadly, a multifandom and personal blog, but 90% of the content you're gonna get here is Supernatural. Yeah. I didn't expect that either but after going on three years I've just accepted that this is my life now.
  • Generally show-positive and actor-positive. Neither the show nor the people who produced it are without flaws and I will happily have a ponder on issues of racism, misogyny, etc. when the mood strikes. However I am here because I like the show and want to celebrate the things that I like about it because fandom is a fun hobby for me.
  • Officially I am a Cas fan first and a human second because I see him and my brain turns into a gibbering pile of mush in a way it simply does not with other characters. Unofficially so many people having bad faith takes on Dean and dunking on him in really classist, shitty, deeply unwarranted ways caused me to become extremely protective of him and love him almost as much as I do Cas because I spent so much time trying to take him apart to see how he works.
  • Basically what I'm saying is that this is a pro-Destiel blog and I think both Cas and Dean are loving, well-intentioned people with a lot of baggage and issues who sometimes hurt each other and both contribute to that pretty much equally but who both, ultimately, are capable of growth, healing, and being their best selves with and for each other.
  • Related to the above, calling Dean or Cas abusive will get you blocked <3
  • Rowena is love. Rowena is life. I don't blog about her nearly as much as I think about her.
  • I'm not interested in policing anyone else's fandom engagement (or media consumption in general) and that includes not shaming people for enjoying things I personally find objectionable, whether that's ships, fanfic, or entire source texts. That's their business, not mine. If I don't want to interact with someone, I block or softblock and move on with my life.
  • Related to the above, Sastiel squicks the hell out of me. I do not want to hear about it, I do not want to talk about it, I want people to be able to enjoy what they like but I would like them to do it far the hell away from me in this specific case.
  • Lastly, I'm one whole grown adult. Not a young adult, an adult-adult with a mortgage and everything. I do not have an MDNI policy bc I think teenagers who are old enough to be online unsupervised are also old enough to decide for themselves if they want to follow or not. (I also don't interact one on one with people via DMs on tumblr very much, as I use tumblr as a blogging platform rather than a social media platform.) However, if you feel compelled to DM me for whatever reason and happen to be a young person, please indicate in some way that you are in fact not an adult because my socially oblivious ass will just sort of assume everyone around me is also in the 20-40 range unless told otherwise.

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  • Writing: all fanfiction, original fiction, and poetry I've written (tbh it's 99.9% fanfic). A direct link to my AO3 can be found in my bio at the top of the blog.
  • Meta posts: either my original posts or posts to which I've added substantial additional commentary
  • Bi Dean: what it says on the tin, posts that are evidentiary of Dean's queerness, a mix of original and reblogged content.
  • 2023 SPN rewatch: liveblogging and analysis posts generated by my ongoing rewatch. [currently on season 12]
  • End of the Book podcast: Hey, I write for that! EOTBpod started as a reaction and analysis podcast for The Winchesters, and is being reorganized as a general analysis podcast for Supernatural, The Winchesters, and any other projects in the SPN universe that may come down the pipeline. [Currently on hiatus out of respect for the WGA and SAG-AFTRA strikes as we have creatives on the show who are currently members or may be future members of both unions and we're not trying to cross picket lines here]

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it really is crazy how quickly people were willing to just let chatgpt do everything for them. i have never even tried it. brother i don't even know if it's just a website you go to or what. i do not know where chatgpt actually lives, because i can decide my own grocery list.

not to get too earnest about an utterly ridiculous season seven motw buckleming episode (and i should probably save my thoughts for my writers rewatch anyway since i’m only one away from it) but the interesting thing to me about emma is that at the end when they try to hand wave it all away with the whole “it’s fine, she wasn’t really yours” thing, dean pushes back on it!!! like he absolutely could’ve just been like you know what. you’re right. it was just a monster really, not my human kid, so it doesn’t count. but the fact that he literally makes a point to be like no, she was actually mine means something!!!

I would loved to have had Harper Sayles become a reoccurring character who just breezes in every once in a while and tries to kill Jack, always failing, but becomes this ongoing dance/running joke between them. The necromancer who fell in love/lust with an effectively unkillable creature.

Like they’re just working a case and she fucking runs him over with a whole ass car, and he just pops up from the wreckage like, “🫨whoa! Are you okay?—Oh, hello Harper. ✋🙂” And she just, “❤️👄❤️✨Hi Jack. Did you miss me?”

Or they’ll be at a diner and he’ll be like, “huh. My food kinda tastes kinda funny.” *looks over to see Harper behind the counter holding rat poison in her hand like; “☠️😘” And Jack: “✋😀”

TFW2.0 casually digging up a grave one night, as they do, and she just comes out of no where and stabs him in the chest, and he’s like: “Hello Harper! Did you do something to your hair? It’s really pretty.” And she just: “🥰🔪🩸 yeah I got highlights, that’s so sweet of you to notice💕”

hi, a lot of you need a perspective reset

  • the average human lifespan globally is 70+ years
  • taking the threshold of adulthood as 18, you are likely to spend at least 52 years as a fully grown adult
  • at the age of 30 you have lived less than one quarter of your adult life (12/52 years)
  • 'middle age' is typically considered to be between 45-65
  • it is extremely common to switch careers, start new relationships, emigrate, go to college for the first or second time, or make other life-changing decisions in middle age
  • it's wild that I even have to spell it out, but older adults (60+) still have social lives and hobbies and interests.
  • you can still date when you get old. you can still fuck. you can still learn new skills, be fashionable, be competitive. you can still gossip, you can still travel, you can still read. you can still transition. you can still come out.
  • young doesn't mean peaked. you're inexperienced in your 20s! you're still learning and practicing! you're developing social skills and muscle memory that will last decades!
  • there are a million things to do in the world, and they don't vanish overnight because an imaginary number gets too big
Anonymous asked:

why do you think dean gets so enamored with a weird dorky guy like cas

Dean loves dorky little guys in general. He thinks they’re cute and neat and endearing. They are a delight they entertain him and amuse him and make him smile in a sad and scary world. In addition to his affinity for dorky little guys, Dean is attracted to powerful men. When Dean first meets Cas, he’s more powerful than any person Dean’s ever faced in a fight besides yellow eyes and maybe the white eyed demons, and he’s burning holes into demons skulls and they’re rambling in terror over Cas. At first, Cas isn’t so much on Dean’s side as he’s his sworn protector out of duty because the angels need Dean to do things for them. But slowly, Dean starts to see the person underneath all those orders. A powerful supernatural being whose ultimate desire isn’t to terrorize or subjugate humans. Who instead believes humanity is beautiful—that humans should be protected and cherished, and ultimately forsakes eons of brainwashing to defend them. And someone who will go to the great lengths to protect even strangers? That’s Dean’s whole M.O. it’s his whole 1.02 thesis. So of course he’s going to swoon over someone he shares common values with, who he can also relate to from the soldier/absent father perspective to boot!

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in loving memory of tumblr's april fools' pranks 💐 2014 - 2024

icymi, tumblr used to do an elaborate april fool's prank every year, but this year they suddenly stopped. here's a somewhat detailed recap of everything they did over the decade:

2013 - mishapocalypse (honourable mention): tumblr staff didn’t start doing april fools until 2014, but the mishapocalypse happened on tumblr in 2013 and i feel like this list would be incomplete without it

2014 - tumblrpro: upon opening your dash you were greeted by an “inspirational” video, that ended with the option to get “tumblrpro (for free)”. all it did was put a top hat on your icon.

2015 - tumblr executivesuite/coppy: a copying machine appeared in the corner of your dash. it would offer tips on how to use tumblr, like clippy the paperclip used to do in microsoft word. as the day went on, it slowly broke down and died right in front of your eyes. many people hated him (but not me). you could also make a (small) spreadsheet. @executivesuite2016 is the official blog.

2016 - this is decision/lizard election/tumblrdecides: a parody of the 2016 US elections. there were 4 lizards (well, one of them turned out to be a salamander in a scandal) to vote for. the dash looked different and there was a live news report with election updates, as well as an election blog for each lizard. they all had their own slogans and you would get an "i voted" button after you voted that would get slapped next to your icon. there were built-in functions to make an election poster for your favourite lizard and to create a text post that supported your lizard of choice that autogenerated a statement for all your followers to read. imo tumblr’s april fools peak. @thisisdecision2016-blog is the official blog, @mop-2016-blog @wretchedtooth @timefordeborah-blog were candidates. rick also had a blog (rick-official) but that now seems to have vanished because he ended up dropping out of the election. mop won, if you're curious. by far the most elaborate prank tumblr ever did.

2017 - horse friend: a tamagotchi-inspired game where you had to take care of a little horse in the corner of your screen. it came with a randomly generated name, and you had to feed and clean up after it. if you didnt take good care of it, it died. you could then hatch (yes, hatch) a new one. there was also an option to look at the names of all your dead horses. this is now available to buy in the tumblr shop. @horse-friends is the official blog.

2018 - tumblcoin: a parody of cryptocurrency (this was the year bitcoin took off). you could ‘invest’ in tumblcoin, with which you could in turn buy things with to spice up your dash, including last year’s horse friend, coppy from 2015, and a frame for around your icon. you could share the amount of tumblcoin you owned in an automatically generated gif post which would be tagged #tbc2018 and #tumblcoin. @tumblcoin is the official blog.

2019 - @memories: this blog still functions the way it did on april fools itself! it's like mad libs, where it takes post templates and then adds in tags you use a lot and users you frequently interact with on your main blog. like a personalized shitpost bot.

2020 - group chat prank/@storybot: it was so hard to find info on this because it was contained entirely in the now-defunct group chat function, which no one used. i had to go through the notes of this post for information because no one cared enough to actually write anything explaining it. turns out, you could write a story with your mutuals by adding storybot to your group chat. it also kept working after april fools (well, up until the group chats were deleted) just like memories. many people missed out on it entirely because they did not use the group chat function.

2021 - tumblcryptids: tumblr allowed you to adopt “non-fungible tumblcryptids”, a parody of NFTs. clicking a button that said "Summon thy Tumblrcryptid" would spawn an image of a little blob-shaped creature with a short description, which would always read "Hi! My name is [randomly generated name]. I love [thing most people like]. I hate [thing most people dislike]. Like my parent, I can't get enough of #[tag from your main blog]." you could share them in a post, which would automatically add the tag #NFTumblcryptids to your post. and yes, people on the piss on the poor website freaked out about it because they thought they were real NFTs harming the environment. @tumblcryptidadoptioncenter is the official blog.

2022 - click-a-thon: when you clicked a light switch on your dashboard, a bunch of colourful things showed up, like a sponge you could move around, an "engagament meter", clickable buttons, and a “Summon Crab!” button, which would summon a crab when you clicked it. you could. the crabs, like horse friend, are still available in the tumblr store as of 2025. here's some screenshots. there were various ways to share your crab activities, which would all get tagged #april fools 2022. the prank was presented as a marketing technique created by Brick Whartley, a fictional businessman character created by tumblr, who (afaik) originated in a post on the official blog of the 2018 april fools prank, albeit originally in a different role. around this time he also started functioning as the mascot for tumblr's shop ( @emporium )

2023 - abstract reactions (emoji reacts): buttons were added to every post that allowed you to add emoji reactions, many of them based on tumblr inside jokes (horse as a reference to horse plinko/horse friend, vanilla for the vanilla extract meme, pikaman, bug for bug race, and brick whartley, who wasn't a meme but staff really wanted him to be). if one specific emoji was used a certain amount of times it would add an effect to the post, eg many cheese emoji reacts would cover the post in cheese. this was also attributed to Brick Whartley ("his" blog @brickwhartley also documented the day)

2024 - boop-o-meter: allowed you to “boop” other users who had opted in to the booping, like facebook’s poke feature back in the day. depending on how long you held the button, you would either boop, super boop, or evil boop. on the dashboard there was a counter for both how many times you had booped others and how many times others had booped you, as well as how many boops were given side-wide. when booping someone, an image of a cat paw appeared. you would get badges (which can still be used) for booping 1, 100 and 1000 times. if you got more than 999 boops, the counter would simply say “WOW”. this was brought back for halloween 2024 (as BOOp-o-meter. get it), with a ghost, skeleton and mummy paw. no official blog, but here's an official recap for april first from staff. i believe this was the only april fools prank that was mobile user friendly.

2025 - @fandom is running some polls, i guess

Idk about that whole “Sam is actually the sole lead in season 1” business because sorry. I just don’t see it. Like someone can say that to me but I am watching it and just… nah. I don’t think so. And if Kripke wanted it that way he did a bad job. And no this isn’t all Jensen making Dean shine brighter (tho of course he did, but it really really isn’t just that). Salmon Dean have like. Trading POV or equal screen time all of the time. They both make contributions to cases and bounce off each other. They are both shown to be smart and competent and to have important emotional storylines. In equal measure. The Pilot is all about both of the brothers and Sam actually plays exposition boy about their family. Then 1.02 is a Dean episode. And so is 1.03 it’s about Dean’s trauma. And Dean is the hero who saves the day in 1.02 and 1.03 (kills the big bad; saves Lucas). Phantom Traveler literally just a comedy episode where they are both doing things. And in 1.05 again Dean saves the day by defeating Bloody Mary. Then 1.06 “Skin” is again all about him and again he kills the baddie and saves Sam. And in 1.07 Hook Man this is definitely a Sam episode but guess who kills the baddie and saves Sam. And in 1.10 Asylum yet again Dean saves the day multiple times in multiple ways by being smart and perceptive af and he defeats the big bad and saves Sam. And Scarecrow is again about both brothers and them working alone and equally follows their separate POV’s—in fact Dean probably gets more screen time. Faith. Again. A big big Dean episode. Route 666. Also literally a Dean episode. The Benders. Dean has most of the screen time. Dean is working the case Sam IS the case. Hell house. Very much an equal POV episode AND Dean comes up with both plans to defeat the tulpa by himself and a big part of the case is Dean realizing one of the symbols they found is for BOC. I haven’t gotten back through 19-22 on this rewatch but anyway literally I have no idea what anyone is talking about. Sam the sole lead where. This is a show about two brothers and many many many episodes focus heavily on Dean’s POV.

the thing is that dean was ON his cute shit in 3.12 jus in bello like he comes in swinging already having been cast as the focus of victor's career for the past year, likely getting him to invest more time in him than in at least one of his marriages, BUT THEN he comes out swinging even more when he's proven unexpectedly right about everything and immediately makes a silly song reference, then spends the rest of the episode listening to victor's existential crisis, being fiercely against one woman sacrificing herself to save the many, committing to finding a way out of their situation without having to kill anyone, laying out his life philosophy to victor that even if the world is doomed they should still choose to fight and it matters that they do, making this adorable endearing face, fighting side by side with him, and coming up with a plan that actually works and saves people's lives. all the while giving him those green-eyed looks. dean IS victor's manic pixie dream boy in a very real sense. yeah of course henriksen had no other choice but to fall in love with that

I haven't seen this on Tumblr yet. Cory Booker has held the floor of the Senate for a 16 hour and counting filibuster and it's all streaming on YT. Currently almost 30k people are watching. You can become one of them without even moving from your screen. In the category of "the absolute least you can do" to support a democrat actually doing something... maybe give it a watch.

He is now at hour 20 and if he breaches 24 hours & 18 minutes he will take the record for longest filibuster, a record currently held by Strom Thurmond who used his filibuster to argue against civil rights legislation & voting rights

"It's not about right and left it's about right and wrong" - Cory Booker

and he's doing it as eloquently as I've ever heard someone speak in defense of this stupid annoying mess of a country. I'm over 40, have kept on top of the news most of my life, can remember back to speeches and debates going back to the late 1980s, and it's been a damn long time since I've been this impressed with someone's speechmaking. It really shows how much he prepared ahead of time to do this filibuster. Nothing he's doing or saying is an accident.

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