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Tea soon.

@mrs-gauche / mrs-gauche.tumblr.com

Spirit self, seeing the soul, but somehow sorrows.
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Hey guys! 🙂 It's the end of 2024 and I realized today I haven't posted on here since finishing Veilguard.

Well, to make it short.. since then, I've spent a lot of time thinking about it, replaying it, watching my friends who are DA casuals and not into fandom play it (which was very enlightening but also hilarious 😂), so now.. I feel like I'm at a point where I know exactly what my issues with this game are and I've made peace with it. I still love Dragon Age! And I love parts of Veilguard and I had a ton of fun playing it (though probably for all the wrong reasons 🥲). When I first finished the game, I cried tears of happiness that after ten years my favorite character actually somehow got a beautiful Happy Ending and closure, but also tears of sorrow that this marks the end of the story that was set up back in 2009.. and tears of mourning that this story had all the potential to be so so SO much more.

Dragon Age is a very weird franchise in that all the games have been, in many ways, vastly different from each other and to be a fan of the whole series means to recognize all its flaws and changes, but still loving it because of its unique core elements that glue it together and make it so special. I could sit here for hours trying to put into words what I think went wrong with Veilguard, but I know many people have already done so far more eloquently than I ever could. This blog was always meant to be just a positive little corner to share my love for these games and silly VA stuff with other people and I'm sure I will eventually reblog all the two million posts I've liked over the past month, both positive and critical. But for now and the new year, I want to focus my time and energy on just being creative, getting back to drawing and trying to realize ideas about DA I've had for a looong time and that's my way of "emotionally recovering" (that sounds so dramatic 😂). 💜

With that being said... What a crazy decade year it has been for me personally in this fandom... So I want to look back at it, just some rambling under the cut, 'cause I'm a little sentimental now, I guess. 🥲

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I beat Veilguard.

It's 4am. I'm a mess. I'm in tears.

#datv spoilers#the moment that completely broke me#''Ich entlasse Euch aus meinen Diensten''#Ar lasa mala revas#you are free#and so am I.. I feel like I've ascended from Solavellan Hell to Solavellan Heaven after ten flippin years#I think an embrace would have hit me even harder than a kiss at the end.. but it was just done so beautifully#I've always had one wish for Solas' story regardless of all the speculation and theories made over the years#and that was for him to find peace#so these are mostly tears of joy#I'm too overwhelmed to find the right words now#this game had many glaring problems to me but I still had a great time and there are many things to love#and maybe I mourn the potential of what could have been#the Veil still being up is.... very unexpected to say the least?#but Act 3 was incredible and god did that ending hit all the right spots for me#it's so strange to say ''goodbye'' to a character that you've been thinking about for so long#but I'm so thankful to have closure now#my heart is full#you know what's crazy?#right after that final cutscene ended I saw that it had actually started to snow outside for the first time this season#snow symbolizes purity or something right?#and that just made me think of how Solas used to envy Sera for her purity of purpose that he lacked#I like to think he regained it now#thinking about a little Wisdom spirit#hmm#I don't think I can sleep now#I think I'll just watch the snow a little more
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Heyo! How you all doing? :)

*deep breath* So.. I'm at the end of Act 2 now, about to start Act 3.. (I think? I don't even know for sure where I'm at. lol)

You only get to play for the first time once, so I'm really taking my time, doing everything there is, reading every codex, trying to appreciate the details, taking pics and talking to myself recording some of my thoughts along the way (and just maybe trying to avoid the main story, since I'm pretty terrified for Act 3 and the ending 🫠). I have no idea what's gonna happen. I haven't looked at any fandom spaces for weeks. I have.. such conflicting feelings about all of this. I'm still trying to process. I am also sleep deprived as f*ck. So...

Pray for me. 💀

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WELL. FUCK.

#what just happened#my heart is in shambles#I SAW THIS FUCKING COMING#AND I'M STILL SHOCKED#did I just f*cking kill a baby griffon#datv spoilers#gauche goes veilguarding#I need. a break.
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Heyo! How you all doing? :)

*deep breath* So.. I'm at the end of Act 2 now, about to start Act 3.. (I think? I don't even know for sure where I'm at. lol)

You only get to play for the first time once, so I'm really taking my time, doing everything there is, reading every codex, trying to appreciate the details, taking pics and talking to myself recording some of my thoughts along the way (and just maybe trying to avoid the main story, since I'm pretty terrified for Act 3 and the ending 🫠). I have no idea what's gonna happen. I haven't looked at any fandom spaces for weeks. I have.. such conflicting feelings about all of this. I'm still trying to process. I am also sleep deprived as f*ck. So...

Pray for me. 💀

#I am. so scared.#I don't have it in me yet to talk about this game online#it's such a weirdly personal experience#I spent so much time in the last couple of weeks talking to my irl friends about it#and why I feel so conflicted#like my entire playthrough so far has been such a wild rollercoaster between#''I'm having a great time'' and *staring blankly at the screen trying to wrap my head around certain decisions made by the devs* lmao#I have no idea what's happening online#I'm scared to go on here too because I noticed people are reblogging a lot of my old stuff and I don't wanna spoil myself#all I'm seeing are a lot of mutuals having rather extreme reactions to the game and the ending#people seem to either love or hate it#which seems to be the general reaction to any DA or BioWare game release ever tbh lol#anyway don't tell me anything but Solas is gonna do something very very VERY bad right?#like there are SO MANY weird red flags in his conversations 💀#and it would be so hilarious.. like everyone and their mother talks about how he's gonna betray us..#..only for him not to do it lmao#like we're basically just waiting for him to betray us now lol#and I'm so scared for Varric#that f*cking dagger stuck in your chest#asking myself since the beginning how are you still alive???#it's so funny to me how he keeps popping up in group meetings like they need to remind us that he's still here lol#and lmao at me for stressing myself out over what I thought was gonna be the craziest of all boss fights#..only for me to fully avoid the fight by somehow convincing motherflippin Mythal that I'm worthy on my first try talking to her lmaooo#you should've seen my face#I think I've heard the words ''evil'' ''ritual'' and ''power'' so many times now they kinda lost its meaning 🫠#I have so many thoughts on the lore and the writing but my sleep deprived German brain has no idea how to put them into words...#datv spoilers#gauche goes veilguarding
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Well. This is it guys. Download is finally finished ahhhh!! (Yeah, my internet sucks)

Imma head back to Thedas now. It's been a while.

I've got the snacks (sorry kids, the candy is for the adults this year), tissues and my best friend for emotional support. 🥹 Whatever happens, I'm sure it will be one crazy emotional journey.

The Veil shall be guarded. So.. to all my fellow Rooks.. Good luck, have fun and remember

💜

#🫡🫡🫡 Gauche signing off (for now)#dareth shiral my friends
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Before we all leave the internet for good to go play this game, I want us all to give another HUGE shoutout and standing ovation for the one and only @felassan, who has not just been holding the fort for all those years in which the fandom was dormant and hope for Veilguard to ever come out seemed so slim, they've been a true cornerstone of the fandom throughout all of it, and of course this entire crazy marketing campaign, providing everyone with every information, minor or big, regarding BioWare and amazing analysis and summaries and I know I speak for everyone when I say THANK YOU SO MUCH, you're incredible and I hope you'll have a great time with Veilguard and that it is all you've wished for (and our favorite elf Felassan to make a glorious appearance of course!!! Seriously, there should be an entire questline or something dedicated to him just for you and what you've done for the fandom in all those years! 🙇🙇🙇) 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

#bioware#dragon age veilguard#datv#felassan
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Alright. Just so you know.

I stopped looking at stuff online after the preview event happened, so that's how I'm going in. 😁 Whenever I post about my first playthrough or screenshots or something, I'm gonna put it all under a "read more" and tag it with "datv spoilers". :)

Other than that, I'll just be posting this gif without any context whenever something happens that warrants it. 💀

#I have a feeling that gif will be used a LOT#💀💀💀💀
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To my fellow Solavellans who have been my companions in the seventh circle of hell these past 10 years, I just want to salute you.

GIF by machetelanding

May we all ascend to a higher plane soon.

#VarLathVirSuledin

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Sure hope so fam 🫡

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#it has been an honor 💜💜💜#I love you all 🥹🥹🥹#they call it Solavellan Hell but it has been a place of comfort and joy for ten years because of all of you 💜
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yall. in a few days we're getting new dragon age. new companions who will stick with us for years. new narratives to pull at our heartstrings and occupy our thoughts and drive us a little crazy. new banter to delight at, new jokes. new dialogue to pick apart for hidden meanings. new dialogue options that don't match the voiced lines. new locations to explore, new architecture to admire, new flora and fauna to study. new codices to collect. new spells to toy with, new builds to create. new npcs to meet. new outfits to gush over or criticize, to see in fanart over and over again until it's like meeting an old friend. old mysteries to finally solve, new mysteries to uncover and chew on for however many years. NEW LOREEEEEE

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this game just so does not even feel real to me. it genuinely feels as if they reached into my brain and pulled out my wildest, most self indulgent ideas. before 2018 and the dread wolf rises trailer, we didn’t even know if solas would BE in the game AT ALL? sure trespasser sets it up, but that doesn’t mean it would deliver. most people thought he’d only show up at the very end, as a clear villain that had to be defeated. the only frame of reference we had was how characters carried over from previous games… in minor cameos… often unsatisfying ones. people used to argue over whether or not the inquisitor would return, and the consensus was usually that the would not. sure corypheus comes from a da2 DLC and Hawke shows up to help but… hawke and cory never even interact in da:i? would that be what we got in the next game? a few quests with the inquisitor, no satisfying confrontation, and then disappearing for the rest of the game? if you talked about getting a satisfying narrative conclusion for solas and the inquisitor, people would literally make fun of you and call it wishful thinking, but ultimately unrealistic. and then combine this lack of information with the information we DID have: horrible development issues, scrapping the entire original project, the failures of andromeda and anthem, and resignation after resignation after lay off after lay off. devs working there for 20 years deciding to leave, and we haven’t heard a single word about this game in 5-8 years? WE DIDNT EVEN KNOW IF IT WAS BEING MADE OR IF EA WOULD SHUT BIOWARE DOWN. literally every time a major awards ceremony/gaming conference came and went with no news, everyone would go “bro we are never getting this game”. and now we are literally getting a freudian exploration of solas's entire psyche where unpacking his 8,000 of family trauma is a central game mechanic, memories of ancient elvhenan, narrative driven over open world, concept art cocky young solas, inquisitor's presence confirmed, da2 inspired personality based dialogue, lore drops we cannot even begin to imagine, beautiful graphics, milf morrigan with mythal’s soul, and soooo much more like i can’t emphasize enough that this was unthinkable even 3 years ago.

#y e a h#all of this#I can't believe we're here T____T#datv#datv spoilers
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