I want to be them but I don't want to like be them. I just wanna be them. I'm not hoping yo wake up manifestednphysically as them and live their life. I just want to be them. There is no good way to explain this. All I want is to be them. I want my aura to radiate them but in a good way. I want to be perceived in a them way. I want to be them. But I don't want to not be me. I just want to be them
being mutuals is like we’ve never talked but i saw your vent post and do you want me to kill that person for you. still won’t talk to you tho bc that is scary sorry. love you
#fucking spiders man #ANYTHING could be a spider #you reach into your fridge and pull out a popsicle SURPRISE IT’S ACTUALLY A FUCKING POPSICLE SPIDER #you’re walking down the street and a hydrant tackles you GUESS WHAT COCKSUCKER #HYDRANT SPIDER #you reach out in the dark and flip on a light switch AND YOU’RE FUCKED IT WAS A LIGHT SWITCH SPIDER #YOU JUST GAVE A LIGHT SWITCH SPIDER A FUCKDAMN HANDJOB #NICE GOING YOU SKETCHASS ARACHNOFONDLER
Is a statement that will never fail to upset me. If you think this, I recommend rewatching Be More Chill.
(Warnings for talk of neglect, house fires, alcoholism, and underage drinking)
First of all, the entire point of Be More Chill is that the characters are stereotypes who deep down aren't what they seem to be. Yes, Rich is a stereotypical high school bully. But, he's actually being controlled by a SQUIP and is secretly nerdy and sweet and has his own set of issues.
This doesn't only apply to Rich. Every single character has this. The gossip girl, the queen bee, the stoner best friend, THE JOCK.
They are all high school stereotypes that have their own issues. Just because Jake doesn't have as much screen time as other characters does not mean it doesn't apply to him as well.
Within canon, Jake is abandoned by his parents because they're out of the country fleeing from their crimes. Jake participates in countless extracurriculars. Jake keeps himself busy with new things as often as possible. Jake feels lonely in his big house without his parents. Jake is tired of being the person that everyone thinks that he is.
All of these are explicitly stated in at least one of the three versions of Be More Chill.
Chloe's view of him: While a lot of Chloe's talk about Jake with Christine was jealously, there still is truth. Chloe has known Jake for a while and would use his issues against him (like when she specifically brought Jeremy into his parents' bedroom because she knew that would make Jake more upset than anything). When talking to Christine, she says Jake tries new things and doesn't always stick with them. I think this is an important thing to note. Also, Jake quits archery to be with Christine. I think that Jake enjoys sports and his clubs. But, I think it's less about him enjoying the activity and more about him trying desperately to occupy his mind.
The SQUIP even says this in Sync Up. I believe the line was, "This one participates in sports to avoid the feeling that deep down he will never be good enough." This line is so important to me because it confirms a lot of what the other lines and actions allude to. Sports and clubs are a way for Jake to get this rush of being loved and appreciated. He gets the pride of winning a game or leading a debate. Maybe he gets recognition from peers and teachers. When a child does not gain the affection and attention necessary from their parents, they look for it elsewhere. Acing tests and being good at basketball are the ways Jake can gain attention. They are the ways he can feel like he has done something worthy of pride. And maybe if it's good enough, his parents would look at him.
When asked if Jake had abandonment issues, Joe Tracz explained that there was a reason Jake felt like he had to be the best at everything all the time (referencing a line he says to Christine) This directly confirms what I am saying as well. Joe Tracz also said that Jake would be happy he had an excuse to leave that house after it burned down. I'm sure it was something that made Jake feel weighed down. His parents are gone. But, he still has their house. Sbarro was where they got pizza with him when he was a kid, so he continued to go there again and again. He is latching onto these reminders of his parents that I don't think he wants to latch on. He is stuck getting reminders of the things he has lost, and losing that house freed him in a way. If I'm remembering correctly, Joe Tracz said he was happy getting out of that house, and he got a new apartment near a Sbarro. I really like to envision this as Jake escapes what's holding him down and creates Sbarro into a positive thing that is more for him than it was a reminder of what he lost.
Jake's personality is something that would be modeled to gain attention. Neglected children often fall into the categories of acting out for attention and trying to be the best for affection. Jake would be the second option. He is a jock who does well in his classes because he craves the feeling of being good enough. If he is good enough, someone might love and care for him.
Jake does talk about his issues openly. Although, not in a venting way. And I think this is important to his character as well. When he brings up his parents being on the run, Christine says that it's really bad. "But the house is empty, so that's fun!" He is trying to pass his problems off as some cool, fun thing. Well, yeah, my parents are always out of the house. That means I can do what I want! I think, honestly, part of the reason he craved being with Christine is because she was the first person who really took his issues seriously. Instead of joking about throwing parties, she was concerned. When people talk about their issues in this light, a lot of the time, it's in hopes of being seen. I can't just talk about my feelings, but if I make a joke, maybe someone will notice and care. I think this is how Jake operates. But, when Christine notices, being the first to notice, he gets scared. He doesn't know how to be vulnerable. Neglected children are not good with emotional vulnerability and often do not know how to explain how they feel. Jake just tried to joke further.
When it comes to coping mechanisms, joking is one, but I don't think that's all. I think drinking and partying unfortunately became two things he gravitated towards. He mentions drinking on multiple occasions, and it would be an easy way to distract himself. Throwing parties would become a way to ruin the house and fill it with people. It's a big house and it is just him. Parties fill the house with people and erases his loneliness. Yet, his parents' room was off limits. He tries to maintain it. The room was the one thing he couldn't bring himself to ruin. The house can be ruined. He can ruin himself, trying to be perfect. He couldn't bring himself to touch that room. When the house burnt down, he didn't miss it. The house being gone gave him a freedom he didn't know he was searching for. He gets an apartment that was just for him. He was near his favorite restaurant that no longer just had to be about his parents and instead could be about him just simply liking their pizza. He was his own person who wasn't pretending to be someone he wasn't.
Jake is self-aware of his facade. "I'm tired of being the person that everyone thinks that I am." He does end up opening to Christine, despite being afraid earlier. I think it's interesting how he calls Christine out for not trying new things when he buries himself in new things to keep his brain occupied. She says his lonely, rich boy routine seems like an act. It isn't. It's his reality. Everyone thinks of him in a certain view and he can't escape it. Everyone thinks of him in these stereotypes of being a jock or rich boy or whatever. And he isn't that person. He's too deep in it to stop pretending. He's tired of it, anyway.
Jake being this rich boy jock may be true. It's just the way he's learned to protect himself and get the attention he needs. Because people need affection. It is a necessity. Jake isn't getting it any other way.
I do think that Jake can be a jerk and a bad person at times. I think that rings true for a lot of human beings. He is a hurting teenager, and a lot of hurting teenagers are assholes. I don't think he should be fully justified in every action he makes. However, I think there is a lot more to understand about him that people don't care to understand because he's a more minor character.
Jake is an asshole jock. The thing is, he is this more because he feels like he has to be than just because he likes being that way.
Jake is a complex character who deserves more recognition and understanding for being that way.
golden retrievers are still the only breed i’ve ever worked with that go absolutely WILD with excitement for the rain most dogs tolerate it, some hate it, but golden retrievers, man. they’re on another level
lost in the sauce
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wet beast wednesday
I swear once I'm like concrete on the plot I'll. Progress. Fuck!!!
Wait but what if sybil is actuslly the antagonist bevause of what theyre trying to do. SEE MY ISSUE IS IDK EHAT REASON THEY COULD POSSIBLY HAVE TO PREVEMT THE PROTAG FROM HELPING THE 'ANTAG' IN EXCHANGE FOR HELP. like. I already tried making it so thst they were a host for a real antagonist but then that pulls away from what I want to central plot to be. Sigh.
Hey does anyone have a list or link or ideas for why you'd need to prevent someone not inherently bad (just mildly insane) from seeking help from someone innocent :))!!!
I swear once I'm like concrete on the plot I'll. Progress. Fuck!!!
haaii i saw this quiz n i immediately thought abt u ! https://uquiz.com/quiz/fOjkwO?p=5742788
Ahh this was fun! Thank you for sharing!
I got this and it is accurate...
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ty and @justwhenbluemeetsyellow @the-bogginses-are-gay for the tag!!!
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also tagged by @abs-blabs
damn they clocked my tea
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no one tagged me i just wanna >:D
this is so cute i need one now
no pressure tags <3 @imsososssssscared @mcckenzzie @tragicfabric-of-ourdreaming
ty @stellybella for tagging me :)
this is so cute, and I literally do have adhd lol
tags: @thecolorscarlettt, @crimsonthegay or anyone obvi
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