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they/them | 24 | europe | cripple punk • I am multiply disabled with high support needs

another underappreciated tumblr feature that you dont get on other sites is the queue. i love it when something i thought was funny six months ago and then forgot about a week later crawlts its way out of the processing vortex and i get to see it all over again.

you should queue this post it would be funny and grant me immortality

you motherfuckers put me in the processing vortex

You can survive almost anything through the right combination of:

  1. Bitching and moaning
  2. Hater-ology
  3. Doing a goofy little bit about it
  4. Having a buddy say "that's so fucked up" at intermittent points (you can also be your own buddy)
  5. Destroying the cursed amulet you carry everywhere, why do you even have that thing

There shouldn't be $15 indie games you dumb slut

Like I'm sorry we cannot be posting about loving indie games if you aren't going to actually care about indie developers I've seen you people.

There's an entire phenomenon in the indie space called boom/bust pricing where because of games like Hollow Knight, indie developers struggle to sell games at more expensive prices and so have to hope that their game booms in popularity. If it does, they often bust and don't make their money back.

Yes, this is why games go to Kickstarter and yes this is why a game like OMORI took six years and absolutely cost more than the Kickstarter price. You need money to make video games.

The fact that so many posts about indie games are hyperfocused on the price makes me sad. There are plenty of phenomenal indie games on the market that are $25-35 that don't get the attention they should because people don't see indie games as unique ventures that are worth supporting they see indie games as a market of bone cheap games. It's sickening.

It's even worse when you remember that the most frequently used platform for indie game, steam, take a bigger cut from them than big project.

By default, steam take 30% of any sell. If you want to pay less, you have to earn 10 millions $ so they "only" take 25%, and then 50 millions for the cut to be 20%.

Not only is it unfair (because really, it's weird the people who earn less have to pay more) but it also mean indie devs shoot themselves in the foot TWICE if they undervalue their work.

Because they'd need to make much more sales to break even, but also make the lower cut taken by steam further away.

And I'm not sure other platforms don't have similar deals.

itch.io lets you set your revenue sharing % yourself, all the way from 0 to 100. Here's a screenshot from my creator dashboard on itch:

Image ID: A setting slider titled "What percentage do you want to give to support itch.io?" The slider is currently set to 8% of each transaction. End ID.

As they point out on this page, the default on itch.io is 10% and the industry standard is 30%, same as prev mentions for steam. I only very rarely make sales that tend to be a bit higher, and chose to lower it to 8%. This is a choice I get.

itch.io is super popular with indie devs! And it has a launcher so you can install and launch games with the same ease you're used to from Steam if you'd like. But the games are also all DRM-free, meaning you can also download the files without a launcher at all. Some of them run in browser. Here's a great short game running in browser about a ferret with brain injury relearning how to ferret: Henry Super Brain.

If you're an indie dev, consider using itch! If you like indie games, consider buying them on itch! Itch.io is great and also a hub of community events (game jams).

Whoever wrote that Vanguard message did so with shaking hands, between sobs & swigs of bourbon straight from the bottle.

They're right, though. Now is exactly the wrong time to make dramatic investment moves. Everybody's shit is doing the same thing; unless you need your retirement money in the next twelve months or whatever, you're better off leaving it alone and waiting for the eventual correction. Like, this is not a comforting lie, this is good advice!

Adultier adult here, having had to talk to my retirement management people earlier this week. (I hate it. It's useless. But I told them to divest me from anything that holds TSLA in the portfolio/fund because Elon is an asshole and the company's financials are shit.)

This week has caused about three percent (3%) of my 401(k) to vanish.

And that's okay.

I can't touch that money without a tax penalty (or emergency) until the 2030's. It's not paying for cat food or keeping my electricity on. This is a privilege not everyone enjoys (yet).

If you're in a position to have any kind of investments, don't do anything rash and/or bananas with important chunks of money. (My financial guy gave me this advice, too. I specifically asked about cashing out the whole fucking thing.)

TUMBLR'S AGING USERBASE

This applies to

  • mortgages
  • loans and credits
  • saving funds (all types, index, stock, mixed, etc)
  • stock investments
  • pension savings
  • in some cases, which bank you use
  • in some cases, which insurance companies you use
  • in some cases, which providers you get utilities from
  • anything else that's even vaguely connected to the global market which is going to be basically everything in your personal finances that's not running on a paychech-to-paycheck basis

and it applies to the whole world, not just the US (I'm in Scandi and my savings are all in funds that are looking absolutely disastrous right now, down -4% on Thursday alone). If you have investments and would be scared by numbers like this, don't check! Just ignore them! Leave them be!

Do not panic. Do not make major rash choices. If you can wait, just wait. Things will self-correct and stabilise as they always do. Be very skeptical if someone tries to have you refinance your mortgage/loans/credits or change all of your savings/investments around. Be very skeptical of any fearmongery-flavoured marketing.

“everyone in our building thinks we’re gay” wilson you’re so smart but so stupid at the same time is this show is actually about everyone being subpar and house is just the only one with object permanence

also i’m very mad about chase’s haircut where are those flowy locks

oh house i love you. wilson tells him that everyone thinks they’re gay and that wilson wanted to get with the cute girl and house finds her, tells him they’re “totally” straight before opening up a giant poster of a chorus line in front of her and saying “oh my god we’ve finally got the space to display this!!! nice shoes by the way 😇”

“i get it. you’re jealous. if you want to spend more time with your boyfriend, just tell him” this is hilarious

“the womanly art of persuasion” *thirteen starts to move* “i said womanly” *glare from chase, but he moves too*

this episode is basically everyone is queer in some way but thirteen isn’t really talked about because she’s the only one whose actually out as bisexual so we need to focus on everyone else until someone snaps

HOLY SHIT WILSON PULLED OUR THE BIG GUNS HES PROPOSING TO HOUSE IN PUBLIC AND RING AND ALL

top tier medical drama why did i force myself towatch 10 seasons of greys anatomy when this was here all along

so neither house nor wilson gets the girl and they end up just arguing about whether a couch should be 500 dollars and house wants it and wilson doesn’t and is tormenting house with show tunes about you can’t ever be lonely when you’re with somebody

again, a kiss would be less gay than whatever this episode was

reblogging again because i put this episode on to watch while doing my dinnertime routines and my partner overhears it from the kitchen and goes

"are you watching some kind of weird porn again???"

“everyone in our building thinks we’re gay” wilson you’re so smart but so stupid at the same time is this show is actually about everyone being subpar and house is just the only one with object permanence

also i’m very mad about chase’s haircut where are those flowy locks

oh house i love you. wilson tells him that everyone thinks they’re gay and that wilson wanted to get with the cute girl and house finds her, tells him they’re “totally” straight before opening up a giant poster of a chorus line in front of her and saying “oh my god we’ve finally got the space to display this!!! nice shoes by the way 😇”

“i get it. you’re jealous. if you want to spend more time with your boyfriend, just tell him” this is hilarious

“the womanly art of persuasion” *thirteen starts to move* “i said womanly” *glare from chase, but he moves too*

this episode is basically everyone is queer in some way but thirteen isn’t really talked about because she’s the only one whose actually out as bisexual so we need to focus on everyone else until someone snaps

HOLY SHIT WILSON PULLED OUR THE BIG GUNS HES PROPOSING TO HOUSE IN PUBLIC AND RING AND ALL

top tier medical drama why did i force myself towatch 10 seasons of greys anatomy when this was here all along

so neither house nor wilson gets the girl and they end up just arguing about whether a couch should be 500 dollars and house wants it and wilson doesn’t and is tormenting house with show tunes about you can’t ever be lonely when you’re with somebody

again, a kiss would be less gay than whatever this episode was

someone ordered our new limoncello cocktail, took one sip, and sent it back, and when the bartender saw it he just whimpered "they didn't like it...?" and looked at the waitress like

my issue with the argument that "disliking ai art is inherently reactionary" is that it acts like pro-ai art people are somehow less reactionary on their views on art, when like the majority of defense's of ai art as like a higher form art are indistinguishable from the arguments people use to defend the art of like. hitler

like the logic is that hitler was actually a great artist, entirely hinges on the belief that "objectively good art" is just art that looks detailed if you've never drawn before, which like why ai artists who want to prove their actual artists will just make a pretty looking building or lady, cause it's all about aesthetics i guess

like i'm not saying your a nazi if you like ai art, i just think it's silly when people act like anti-ai artist's are just hysterical luddites, and that ai artists are the ONLY people who actually care about art, when 99 percent of ai artists on twitter only care about art that's "beautiful" on an extremely superficial level.

Jacob Geller dissected the intersection of Fascism and modern art in 2020, sadly before the AI art boom, and goes into better detail than I can about how abstraction is a threat to fascist ideals. I also want to draw attention to possibly my favorite commentary on modernism.

Comic by Ad Reinhardt, an abstract painter, who's made multiple comics about art and perception.

AI slop only bring repetition and lack of original idea to the table. it's an advanced form of stolen art collage. It seeks only to trace and multiply without provoking. It's the anthesis of art.

The way I explained it to my young cousin was like this:

Back before cameras, paintings were just recording reality, and that's why painters tried to be as realistic as they could, and only paint things that could exist in the world around them--objects, and people, and animals. Sometimes they did paint things from their imagination, but only to illustrate stories, like stories from their religion.

Then, cameras came along, and painters were free to paint things cameras couldn't see--things like the artist's feelings, or ideas, or thoughts, or lots of things. Some artists tried to see if they could paint from every angle at once, and we call that Cubism. Some artists tried to paint very quickly, as quickly as they could, so they could capture one single moment of the daylight, or their impression of a moment, with all the feelings light gives, and that's why we call them Impressionists. Some artists were more interested in the process of painting, like Mr Rothko; or in finding the most intense versions of a colour, like Mr Klein. Some were more interested in the spaces between things, like Mr Mondrian. But art, after cameras, could suddenly SAY something, say something by itself! And art, as it turns out, has a lot to say!

"I can do that too! I can do that!" You can, little friend! We all can!

My little cousin didn't get mad looking at modern art; she was excited, and asked her parents if she could have fancy grown-up paints, because she didn't know Art could be something she could do, could be something about expressing her feelings and ideas. This is a child who can't yet write very well, and not nearly as fast or as well as she speaks, so you have to understand something clicked for her, that she could express the complex human things inside herself with colour and shapes and images, instead of struggling to learn how to spell "melancholy" or "excited" or conjugate verbs to a degree that could encompass it.

Because words take TIME to master as an art form--I should know, I've been practising using them to express MY ideas and feelings artistically for 36-and-a-half years! Paint, however, doesn't require such mastery in order to begin expressing the artist; certainly it helps to know skills, but it isn't as required as it is with words. You can just scream and yell with paint, you can experiment more purely with images than with sounds, which after all are regimented into languages before we can begin to use them at all, let alone for the art words make.

And honestly, why are whole-ass adults not understanding that "I could make that!" should be exciting, should inspire you to go and make that! Why are you so mad? "I could make that!" Yes you can! And you get to! And you're an adult, you don't have to ask your parents to buy you paint and canvas and brushes, you can go and do that yourself and be expressing your own feelings this very afternoon! Nothing is stopping you! You don't NEED that plagiarism machine, you can do better art yourself! And nobody else in the whole world, now or in the past or in the future, is EVER going to be able to make the art YOU can make, the art YOU have inside you! So go make it!

Important addition

The higgs boson discovery was made possible by AI sifting through data that was estimated to take humans 500 years to go through and with less accuracy.

AI/ML is a tool like any other. It's not a miracle fix for everything, just like how it isn't an evil entity

Getting my big font because I've said this before and I'm getting angy about it:

You need to stop saying "AI" when you mean "generative AI".

You need to stop inferring "generative AI" when you just see "AI".

You are throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

I don’t mean to be old but computer used to just have games. U didnt have to pay for em either but if u wanted u could get a little CD that put the game onto the computer and you could play it forever and ever even if the company that made it went to hell and shit. You didn’t even need the internet or wifi or anything. And it was pretty neat

It would be a finished game, too. If you played long enough and did really good you could go to all the places and get all the stuff. You never had to pay more money later it was just there. onn compter

cant stop thinking about this video

For context this was in response to someone saying their cybertruck was heavy duty

oh no no NO no no I am sorry my dear @thebirdtm you are NOT underselling one of the most seminal pieces of television of my entire childhood like that on MY watch.

"How is claiming they drowned a Hilux possibly underselling it" GREAT question.

To start with a little disclaimer, Top Gear's Hilux did not start off, as in the video above, in pristine condition. It started off with nigh-on 300k kms (for you yankees, that's about 8.4 million Boeing 737 wingspans) and a condition to match.

And it's only once careless driving around town yielded zilch in given shits...

(look, I found a local newspaper picturing it being driven around!)

...that they decided to drown it. Now, the underselling part: if you told me that they drowned a pickup the first place my mind would go to would be "driving it through a river a bit too deep for it, perhaps as deep as its height, until it stalls and then tugging it back out. You will concede that's rather different from tying it down on the seashore with the second highest tide in the world...

...and leaving it there until it engulfs the whole truck...

...only for the ropes to snap...

...and for the truck to be lost to the tides for FIVE HOURS.

(and for those wondering, yes, just as promised, well within an hour and the mandatory limits of basic tools and no spare parts, up the mechanic made the thing fire and away the presenter drove it - I must imagine doing a number on his clothes in the process.)

Oh also I would have mentioned the caravan.

Or at least the wrecking ball.

But hey, at least the fire was mentioned.

Still, I feel it's criminal to leave out how they celebrated it surviving all it did: by parking it at the top of a 23 story building for all to see! :)

Wait NO-

Well, that was uncalled for. Given what it survived, it deserved to rest in a museum instead of being unceremoniously cleared out with the other chunks of public housing that buried it.

Or at least, given that buried it wasn't...

...to be tumbled down from the rubble utop which it sat...

...and be fueled up.

"be fueled up", pfft, what for?, I hear you say. And you are right.

Look at that thing, you say.

Let's be serious now, however pretty of a story it would be that's not a truck that will do anything remotely in the ballpark of firing up, let alone running.

And again, you are right.

The battery was disconnected.

Sorted that, tho

"You can't be serious." Oh darling I sure can! "Well the presenters can't then" no no, I assure you, it lived. Go see it for yourself! It's at the National Motor Museum in Beaulieau, England!

I grew up watching Top Gear and it shaped me in many ways. My adoration of old Toyota Hiluxes is one of them.

The Toyota Hilux is absolutely the small god of endurance and defiance (and possibly masochism).

yes I'm reposting about a small god truck are you kidding me

there is something to be said for going to zoos and aquariums on weekdays to avoid school-aged crowds but going to the aviary on a weekend is fun because going into big greenhouses and watching toddlers who just learned to walk encounter loose tropical animals taller than they are is part of the overall experience for me.

to me a three year old is just as much an entertaining and strange beast as an egret. and here they can interact directly. incredible.

listening to a macaw say “peekaboo” at a preschooler who takes it at face value that some birds must be completely fluent in English and no one has bothered to mention this before. unmatched

So my neighbor's three-year-old saw Charlie for the first time last week.

I don't see my neighbors often because they are Morning People (TM) and both our households are acting like the pandemic is still on (it is), but yesterday I happened to be taking Charlie out for a walk when they were coming home from something, and the kid "Checkers" was dumbstruck.

Charlie isn't a Big-big dog, but he is 60lbs and mostly leggy sighthound, so he is significantly taller than the average toddler. Since Checkers' extended family is largely allergic to mammals, they do not see dogs at other people's houses nor at daycare, so this was the fist time they've seen an animal larger than they are up close.

It is a beautiful thing to see a young human experience a sudden and profound shift in their worldview, and you get to witness parts of their brain being rewired in real time across their face. Confusion, then wonder as a fascinating new category of life opened before them. It is doubly wonderful that small children are rarely frightened of things unless they are taught to be, so, cautiously, Checkers approached Charlie, looking between us and making interrogative noises at me, as I was clearly his parent, and therefore responsible for introductions.

"This is Charlie!" I say. "He might or might not say hi back."

Checkers considered the evidence before them: Charlie has a name shared with their playmates, their older sibling is largely nonverbal, and Charlie wears a chest harness with leash, again like some of their playmates, and came to the extremely reasonable conclusion that Charlie is a fellow Human Child, and introduced themselves appropriately:

"Hullo." Said Checkers, stepping up to Charlie. "This is Bionicles." they continued, holding up their plush giraffe toy, the appropriate way to introduce yourself and your friends/interests to a new peer at age 3.

Charlie has a vast preference of humans to other dogs, and of adults to children within humans, often ignoring or evading small children the way he does with dogs that annoy him. It makes sense- small children are not usually the ones with treats, and typically inept petters at best. But something about Bionicles the Giraffe intrigued him and he politely sniffed and listened to Checkers talk about (I'm not sure because I have Audio Processing Problems and Checkers doesn't enunciate much) for a for about a minute, and I got to witness Checkers' parents undergo a similar world-shift as they realized Checkers was addressing Charlie as a fellow human, and how that was entirely rational of them.

The confusion on the adult humans was so interesting that I failed to notice Charlie very delicately taking Bionicles The Giraffe from Checkers until he had taken two steps to give himself room, and then started to Death-Shake the toy, because Charlie ALSO loves plushies, just in a very destructive sense.

I am horrified. The parents are Horrified. Checkers is DELIGHTED, laughing as Charlie very expertly separated Bionicles' head from the rest of the toy, and sat down in the grass to pull the fluff out.

I retrieved both pieces of the toy from Charlie, apologized profusely, took him home, and then came back to sew Bionicles' head back on.

Yesterday I saw Checkers on all fours out in the front yard, trying to re-decapitate Bionicles with their teeth while their father looked on, resigned. We have arranged a future playdate between Charlie and Checkers, with a handful of dollar-store stuffed toys for them to destroy together.

I think it is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

I feel like people extend the benefit of the doubt to ableism way too often. The people saying shit like "you're privileged for having a wheelchair" are 99.9999% people who can walk, not the odd person who is trapped in bed 100% of the time without any kind of wheelchair. Or like "you're privileged for having a carer" is more than likely someone who doesn't require care assistance and isn't literally rotting (as in infected pressure sores) away.

It's nearly ALWAYS someone who can get by without, who thinks that people who REQUIRE these services can too.

Like, please don't pop into our comments and go "well, what if this person is part of the .00000001% of people who are dying without the care you have, then it IS a privilege!"

Because I can guarantee you they are not.

I've talked to people who DO require a wheelchair and don't have access to them, quite a few actually, they're almost always wanting to commiserate rather than calling us privileged because a lot of us who require wheelchairs and DO have them know how much it sucks to not have the support you need.

Sometimes, they're asking for help trying to figure out something to bridge the gap between when you require a support and when you actually get it because they need to survive that time period.

They're not going "You are so privileged for getting the bare minimum to survive!" They're going "how do I access the bare minimum to survive?"

Yeah, can confirm. I feel like I can very much speak on this, too.

I was the absurdly unlikely case of someone who can't sit, can't transfer, can't bear any weight at all, and definitely cannot walk, literally 100% bedridden (toileting included, no exceptions, not even for #2)... and didn't have a wheelchair for 11 months.

I have a wheelchair now but when I didn't I still congratulated my friends on getting their new chairs or aides. I still saw my fellow disabled folks as my people the whole time and would not have managed without their peer support and community knowledge.

This reminds me, the people who kept me somewhat sane the last time my chair broke and helped me manage my anxiety and frustration were 100% people who have required wheelchairs and didn't have them or had them and dealt with breakage too. I love my peers!!

Yes!!! Exactly. Same hat on all of the above. I love my peers and the disabled community are my people. The greatest part about this is that my people span all the borders - we're everywhere and there's so many of us. I'll never run out of new friends to make because there'll always be more of us and we're all in need of peers and strength in numbers.

Still genuinely baffles me every time I remember that the average person isn’t in some form of pain all the time.

Like..not even a tiny bit???

It’s actually crazy to me every time I remember that most people actually don’t experience pain outside of injuries.

I feel like people extend the benefit of the doubt to ableism way too often. The people saying shit like "you're privileged for having a wheelchair" are 99.9999% people who can walk, not the odd person who is trapped in bed 100% of the time without any kind of wheelchair. Or like "you're privileged for having a carer" is more than likely someone who doesn't require care assistance and isn't literally rotting (as in infected pressure sores) away.

It's nearly ALWAYS someone who can get by without, who thinks that people who REQUIRE these services can too.

Like, please don't pop into our comments and go "well, what if this person is part of the .00000001% of people who are dying without the care you have, then it IS a privilege!"

Because I can guarantee you they are not.

I've talked to people who DO require a wheelchair and don't have access to them, quite a few actually, they're almost always wanting to commiserate rather than calling us privileged because a lot of us who require wheelchairs and DO have them know how much it sucks to not have the support you need.

Sometimes, they're asking for help trying to figure out something to bridge the gap between when you require a support and when you actually get it because they need to survive that time period.

They're not going "You are so privileged for getting the bare minimum to survive!" They're going "how do I access the bare minimum to survive?"

Yeah, can confirm. I feel like I can very much speak on this, too.

I was the absurdly unlikely case of someone who can't sit, can't transfer, can't bear any weight at all, and definitely cannot walk, literally 100% bedridden (toileting included, no exceptions, not even for #2)... and didn't have a wheelchair for 11 months.

I have a wheelchair now but when I didn't I still congratulated my friends on getting their new chairs or aides. I still saw my fellow disabled folks as my people the whole time and would not have managed without their peer support and community knowledge.

Unironically, vegans need to be advocating for more and better sheep, llama, and alpaca farms. Wool is one of the best fabrics we have in terms of versatility, longevity and most importantly, insulation. Even wet, it retains 80% of it’s insulation potential.

AND IT DOESN’T SHED MICROPLASTICS

Like, there’s literally nothing you can do to a sheep that’s as morally reprehensible as dumping plastic down the gullet of literally every other living thing. You wanna talk about animal welfare? Talk about reducing the amount of microplastics produced by rayon, polyester, and spandex.

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Bruh plant-based sources of clothing exist and are better for the environment and don’t involve slicing an animal’s throat open please shut the fuck up you cunt

THE WOOL GROWS BACK

Do they think you kill a sheep for it’s wool

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