When he was younger he’d thought the desire to go would fade. He’d thought it had been the ordinary wish to leave his too small town and find something more. He’d thought the cities and distance, the new roads, new people, the mountains and oceans would have fed the hunger in his chest. He’d thought he’d get past it, but Earth turned out to feel just a small as Smallville had. He knew the sounds, the smells, the way the earth rumbled and shifted beneath his shoes just as well on each mountain as the next. Sure each was different from the other; each site he found beautiful. He loved the Earth, and he loved its people. It was just he wanted—felt as though he needed really—something more.
He turned out to look away from the mass beneath him; it's glow less a beacon home then a lantern showing him the trail that led further away—out to the stars beyond this one. Letting the sites and sounds of Earth drift out of focus, he looked out to far distant stars wondering if perhaps the hunger would be sated by another world, another planet another universe. Or perhaps, he dreaded, maybe all orphaned children, all those exiled by their circumstances—all those diaspora felt a longing for a home that no longer existed. Could that be the itch burning in his feet, the thrum pulling in his veins? Was he looking for a glimpse of a home he'd never had, and never would?
Clark turned back to the Earth as he felt the distant and muffled call of his mother and friend's voices. They both felt like a lightening rod: grounding him to something fixed and immutable, and an anchor: dragging him down and holding him back from the currents he longed to follow. One day he would leave this rock and strike out quenching the need in his chest. He stayed here today, because the hunger was over ridden by the fear that no mater how far he went, how much he saw and how many souls he met it would never be enough. Or worse still he feared that when he'd truly left, he'd find that what he had been in search of had been here on Earth and in the leaving to seek, he would lose it forever.