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archer  ☆  28  ☆  they/them  ☆  notorious boyfailure
~ Welcome to Hell ~

Hi hello, this is my pinned post. My name is Archer, I'm 28, and I live in the USA. I am nonbinary and use they/them. Some people also call me Gira or Ultima.

This is my main blog. It may be NSFW sometimes, but I have a side blog for dedicated kink business, which I will not be linking here.

My text post tag is #ultima.txt and my art tag is #ultimart.

I dump almost everything on this blog, all my fandoms and assorted soapboxes. If you need something tagged don't hesitate to ask!

My fandoms are below (this is not a full list).

Ace Alastor Week 2025 is here!! Multiverse Monday for today.

When I thought of other aces characters from other series, I had no idea how to make them interact with Alastor, but Crowley…. At least they have a topic of conversation, the Devil's kids haha

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

I really wish more ADHD mental health care told you WHY things like this matter to our quality of life.

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

When you no longer feel like the world is actively killing you, it's a lot easier to navigate it.

S++ tier addition to the post, thank you tumblr user butts bouncing on the beltway

When my son was a newborn baby, I noticed that his fussy times (the times when the baby is crying even though they're not hungry or wet) were extremely responsive to outside time. As in, he would be crying, I would step outside carrying him, and the fuss would shut off instantly.

It would be seventeen more years before he and I both got diagnosed with adhd. Adhd that was clearly passed down from my father. So many questions were answered with that diagnosis*. However, I attribute the fact that we managed our lives with any success at all to the fact that we were able to have LOTS of outside time.

'* Did my doctor educate me about adhd after the diagnosis? No. Of course not. Tumblr users did. Which is how I even knew that I should ask for a Dr's evaluation in the first place. Bless Tumblr.

Everyone wants to talk about how Senshi is a tumblr sexyman but...Senshi is actually attractive. Like even aside from the fact that he's pretty good-looking he's a nice, sweet guy and he can cook and loves doing it. He's a perfectly eligible candidate for marriage, which kind of goes against the spirit of a tumblr sexyman.

Chilchuck, however? Chilchuck is a tumblr sexyman. What the fuck do you people see in him

my first executive order as mouse president is everyone has to take a nap

my second is everyone gets a juice box and a cheese snack

my third is everyone gets to push elon musk down these stairs specifically

twice each

too many stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for pretending to be something you aren't and losing yourself in the process. not enough stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for choosing to openly embrace yourself even if it's strange to other people

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