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when I say I have a trauma background everyone assumes I was abused or some shit. and to be fair I was. but mostly I am referring to the time a pelican put me in its mouth when I was three years old. my entire head was in there. the pelican seemed unbothered by the entire thing. and now I’m here

huh weird.

thinking about it for fun

(soulsov)

we got the whole damn zoo

Like a half hour after taking pain relief meds: oh actually it doesnt hurt anymore i probably didnt even need to take those

i dont actually draw for deeper soul seeking purposes i draw because if my hands are not occupied i start destroying things like ripping shit apart. many working animals are like this. god also maybe

We're going shopping!!! you better bring along the bank!!!

-Aaahhh late by a day or two but heyheyhey happy birthday shokie <33333

for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

Happy Trans Day of Visibility 🏳️‍⚧️✨ I'm one of the trans artists who worked on Win or Lose, and I'm gonna talk about it 👍

This is a small snippet of the monumental amount of care and skill that went in to developing Kai, every department from casting to story to animation to shading to lighting, and everything outside and in between, handled her with a reverence and kindness that I wish I could hand deliver to every trans person who needs it right now.

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About ten years ago I decided that the next step I needed to take in my life was to accept and explore what it meant to be a failure and to have failed. This infuriated almost everybody in my life and clearly terrified a lot of people. People do not want you to accept failure. They dont want you to like... Sit with and think about it and pick it up and turn it arpund in your hands and really examine it. They want you to keep throwing yourself against the impossible walls until your body explodes! They do not want you to say "alright then, I've failed. What does that mean for me? Im still here. What does the life of someone who has failed look like?"

This makes people very angry and panicky.

My mental health improved in ways it had not in the previous DECADE once I stopped. And. Sat. With failure. And thought about what my failure ... Was. And looked at the structures that produced it and examined them critically.

It is so taboo to fail and admit it openly and talk about it. It is so taboo to talk about or think about failure in an accepting way rather than hiding it shamefully until you experience a degree of success in some area which allows you to present the past failure as "a stepping stone" to your current situation. Fuck that. We are put in positions of guaranteed failure by society every day and then punished and shamed for it. Lets fucking talk about failure

Instead of using butter for your grilled cheese, you should switch to linux. You can set up a virtual machine to try out various distros to see which ones work best for your needs

Coyote | Sheryl Hester

Friendships as a teenager: we used to talk 5 hours every night now it’s down to 3… are we still friends 🤔? I wonder if they don’t like me anymore

Friendships as an adult: omg I’ve finally cleared up 20 minutes of my schedule to talk to my friend I haven’t spoken to in 4 months #bffs #we will find eachother in every life

I’m still so taken aback by people in the notes who claimed you need to be talking to people weekly or even daily to consider them your friend. how many people do you know? As an adult I feel like talking every day is sustainable with one person maybe 2 or 3 if your circumstances somehow are really conveniently aligned. yeah there’s people I talk to often there’s also people I don’t talk to for 6 months because there’s no way we’ll be able to coordinate time and energy and I still consider them my friends because this is real life and there isn’t a stardew valley esque hearts system based off of how many interactions we had this month

just fyi by the time youre in your 30s, most of the people you would call to help you cover up a murder are the people you text about twice a year. it's specifically because you can maintain the relationship on two texts a year that they are your closest friends. the reason everyone's interpersonal relationships are so unstable in your teens is because everyone's "best friends" are almost entirely circumstantial. you won't actually know which of those people are in for the long haul until the relationships have been stress tested by distance, conflict and silence.

i am listening to the starling outside go through his repertoire of learned songs from other birds…what have i done

Oh fuck I'm supposed to be observing a work crew fixing a leaky manhole but it's next to a wetland and I can hear at least 2 Carolina wrens in a duet and a song sparrow nearby and the sun is shining off the water and the wind through the rushes is like gentle music. Scary stuff