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heyo im Devon (formerly jestyzesty, Devonias on ao3) | 20 | genderfluid he/she/they, aroace | huge enjoyer of Steve, the Hendersons, qpr Stobin, Scoops Troop, rarepairs, etc | down to meet people who are also very cringe 💕|

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Hey babes and non-babes alike, I'm Devon (or Dev, or Devi, or whatever fun nickname comes to mind!)

I'm a fanfic writer, beta reader and aspiring writing consultant, and artist (DevonDrawspresso art archive) (Devonias on ao3)

Any anti, personal vent/rant, and nsfw reblogs get tagged accordingly as well as a some specific tags as requested by mutuals. This is mostly a Stranger Things blog but I am definitely dabbling in the CaitVi Arcane fandom >:3 (not fic yet tho, sorry)

have fun and thanks for dropping by!! 💕

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#devon thinks sometimes | #devon creates sometimes | #shit you can use if you wanna | #devon's random fic recs (Masterlist - coming soon ish??)

Latest Fic:

I Wish I Never Met You - G | ~600 words | Steddie or Steve & Eddie | CW: grief, hurt/no comfort, and more listed on the post

as always, masterlist is ordered with blatant favoritism 😌

Chaptered Fics

• more than 10k words •

We'll Be Alright (aka The Steve Henderson AU) - | ~90k so far | Mature | ao3 link (to be added once posted)

Light of my life, the peanut butter to my jelly, my favorite project, and yet: no chapters officially posted. BUT you can find all the little snippets and rambles about it under the tag. i have a longer explanation of what it is and why its not posted here but basically i can promise you that there will 100% be content posted no matter what (so that entire word count, updated regularly, exists and will be shared eventually 💕)

Oneshots

• between 500 and 10k words •

My Sunshine - | Steve Harrington & Claudia Henderson | 815 words | G | ao3 link | cw: referenced dysfunctional family and child neglect, mild blood

Robin:"I think in going to come out to the party"
Steve:"Bobs that's amazing, what made you change your mind?"
Robin: "Well they've just been so accepting with the Eddie situation, I thought..."
Steve staring off into space, brain whirring: Great Eddie came out to the whole group? And not to me!? I'd wondered, hoped?, had my suspensions but we're so close. It hurt to not be told before everyone, or AT LEAST with everyone. Was Eddie worried he wouldn't accept him? Did he seem so much like a meat-head jock still!? Or maybe Robin had found out accidentally, had she caught him? oh, did Eddie have a boyfriend (why does that sting?), why wouldn't he tell Steve if Robbie found out, surely Eddie would know that Steve would be his friend no matter what... (etc. etc.)

Robin (just about audible over Steve's own thoughts): "I mean, they've not questioned you two dating once. In fact, they're all so happy for you guys, even Mike!"
Steve's brain: Well at least the party is happy for Eddie and this means that Robbie is safe to come out and be herself amongst this odd little family they had cultivated. I mean if Mike can accept that me and Eddie are dating he's not going to be homophobic about Robin, because he's not changed around me and me and Eddie dating... me and Eddie are dating...
Steve (very loudly): "Me and Eddie are dating!?"

The drafts are making it out into the world because even though they will never be finished they are Steddie based thoughts I wish to share

Women in Shakespeare

Also like to point out that when her mother says “I was your mother much upon these years that you are now a maid,” (translation: I had you when I was your age) you have to remember her father’s words: “earth hath swallowed all my hopes but she,” (translation: all the other children died.)  The whole plot point of Juliet being an only child is explained by her mother being a Margaret Beaufort type who had her first child too young and it damaged her past the point of being able to bear more children.

Margaret Beaufort died in 1509. She was a major player in the Wars of the Roses, the swirling on-again-off-again civil wars that consumed England from 1455-1487. Romeo and Juliet was written and first performed in the early 1590s. Your average English person of Shakespeare’s day would probably have had at least a vague understanding of who she was and what happened to her, because she was a key figure in recent history and was still getting passed around as a cautionary tale.

There are two great problems with what happened to Margaret (and that her parents are trying to do to Juliet). One is easy for modern people to spot (but was also a common response back in her own day). And that’s the moral implications of what was done to her. She was too young to be married, and it was horrifying that she was forced into it so young. Every one of the adults around her either acted immorally or failed to protect her. They were wrong. This is what modern people see, and it’s important to remember that people back in her day mostly agreed with it. You’re supposed to think it’s fucked up! When girls were married that young (and it didn’t happen often!) it was a formality 99% of the time. It was for dynastic or financial reasons (the girl has lots of money and/or land and/or a title that her husband wants), but the “couple” don’t consummate their marriage for years. And it’s not just that they would have separate bedrooms. They might not even live in the same country until the girl was in her late teens and physically and mentally mature enough to bear and raise kids. Hell, a lot of times they didn’t even meet until the girl was older! They had this thing called “proxy marriage” where you would have two separate ceremonies, in two separate places, with each party saying their vows separately, one in one city and the other in a different one. So, yeah, sure, the girl was technically married at 12, but she didn’t actually meet her “husband” in person until she was 17 and they didn’t start sleeping together until she was 20. That was a thing they did.

The other problem, the one that modern people don’t notice, is dynastic. See, marriage wasn’t generally because you loved someone. It was because you had the resources to support a family, and you or your family wanted to pool those resources with someone. It’s about “our family has these resources, and we want that to continue.” It’s about continuity across generations. It’s about making sure that your children and grandchildren have the best possible resources to survive and thrive, whether those resources are land or a trade or a title or money or whatever. In order for this to work, you have to have kids! The family and the family’s resources depend on the married couple having children. If the couple doesn’t have children, the marriage is a failure. And that failure affects not only the couple, but both families. This is a really big problem. And you can’t have just one kid to pass on the family name, because half of all kids die in early childhood. If you want to be safe, you need several kids, to be sure at least one will survive to adulthood (when they can marry and pass on the family name and resources.

You know what happens when a girl has her first pregnancy too young? She is very likely to either die in childbirth, or have complications that destroy her future fertility. Just like Margaret Beaufort. Just like Juliet’s mother. In other words, the marriage is a failure, not just for her, but also for her family, and her husband (who can’t divorce her, it’s not allowed except in extremely rare circumstances), and her husband’s family. So even the people who didn’t have a moral problem with adult men having sex with pubescent girls had a practical problem with girls married too young because you are very likely to destroy the entire purpose of the marriage by doing it. As Shakespeare reminds us in the play through Juliet’s mother having been married too young and only having one child.

Shakespeare is telling us “yeah, this is fucked up. but even if you’re the kind of awful person who doesn’t think girls marrying too young is morally wrong, it’s also a problem for practical and dynastic reasons, don’t forget that by doing this wrong thing you are very likely to destroy what you most want out of it.”

It bears repeating:

don’t forget that by doing this wrong thing you are very likely to destroy what you most want out of it.”

yes, excellent discussion!

another thing i noticed, the year my local community shakespeare theater did r&j, and i made the costumes so i got to watch the show every night: part of why capulet is telling paris, take your time, get to know each other, no rush, is that he still has his nephew tybalt as his heir. as long as tybalt is in the picture, there is no pressure on juliet to go further with paris, than get acquainted. once tybalt is killed, then suddenly capulet needs an heir, he needs a husband for juliet, now, this week. (the role of capulet is best given to the actor in the company that can do over the top apoplexy, you need to believe his urgency comes at least in part by how clearly he could drop dead any moment from giving himself a stroke)

i feel like this play is often taught in middle schools as if it was somehow relevant to, or about, teen hormone storms. really it's got more to do with the social structures around family and inheritance. leaving that context out makes it confusing, why is capulet suddenly flipping from nice dad to evil dad?

art history matters.

every ad is a personal insult to everyone who sees it and i’m not kidding

I'm paying my internet bill for you to use MY bandwidth to put your horrid images and videos on MY screen, draining MY device's power, wasting MY time? 10000 giant murder hornets forever.

🐻 for wip weekend? We love Steve learning to love himself <3

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We're not quite at the loving himself territory, but we'll get there, I promise. Quick little warning for some fatphobia/internalized fatphobia here.

“And when you’re dating. When you’re dating, you gotta be attractive for ‘em. You gotta…gotta show value…worth. I saw how girls treated the bigger guys. Laughing behind their backs. Wouldn’t touch them. When they talked, they’d be friendly, but nothing more. Shooting down the flirts. Like, don’t get me wrong, people can certainly have their preferences and their tastes and whatever, but”— “But their opinion matters to you. And so you take what matters to heart. It’s a dangerous thing, baby.” Steve nods once. Slow and soaking. “I know,” he murmurs. “But it still mattered. And I know…I know I’ve always said the thing about how I gotta stay fit for the ladies or how I’ve gotta grow out my chest hair because the girls liked it or whatever. But. Sometimes…sometimes it felt like I wasn’t the one saying it. “Like I was just being a product of my time."

Also, like, obviously none of the whole when you're dating thing is right, but diet culture is a bitch. Also also, don't know if people realize, but I love writing dialogue.

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🎸 please!

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Hell yeah! We love pining Steve with absolute goblin of a man Eddie.

“I’m feisty when I get my nards fucking obliterated.” For some reason, that only makes Eddie smile wider, until— “I could kiss ‘em better for you, Stevie-boy.” In response, Steve picks up the first clamshell he sees from the counter, raises it, and promptly smacks it between Eddie’s pecs. Dryly, “You’re disgusting.” “You love me for it, though,” Eddie teases. Unfortunately, I really, really do, is all he can helplessly think.

banter!!!

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His testicles got smushed

One of the best writing advice I have gotten in all the months I have been writing is "if you can't go anywhere from a sentence, the problem isn't in you, it's in the last sentence." and I'm mad because it works so well and barely anyone talks about it. If you're stuck at a line, go back. Backspace those last two lines and write it from another angle or take it to some other route. You're stuck because you thought up to that exact sentence and nothing after that. Well, delete that sentence, make your brain think because the dead end is gone. It has worked wonders for me for so long it's unreal

I don't remember where I heard this now, but I absorbed the advice, "if you're stuck, count ten sentences back and start again from there". It's not always ten sentences back, for me, but it does force me to look at the last handful of lines I've actually written on a sentence instead of a story level, and that is eminently helpful in unsticking myself most of the time.

I recently resolved a point where I'd been stuck for months not by changing anything in the scene I was currently writing, but by realizing I needed to add another scene before that one to establish key information I couldn't work into the current one

HEY WRITER MUTUALS COME GET YOUR WRITER JUICE

So I animated Djo Basic Being Basic. This took me like 3 weeks to animate. I'm very happy with how it turned out and I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I enjoyed making it.

Please enjoy it!!!!

Did a season 3 screenshot redraw because the s3 and scoops troop is my favourite and i love the steve angst. i wont admit how long ive been working on this piece for because its a while

these two are codependent platonic soulmates and i cherish them both dearly, my fav lil lesbian and her bi himbo jock

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