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hi! i'm sav (she/her). i'm a twenty-something poet turned novelist.

what i'm writing:

A story about grief and resilience. A story about greed and revenge. A story about love persisting, for better or worse. Death has a face, and it is the face of my mother seeking obedience, and it is my face in the mirror, seeking absolution.
A prequel to Burden of the Reluctant Death that follows Elias as he navigates duty, loyalty, and love— all while avoiding Death's wrath. Perhaps this is to be his life, his second life: clawing for the affection of a temperamental god.
A murder mystery with necromancy, ghosts, politics, and an absolutely non-sentient skeleton. She was not the heir, only the younger sister. Her fits did not matter. She also had greater necromantic ability than the crown prince. This did not matter either.

The Lesser Key of Callan (tag)

An monster-of-the-week inspired novella that follows Callan, Caleigh, and Hoot as they investigate paranormal disturbances in their small town. He could list every creature on those pages in order of discovery and with apt descriptions of every image he drew. It's not for me, had been his answer. It's for whoever comes after.

feel free to say hi! let me know what you're reading! tell me about your WIPs! and my final demand: have a great day!

This is a dangerous sentiment for me to express, as an editor who spends most of my working life telling writers to knock it off with the 45-word sentences and the adverbs and tortured metaphors, but I do think we're living through a period of weird pragmatic puritanism in mainstream literary taste.

e.g. I keep seeing people talk about 'purple prose' when they actually mean 'the writer uses vivid and/or metaphorical descriptive language'. I've seen people who present themselves as educators offer some of the best genre writing in western canon as examples of 'purple prose' because it engages strategically in prose-poetry to evoke mood and I guess that's sheer decadence when you could instead say "it was dark and scary outside". But that's not what purple prose means. Purple means the construction of the prose itself gets in the way of conveying meaning. mid-00s horse RPers know what I'm talking about. Cerulean orbs flash'd fire as they turn'd 'pon rollforth land, yonder horizonways. <= if I had to read this when I was 12, you don't get to call Ray Bradbury's prose 'purple'.

I griped on here recently about the prepossession with fictional characters in fictional narratives behaving 'rationally' and 'realistically' as if the sole purpose of a made-up story is to convince you it could have happened. No wonder the epistolary form is having a tumblr renaissance. One million billion arguments and thought experiments about The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas that almost all evade the point of the story: that you can't wriggle out of it. The narrator is telling you how it was, is and will be, and you must confront the dissonances it evokes and digest your discomfort. 'Realistic' begins on the author's terms, that's what gives them the power to reach into your brain and fiddle about until sparks happen. You kind of have to trust the process a little bit.

This ultra-orthodox attitude to writing shares a lot of common ground with the tight, tight commodification of art in online spaces. And I mean commodification in the truest sense - the reconstruction of the thing to maximise its capacity to interface with markets. Form and function are overwhelmingly privileged over cloudy ideas like meaning, intent and possibility, because you can apply a sliding value scale to the material aspects of a work. But you can't charge extra for 'more challenging conceptual response to the milieu' in a commission drive. So that shit becomes vestigial. It isn't valued, it isn't taught, so eventually it isn't sought out. At best it's mystified as part of a given writer/artist's 'talent', but either way it grows incumbent on the individual to care enough about that kind of skill to cultivate it.

And it's risky, because unmeasurables come with the possibility of rejection or failure. Drop in too many allegorical descriptions of the rose garden and someone will decide your prose is 'purple' and unserious. A lot of online audiences seem to be terrified of being considered pretentious in their tastes. That creates a real unwillingness to step out into discursive spaces where you 🫵 are expected to develop and explore a personal relationship with each element of a work. No guard rails, no right answers. Word of god is shit to us out here. But fear of getting that kind of analysis wrong makes people hove to work that slavishly explains itself on every page. And I'm left wondering, what's the point of art that leads every single participant to the same conclusion? See Spot run. Run, Spot, run. Down the rollforth land, yonder horizonways. I just want to read more weird stuff.

Do you have any suggestions for letting go and improving WITH your weird shit? I'm in university for Creative Writing and I haven't been taught SHIT other than how to engage with a text and how to continue to write at my highschool base-line level. No teaching, no instruction, only critiques of mine and my peers work that doesn't inform us of much in the long run.

I'm desperate for help, if you have Anything it's much appreciated. I'm asking because I felt seen in this post

1. READ. Read widely, read deeply, read slowly when a text demands time. Seek out work that seems strange or challenging. If/when you need to pick up something that's deep in your comfort zone, read consciously. If a passage hits you as dense and difficult, ask yourself why: word choice? complex nesting of concepts? are you distracted, or did you misinterpret something a few lines back? If a passage feels easy and fun, ask yourself why: satisfying rhythm? clear set-up and follow-through? Look for experimental texts, read more poetry even if you don't want to write poetry. The more experienced you are with the vast flexibility of the written word, the more confident and natural your own experimentation will get.

2. Try things out. You don't have to show them to anyone. Sometimes a stylistic idea will get stuck in my head and I just have to write freeform for a couple of thousand words to see how it feels on the page. One time in college I was possessed by the urge to write the vilest, foulest, most unsympathetic and filthy first-person narrative just to figure out how it would actually read, so I scribbled out a couple of pages until it was out of my system. I never did anything with those passages, but they're in my repertoire now, I know how that material hits. I'm always comparing writing to chefing - not everything you cook is a restaurant meal. You can experiment with flavours in your own kitchen, where you are free to make something completely unpalatable and then toss it right out with a better understanding of the process.

3. Be less scared. This isn't just directed at you, it's directed at everyone, and at me. Someone I know once brought a personal piece of writing to a writer's group, about the way her mother's death affected her. Someone in the group was absolutely scathing about it, because they felt that the way she reacted to and wrote about the bereavement was inappropriate. What a horrible experience! What an awful, unhelpful critique. But it didn't shake her, because she knew what she had felt and was steadfast in her right to express it. Sometimes (often, even) criticism will come from angles that are literally just not relevant to what we've set out to do. Like I said in the original post, a lot of readers are kind of ambivalent or hostile to weirdness at the moment. But if weirdness is your goal, those people are simply not your audience. It's a lot easier said than done, but have faith in your own intentions and your own taste. Listen to criticism, but always ask yourself 'will this help me accomplish what I want this piece to accomplish?' It is not the end of the world to be temporarily misunderstood.

i honestly hate how much people use "this is the only body you get" as a reason to not do anything that might be permanent. its the only body you get so you need to make sure you like it! get that tattoo! get those piercings! forsake your humanity! let an old and vengeful god replace your beating heart with an ice cold stone which yearns for the warmth of blood! start hrt!

I have a deep fear of being known BUT I have a slightly larger fear of being forgotten. the best solution I can come up with is making art every once in a while

I have inundated myself in tasks and would be unlikely to handle another, but I am a glutton for punishment--SO!

The idea is to ask questions about writing and genre and whatnot.

These would be 'active', with my putting out the questions in realtime, during a set timeframe once a month. However, since this is the place where time is an illusion and the rules don't matter they'd never really be unavailable. I could even start a blog for it to make sure they remain available without turning my main into just that.

Kind of like @sipofsnips but monthly and a little more involved, with more encouragement to engage with one another.

Basically; would you like to play ask games in realtime without having to reblog and hope for questions or pop into ask boxes?

Can't change the poll or cancel it, but this is honestly more of a response than I expected already so we're definitely doing it.

I'll get it setup for the 13th. That is a Sunday this month, probably around 4-5PM PST? That's not my timezone but it's the one I see most so we'll use it as the base to convert from.

I have a separate blog setup for it already at @writeblr-live, there's nothing there yet but follow that for the event. I'll absolutely reblog things here too, and participate, but I wanted something separate to keep track and make it easier/less cluttered to find all the questions.

SO! I will see you all on Sunday!

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