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okay i figured i should put together an x-files fic masterlist. please also take this opportunity to harangue me into writing more because i have some ideas but little motivation to start (this might have to do with the fact that i haven't watched any x-files in three weeks)

anyway, here they are in order of writing. i have to mention that i started writing only having seen s1 and am now still only in the middle of s2 so these are wildly canon divergent

word count: 1101

rating: G

The part of him she loves best is his voice. She especially likes the way he says her name. ---- some reflection on mulder's sexy dulcet tones, how they get together, etc.

word count: 1181

rating: G

"Fox Mulder, you are under arrest. Anything you say can and will be held against you. You have the right to an attorney…"
"Scully," he whispers, and she raises an eyebrow at him. What is it?
"Agent Scully isn't an attorney," Skinner deadpans.
"I know. But you said anything I said could and would be held against me…that includes physically, doesn't it."
---
the two of them get in a little bit of trouble, but they'll get out of it okay.

word count: 2915

rating: M

"For…real? You must be joking, Mulder. We'd get at best reassigned and at worst fired." He takes his feet off the desk and turns in his swivel chair to face her. She can't read his face exactly — she thinks he's forcing himself to be calm and composed. Is he… nervous? She supposes it takes a fair amount of courage to propose marriage to your longtime coworker, but Mulder has always had courage in great abundance. "So we tell no one. You keep your name. We keep separate addresses. It's simple." --- they get secretly married!! Scully has some complex feelings about it but everything turns out okay

word count: 5879

rating: E

He's wanted her for the longest time, yearned for her body against his, her lips hot on his, his name in her breathy moans. He lets himself imagine for a moment him finally getting what he's dreamed of. But not like this. Not like this, with her pupils blown to such proportions that the blues of her eyes are but slivers, her skin hot and flushed, her mind not her own. It is not her. She is not doing this of his own volition, he realises, tearing his lips away from hers and moving to put the table between them. He has some idea now of how all those people fucked themselves to death or insanity. "Scully," he says. "Scully, look at me." She does, her hands reaching for him, a mournful, confused look on her face. "Mulder. I want you. Won't you have me?" "Not while you're high on this fucked up… sex pollen shit." --- wondered if anyone had written X-Files sex pollen fic, decided to write my own. this is like if the Midnight Oil plot from Agent Carter and Roald Dahl's Bitch and Gender Bender and Blood all had a baby together.

word count: 4108

rating: E

She is so beautiful. He plays back the pleasurable memories of last night as he takes the elevator down to street level, wetting his lips subconsciously. God, he could fuck her all day and night. He's so lucky to have her as a friend, as a fuck buddy. And one day, fate willing… they might be more. --- Mulder finds himself falling for his coworker-with-benefits, the beautiful and enigmatic Dana Scully, but he's convinced she doesn't return his feelings. Both of them drink a little too much and fuck a little too well. As we all know, you are your most honest self when drunk. Alcohol loosens lips, and loose lips can sink ships... or raise a fleet of emotions and secrets. Will they admit their true feelings to each other? Or will they only and always miss each other in the fog of drunken haziness and miscommunication?

word count: 2800

rating: T

She's already beginning to feel stir-crazy. The rooms are small. She and Mulder have one each, and they share one bathroom and one living/dining space. The ceilings are low and it feels as if the walls are closing in on them. Everything feels claustrophobic, too small for comfort. He's too close for comfort. --- The time passes — it would have passed anyway, but it is infinitely more enjoyable to pass it in each other's arms, knowing that they are loved and wanted. It is so good. The domesticity of it is so lovely, and she doesn't feel claustrophobic any more. It feels right to have him so close to her, to fall asleep next to him, to sit side by side and hold hands under the table when they eat. --- MSR, in the one-month quarantine they were put in after Firewalker

word count: 2792

rating: G

He cajoles her into posting a rather vintage-looking Polaroid shot of her he'd taken one night. She does look pretty good in it. It was a good shot. Not that she's going to tell him that.
trustno1 my muse. my touchstone.
She smiles, but doesn't like the comment.
langly_ringo23 @trustno1 coworkers do NOT talk to each other like this
She's scared for a moment that Ringo's guessed that they're together. She's halfway through typing a DM to him to beg him not to rat them out when she stops, rereads the comment, and decides to leave it.
At least he knows they're supposed to be just coworkers.
---
Fox and Dana's journey after getting together in fuck, i'm lonely, chronicled in photo posts on Scully's Instagram page.

word count: 160

rating: G

what happened in the elevator in Paper Clip!

word count: 1367

rating: G

She is here; she is safe. He's found her. He pushes away the urge to sob in relief and focuses on taking care of her, freeing her bound wrists, explaining to her how he'd found her.
---- hurt/comfort post-Irresistible, plus an important conversation about protecting each other

updated with the fics i posted this year!

archers gloves vs digital artist gloves being opposite of one another

Much like how archers and digital artists are mortal enemies

Behold, the digital artchery glove!

….but Wait…

…….!!!

FUCKA YOUUU!!!!!

Ok but wgat if we held hands…..

and we both had carpal tunnel syndrome 😳

not carpal tunnel syndrome 😫

this website really has ruined me… i didnt catch the G, so i spent like 4 minutes scouring the second pic for thee Lucky Luciano 😭

hand in unglovable hand

"you are one of gods strongest soldiers" i say, not even believing in either of those institutions

@theshitpostcalligrapher hey I got a pretty solid one for ya if you haven't seen it already.

vibes

(ink: ferris wheel press, sugar and spite)

“Creation looks on its Creator like the beloved looks on the lover. The soul is kissed by God in its innermost regions. With interior yearning, grace and blessing are bestowed. It is a yearning to take on God’s gentle yoke; it is a yearning to give one’s self to God’s Way.”

— St Hildegard

hello fellow non-Black tumblr users. welcome to my saw trap. if you'd like to leave, please name one (1) Black woman author who is not Maya Angelou, Toni Morrison, bell hooks, Octavia Butler, or N.K. Jemisin. bonus points if she's published a book in the last five years.

some of you are under the impression that this is me asking for recommendations. I assure you that's not the case.

Jess. I'm dying out here.

Reading comprehension questions:

1. Were you able to name one Black woman author? Who? What is she known for? Have you read her books?

2. Can you name more? How many?

3. Why do you think OP specified a recent author?

4. Notice this "saw trap" requires knowledge of only 5 Black women authors. How many white men authors can you name? Compare this number with the number of Black women Authors. Have you read their books? Were they on your school's required reading?

4. OP directs this at "fellow non-black tumblr users". Discuss the use of each of these words.

5. Context matters: Why do you think OP wrote this post? Have you seen their previous posts on this topic?

fatphobia affects men and nonbinary people too. a lot of people frame fatphobia as if it’s a byproduct of misogyny but its not, it is a unique form of oppression separate from misogyny. misogyny makes fatphobia worse, of course, but all fat people are still affected by it

yup, fatphobia is actually more closely connected to ableism but ppl are def not ready to talk abt that

It really is — not in the sense that having a larger amount of fat on your body necessarily makes you disabled, but because they both have this same inherent reaction of disgust from non-obese/abled people.

People dislike accommodating disabled people because they dislike being reminded that disabled people exist — that there are people’s bodies who don’t necessarily fit the accepted norm. They don’t like being reminded that these are things that CAN happen to the human body, even to their own bodies, and so they reject it outright. Disabled people’s bodies and minds don’t work like society dictates, and so the reaction from many people is disgust — the feeling that makes people want to push them away, to hide them, so that they don’t have to be reminded that the human body can do that.

It’s the same with fat people. Our bodies look and act differently than the accepted norm — parts are larger than expected, they move differently than expected — and so the reaction is disgust. They dislike seeing a human person whose body differs from that acceptable version, that reminds them that bodies can move and change and look drastically different from their own.

In both cases the reaction is wrong — disabled bodies and fat bodies are just bodies, and however much they differ from an acceptable standard has nothing to do with the worth of the bodies or the people within them. But because we are taught from birth that there is one way that people can be, one way that human beings look, any normal or natural variation will be looked upon with disgust.

And THAT is why fatphobia is closer to ableism than misogyny. Because the core of misogyny is a set of beliefs about women, and the core of fatphobia is disgust. We can’t tackle the problem the same way because we will never be liberated from either fatphobia or ableism until our society can look at us long enough to accept us as real human beings

The whole “I don’t hate fat people, I just think we *shouldn’t encourage* [translate: shouldn’t accommodate] people being overweight because they’re *unhealthy* ” thing is also uuuuhhh

Very telling in this regard

You might be frustrated by the library never having a complete manga collection on its shelves at any given time, but the 12 year old checking out 14 volumes of One Piece at once is vital to the library ecosystem. He's like the sea otter keeping the kelp forest from being devastated by an excess of sea urchins.

To those curious some other keystone library species include:

—the retirees who’ve read more murder mysteries than I’ve had hot meals

—the paperback romance girlies (gender neutral) who check out every single bodice ripper the second it hits the shelves

—the dads very slowly making their way through a ‘1001 movies to see before you die’ list

—the one-man criterion collection who checks out like, three movies per day and brings them back the next. (TV series are only a minor roadblock.)

—kids who like Minecraft

---The new parents checking out 47 picture books for their 7 month old baby who clearly has nothing going on in their head except the Wii Sports Resort theme song

So anyways I happen to be to be reading a book about the start of AI back in the 60’s and actually initially it’s other name was simulated automation and I think that’s a better name for what AI actually does we should go back to that

not having the courtesy to send rejection letters should count against your reputation as a company and i’m so serious about that

it’s the rock-bottom bare minimum. “you didn’t get the job, sorry, don’t expect any more correspondence from us.” jobhunting is already so user-hostile and companies are getting way too comfortable showing that they don’t give a fuck

it wild to me that there are people out there who aren't interested in history

like wdym you don't think about the fact that women would tell stories as they made butter in the same way we listen to podcasts today? wdym you don't think about that one Chinese poet who wrote about how much he loved his cats hundreds of years ago? wdym you don't think about the fact that we found a gravesite of a young child surrounded by flowers from THOUSANDS of years ago? wdym you don't think about how people wrote "i was here" into the walls in Pompeii? wdym you don't think about the little egyptian boy who drew little doodles at the top of his school works more then a thousand years ago?

wdym you don't think about the fact that people, no matter the place, time, social status, are fundamentally no different from you. that they loved the same as you, enjoyed the same things you did, dreamed about a better life the same way you did. that despite how seemingly detached you are from these people, in time, place, and culture, the things you do and the thing u are, are so undeniably human that it transcends time and space

This also something that befuddles me. "History is boring", "History is stupid". History is probably one of the most important subjects to learn about, I'd argue History itself is the greatest teacher of them all. It teaches empathy from those people who you never knew but were less fortunate, it teaches kindness and compassion through the stories of people who spent their lives trying to make a positive difference, it teaches determination and perseverence by the tales of heroes who never gave up even in the darkest of times, it also teaches us the dangers of falling down the wrong path and shows us examples of where that can lead. But perhaps most importantly, it teaches us about ourselves, almost nothing we experience today wasn't also something our ancestors also dealt with. Dreams and aspirations, struggles and turmoil.

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