run away with me
@steddiebingo prompts: ocean + childhood friends (if like 16-19 counts as childhood, which i say it does !) | 2.6k words | T | mild cw for depression and alcohol as an unhealthy coping mechanism
Steve stares numbly out the office window, his view an ocean of concrete and the few sad, sparse trees that were planted in the median between this buildingβs parking lot and the neighboring one in a very weak attempt to give an illusion that anything natural or organic goes on here. As if thereβs anything more than stiff, soulless buildings filled with stiff, soulless men in stiff, soulless suits who have dull conversations about money and more empathy for a credit card or an expensive car than for any human being.Β
Every second is hours long, everything is so important and nothing matters at all, and everyoneβs always in a rush but they never seem to go anywhere. It used to make his skin crawl, the slow monotony behind the urgent droning. He used to feel like he couldnβt breathe here, trapped at a desk and a computer, squirming under the constant presence of his boss and father, every eternal second oozing by and settling over him as if it had physical weight. He felt stuck and still, like a fly caught in amber, movements leaden and pointless as he sinks and suffocates slowly in a syrupy prison. But after a year of working here, Steve no longer cares. Heβs sunk in deep enough that itβs all dulled out and heβs become just as detached and hollow as the rest of them. He tells himself itβs only temporary anyways.
The phone rings at his desk, dragging his attention away from the window and pulling him out of his stupor.Β
βRichard Harringtonβs office,β Steve answers mechanically. βThis is his assistant, Steve. How may I help you?βΒ
It's a client, a long-time one who's been around for business meetings and dinners since he was a kid, and she coos over how mature and professional he sounds now. He gets that a lot, old clients and business partners of his dadβs calling or coming into the office and lavishing him with compliments on his role and responsibility. Itβs funny; they never thought so highly of him before, but they sure do now. And despite it all, Steve canβt help but preen under the praise, feeling all grown up and just like a child.Β
He lets this lady gush for a little while longer before he takes her message for Richard and hangs up the phone. That brief moment of emotion flickers out and the dullness returns. The day drags on.Β
βThank god itβs Friday, huh?β Tommy Hagan leans against the counter in the break room when Steve goes to get a coffee refill. βI had to file so many reports today, Iβm about ready to kill myself.βΒ
βYeah, tell me about it,β Steve mutters, punching the button to start the coffee machine.
βYouβre still coming out with us tonight, right?β Tommy asks. βMy cousinβs in town - you know, the one I told you about, the model. I think you two are really gonna get along.β He says it with this gross smirk, double meaning abundantly clear, and Steve rolls his eyes.Β
βDude, stop trying to pimp your cousin out to me, man. You talk her up so much Iβm starting to think maybe you want her.β
βBut youβll be there, yeah?βΒ
βYeah, Iβll be there,β Steve says. Of course heβll be there. Itβs routine. Itβs all routine. They commiserate in the break room like a couple of wizened old world-weary businessmen on workdays and then party like teenagers on the weekend. Dulled out from the week, they buy back their missing emotion in the form of alcohol and drugs. A good buzz makes a decent substitute for a feeling, in a pinch. Itβs just enough to survive on week after week.Β
βGood.β Tommy grins, clapping Steve on the shoulder on his way out.Β
Steve grabs his coffee and returns to his desk, to phone calls and faxes and data entry until the clock finally hits 5:00 and releases everyone into the illusion of freedom. He breathes an empty sigh of relief along with everyone else, shutting off the computer and shoving files back into folders, packing up to leave. βTell your mother Iβll be working late tonight,β Richard tells him, and Steve nods. Nothing ever changes.Β
It's quite a shock to the normal routine of things, then, when he pulls up to his driveway to find an extra car parked out front. Which wouldn't be unusual on its own - his mom sometimes has friends over on Fridays - except for the fact that this car is a total piece of shit, which rules out any friend of his parents, and there's a wild-haired man leaning against it. It's the sight of that old once familiar face that's so jarring to him, has him hitting the brakes too hard and parking jerkily.Β Β
Steve gets out of his car and stares in disbelief. βEddie Munson.βΒ