the story will keep on going

you ever get tired of living but in a non-suicidal way

like everything is bad everywhere and no one has money and im tired of this cycle

i tried to explain how i was feeling like this to my drug counselor and she was like "yeah that still sounds kinda suicidal" and i could not figure out how to explain that i don't wanna die, i just like. am so so so tired of the way life is for me and all my friends and family. i'm tired of living like this but i'm gonna keep doing it bc i guess there's no other choice

I don't wanna die, I wanna go lay on a warm field under the sun and watch the clouds go by. How is this hard to understand?

I just want to spend a few days in the dim twilight between sleep and waking, but specifically the dim twilight of a Saturday morning in April.

Burnout. The word is burnout, but not because of an unusual state of overwork or an overly demanding position, but because the bare minimum being demanded is beyond capacity.

How is it that Tumblr consistently puts the posts that talk about what I am feeling at the top of my feed every. single. time?

oh, tumblr, we're really in it now

#I don't want to die I want to be alive #life is full of joys and I want to experience all of them #but everything is always getting in my fucking way!!!! I don't want to die I want that to change #I don't know how thats so hard for some people to understand

@approximately20eggs hope it's ok to post these tags because yeah. yes. yeah.

GET OUT!!!

@userdramas event 12: loss

Steve (ง'̀-‘́)ง Rogers is dangerous 

I don’t get why people are like “Steve Rogers is so vanilla” because the guy is probably the most hot-blooded person in the MCU and also the one to canonically lie on his enlistment form, steal cars, help steal wings, tell Nick Fury to fuck off and run SHIELD better, and generally be impossible to control

Művészet

the muffled ‘Call Me Maybe’ by Carly Rae Jepsen in the background is what really sells this video for me tbh

Potions master

this went from “oh cool” to “damn” to “hOLY F U CK”

I don’t really care what but I crave to be this good at at least one thing during my lifetime

Huge thanks to Richard of the Order of the Blade for throwing me around!

(If you’re in the UK, consider checking them out! The order are a combat school with a really fun and welcoming ethos)

And as always, more bows, swords, and nonesense on Patreon

Ok, those of you who said the economic blackout wouldn't do anything, here's a longer term thing to do, called for by Black clergy members.

We're not shopping at Target folks. How we spend our money in a system that requires us to endlessly consume is a solid tool to lean in on. I don't think that the current administration actually cares about "the economy" in the way that past ones have, but I can tell you that Target's shareholders and c-suite REALLY care about how you spend your money.

I think this is just a trend everywhere but I've been very frustrated this week by how much admin work is being outsourced to me as the patient/customer.

My orthodontist tells me I can make an appointment with the surgeon. I call the surgeon. They tell me I need a new referral. I call the orthodontist. They do a referral. I call the surgeon. Referral didn't come through. They tell me about their special unique system we have to use. I call the ortho again and walk them through the referral. I call the surgeon. They say the referral was missing some details so they have to do it again. I call the ortho.

The insurance company calls me about repair shops. I give them the name of the repair shop which I already gave them yesterday. They say they're not in their system but I can use them, but I have to call the repair shop to ask them to contact the insurance company. I call the repair shop and they say the insurance company is supposed to email them.

I feel like at a certain point these constant fetch quests become unreasonable?? Is it too much to expect these groups to communicate with each other instead of making me run back and forth between them???

Made this post and then the new property manager (who started on Monday and only finally emailed us today because I sent a vaguely professionally hostile email to her boss because I hadn't heard anything and was not convinced she existed) asked for a list of open action items which her predecessor should have had but apparently wasn't keeping track of, which I learned when I met her boss and provided her with the list of open action items, which I guess tragically died in a fire in the last 2 weeks since she was sitting at my kitchen table, being menaced by the skull. How many people's jobs am I doing now

It has a name!!!

How slutty is his ponytail?

Rating men's ponytails in wuxia/xianxia I've seen. Part 2. Part 1.

Jiang Cheng (The Untamed) 6/10

The most underrated ponytail in The Untamed. He's canonically "maidenless" but that's just because Zidian is even sluttier than his ponytail and that scares people. That's OK, boo. You're a solid 6 on my scale.

Wei Wuxian (The Untamed) 7/10

This ponytail isn't half as slutty as that luscious red ribbon that falls somewhere between necromancer work wear and sexy lingerie. Truly a look that takes him effortlessly from office to the club! Whether he's summoning the dead or making goo-goo eyes at Lan Zhan, Wei Wuxian's ponytail slays.

Wen Kexing (Word of Honor) 7/10

I really wanted to rate him higher but he mostly wears a little bun, which falls outside the parameters of this assessment. So I am rating this anemic little ponytail higher than it probably deserves.

Xiao Heng (The Double) 8/10

Duke Su always wears his hair in a neat, proper, masculine bun held by a golden guan that suits his high status and emphasizes his power. He only wears it in a ponytail in the situations where having long hair flying around your face could get you killed: during battle. He also does it when he's training shirtless in the rain, as one does. His simple, unadorned ponytail serves cunt way above its paygrade.

Xue Yang (The Untamed) 8/10

This crazy motherfucker's ponytail is just as chaotic and unpredictable as he is. He's so dangerous that even his ponytail could probably kill a man at 50 paces.

Young Zhao Yuanzhou and Li Lun (Fangs of Fortune) 9/10

I mean...just look at them! Can't even be bothered to comb their hair properly before tying it up in shaggy little ponytails because they know they're going to tumble right back into bed anyway, so why bother. So slutty.

Scorpion King (Word of Honor) 9/10

The braids! The silver and turquoise guan! The lavish yet restrained and obviously kinky longing they imply!

Mu Sheng (Love Game in Eastern Fantasy) 10/10

I've only seen a couple episodes so far, but this guy's ponytail is a whole mood. It looks like something a 1960s pinup model would wear, and he flounces it around like one constantly, pouting and letting strands of hair fall seductively over his face.

Xu Qi'an (Guardians of the Dafeng) 10/10

Xu Qi'an's ponytail is so slutty it's on OnlyFans. It's so slutty he needs to use birth control every time he does his hair. It's so slutty it whistles at construction workers when he walks past them. How long does it take him to curl his hair to give it the maximum bounce and fullness? Why does he also wear it on the top of his head like a 60s pinup girl? How can everyone tell he's not a virgin? PUH-LEEZE! I still haven't finished this show, but as far as I'm concerned, this ponytail is the star.

Afters. Xiao Xuan is on dish duty.

Flourished Peony | Get rich, then you don't have to get married.

you're right. a saint is useless. what this world needs is heartless men. those who abide by the rules can't move forward fast. then, screw the rules.

story of kunning palace, 宁安如梦.