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@intothepast9

mid 20's | she/her | into_the_past on ao3 | marauders fanfic (mostly pandalily) + I guess US politics bc that's all I think about these days

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Hi!! I'm intothepast (she/her) (into_the_past on AO3)

I've been posting on AO3 for a while so I thought it was time to make an account here so I could connect with other people in the fandom <3

I mostly write Pandora Lovegood (here Lestrange)/Lily Evans but there's some other random shit there too haha

Coming soon: the earth abideth forever. Christian homeschooler Pandora AU where her grandma dies and she has to go to public school and meets Lily (it's gonna be weird and a lot about the nature of religious faith; definitely not everyone's cup of tea). There's a prologue I put up if you want to check it out

Fics:

What We Pretend to Be (~200k): Pandalily with background Jegulus and Dorlene and Wolfstar

EDIT: now COMPLETE!!

Summary:

Women in the Lestrange family tapestry are depicted only as flowers without names or faces.

Pandora Lestrange’s family arranges her marriage with Regulus Black, and unbeknownst to their families, the two of them plot to take down the Dark Lord.

The essential component to their success may be the Muggle born Head Girl that Pandora befriends in choir: Lily Evans.

Other fics:

to thine own self (4k oneshot): Pandalily love potion gone awry

Between the emotion and the response (8k oneshot): Linny postwar

no diagnosis

written for @pandalilymicrofics April 4 prompt "mediocre"--wc 615

“I think I’m bad at kissing,” Lily complained to Pandora. Something about the blonde girl made her feel like she could be open with her, so she always dropped little things she would have regretted saying to anyone else. And today, when Pandora had found her sitting outside the closed library—Mme. Pince was sick—this was what came out of her mouth.

Pandora looked at her, her eyes wide. “What do you mean?”

“I don’t know, it just feels awkward, so then I move away, and then the guy seems to get frustrated and then I feel bad. At best the whole thing is mediocre, and at worst I feel like there’s something profoundly wrong with me.”

Pandora was quiet for a moment. “This might not be a helpful suggestion,” she paused.

“Oh, sorry, not to act like you need to solve this! It’s just me being awkward,” Lily jumped to clarify.

“I want to know what’s going on,” Pandora said gently. Just her voice tickled Lily’s mind, like she was caressed. Weird thought. “You want to show me?”

Lily’s mind went blank. “You mean kiss you?” She looked down at the other girl’s soft pink lips. Somehow that would have felt like cheating the process of whatever the hell kissing was supposed to be like—

It would be too easy.

She moved a little closer to her.

“We don’t have to,” Pandora reassured her. “But it might give me more information, more insight into what you’re talking about.”

It’s just an academic question, Lily thought, and she stopped herself before she giggled.

Lily moved even closer, their knees touching as they sat together on the floor. “Are you sure this is ok?” she asked Pandora.

“I can put some charms up so no one sees us,” Pandora said. “They probably wouldn’t anyway; I don’t think anyone else wants to come sit outside the library at this hour, but it wouldn’t hurt.” She muttered a few spells.

So they were doing this, then. Lily felt her heart pounding. She didn’t really want Pandora to know what all was wrong with her and why she was bad at kissing, but Pandora ran her fingers over Lily’s lips, and then she didn’t think she could stop—

Their lips touched gently, unhurriedly, Pandora taking her time to explore every new sensation Lily would have rushed towards. It was for science, essentially, Lily reminded herself; they had to feel out every way of doing this. This was different from any other kiss, and Lily, for once, wanted it to go on forever. She held tongue back—she didn’t know if Pandora had signed up for that, but then she felt the other girl’s tongue at her lips and she welcomed it into her mouth.

Lily wasn’t sure how long they were there for—time had no meaning; a lifetime had passed since they started; everything was different; but maybe it was only a minute. Eventually Lily saw Pandora glance down at her watch and saw panic in her face.

“It’s half an hour past curfew!”

“Shit!” Lily exclaimed. “Er, I’m Head Girl—I can walk you back to Ravenclaw Tower?”

The other girl smiled softly. “I’d love that.”

They started walking silently. Midway up the staircase to Ravenclaw, Pandora turned to Lily. “I don’t know what you’re worried about. That was amazing.”

“That was… different…” Lily explained, “than the other times.”

“Different… good?”

They were in front of the door to Ravenclaw tower. “Different in the best way.”

Pandora’s lips parted in a grin, and then she pulled Lily into a corner by the door. “This ok?” she asked.

Lily nodded, smiling.

Pandora kissed her again. “Good night.”

out of the city

created for @pandalilymicrofics April 5 prompt "lush" --483 words

Lily hadn’t thought it really was possible to meet someone in person like in a romcom. Maybe someone else could, but as for her, before she got to know someone well enough to learn if they were queer and how she felt about them, they had fallen into an established pattern of friendship, and even if she had feelings for them, she didn’t feel like there was any way to voice it. She never wanted to risk losing them as friends, and so she had assumed that if she ever found anyone, it would only be through online dating.

But out of the blue, she had gotten the balls to compliment a girl’s earrings in line at the coffee shop. They had just been so cute—perfectly fashioned little sunflowers. The girl had smiled and told her how she had made them, and then once they got their coffee, she then told Lily to sit down with her and talk for a few minutes, during which Pandora had rapidly become the most fascinating person Lily had ever met. Somehow, in these few minutes the conversation went from art to pets to work to the meaning of happiness.

“Er, I hope it’s not presumptuous, but could I get your number?” Lily had asked when she had to dash to work. She didn’t even know if Pandora was single, but she was pretty sure she was queer. She had a pet snake and just… didn’t carry herself like a straight woman.

Pandora had put Lily into her phone and almost immediately texted her. “hey it’s pandora from the coffee shop x there’s a meadow that reminds me of you; want to go on a picnic sometime?” Lily had grinned like a loon the rest of the day, embarrassingly telling at least five of her coworkers about that morning.

Pandora had picked her up at noon the next Saturday, and they had driven half an hour. Probably her mom would have told Lily to meet in a public place for their first date, but as they left the city, the conversation never stopping, Lily saw the lush meadow that must have been where they were going. The bright green hills looked like something she would have seen visiting her grandmother in Ireland as a child. She hadn’t mentioned that to Pandora, but it seemed like something this woman would have been able to somehow intuit, and she was touched at the thought. Lily chastized herself for not leaving the city sooner after moving there, but she was so glad to be out in the sun, and that Pandora had wanted to come her with her.

Pandora parked the car and led her towards a tree. “Is this weird?” she asked. “I thought you might like it.”

“No, it’s perfect,” Lily said, spreading out the blanket under the tree. “It’s beautiful. Thank you for bringing me here.”

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Reblog if its ok for your moots to stalk your blog and interact with everything you've posted.

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 A friend threatened me to repost so I will!

Basically, there r tons of fake asses on tumblr who just want comments and followers, so someone started this to see who's actually a good friend. Everyone I tag better repost (and tag other people and preferably threaten them in a creative way as well) bc I'm high on caffeine and newfound lesbianism and will resort to violence.

I would tag more people but they're the only ones I've really interacted with-

Hey queeeeeen!!!!! How ya doing with your newfound lesbianism?

I know I didn’t tag everyone, I just can’t remember all of my mooties and I’m tired lol

Uhhh- ill try to tag everyone i can remember, its been a minute since ive been active ok here.

@swirling-romantics @fifisettos @xerussquirrel @urgayoldercousinmags @nolonger-ams @soupdeewoop @eternally-wandering @liv-in-the-chaos @clodyghost i think thats most if not all of my people

@indigostation @astronomical-anteater @turtlesinatree @ literally anyone who isn't here just for meaningless engagement farming

I'm too bad at interacting with people for this lol

I'd buy you one but i'm broke 😔 And I am definitely not at a birthday party while on tumblr haha, I'm totally not hiding in a corner and avoiding socializing @inlovewithmyhyperfixations @moonyscribe @wisegirl42 @sage-black-or-remus-lupin-90 @gendermelted @ghastlyhounds @lookitsabooknook @girl-rudely-interrupted @invasiveroadkill @starman-01 @in-a-different-timeline @siriuslyobsessed394 @janeiscompletelyfine @alwayssirius09 +anyone I forgot :P

That's so real (It's definitely not 11:56 PM right now I have a normal sleep schedule)

aw thank u <3 no shame to anyone who doesn't keep the thread going but shout out to @pandalilslover @pinknbae @the-stars-in-between @raysofpoetry222 @goldfishinabottle @thebibutterflyao3 @wrenswreath @petalsblooming and anyone I'm forgetting

i am going to shout this from the rooftops:

Katniss, Haymitch, and the Seam inhabitants are all described as olive-skinned, brown-eyed (edit: and gray-eyed), and dark-haired.

Peeta, Maysilee, Katniss’ mother and the Merchants are largely described as blond haired, blue eyed, light-skinned.

The Hunger Games adaptations have a huge weakness to their casting because they allowed their white audience to overlook this very important fact, that the Mockingjay is a brown girl, that her mother was disowned for having a mixed-race and mixed-class marriage, that Katniss and Haymitch were long shots not just because they’re Seam but because they are brown… because the only brown characters in the movies (i.e. Rue, Thresh, 11 in general) were there to be tragic, not to be saviors.

Katniss Everdeen is brown, and I won’t forgive or forget the movies for erasing that part of her character.

this has been another tea time with hawk ☕️🦅

ooh I just want to add to this that district 12 is canonically set in Appalachia, and the ethnic description of some of the characters is similar to that of the Melungeons, a term referring to people in the region with mixed African, Indigenous, and European ancestry https://www.patheos.com/blogs/religionprof/2022/06/a-place-called-district-12-appalachian-geography-and-music-in-the-hunger-games-interview-with-tom-paradis.html

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My manifesto on Lily Evans

We know almost nothing about Lily, and she is the only witch on the Marauders generation that we learn anything about at all.

We know she was Head Girl, in the Slug Club, and died to save her child in some way more powerful than James laying down his life in battle. What was so powerful about this? It’s just written that a mother’s love is powerful, but presumably she must have invoked some ancient magic to give her life to save her son.

Throughout the series, we only see her through the male gaze. Harry only learns about his mother through other people’s memories, and his aunt never describes Lily in any meaningful way. Lily has the most screen time in the movies in Snape’s memories, and we have reason to believe that he would have a particularly twisted perception of her. Hagrid says some positive words about her, and maybe Sirius does as well, but on the whole we learn less about her than about James and what we do depicts her as an ideal of womanhood and motherhood (as described in this fantastic post by juniperpyre)

We know that James and Snape were infatuated with her and that she was a source of antagonism between them. While Snape’s infatuation with her was one of the major determining factors for the rest of his life, it didn’t stop him from joining a fascist terrorist group that dedicated to denying rights to a group she belonged to. It didn’t stop him from bullying her son to the point where he often suspected Snape was trying to kill him. We have to assume that eventually James saw Lily in a more human way than this, but we do not even get his perspective on her because he is dead.

Her own sister only says ANYTHING about her other than that she was a freak, a witch, and good for nothing in the seventh book. What she says? That Voldemort killed her sister. This doesn’t provide new insight into Lily’s character and Petunia’s relationship with her except that Petunia didn't enjoy her death. Great, Petunia is still human despite abusing a child. Doesn't tell us shit about Lily.

Incidentally, we also know that Lily got pregnant as a teenager. (Harry was born six months after she turned 20.) This is not the act of a Head Girl with a bright academic future, full of ambition, her life perfectly planned out and never deviating from the plan. This is the life of a confused girl living in a war and forced to grow up too soon, either by a mistake or through the feeling that it was her only chance at a normal family life with the impending danger of the war.

Lily might have felt isolated even in the Order and married to James. Mary is mentioned as her friend in canon, but we don’t know if Mary joined the Order. We know Lily had to cut herself off from Snape as a friend due to his bigotry and joining a fascist militant group. Yes, Lily was friends with Sirius, their first choice to be their Secret Keeper; we can tell this through their correspondence. But he was primarily James’ friend. They were inseparable at Hogwarts, and when he broke out of Azkaban, he mostly talked to Harry about James and saw James in Harry. Likewise, we know she was friends with Peter enough to trust him as Secret Keeper, but again he was primarily James’ friend. Lily wasn’t an animagus; she wasn’t in the Marauders’ Map, and if she was separated from her other friends and spent her time in the Order with James’ friends, she probably felt left out. She probably felt like she was viewed partially as an extension of James’ life.

Who was she outside of the male gaze? Outside of James’ life? Outside of Snape’s life? I guess that’s for us as fans to describe and write and cherish

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