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My name is Neon and I will be your grim host in this wonderfully spooky corner of the internet. This is my main blog and it is multi-fandom, so expect a lot of different things to show up here. If you'd like to know more about me or this blog, check out my About Me.

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grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

i talked ab this feeling in therapy yday and my therapist asked me, “would it really be so bad if your memories changed? if they softened and faded or looked different over time? why does that frighten you so much?” and i said, “i don’t want the love to disappear.” and she looked at me for a long moment and then she said, “it won’t. it doesn’t work that way. even if the memories soften or change, it doesn’t mean the love does. that love keeps going backward in time, forever, because you love her still. all is not lost.” i just thought i would share that in case it resonated w anyone else too.

there's a terrible thing about grief where it's like a siren. it's luring you into a bottomless ocean to drown, because drowning is a way of proving your love. because isn't that what the person you lost deserves? weren't they so important and so loved that you should feel the worst of it fresh every single day for the rest of your life? aren't you failing them if it eventually starts to hurt less?

sometimes i think back to the weeks of watching my family fall apart, and what i remember was how powerful and overwhelming everything was. everything hurt so much. everyone around me was hurting so much. i heard people making sounds i'd only ever read about. wailing. keening. i'll never forget my mom sitting on the porch with my brother's shoes in a plastic bag the police had returned to us. hugging that bag to her chest and screaming. i'll never forget how big everything felt.

because the hugeness of grief is paying respect to the person we lost. we are meant to hurt, because that is how we know we loved.

but we aren't meant to live in that place forever. we can't. humans live in the cycle of birth and death, and we are meant to recover. it is not an insult to those we've lost. it is not a failing.

it's healing. it's scabbing over. it's scarring.

memory is fickle. human memory is notoriously inconsistent and unreliable. memory is not a sign of morality. humans forget details because we're human.

but we don't forget love.

i am thirteen years out from my brother's death and here's what i remember:

  • i remember the way his voice resonated in his chest. he had the deepest voice in the family.
  • i remember that he always returned my calls, even when he was avoiding other people.
  • i remember sleeping on his couch after we played rock band and watched the transformers movie.
  • i remember us sitting upstairs while other people in the family were hashing out an argument downstairs and i read one of his comic issues out loud and how much he laughed at it.
  • i remember how goddamn funny he was.
  • i remember spending the day with him and my boyfriend at an amusement park and riding roller coasters all day.
  • i remember how fucking brilliant he was.
  • i remember worrying, worrying, worrying so much for him.

you won't forget the important things. i promise. you won't forget the love.

A New Adventure!

Hiya guys, just wanted to post a little announcement that I've started a Ko-fi! Not necessarily for donations, but I've started selling emotes, both ready to use and customized! Here are a few examples of what I've done!

If you or anyone you know is interested in getting some cute, customized emotes, please check out my Ko-fi for what I have to offer! 💚

Hi Tumblr!

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve interacted here. Thought I’d give a little update on where I’ve been.

I’ve been focusing on my streaming. If you didn’t know, I stream on Twitch and it’s been a blast getting to share some pretty amazing games with an audience! My community is smol, but we’re filled with the funnest ☺️

Other than that, I’ve been working hard to open a little Kofi shop where I hope to sell customized and premade emotes. It’s opening soon (as soon as I figure out how to write a TOS), so keep a look out for an announcement 🙈

I’ve had some major writer’s block. That’s why you haven’t seen me here too much. Hopefully it’ll go away and I can get back into it. I have so many ideas, I just don’t have the correct vocabulary to express them!

But that’s all for now, so until next time 💚

P.S. I got a Bluesky account. I hate the 300 character limit per post. Oh Tumblr, never let anyone change your long form posting. This certified yapper is out of her element anywhere but here.

hi, long time no write. i've recently had this fic on the brain again, so here's a bit extra. written with female reader in mind.

It takes three seconds for your vision to fade back in. Four seconds for your lungs to gasp down a mouthful of air. Five seconds for the sound of your hammering heart to reach your ears as the euphoria of your first orgasm rips through you. There's a tingle that settles on the surface of your skin, prickling your senses into hyper-sensitivity.

It's how you know that, moments way too soon, Katsuki suctions the vibrator back onto your clit.

Pleasure is accompanied by an enticing burn as your hands scramble to push his stronger ones away. "K-Kats, no I ca—"

"Sure you can," he interrupts, easily swatting your desperate fingers away. His lip curls when your hips jerk, his precision never faltering. "C'mon. Show me how you fall apart again."

You're about to protest when the words get caught on your tongue. You go slack-jawed, pleasure building up into a crescendo even faster than before. The intensity from the get go is too much to handle, but your greedy nerves do everything but pull away. Breath stuck in your throat, you hold it there and listen as the vibrating hum becomes all you can focus on. Higher and higher until all you can think is—

"I'm gunna..."

You don't even finish your thought before a sensation in your groin has you shuddering. Toppling over the edge into another body writhing orgasm, you notice a moment too late that liquid has spilled out of your cunt, coating your thighs and the bedspread below; splashing onto your lover's hands.

You find your breath as more spills out of you. "Fuck, oh fuck!" Your cuss is accompanied by the strength to finally push Katsuki's hand — and that damned clitoral sucker — away.

When you peek your eyes open after the high has worn off, he's frowning at the puddle you've made. Embarrassed and feeling like you'd done something wrong, you mutter out the quietest of apologies.

Katsuki shakes his head — "Don't be." — before tossing your toy toward the other side of the mattress. "Just annoyed I couldn't make you gush before that thing did." There's a huff in his voice, exhaled through his nose. When his eyes meet yours, glimmering with mischief, his frown is replaced with another smirking curl. "Guess I'll just have to make you cum even harder myself."

gushers the candy: @dcsiremc, @bakubunny, @bookcluberror, @dizazter-dragoon, @pastelbakugou, @dreamcastgirl99, @darkstarlight82, @i-literally-cant-with-this, @fav-characters, @emmab3mma

I wanted to come here again and thank everyone who has donated and/or spread the word to help with my cousin’s GoFundMe.

Early Wednesday morning, 11/27/24, I received the news that my cousin Rachel lost her battle with cancer.

It was a long seven months (one month longer than her doctor originally gave her!) and she fought a tough battle. I’m glad to have visited her one last time before her passing. I’m not sure what else to say, so I suppose I’ll leave it at that.

I was already on a bit of a hiatus, it may become a bit longer.

Thank you again to those who have helped in any way you could. Much appreciation and mahalos from my family to yours.

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𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒: 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡, 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ "𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 + 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒," 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑎𝑔 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒.

thanks @ghosts-and-blue-sweaters and @cbuttonduo for the tag!! <3

wow i’m obsessed with this and i feel it’s fairly accurate!!

Thank you for the tag!

Some of them are pretty accurate I'd say

Tagging (no pressure) : @p6ntera , @navi-s-shitposting , @souleatherr , @peacetingyawaka , @xxylan , @strawberrystepmom & whoever wants to do it

thank u for tagging me beautiful <333

im going to taggggg @umemiyan @izvmimi @fortune-card @silentgravesdontexist @gennysuga and @entirelysein-e !!!!

YUPPIIIIEEEEE thank you for tagging me sweet Kendy <3

ty for the tag genny !! <3

venuscore :0

ty for the tag venus <3

went out of format bcs i’m a menace like that

no pressure tag! @mangostarjam @shouyuus @purpleqilinwrites @sugurouge @strawchocoberry @suosteacup + anybody who’d like to join ^^

thank you for the tag, rye! ❤ this was fun!!!

tagging:

+ anyone who wants to join!

thank you for the tag! here's mine :) <3

@katsukikitten @katsulock + anyone else who'd like to play!

Thanks for the tag Maddie! Here are my 6

Gunna keep tags open ended and just say whoever sees this, try it 💚

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I was tagged by @awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands to do this picrew and post the last song I listened to. Thanks for the tag :)

And last song is

Hey, thanks for tagging me! 😃

Last song:

Thanks to both @deep-space-siren and @lightineventide for tagging me!

(This is an album of Medieval Celtic music, around 1:13:00, so it's a bit of a slog to listen to)

I'll tag:

Ty for the tag @severalpossiblemusiks !!

My last listened to song is Brooklyn Baby by LDR :3

I tag @lil-melody-moon @camcatdotcom @dontremindme14444 @stillneedy and anyone else who wants to :)

thank you for the tag!

bimbo by yello was the last song i listened to.

tagging @suicidekings, @annabelle4, @bleoo3, and any of my other mutuals who want to do this!

tysm for tagging me @stillneedy 🌷🩷🩷

my last song: pink floyd - atom heart mother 🐄

Thanks for the tag @dreamcastgirl99 🥹 it actually means a lot that I’m still tagged in this kinda stuff despite not being so active

Last song I listened to was Open Road by Trivecta

no pressure tags: @thenamesmiz @bakubunny @dcsiremc + anyone else who wants to

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so part of the reason he doesn't remember her is because it was such a shitty time at home and he was shutting down he's not just a fuckboy he's a TRAUMATISED fuckboy

If you were smart, you would have cleaned the place of every trace of you, but instead, you're forced to watch him pad through your belongings. Sero, the Sero, dreamboat Sero, is walking his fingers across the shelves in your living room, inspecting the rowing of manga. Sometimes, he hums, like he recognizes something. Other times, he stops on the figurines and pretends to shake their tiny hands in a horribly charming manner.

There's been boys in your apartment before. Well, a boy.

This is different. Sero is different.

He keeps looking back at you with these eyes, these damn eyes that you just can't resist, gently lidded with a smile that feels like it's just for you-

Liking him is stupid. You know that. Boys like him date pretty girls, thin girls, normal girls, better girls-

You adjust your clothes, pulling at the hem until you hear a definite pop. It's the exact outfit you saw on a pretty girl on tiktok, bought with three weeks of allowance, but it feel wrong and cheap against your skin. Wool over a wolf's body, poorly trying to disguise you as something you aren't.

Sero is effortlessly cool. His clothes are loose in they way that still makes him look lean and put together and purposely mismatched. Even his socks are different colors, one white, one black-

"You have a fun place, Cram School." Sero gives you a big smile. He calls you affectionately, since he claims to miss you when you're there. "You really like magical girls, don't you?"

You fiddle with the hem of your shirt more, tugging at the loose threads.

"...Yeah."

He waits a bit to see if you've got more to say, then turns back to your things. He's always attentive with you, even when Kirishima's other friends aren't.

"You totally wanted to be a hero as a kid, didn't you?" His teasing is light and your chest feels the same. "Like this guy?"

Technically, the figure he picks up isn't a hero, but you don't point that out. His warmth is melting you and you swear every atom in your body is slowly buzzing faster and faster.

"No, my quirk isn't good. I could never be a hero. I just..." You trip over your words because you know it's pathetic to admit. You adjust your glasses as you speak, sliding them up and down nervously. "They're sweet, and, and friendly. D-don't you ever wish you could transform into someone else for a little bit?"

There's another pause and you're forced to look directly at him. Your glasses slide down on their own.

"That was so cringe," you whisper.

His shrugs with one shoulder, scuffing his socks against the carpet. "Yeah. I do. Sometimes."

Sero sniffs, then hooks a thumb towards the television. "Do you wanna watch one?"

"A-a show?" you scoff at yourself. "You don't have to do that."

"You're so mean to yourself, Cram School. " Sero laughs. "I want to."

-

He asks questions the first episode. Good ones too. He posts to a character and whispers that it must be your favorite, since he saw the posters of her. Heat from his breath tickles your neck and that helium feeling in your chest just gets tighter.

The third episode, he slings and arm around your shoulders. You had been frozen tall, knees together with hands tucked into your lap, but then he drew you in, right into his collarbone. His elbows are sharp, but you don't mind. Not at all.

You debate touching him back, but your hands stay locked on the hem of your shirt.

When the credits roll, he turns to look at you, face so close to the side of yours that you can feel his nose bump against the wire frame of your glasses.

"Hey."

He whispers it as his hand finds your thigh.

"I'm going to kiss you now, okay?"

He waits a minute, held by your indecisiveness. His skin is acne bitten under his bangs, the pad of fat under his eyes puffs when he smiles.

This isn't a cruel joke, is it? Or some dream you'll wake up from? This is real, painfully real, something that no one can take away from you-

"Okay?"

No one will ever believe that you have a boy in your apartment, one that wants to kiss you despite the glasses and everything else undesirable about you.

Sero whispers you name. Not Cram School, but your name.

You gather up the willpower to squeak out an: "Okay."

And then he does. Lips are dryer than you thought they'd be, but the gentle pull of skin against skin enough to steal your breath away. His own breath quivers with a sigh; he must be able to tell it's your first time, because he goes purposefully slow, moving his mouth slightly more and more open until you match his movements.

When his tongue slips into your mouth, it tastes like the peach tea he's left on your countertops.

For once, you don't want to be anyone else.

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absolutely no one:

me: mean old man baku ):

Mean old man Baku.

Mean old man Baku whose patience runs thin.

Mean old man Baku whose patience runs thin; he doesn’t have the time to watch you struggle at the campsite.

Mean old man Baku whose patience runs thin; he doesn’t have the time to watch you struggle at the campsite so he sets everything up himself.

Mean old man Baku whose patience runs thin; he doesn’t have the time to watch you struggle at the campsite so he sets everything up himself that way you can save your energy for bouncing on his—

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