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Rangergirl3

@rangergirl3

Writer (basically a nerd with approximate knowledge of many things)
Anonymous asked:

Don't you think it's easier for you to deal with your Trauma (tm) because you have a perfect marriage, a child who adores you, and a leisurely life as a housewife? It's harder for those who are single and alone and also need to work a full time job in order to survive.

No, I don’t think my trauma is easier to deal with. It’s different, but not easier.

For starters: No marriage is perfect. No child adores their parents 100% of the time. A housewife’s life is not leisurely.

So the assumptions Anon have started off with are very much out of sync with reality. Btw: I like Izumi Curtis. Quite a lot. Here she is, in her natural habitat, efficiently dealing with obstacles. :-)

Yeah - no. No. Trauma doesn’t magically become easier to deal with just because you’re married, with a kid, and not fulfilling a role at a place where you clock in and out of work.

It’s a lot of straight-up refusing to listen to the voices in my head that I literally grew up with, and trying to manage all of the emotional/mental/physical needs of a household while simultaneously being aware of my own needs, and to actually remember to take care of myself - which is very hard to do, because growing up, I literally locked away pieces of myself to cope with all the shitshow that was going on.

My brain: Ahah!!!! FINALLY, I have cleared my email inbox! I can conquer anything!!!

I kid you not, less then three seconds later:

Ah, I see, yes, there's the school update. For my kid's schedule. Oh. Oh dear.

I will be getting those emails too.

For.

Forever.

o.0

Now I am feeling more like this:

But it's still a good feeling, to have - most - of my email stuff up to date. :D

I just may need more of this:

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thank you for the tags @sunsfancyscooter (here) and @idletype (here)! I love fun little games <3

this is pretty accurate to me! I'm just a silly little guy your honor 🫶

This was fun (and a good distraction while waiting for graduation to start)

I didn't expect to get called out by a toast quiz but it was surprisingly accurate (except for the pb&j cause I hate peanut butter)

Thanks for tagging me @perfectlypeachbear!

This was a lot of fun, also garlic bread is my love so accurate!

Thank you so much for tag! :D :D

This was so much fun! :D Tagging @callaeidae3 @arwenride @justheretobreakthingsblog @jpnpr @brushes-of-sage @haleykim84 @familyofpaladins and anyone else who would like to join in! :D

Possible title for my next book:

Who I Am and How I Got Here

(Back of book sentence: High probability of it being: Well, you got me. By all accounts it doesn’t make sense)

Taken directly from this:

But seriously. Bit of pondering going on over here, lol.

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Nine people i'd like to get to know better:

Tagged by: @bell-of-indecision, thank you so much for tagging me <3

Last Song: Gmfu by Odetari,6arelyhuman

Favourite colour: Dark red, violet, pink

Currently watching: Death note, ep6

Spicy/Savoury/Sweet: Spicy

Relationship status: Single

Current Obsession: Mbti types and cognitive functions.

hiiii! it's my first time doing this ehehehhehh i don't know what i'm doing c:

tysm, @matching-dresses!!! you're amazing!!!

Last song: Operation by Three Days Grace

Favourite colour: PURPLE!!!!!! [all shades. i go crazy for purple] also crimson and smoky pink. and idk if that counts as a colour but glitter/unicorn skin.

Sweet/savoury/spicy: spicy. spicy all the goddamn way. please put me in as much pain as humanely possible. or inhumanely, that's fine by me, too.

Currently watching: Dunegon Meshi! GO WATCH IT ASAP IT'S SO GOOD AHSIXGSHIDHDJ [i finished episode 4 and i feel shit going down very soon]

Relationship status: I am in one, yes! Very happy to finally have someone who is capable of keeping me in check!!

Current obsession: so many. but most notably, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure [especially Cioccolata and Secco, naturally], Naruto [especially Hidan and Kakuzu, naturally], death, meat, tea, my guitar and re-learning life!

and lot other of people who i wanted to tag but have seen tagged already eeeeeeh >n< but i hope they know that i really really like them and would love to know more about them without spamming their inbox!

please, don't feel pressured to do this, i'm just. just giving the option. it's like getting bapped with a cat paw. a. a boop... ;u;

I haven't done this before!! Thank you, @tea-stained !!!

Last song - Crosstown Traffic by Jimi Hendrix.

Favorite color - Purple (I'm thinking between lavender and midnight purple).

Sweet/Savory/Spicy - Hard to pick, really. But I'd probably go spicy. There's nothing wrong with a little spice.

Currently watching - idk if this counts because I finished all the shows I was watching. But, I'm listening to an audiobook of Purple Haze Feedback!

Relationship status - Single, and I'd like to keep it that way for a while. I want to work I'm bettering myself before I bring all that onto another person

Current obsession - you could never guess ( just kidding!) probably a tie between JoJo's Bizarre Adventure or Jimi Hendrix ( we'll sneak in Prince, David Bowie, Link Floyd, and King Crimson for the music

They're not my moots, just people I admire the art of ( sorry abt that)

If this is it, I'm signing off-

Ooh, I've never been tagged in one of these (thank you, @samrae24 🥹), so let's see...

Last song: Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind

Favorite Color: purples, blues, and pinks

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: sweet, I love a little treat

Currently Watching: Dungeon Meshi (I'm ahead in the manga), Naruto (Fourth Great Ninja War arc)

Relationship Status: single

Current Obsession: JJBA, DunMeshi, Hannibal series, Cookie Run, Baldur's Gate, &c

💜

No way!!! My hero from my teenage years!!! 😍

Favourite colour: green!!!!!!!

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Savoury

Currently watching: Yu-Gi-Oh Duel Monsters

Relationship Status: Taken since 2019❤️

Current obsession: Punch Out 👀

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well-well-well. tysm for tagging me @mrfilippa!!

Last song: Walk With Me Sydney, by Pink Floyd

Favorite color: Any Colour You Like. literally- i love em all

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: def savorrry

Currently watching: ✨nothing✨

Relationship status: currently in a long-distance qpr, since 2022 :)

Current obsession: Punch-Out!!, Pink Floyd and all things geological

^^^ yall r COOL

& please- don't feel pressured to do this.

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thank u for tagging me :3

Last song: ohm sweet ohm AND uranium by kraftwerk

Favorite color: black, red, purple but all shades have to be dark or light but muted colors

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: idk what dis means sorry

Currently watching: this

Relationship status: single forever lmao

Current obsession: punch out, tekken, betty boop, anything related to stuff that happend over 100 years ago for some reason

tagging: @pzycho391 @shippingexpressinc @cece-slaughter and anyone who wants to do it lmao

Last song: either Hell is Forever, Stayed Gone, or Whatever it Takes

Favorite color: Dark blues and purples, also black

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: savory

Currently watching: a documentary about doctor Marcel Petiot

Relationship status: single

Current obsession: moose, shed hunting, loa, manifesting, mlp (still), tekken (esp. Sergei and *deep breath* DIMITRI), memeing the shit out of prev. mentioned. (mentally), päronbiskvier

Aight... tagging; @omgnoabsolutelynot @randybutternubber @familyofpaladins (get booped lol)

thank you for the tag!!! <3 (I dont think I said it before, but you were a major part of get my boop counter past 1000 lol)

Last song: Love from the Other Side by fall out boy

Favorite color: GREEN (especially lime/grass green. but a lot of greens are good)

Sweet/savory/spicy: sweet! Sometimes savory

Currently watching: I'm rewatching the 2003 Teenage mutant ninja turtles! Almost done with season 5 :D (also just saw kung fu panda 4 day before yesterday)

Relationship status: single pringle lol

Current obsession: tmnt mostly! Various ones, but mostly 03 since I'm rewatching it. but I've also started an au in my mind and literally wrote 3k worth of words of background about it yesterday lol. Thinking about rewatching Monkie Kid here sometime, and I'll probably get obsessed again lol. Things are getting very interesting in the MY hero academia manga. So I may or may not be getting back into that lol

Tagging: @haleykim84 @berryblu-arts @rangergirl3 @psy(you know who you are) @groundzero-and-deku @eastofthemoon @bloo-the-dragon @archangeltama @bookwyrm-art-stuff @confusednymphinayellowdress @i-dont-know-i-suck-with-names and anyone else who wants to share! :D

Thank you so much for the tag @familyofpaladins ! So kind of you to include me! <3

Last song: Warriors by League of Legends, 2WEI and Edda Hayes

Favorite color: purple

Sweet/savory/spicy: sweet! I cannot handle spicy at all!

Currently watching: Outlander. My friend @noisypaintersong recommended this show to me years ago (seriously, back in 2021!), and I've only now gotten around to watching it o_O It's great though, I love it!

Relationship status: single

Current obsession: Outlander (I love and adore Jamie!), but also The Green Creek series by T.J. Klune (gay werewolves, brotherly love, found family, magic, what's not to love?)!

Tagging: @brushes-of-sage @noisypaintersong @hotarubi-e @airstyledraconos and anyone-else who wants to join in!

Ahhhhh, It’s been forever since doing a tag game!! Thanks for the tag @haleykim84 !!

Last Song: “Top One” from the BNHA Stage Play (y’all, I’m OBSESSED with the stage plays y’all have no idea 😭😭😭)

Favorite Color: P U R P L E

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: savory and sweet (rip my Mexican heritage, I cannot handle spice 😭)

Currently Watching: Star Trek TOS movies (I’ve just finished “The Search for Spock” and need to read the novelization before moving on)

Relationship Status: Single Pringle who will mingle for robots

Current Obsession: Boku no Hero Academia 🦸 and Star Trek 🌟 (finally reading through the manga all the way through plus stage plays + my nerds in space)

Tagging: @jade-kyo, @rangergirl3, @theballadear, @im-nice-but-i-dont-like-you, @webrokethe4thwall, and anyone else who’d like to join!

Oh my gosh, thank you @brushes-of-sage! :D

Last Song: I’m Dangerous by The Everlove (Very satisfying to listen to :D)

Favorite Color: Blue

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: Sweet

Currently Watching: Critical Role, Campaign Three

Relationship Status: Married (coming up on - 9?! YEARS :D)

Current Obsession: Clearing out my email inbox/F I N A L L Y sitting down to read Brandon Sanderson’s book ‘Defiant’ after literally buying it last year and never opening it up until JUST NOW because spoons

Tagging: @callaeidae3 @jpnpr @drizzlydaybeforethespring @arwenride @justheretobreakthingsblog @actress4him and anyone else who wants to join in!

The thing about gradually coming to terms with long-repressed traumatic memories is:

Well, you tend to make jokes that no one else finds funny, but it’s how you cope. Sort of.

Mostly to fend off the screaming in your head.

Which can work. Until you have enough faculties to deal with it, which I thankfully do.

Trauma mentions after the cut. Nothing graphic, just yucky.

I watched a skit on YouTube where each ‘personality’ had to deal with complete isolation and mine (the ISFJ) just spent it re-enacting their favorite TV show line by line and I felt very seen

Aka

I couldn’t stop laughing because that was 100% me, in my head, during a very difficult childhood, which probably saved my sanity

Because now, despite literally everything trying to kill me off, I’m quirky, instead of flat-out NUTS

*But instead of a TV show it was a medley of Disney lyrics, character quotations from books, and a self-insert character in the Lord of the Rings movie trilogy

So what I’m saying is fiction is VERY GOOD FOR YOU

PLEASE ENJOY IT 🥰

Wow, it’s been awhile.

Short update: Life is (still) busy. Lots of things to manage; but going well. 🥰

Long(er) update: Just after Christmas, I found out that some of the meds I’ve been taking for…oooh, about six years? It had fruit in it (or, at least, a fruit based derivative aka polysorbate which absolutely contributed to the skin on my hands being so, so bad these last few years). So, I ended up switching up some meds last month, and boy, that’s been an adjustment. Not a bad one, as things go, but it was definitely a lot to tackle on top of other stuff.😅 Hubby changed jobs (yay!), lots of paperwork came due (ack!), and I ended a long-term friendship which…eh. It sucks, but it was neccessary. Sad, though, too, not gonna lie.

Good news is, I have finally been able to work on relaxing! And I know that sounds odd, but I really have to W-O-R-K on that - and I’ve been sort of getting better at it!

I’ve been crafting (lots and LOTS of cross-stitching), and reading (Brandon Sanderson and Drew Hayes), and also occasionally brainstorming new fun stories! I don’t have anything definite planned right now, but we’ll see what happens.

Anyway, that’s the latest update from me - more to come soon! I hope. If I have the energy/spoons to do so. 🥰 Hope you’re all well!

Anonymous asked:

What does your husband do for work? Being a stay at home mom sounds like the dream life. I know, I know, it’s still busy and yadda yadda yadda but there are many women who do all that while working a full time job outside the house. It’s a huge privilege to have a hubby who makes enough to support a family on one income and I’m super jealous.

This…well, this strikes me as a bit of a rude question.

What should it matter what my husband does for work?

Like. I can’t even.

But I’ll answer truthfully, because I am honestly so proud of him, and of us as a team. ❤️

My husband does everything and anything he needs to do to support our family. This has included taking on additional part-time jobs, free-lancing, and contractor work. He’s my super-hero. ❤️

And, while it is truly a blessing for me to be able to stay home with our kiddo, it has come with some significant sacrifices on our end.

Since he uses the car for work, weather permitting, I walk to appointments. (Due to multiple skin and respiratory issues, I find it wisest to avoid public transportation). Until my skin sensitivity became something I could no longer ignore, I donated plasma twice a week to stretch our grocery budget a little bit further.

We do all our own yard work, house work, laundry, cooking, cleaning, and home projects. If we want a new look for our living room, we spend a weekend measuring and moving the furniture we already have around. Side Note: It’s awesome when you hit upon just the right configuration for your living room!

We do not eat out at restaurants. We do not purchase wine, juice, or soft drinks. (I do love me a good mead, but that’s not in the budget right now).

I do not buy clothes, shoes, books, makeup, jewelry, or other wants (like stickers, planners, pictures, or organizational baskets). My big treat of the week is a mocha from Starbucks, which I pay cash for, because I want to use my resources wisely. My husband also does not buy things he wants, because there are other priorities that need - well, prioritizing.

Like rent, kid’s clothes, kids shoes, groceries, doctors visits, medications, and, as a one-time expense, a 100% cotton comforter for our bed that’s made a night and day difference for my skin, as it seems that polyester (which is in a LOT of warm winter clothing and blankets) has been a major, ongoing factor for years in my skin irritation.

So, Anon, please don’t be jealous.

I’m incredibly happy with my life, but it still takes a lot of work to make it work.

It is worth it though. That, I promise you.

All I want for Christmas is: for my skin to actually. For five minutes at a time. To not drive me crazy.

Like, the skin is literally the largest organ of the body. I just want it to work the way it should! aka to not freak out with what feels like a full body allergic reaction to anything and everything, leaveing me half-crazed with irritated skin and the inability to touch anything! GAAHH!

Especially on my fingers, because it is VERY ANNOYING to want to do anything and have to factor in things like 'Well I could, but should I?"

So I end up doing this:

And it makes me grumpy. Because I want to do EVERYTHING. And not being able to use my fingers/hands really puts a damper on that.

when 23 year olds say “im getting old” cause they get excited by mundane things…for the love of. we used to get excited by BOXES as toddlers. maybe we’re just reverting to our childlike joy did u ever think about THAT.

I was having just this thought the other day, and it was kind of beautiful. The idea that coming into adulthood some of early childhood wonder is reclaimed - how often do we hear of that? But this is a true and common instance of it. Loving the ordinary is wonderful, and can coexist with loving the extraordinary.

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