when the female main character has a painful relationship with sex, sexuality, and all other forms of physical pleasure due to the expectations of her friends and her self-enforced code of morality which serves largely to deny herself any semblence of a normal life bc of trauma. me and the mewchies are eating it up.
The second that happens, you know I'll be there. I'll slip in. Have myself a real good day.
I can be alone with you here.
for all the amicability in the whirlwind later on i think it's really important to never lose sight of why dru was turned and then why she in turn sired spike. she was tortured and turned for angelus' enjoyment, her continued suffering brings him pleasure. he owns her, she is a Thing to him and she has no way to escape this. she makes spike to be "her brave knight" a position that, especially in fairytales, means a very romantic man physically protects and serves a woman who is usually gonna end up being some kind of damsel in distress.
while yes dru is evil and a vampire she's still obviously very upset about what happened to her and those moments seem to be her times of lucidity, not delusion. not to mention that she's already been beaten out of the notion that she can escape angelus, she tried to as a human and it didn't work, it likely won't work now either, especially if darla sides with him. but with spike around there's someone who basically always takes her side and fights to keep angelus away from her. who is, at least, a buffer between her and her tormentor. he also takes care of her and validates her, something neither darla or angelus seem to be interested in doing at all.
i feel like people tend to intellectually remember what happened to her but forget that it you know, has long lasting consequences when say, they evaluate her behavior in late s2 when angelus comes back. like... yeah ofc she goes back to appeasing him and shit. spike's a wheelchair and she was beaten into shape to be "daddy's little girl" (gag) YEARS before she even MET spike. her abuser is back and her defender is out of commission not to mention her whole view of reality has been actively warped by the most narcissistic sleezoid around.
and all the reasons why people love spike or point to as why he's better with buffy or whatever.... dru was the one who saw those first and picked him because of those. like... it's wild to see people act like they spent a loveless century together and spike was just used the whole time when we SEE them literally in love, he states MULTIPLE times she means so much to him and we get an OUTSIDE SOURCE CONFIRM THEY HAVE "AFFECTION AND JEALOUSY FOR EACH OTHER". we have the spike we know of today because drusilla saw the hero in him and wanted him to rescue her. and ya know, he kinda did. multiple times. over a century of deep, mutual horrifying love. you only even GET spike and buffy in the same ROOM because he loved dru so much he saved her from a mob, traveled with her across a continent (maybe 2 depending on direction) and over an ocean for even a SHOT at a cure. like... cMON.
this got a little off topic into some of my pet peeves but also kinda not because just-- i don't think people always remember that dru is still a victim and a victim who was intentionally frozen the moment of maximum despair and internal destruction. then spent about 20 years being groomed by her tormentor before she ever had anyone care about her as a priority. i think people tend to forget that it was angelus who wanted to turn spike into a monster and drusilla who wanted him to be a hero. it's dru who gives him his swagger, his confidence, his love for life, who encouraged his romanticism and adored his poetics. it's not that she groomed or built him, but just that she saw all that potential already in there and facilitated it and nurtured it. sure in a fucked up vampire way but still.
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look at her. Cupping her small naturals.
spuffy | I would do it again
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MICHELLE TRACHTENBERG as Dawn Summers BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER (1997-2003)
I love to dance. I like music. I’m very into Britney Spears’ early work, before she sold out. So mostly her, um, finger painting and macaroni art. Very underrated. Favorite activities include not ever having to do this again, and uh… I also have a sister.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer 6.03 | “After Life”
spike is drusilla's lover in the sense that he is the thing she owns whose function is to love her, in the same way that her hairbrush is the thing she owns whose function is to let her brush her hair
BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER S5E7: Fool for Love | S6E7: Once More, With Feeling (requested by disco-tea)
the heavy lifting the angelus vs. angel name change does to absolve him of his actions meanwhile spike is always just spike and his ledger is dripping with blood even as he is not allowed the luxury of being perceived as a being with free will….. reinforced by anya vs. anyanka like HELLO don’t piss me OFF….. this is also why the soul irritates me because he gets it most truly as a way to allow the narrative to neatly categorize the growth that was already there is Provable and reinforcing the false dichotomy of good ensouled / bad soulless that the show had otherwise already grown past
so funny to me that marti noxon was handed the keys to the castle for buffy s6 and she chose to do That. she said kids had their fun already.....now it's Real Sickos' Turn
I’m counting on you to protect her. Till the end of the world. Even if that happens to be tonight.
love drusilla at the spuffy wedding because she would have the time of her life and everyone else would be either mildly uncomfortable or extremely uncomfortable
buffy: how the hell did drusilla find out about our wedding
spike, who wanted to invite her but had no idea how to get in contact with her and is kinda touched she came anyway: hm. no idea
