At the beginning of September, our High Councilman got up in church, and passed along a message from our Stake President. He told us that we needed to prepare for rain.
After church that day, Todd and many other men from our ward spent nearly four hours filling and delivering sandbags to people in our ward. It was a great sight to see how everyone came together. I got a hold of some empty bags, and the boys and I filled six bags out of our sandbox to divert the water off of our back deck area.
As it turned out, we barely got any rain in our ward boundaries. It came down hard for a few minutes, but the destruction was all around us. The freeway between here and Las Vegas was destroyed. I saw news reports and pictures on my facebook feed of other parts of town that didn't fare as well as we did. Perhaps we were just lucky, or perhaps we were blessed for our preparations. I lean towards the latter.
I didn't know it at the time, but in my own life I needed to prepare for a different kind of rain. September has turned out to be a difficult month. I'm afraid I haven't always weathered the storm with as much grace as I would have liked, but I am learning.
On Labor Day, Todd and I left the kids at 8:00 PM to run to Staples and buy a printer. It was kind of a spur-of-the-moment decision. We'd been without a printer all summer, but the kids needed it for school, and I needed it for my quilting business. I felt compelled to go that night, even though it was bedtime and it didn't make sense for us to leave.
We got to Staples and realized they were closed. We knew that Best Buy was open until 9:00, so we turned around in the Staples parking lot, and waited at the light to turn left to go to Best Buy. While at the light, the man in the left turn lane perpendicular to us, turned into the Staples parking lot (at dusk) and didn't see a kid on his bike, who was crossing in front of us. We watched this 18 yr old college student, who had no helmet, get hit and thrown in front of our van.
I'll never forget the sound of the brakes and the thump.
Thankfully, he jumped up immediately, and was able to walk, but his head was covered in blood, and one eye was bulging out. Todd took him to the side of the road and kept him talking, while I called 911. It's amazing how slow time goes in a situation like that, and how you forget words or how to use your phone. We were only about 1/2 a mile from the hospital, but the four minutes while waiting for the ambulance seemed like an eternity. The 911 dispatcher told me I needed to find something to stop the bleeding. All I could find was my gym towel that had been used to wipe Justin's nose, in addition to my sweat. It was disgusting. Finally, I found a roll of paper towels and handed them to the victim. As he took the towels, he turned to Todd and asked, "Am I bleeding?" I couldn't believe that while his face was covered in blood, and it was pouring out of his mouth, he didn't even know he was bleeding. I thought for sure he was going to pass out at any moment.

The whole experience was a whirlwind. Somewhere in there I moved our van for the firetruck, the sun went down, Todd filled out a witness statement with the police, and within 30 minutes it was over. The blood was cleaned up, the ambulance was gone, we took off for Best Buy, and we were able to get a printer before they closed at 9:00.
It was the next day that haunted me. I kept playing the "What if" game in my mind. What if he hadn't been breathing? What would I have done? What if we had taken our kids and they had witnessed this? What will this kid's mother think when she finds out what happened? Why don't I have medical gloves or a blanket in my van? What if he had been killed? Why did I have to see this? Will I run into a situation like this again?
I've gotten over the trauma, but I was a mess for a couple days. I am so grateful for the paramedics, fire-fighters, dispatchers, and police officers who deal with this every day.
I had a quilt deadline that week, and when I took it out of the box, I discovered that the girl who pieced it for my friend, Vanessa, had forgotten to piece the back. I cut the selvages off, and got it ready to piece myself, when I remembered that my sewing machine pedal had died the week before, and I had no way to sew it.
It was kind of the "last straw" and I cried. I tried to think of someone in my ward who had a sewing machine, but everyone I thought of was at work. I just needed to get this quilt pinned on and started, but instead I had to run my sewing machine into Bernina to have the pedal fixed. Thankfully, they listened to my "plight" and got it in that very day and fixed it while I waited. I woke up the next day with a strong prompting that my plan for quilting this quilt was not going to work, and I needed to change the design. I have never had such a strong impression over a quilt, but I went with it and I'm so grateful I did! It took from 6:30 AM, til 8:00 PM, but I got it done. I was also reminded that Heavenly Father cares about the details of our lives.
In the midst of all of this, we've had ongoing financial problems. We've read that it takes 2-5 years to build up a private practice, and we are only a year in. We have been blessed in
so many ways, but we "aren't there yet". Some weeks Todd has plenty of clients, and some weeks not enough. But either way, we only get paid
when they pay. He had a wonderful secretary who was excellent at collections, but she got cancer and recently quit. I can't blame her. She has way too much on her plate right now. Both her dad and brother are currently dying from cancer. Somewhere in her last couple weeks, she made a mistake with the numbers, and it left us owing a large sum of money to one of Todd's co-workers.
At the same time, I was also in the middle of setting up payments for our large pile of medical debt from my two miscarriages earlier this year. I had one really hard day when I realized that this was the week my first baby would have been due, but instead I was setting up payments with our family doctor, OB, the lab, and the radiology dept at the hospital because I just couldn't pay the balances. I opened up a financial assistance form from my family doctor, and found this sweet note from the lady in the billing office:
I cried, and cried that day. What a sweet, tender mercy.
Later on in the month, we did get some more rain, and were able to put our sandbags to good use. We live on a hill, so as long as we can divert the water from collecting on our back deck, I don't worry too much about our basement flooding, but you just never know. I'm still in awe when I see pictures of the freeway that was completely washed out. Todd keeps saying, "We are SO small. We thought we were doing good by filling sandbags, but if we'd gotten the brunt of the storm like Las Vegas or Phoenix did, our sandbags wouldn't have done a thing." It is a humbling thing to experience, and we are grateful we were spared.
I don't have any pictures, but around this time we also experienced a lockout at our schools. I got an email from Brayden's school telling me that the students were in lockout, under direction of the city police department, and that parents were not to come near the school.
There aren't words to describe what happens to your heart when you get a message like that.
Minutes later, Caleb arrived home. His school had let out just before the lockout took effect, and I was so grateful because he was able to explain to me the difference between a lockout, and a lockdown. In a lockdown, something happened INSIDE the school. In a lockout, something happened outside the school. I was more at peace knowing that everything inside the school was fine.
After a few minutes of searching online, I learned that the lockout was due to a local bank robbery, where there were kidnapped hostages, and the "excitement" was in an area where some of the kids from our school district live. The story tragically ended with the police shooting and killing the armed suspect, not long after our kids were finally allowed to leave school. This all happened about 3 miles from our house (as the crow flies). It was too close to home, and yet, I don't think it's the last time something like this will happen. It is a different world than when I was in school. I pray that I can prepare my children for the "rain" that they will no doubt experience in their lifetime, and that they will know where to turn for peace.

All the rain and flash floods we've been having has brought an influx of "the most venomous scorpions in the US" to our area. I still have yet to see one, but my neighbor around the corner found one in her yard, and my friend who lives across town has found two inside her house. Since scorpions eat bugs, we decided it was high time we get our yard sprayed to reduce the food supply. Spraying always brings the critters out of hiding, and we've seen more than our fair share of black widows, and cockroaches this week!
We bought a UV flashlight, since the scorpions come out at night and they glow under a black light. Our new "date night" hobby is to go scorpion hunting after the kids go to bed. We haven't found any yet, which we are grateful for, but I hope if they
are in our yard we will find them. (You can't spray for scorpions, you just have to "take care of them" with your shoe) Since Justin refuses to wear shoes outside, and our kids have roller blades that would be a great place for a scorpion to hide, I am on a mission to keep our yard scorpion free.
Last week, Todd's truck started leaking fluid. He told me about it, just as I was getting up from a prayer...a prayer for strength to go forward in the day and not let anxiety overwhelm me. There's no way we can afford to fix his truck right now, so I immediately began to figure out how we were going to get everyone where they needed to be with one car. It was going to be a juggling act, for sure, but I was ready to do it. I drove Todd to work, and picked him up later that evening. He had done all kinds of research on google, but couldn't find any major car problem that would cause clear fluid to leak, so we're assuming it's an air conditioning problem and he's been driving his truck anyway.
This week, I broke my toe. My fourth toe, to be exact. Who breaks their fourth toe? It's really turned out to be a blessing, as I now have a painful reminder with every step I take, how much I was taking for granted last week when I could clean my house or go to the gym
without pain. It has caused me to reflect, and be more grateful for the blessings I have taken for granted.
As I took my oldest two boys to Early Morning Orchestra today, I was pondering this post, and found it ironic that I grew up praying for rain. Living on a farm, our livelihood depended on the crops having water. Watching the weather report every night, and fasting for rain were commonplace. We needed the water so our crops would grow.
I haven't reached a point in my life where I'm ready to pray for the kind of "rain" I'm talking about, though I am more clearly able to see that through the storms of life, I have been able to grow in a way that wouldn't have been possible otherwise.
I was talking to my friend, Vanessa, last week, and she reminded me that in the scriptures, whenever we read about a trial or conflict, the people often experienced a period of waiting before their problems were solved. The very next day, I read the following in Alma 58:7-13:
7 And it came to pass that we did wait in these difficult circumstances for the space of many months, even until we were about to perish for the want of food.
9 ...therefore we were grieved and also filled with fear...
10 Therefore we did pour out our souls in prayer to God, that he would strengthen us and deliver us...yea, and also give us strength that we might retain our...lands, and possessions, for the support of our people.
11 Yea, and it came to pass that the Lord our God did visit us with assurances that he would deliver us; yea, insomuch that he did speak peace to our souls, and did grant unto us faith, and did cause us that we should have hope for our deliverance in Him.
12 And we did take courage...and were fixed with a determination...to maintain our lands, and our possessions...and the cause of our liberty.
13 And thus we did go forth with all our might...
We fasted this month for help with our business and finances, and prayed for inspiration. We know we have been led here, and many opportunities have fallen right into our lap. We are currently in that "waiting" stage, but I can testify to verse 11. Since our fast, the Lord has blessed us with assurance that it's going to be okay, and we have hope in Him. I have been able to go forward with peace in my heart, and a greater determination to "go forth with all my might".
I am learning, slowly, to dance in the rain.