Zapped

To see who i am, He must really be a loving and patient God.

Recently a brother of a close friend passed on suddenly and we were all both shocked and distraught by it. A healthy young man ready to take on the world after having graduated not too long ago but death crept up unannounced. To me it was another hard reality check. I find myself examining my heart and life once again. What have i been doing with what i have, my life and time thus far? How have i served Him and His people? What have i been living for and whom am i pleasing? Where have i been?

Sigh.

Too often i have made it all about me -the pull of my needs and wants, my time and my work.
I have allowed circumstances, people and work to shape me. I have allowed the world to shape me and i've chose to think as how the world wants me to.

But i've relearned today.

He has made me for an extraordinary purpose albeit ordinary circumstances - one that only i can live for Him, in which in spite of my shortcomings, my failures and my weaknesses, He will still carry out all His plans because He is God. Because He is God. I am again humbled by this.

And with that, what can i do? I can only trust. I must remain in Him. In His words.

For apart from Him, the true vine, i can do nothing.

Wishlist

My one week of school break will soon come to an end. I'm enjoying every bit of it. In a few more days and i'll be back to routine. Again, with the luxury of time, i picked up another book


i've only read up till chapter 5 and i'm lovin it. A mix between the story of Forrest Gump and Second Hand Lions. I really love stories set in the countryside.


With the luxury of time, i've also read up more on lomography. This is now my current hearthrob. Top ten in my wishlist.

Holga 135BC



They say it's a toy camera but check out the pics below and see how awesome they are..

pics by Christopher Anderson


Not just that, i'm actually more intrigued by the fact it's flat-out analogue. Load film-snap-shoot-wind. Love the old-school, dreamy, unpredictable, spontainety feel it gives unlike the digital cameras we have now.


Unfortunately, i can't seem to get this particular one from Malaysia.

Hurmphhh

I recently started reading again after such a long time not having the luxury to do so and i realised i missed reading alot.

It is during times like this i find myself in happy relaxation, being whisked away to some foreign place, living another life with a different persona - imagination run wild for awhile. I loved the current book i'm reading by N.Sparks, quite different from the way he usually writes of which i've found myself a couple of times laughing out loud. I'm really enjoying it; at least for now.

School has been hectic the past few weeks with the report cards but is slowly becoming a lil more sane now. Work wise with the new policy, where will all these lead me?

I don't have a clue, really.

Two happy news in 10 days. Am still in disbelief.

Places & People

The school hols have come and gone. At the end of it, i find myself 3/4 of the hols doing work; marking endless exam scripts and planning for the new sem. Here are the other 1/4 of my hols:-


Pulau Pangkor. 4C's Class Trip.





Eric's farewell party with the FREMS.


Retreat with the NERDS.It's the start of another new term.

Short Jots

I can finally say i'm thankful for the group of people who decided to make a day off for working citizens. It has only been 6 months, and i can truly say school has been crazily busy and fun.
It's no walk in the park because i find myself, many times, at the end of each day, heaving a sigh of relief; being so glad that i've managed to at least "put out the fire" for that day.


The other day, i had my closest encounter to an international celebrity. Mr.Archuleta made a surprise visit to our school


this was put up by the students 2 hours before the big visit.. and the teachers were instantly turned into bouncers and security personels (this is the perfect example of teachers having to wear many hats). And so i was assigned to secure this particular corridor to the hall where he was to perform; to keep any students who secretly sneaked out of the hall to jump onto him while he made his way to the hall.



my assigned corridor; waiting for Mr.Archuleta to make his way to the hall.

and there he comes...with his entourage.. I was delighted because i knew then i had the opportunity to meet him before the students at a close proximity.

This was just before he goes into the hall to perform. Briefing by his manager. This is my closest i got to him.
Few days later, i received a call from a friend who managed to get tickets to his showcase at the very last minute. I hesistated but im glad i said yes finally because his last song on the organ was wow.!
My closest encounter with a celebrity and no i did not shake his hand.

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Don't know if this only happens in Malaysia but i won't believe it if you tell me that we are having an economic depression when i see this.

Long queue for Zara warehouse sale.

Unbelievable but true.

Find Rest

Finally a week of breather after days of slogging under the sun.
I can't really put to words how thankful i am for this short break.

The school sports day just ended and this also marks the end of the long hours of staying back with them to practise their events.

Camp also just ended last weekend with many fond memories relived.
One of the highlights for me would be this activity just because i had soo much fun when i first experienced it.

Backwood's man cooking


Started off really good with all four groups managed to start up their own fire despite the drizzle and strong winds.However, 1 hour ish later, only one survived. Only one kept the flame burning.
It's only their first attempt and all i can say that they did well.

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Yes, these past months my world has been pretty much : school. I've neglected many things because many times in meeting deadlines, i've allowed school, my students and lesson plans take precedence.
I know i've let certain things slipped away. My time, energy and focus have gone topsy turvy.


For all the brokeness, for all the hurts, for everything.



Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Inadequate

I knew this day would come. But it came too soon.
I wasn't prepared at all.
I didn't know what to do or how to go about doing it.
I felt so lost.
But im thankful He was there. I believe He was there for us. For her. For me.
I'm so glad everything's alright now.
I feel so inadequate.

Sometimes i think my patience is being misinterpreted as a weakness.