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Hello! Welcome to the blog, where I occasionally remember to cross post my stuff! @ababa-admin is my main/personal blog where I treat tumblr like the hellsite that it is, feel free to check that out too

My name is Ababa, pronouns She/Her and sometimes Dumb/Ass. I write for a few different fandoms, but my most recent and posted work has primarily been for My Hero Academia and Stardew Valley.

I only post my shorter pieces here, never more than two parts. Check out my AO3 for my longer stuff!

MONTHLY REC LIST: MARCH EDITION

We've got so many great fics to recommend for you this month! Some are ongoing wips, some completed longfics, and some oneshots. As always be sure to check the tags on AO3, reader discretion is advised! If you check out any of the works listed here please be sure to leave a kudos and a comment to show your support 🫶

Coming Around Again by @eemamminy-art | E | Alex/M Player (36/69)

Boys Night by @lumineve-isonline | M | Other (9/9)

easy like sunday morning by @burekforsatoru | E | Sebastian/F Player (1/1)

Soldier On by @ababanerb | E | Sebastian/F Player (9/?)

House Call by @5cs-fanart-and-misc | E | Harvey/F Player

comfort crush by @benjineedssleep | E | Sam/Sebastian (1/1)

Melody of Memory by @aziminohi1992 | T | Lance/F Player (1/1)

Boys Will Be Boys by @superpyodan | M | Alex/Male Player (49/49)

The Words We Never Say by @kellycataclysm | E | Harvey/F Player (39/40)

Painting a Different Picture by @annetastic1981a | M | Sebastian/F Player (4/4)

Lean In & Let Go by @exoticlittlebird | E | Alex/Sebastian (2/2)

JojaMart Bathroom (Sam) by @neetily | E | Sam/F Player (1/1)

Unsettled Dust of the Valley by @glazedsnail | M | Shane/F Player (29/?)

Sunnyside by F0xofspades | M | Shane/F Player (7/?)

Aprons, Ambition, Arousal by @celestial-citrus-writes | E | Multi F/M (3/8) | Crossover: Kaichou wa Maid-sama!

Sunshine on a Cloudy Day by @randomsquirrel | T | Sam/Sebastian (1/1)

A Little Dream of Him by @nebraskashouse | E | Harvey/F Player (1/1)

Personal Jesus by @sdvbraindump | E | Harvey/F Player (2/3)

Perspective by @caelwynn | G | Haley/Leah (1/1)

Cryptid of Cybernetic Nature by @lily-alphonse | U | Wizard/Player (1/1)

Our Stance On Generative AI

Due to recent events in the Stardew Valley fandom here on Tumblr, we wanted to clarify our stance on the use of generative AI. It should come as no surprise that we, as writers, do not support the use of generative AI in any form. Generative AI is creative theft, even when used for character chats and to detect if others have used AI.

If you want to support creatives, do not feed the machine. Do not use AI.

Our community will be blocking accounts that promote the use of generative AI in any form.

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OUR MISSION

To encourage writers. Writers need engagement and feedback, it motivates and keeps them going. This in turn keeps stories from being abandoned through demotivation and burnout. New writers keep fandoms alive, we need them to keep the conversation going. Here, we do our part to boost writers, however new or experienced, and to keep writers writing.

To sound off about our blorbos. This means our favourite Stardew blorbos, the lil guys from the modded content, our own OCs... all of it! Having a space to really get into this stuff is where plot bunnies are bred, and good stories are written.

To support each other. Every member is equal. Every headcanon, however insane, is valid. Debate is welcome, there is no one way, one reading of a situation, no definitive answer. And thank Yoba for that! If there was, wouldn't life be boring...

The guild aims to be a welcoming and supportive space, promoting new ideas and old. The Discord server is busy and active at most times of the day, and there's something there for everyone.

If you would like to join, please message this account for an invite.

(Don't be alarmed, you aren't seeing double, this account is our new home! We are moving over from the old stardewfanficwritersguild account)

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FEBRUARY REC LIST

A nice summary of the things some of our members have been working on over the past month, as well as some interesting things we read along the way!

Please see AO3 for additional tags. Reader discretion is advised as always.

A House in Pelican Town by @nebraskashouse - Harvey/Female OC (E) Light, Camera, Actions by @glazedsnail - Sam/Sebastian/Shane (E)

The Ocean's Arcana - Low Tide by @pastelpeterparkerr - Elliott/Female OC, Leah/Female OC (M) (2/?)

Coming Around Again by @eemamminy-art - Alex/Male OC (E) (32/69)

Luck Be a Lady by @caelwynn - Jeric/Sterling Sterling/Female OC (T)

A Weird Favor by @shortysus4 - Sam/Sebastian (T)

steal me away by @whatdoidosatoru - Sebastian/Reader (T)

Shearing Day by @mongoosingisme - Shane/Reader (E)

A Pretty Penny by @lily-alphonse - Haley/Penny (T) (2/?)

Fool's Gold by @5cs-fanart-and-misc - Sebastian/Female OC (M) (8/?)

Hell Finds You Anywhere by Angel_with_an_assbutt - Sterling/Female OC (E) (3/?)

Laundry Day by @orangemochafrapp - Sam/Sebastian (E)

Soldier On by @ababanerb - Sebastian/Female OC (E) (9/?)

A Meteorite Among The Stars by @sdvbraindump Shane/Female OC Harvey/Female OC (E) (23/50)

i love you, i'm sorry

summary: you love sebastian, sam love you, nobody wins

wc: 1251

warnings: very mild angst, unrequited love, love confessions, there is no happy ending here

What are you even doing? The thought’s crossed your mind more than once, on more than one occasion. You have no business staring, have no business watching the way long, slender fingers splay across the exposed expanse of someone else’s waist. 

You have no business longing for this man.

None. 

Not even an iota.

You keep looking anyway.

“Blegh!” Sam gags following your line of sight as he plops down next to you on the docks. “It’s the Dance of the Moonlight Jellies. Don’t you know you’re supposed to be looking at pretty things?”

You force yourself to grimace and look away when Sebastian’s tongue darts from his mouth to cram down the throat of his new girlfriend. Winter, her name alone leaves a bitter taste in your mouth, makes your gut twist with something ugly and green that you refuse to name.

“Yeah, well, ugly things also have a tendency to call attention to themselves,” you huff, frowning as you lean into Sam’s side, and he’s kind enough to open up his arms to drape his blanket over your shoulders as you drop your head onto his.

Soldier On [Ch. 7]

summary: the beach episode nobody asked for except it goes great for everyone but sebastian

wc: 2924

Sebastian hates the heat. Hates the way it makes the fabric of his shirt cling to his skin, the way sweat crushes his hair to his face. Hates how he’s forced out of his hoodies and long sleeves into t-shirts.

But even still, Sam manages to drag him down to the beach. Sebastian rolls his jeans up to his calves and carries his shoes in one hand before he even steps onto the beach. Whereas Sam doesn’t give two shits if he gets sand in his sneakers, or if sand manages to get kicked up onto his board shorts.

Sebastian actually can’t remember if he ever liked the beach as a kid. He remembers loving the beach in Winter. When it had been just him and his mom, before Demetrius had moved in and fucked it all up. He’d loved the snow on the beach, weird, but so beautiful. He’d loved building snowgoons with his mom, sand and snow sticking to their gloves and pants.

He hadn’t minded it then, the sand sticking to him at every possible chance.

But he certainly minds it now. Huffing irritably as he sits himself down at the end of the dock while Sam dives straight in. He’d probably mind it less if he’d remembered to bring a joint or two with him, take the edge off in the way cigarettes can’t.

“Dude,” Sam drawls from where he’s treading water, waves lapping at his shoulders. “Could you at least pretend to not be miserable for an hour?”

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when I see a frog

& it takes a hop away from me

it's like

what the fuck man.

Soldier On [chapter 6]

summary: with the weather warming and summer rapidly approaching a couple decent harvests under her belt, Safiya dreams of someone she thought she’d forgotten

warning(s):  there is a very minor character death in this chapter, it's only brefly alluded to, but just in case - if you wish to skip this scene i've marked it with bolded astericks (***).

I wanna go home.

It’s the only thought in her mind, even as she hits the ground hard, the world tilting on its axis as she falls. Her nose is bleeding, the taste of iron staining her mouth and dying her lips crimson. But she gets up anyway, her uniform stained with mud, and runs towards the Gotoran soldiers on the other side of the battlefield anyway.

I can’t die here.

She’d made a promise to her mother, four years ago now, and there was no way in hell she was going to break that promise. Not now. Not ever. 

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Caitlyn's Objectives for Zaun are Vague and Terrible.

"Locate Jinx."

Plenty of people have already talked about this one, but there's a clear "and" missing to this statement. Caitlyn isn't going to just find Jinx say mission accomplished and go back to Piltover. She's left her intentions for Jinx ambiguous to her superiors (Ambessa) and subordinates alike, which leaves room for the situation to escalate.

"Dismantle shimmer."

I cannot overstate how bad of an idea it is. It seems simple in excution. Secure the refineries, detain Singed and other chemists that manufacture it, and destroy any existing supplies. But everything else that comes with it will turn the situation even worse.

I'm not even talking about the fact that Caitlyn is suggesting everyone in Zaun addicted to shimmer immediately go cold turkey without warning, preparation, or their consent. It's that fact that she's essentially destroying the only form of healthcare infrastructure that exists in Zaun.

For all the bad shimmer can do, it's still an effective medicine when used right. It's not a coincidence that once Silco took over and introduced shimmer there's suddenly people with visible disabilities and prosthetics on screen existing in Zaun. They exist because shimmer makes it possible. Even 5 out the 6 chembarons, the richest and most powerful people in Zaun, are disabled or use mobility aids. Chembarons like Smeech quite obviously use shimmer (his eyes are pink in every scene including his character sheet) to manage his prosthetics, he's had all four limbs replaced.

How many people live like Silco, with a chronic illness (probably a dangerous infection because Zaun is Piltover's human/industrial wastepit) that needs to be treated daily? How many people are practically dead and buried if the enforcers manage to destroy all remaining shimmer?

"Neutralize any agents still loyal to Silco."

What does that even mean? What does being loyal to Silco mean when he's dead? They're getting rid of all infrastructure related to shimmer production. The only thing that remains of Silco that anyone can be loyal to is the belief he left behind (and maybe Jinx but that's complicated).

Above all else (except Jinx), Silco wanted an independent Zaun. Will That's his whole thing, and shimmer was just the mechanism to make it happen. Will anyone who agrees that Zaun should be independent be considered a Silco loyalist? If so, then Caitlyn's mission isn't just about finding Jinx and getting shimmer off the streets, this is about crushing an independence movement AGAIN.

How will she characterize Silco's loyalists? Is she talking about chembarons that worked with Silco? Former members of his gang? People who worked in Silco's factories and liked the paycheck? Silco was the defacto leader of Zaun, most if not all figures in Zaun with influence were essentially complicit in his agenda.

Is there any real difference between anti-Piltovan sentiment and pro-Zaunite independence at this point?

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I want to say one thing about the setup for Jinx leaving.

The Silco in her mind told her to walk away to be free and she immediately thought about dying. That was the plan.

But THEN-- then Ekko stops her from blowing herself up. The thing is how. Because talking Jinx out of that mindset would require a whole team. And it does.

We can infer he told her that there is another version of her, of course. Powder and Jinx are the same, and as Powder told him "you want me to change" Jinx would think the same! except Jinx believes there is no "good version" of her

But as we know, it is not about one version being superior to the other or how Jinx and Powder being different. But it's about how Ekko has everything to recontextualize something that our Jinx knows deep down.

Because that is the same conversation she had with Silco in the cell, but this time not from a hallucination but from someone who is treating her as a real friend, part of the support system Jinx lacks, but she clings on so desperately.

So I'll go back to Powder for a sec

This is not the first time Vander and Powder have this conversation about her potential, about her leaving

And Vander did say something about it to Ekko. He knows her daughter

As well as Silco's words of wisdom.

Here he might be talking directly about Vander but, we know that it is also about oneself, after all that's what Jinx is all about. She is The Jinx because she destroys everything right? she is her walking reminder of all her failures.

And that's the Ekko's secret knowledge that saves Jinx. We don't need a recap of that episode, we just watched it. and Ekko is there to reach for Jinx, finding her, rewinding the explosion as many times as he has to. He tries very hard for her.

Jinx, as much as she claims to destroy everything, she creates, the one thing she knows how to do, and that's where she is more herself. She builds things and she might find someone worth trying for, not her ghosts or her guilt, but just herself.

Now, here they are: you've seen them, you love them, our acclaimed shimmer ray from the explosion and the ship sailing away.

Jinx leaving is about her following her dads advice and believing in Ekko's words. And I bet she does.

I just.... find it so charming that the glimpse of hope Ekko gives her is not just from himself but also about the fathers she lost so many times.

and to tie up the box, we have the final lyrics of Wasteland (that the series leaves out for ambiguity imo)

bonus monkeys, i bet it is the second Jinx kind of knew that Ekko was talking about her when he said "someone very special"

"someone worth building it for"

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I strongly disagree with the idea that silco's parenting only harmed jinx.

Jinx enjoys being strong, she likes feeling capable and in control and those things did flourished under silco's parenting. He believes in her, he supporters her 'hobbies' and he has complete faith in her potential and abilities (even when she fucks everything up for him).

Unfortunately, silco is a damaged man that sees softness as a weakness in their world, and as her father figure, this is a lesson he tries to instill on her constantly. He wants her to be as strong as he believes himself to be. y'know, the same way Vander tried to instill his own worldview and values in Vi? that's not grooming - its parenting.

The irony is that silco was never truly able to kill that softness in himself. he never really killed that 'weak man', despite the way he encourages Jinx to let Powder die, and if he had, he might have actually survived her.

It's less about Silco seeing jinx as this 'perfect weapon' to mold and more about him projecting himself onto her and trying to heal his 'inner child' in a Very fucked up way. Supporting her and teaching her all the hard lessons he feels like he had to learn on his own

So yes, it's a tragedy that Silco refused to see and nurture the 'powder' side of her, due to his own brokenness, and she did suffer for it. But he wanted her to be strong enough to thrive and survive in their fucked up world, and you can't deny that he did raised one hell of a powerful and capable young woman

Stardew Valley little headcanons #02: I think Shane's job interview at Joja went exactly like this.

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