coming to an end..

Holidays' coming to its end..shur I'm excited to go back to college (minus the lectures and tests) but I'mma miss home. Especially Baby Nanim. She's growing up and learning real fast and I cant bear to miss out on her first step, her first try running, jumping and all.. I mean, within just few minutes je pon she'll be learning new thing like, this minute she'll be learning how to call out to a cat, and the next minute, she's learning to pretend reading the quran (tiru my brader konon2 baca quran…it's a different 'tune' if she's reading any other books)..everything's coming out in a rush and we're all as excited as any first mom. The whole family! Haha..tu lah I cakap, macam xpenah ada adik..oh well..



Results're out already. Since yesterday's evening..cant be bothered to check yet (I am scared to ****!) nanti2 lah..God, I pray I'll do fine..


btw, I'm quite worried. my eyesight's a bit weird these days. They kinda get blurry at time. At times, say, when I'm reading a book, my eyes kinda..go real blurry and takes some time (few seconds) before it'll be all clear and as normal when I shift or move on to another position or look another way. Its usual for me to sorta lose my balance or kinda go blurry in the head, or macam nak pitam when I get up from my seat after sitting down for some time due to my anemic condition but in the eyes; I dun think it has anything to do with the 'shortage' of blood. Or does it? Btw, Uncle Jack (the optician) says that my eyes get real watery bcoz my eye muscles are crammed..huhu..pity me. My eyes are vulnerable so he said..sigh..i was hoping he wud say that I have to kurangkan study, (like what kak aliya's doc said to her hehhe) but of course he didn't. instead he gave me some advices how I shud study law and that I should make plan for life after my graduation. Well, that was helpful kot. He also taught me how to relax my eyes when I (or rather, should I. ) get my nose buried deep in books or anything. Cool..and plus, I rub my eyes a lot. That's bad. I know. But I cant help myself. I always feel as if there's something in my eye. HELP!



another btw, I don't get it. almost 60% of all the guys I know whom I haven't met for sometime; (cousins, friends, foes and all, so long as they're guys) they all turn up with long hair. I have no idea why. I don't mind guys with long hair (not the super-long-kind or ironed/rebonded-like-a-girl's kind of course) so long as they're not selekeh looking. Scruffy looks are cute but not selekeh ohkay..



I'm feeling good. I spent the whole day meeting up with my relatives (mom's sides. Grandpa's award stuff story remember?) at M-Suites. Then had lunch at Danga Bay's food court (which was a 'never-having-lunch-there-ever-again' so my dad says) then, I spent the evening at Una's place..niat datang nak amek dodol je, but tersangkut plak heh.. Dah lame tak bual ngan makcik n pakcik..and just now, spent the hours cleaning up the halls and the kitchen. The house was quite. So I enjoyed scurrying around kat bawah tu sorang2..got baby to sleep so she was definitely out of the way..kalau x, haih..tak duduk diam ler sume orang melayan dia..owh yeah, today, she learnt how to eat with a spoon, by herself. You bet it was a messy moment! The wet kitchen's in the process of getting a 'new look' so the kitchen's in a state that kinda shouts out 'MR. HURRICANE HAS JUST LEFT!' and god, I hate the sight! I really hope those pakcik2 can get everything finished and done asap. Maktok's coming over tomorrow. She's so0 gonna freak out at the sight of the kitchen (the kitchen is her favourite 'hang out' place). Tomorrow my parent's planning a family dinner outside with maktok coming and all. *glee* looking forward to sneaking zahid out of his hostel to join us for the dinner. Sigh..i bet he'll ruin the fun by making us follow the procedures to get a permission to go out..haih..that is so my br0dah..


Looking forward for tomorrow!

x-rated survey hehe

promised Tasz i'll be online about now..so while waiting for her, got some stuff from frenster's bolletin board..



Put an 'x' which applies to you:



(x) i have a cell phone

( ) i am an only child.

( ) i am a shopaholic (lets leave that unanswered..)

( ) i have smoked a cigarette before.

( ) i have done/doing drugs

( ) i have drank

( ) i love cold weather.(i xtahan sejuk loh..)

(x) i can't live without music.(i cant stand silence)

( ) i have no tolerance of ignorant people(that, would be unfair)

( ) i'll be in this town forever.(oh, i hope not!)

(x) i've been to 5 different countries.

(x) i have more than a few horrible memories.(who doesn't?)

( ) i am addicted to chocolate.(i love 'em, but not addicted)

(x) i love airplane rides
(definitely!!i'm missing them..)

(x) i love taking pictures
(ehheh..*sheepish grin* it's fun!)


-sometimes

(x) i can be mean when i want to
(true, but it's a hardwork..i dunno why..sumtimes u have to be mean u know..)

(x) my parents care about my grades.(yep!! but they're cool..my dad doesnt believe in failures..)

(x) one of my best friends is a boy

(x) i am easy to talk to (ALWAYS)

(x)i hate when people are late (yes!i'm a bit impatient loh..)

( ) i love winter.

( ) i have too many clothes for my closet (i dont think so!!!..owh.but i bersyukur..heh)

( ) i love to sleep

(x) i wish i were smarter

( ) i HATE drama

( ) i love acting.

( ) i never fight with my parents

( ) i love the beach...so much

(x) i can't control my emotions (even my hyper-ness and all teh sugar rushes!)

(x) i have moved on more than once.

(x) i truly care about my friends. (verry)

( ) i love to draw

( ) i love my computer.

(x) i love people who sing personally to me.

(x) i'm a happy person...(i'd like to say yes. but i do have those 'down' moments and days)

(x) i love to dance.(yes!! i do! its another form of exercising!)

(x) i love to sing.

(x) i love cleaning my room.(my room)

(x) i tend to get jealous very easily!
(it's much more in control now thank you)

( ) i love school

( ) i love night better than day..(i love both equal..day's friends' time. night's with the family)

( ) i have been on the phone for over 5 hours (almost! hoho)

( ) i don't like to study for tests.
(na'ah..they dun last and stick for long in my head if i study for the sake of tests or exams)

(x) i am too forgiving..
(i cool down real fast..sometimes i don;t like myself for that..)

( ) i miss elementary school

( ) i love chocolate kisses

( ) i love the color pink (blergh)

( ) my eye color changes.
(eye color can change?!? i did not know that! er, or u meant, contact lenses?)

(x) i become stressed easily.

(x) i hate liars!

( )i LOVE comfy sweatpants. (i prefer skirts please)

( ) i can play the piano ( i wish!)

( ) i love the smell of rain.( i dun mind the rain when i'm inside a building, with hot drink n a book..not when i get all wet and drenched)

(x) i love my family.

(x) i hate the feeling of failure.
(yes i do. i may act cool and all..but i really hate the feeling of failure. know that.)

(x) i have friends in other countries.

(x) i know how to cook..

(x) i can speak another language..

(x) at times i can be quite selfish.

(x) at times, i still act like a little kid

( ) i LOVE Babies.

(x) i have problems with letting go of old frens (big prob)


feelings/memories

(x) i lost someone.

(x) i hate being alone.

(x) i love someone.

( ) i love summer.

(x) i love the weekends

(x) i can type with one hand.

(x) i live in a house.

(x) i have bad memories.

( ) i go to school

( ) i sing in the shower. (used too *tee hee*)

(x) i already experienced camping. (n i will do ANYTHING to avoid anor)

(x) i usually get what i want (materials; yep. others, hmm..sigh..)

(x) no one knows the full story of my life.

(x) i am close with my parents.(boleh la..)

(x) i love to read

(x) i wish i were more motivated for school.(definitely!haha)

( ) i hate myself (sometimes..and i hate the feeling okay..)

nib's day ..sal's leave

I'm so tired out and drained..finished the kursus today..woke up super late this morning ( tido balik lepas subuh punye pasal huh) turned out my whole family woke up late too..it's Sunday I suppose.. the program today was scheduled to start at 830am today and I, I left home at 830 huhu..i had to stop at Nib's place also..it's her birthday so I dropped by her place on my way to Iman ELC.. she was still sleeping but heck, I have to do what I gotto do heh..gave her a Sec.Rec cake and passed her a birthday gift from me and my adek Mus'ab. Left the kursus early with kak war coz sal's leaving for kl at 2 and we all want to go to kak Bie's open house togetha2..


Went to kak bie's house and god, the pasta sauce that her mom made was nyummy and there's this biscotti with lots of almonds (with a hint of coffee taste) sgt sedap!!!



I feel soo bad that I didn't join nibah n una n sebah go for ice cream sempena besday nibah..sungguh I tak larat..its bad for me to drive being tired and exhausted..i was glad and thankful I reached home safe drive sorg balik tau..heh..dramatik sket kot..nways..(happy birthday nibah..)


Missing sal alredi..owh, btw, this 29th, my grandpa (mom's dad) will be awarded 'Anugerah Tokoh Emas' ape ntah I dunno the details but yg penting, his whole big family's invited to the function ( do they know that my grandpa ade 13 anak, tak campur menantu dan beratus cucu?) nways..so, yeah..since the event's taking place in one of the hotels in jb (I dunno the dtails I told u so), we're so0 going..


My hand kebas tiba2 lah..it's kerap sepat lenguh n kebas nowadays..i got to stop lah..
gaa

raya2..

I'm feeling great 2day! *hoping the spirit and the vibe will last all day!* my fever's gone (alhamdulillah..thank you god..) I did not sleep after subuh, watched Channel News Asia *I am a very civilised human and so I am very concerned about the world*, I prepared the breakfast for the whole family tho I'm fasting..and Una buat open house 2day..*menguji iman betul heish..* and I'll be leaving for some shopping spree with sal jap lagi. We'll have to take along lil kids with us.haih..that's supposed to be fun.take them for some ice cream, browsing toys..i promised mus'ab a toy, let's see how long we'll have to wait for him to choose what he likes…



I have no idea why but this year I've been procrastinating my puasa 6..liat sket..and now Syawal dah nak habes and I've 2 days still to go..makin dah nak habis syawal lah sume org nak buat open house lah, makan2 lah..but hey, they're just food. I should be able to resist the temptation heh..lawan nafsu ek? I still go to join the kemeriahan (erk..is there such word?)



Eniways, I've been going out practically everyday! Just when the holiday's coming to its end; makin happening plak..there's always an open house everyday. Invitations for makan2, meetings, outings and hanging out with friends..it all started when kak uswah buat open house. We all convoy 2 cars. there was kak war, kak bie, kak una, kak fad, kak huda, me, sal and husna..start kat my house, then to kak huda's and then to kak war's then, we maghrib at BBU's mosque which was near to kak suwah's place..it was raining and we were not so drenched but wet. We stayed for sometime at kak suwah's place (kene sebut nih, soto dia sedap weih!) there was so ramai people there and we met so ramai orang..it was fun..



The next day, we went out beraya again..ustzh fauziah makan2 kat her place and we went again, 2cars. Since we were near ustzh. Husnul's place, we went to her place also. She's sooo much fun (the peach n passion fruit tea was the best!) and soo cool lah.. Its such a nice and a warm feeling to go pay a visit to my ex-teachers' places and chat and laugh like we're old friends who haven't met for a long time..



Sumdays later (when I've recovered from my fever) we all made plans to pegi convoy2 beraya again. This time, there was 11 of us, 3 cars. We went to ustzh norizah's, ustzh norimah's and ustzh azimah's. met kak aliya (soon-to-be-bride eh? *wink2*) it was great to have met up with kak aliya and bual2..meB tu last time kot dpt bual ngan dia berstatus single *tee hee* I really want to go to her wedding..dah la nanti she'll be going back to Australia..but really, it was great dapat jumpe and bual2 ngan dia..lame beno kot x jumpe..



Esok ada kursus kepimpinan til Sunday. But since its just dekat Iman ELC, so we get to balik rumah for the night. Nibah's birthday’s lusa. Tomorrow dia buat makan2 but again, I'll be fasting..but I'm still going. MeB try curik2 masa time lunch kot speed drive ke nib's place with sal and djott. Lusa kak Bie buat open house. I'm definitely not going to miss that..



2nd dec nih, my bro'll be 'ever and done' with his SPM and since I'll have to be back in KL on the 4th, our fam's going to Melaka for an expressed-limited-time family holiday. I haven't ever been to Aben's place ever since he started a family so ni kire nak bayar hutang jugaklah..Aben (he's my cousin..eldest guy in our big fam) kate nak belanja makan seafood kat Malim…nyum2..and we're going to go-kart'ing and fruit picking..yeay..plan to stop by iman's place gak..she's now back in Mesia for a 3mnths hols..hopefully I'll get to see her a lot..



laytah!

silly surveys..

get the pic of how bored and useless i am when i fall sick during the holidays..

Where are u now?

-home sweet home



where did u last go to?

-Jaya Jusco Tmn U



where would u like to be right now?

-Kinokuniya plz..or MPH



what are u doing now?

-typing a survey kot..*roll eyes*



what were u doing previously?

-going thru some paperwork



what would u like to do right now?

-watch a movie. I want to watch 'I Am Sam' again!!

-an episode of The O.C would be okay



what are u reading now?

-god, as much as I love reading, I dun really read 24/7 ya know..



what was the last thing you read?

-'Disclosure' by Michael Crichton. (A case on sexual harassment filed by a guy, against a woman. Doesn't that sound interesting? Recommended)



what would u like to read right now?

-'A History of Palestine' (the one yg pakcik musDin punye)

-and definitely 'Confession Of An Economic Hitman'



what are u listening to now?

-'Bersama' (Brothers Reunited)



what was the last song u listened to?

-Jewel Song (Boa)



what song would u like to listen to right now?

-definitely Fly Away' (Nelly)



what are u watching now?

-watching? I'm sitting infront of a laptop this minute, so I suppose I'm 'watching' a lappie's screen



what was the last show u watched?

-hmm..Chinese drama 'Life Begins At 40'



what would u like to watch right now?

-something touching and heartwarming..i want to watch 'I Am Sam' again..



who was the last person u called?

-Kak Bie



who would u like to call right now?

-Tasneem Guddam and definitely Sue



who did u last talk to?

-my br0tha who was leaving for his tuition class



who would u like to talk to?

-Sue please..



who did u last texted?

-waa..its been days I dah kering..the real 'last' would be..hmm..oh yeah, Sal



who would u like to text right now?

-someone who I shud hv wished birthday wishes earlier..(ampuun)



who was the last person u had a chat with on YM?

-Sue



who would u like to chat with on YM right now?

-no one. The person I want to talk to right now uses MSN



who did u last met?

-gowd..my whole family’s all over the house! Practically my whole family I suppose hehhe



who would u like to meet right now?

-iman



what was the last thing u bought?

-Ricola's Blackcurrent flavored lozenges



what would u like to buy right now?

-fantasizing a ticket to Switzerland..but, being realistic; err..a new pair of err..wedges or flip flops wud be err..great..*sheepish grin*



what was the last thing u ate?

-paracetamol. And clarinase. Note: I'm on medication; not drugs.



what would u like to eat right now?

-pancakes! Puhleez..I am desperate for pancakes!! Real ones with syrup..sigh..


what was the last drink u had?

-plain water. I've been drinking a lot of plain water these days..



what would u like to have right now?

-CB's plain ice blended mocha w/out cream, sprinkled with lotsa cinnamon powder!!

What are u going to do after this?

-grab the TV remote from my br0!!!



*gone to do the grabbing ;D*

so many feelings..emotions running away..

i am down with fever..my mom says it's because of my 'excessive' outings..haha..it's the rain. i believe so. i can stand 'cats&dogs' (or as atique says; 'tigers&turtles') but i can't tahan drizzles *i am definitely talking about the rain*..so here i am, with so much to share but too tired to write..i'd say not enuff energy..



i'll talk later..



p/s: una, sorry i was moody yesterday at makcik mas'..blame my 'temper'ature..*hugs to u* and hugs to all too..

a real get away

Watched Ungu Violet again..(see how pathetic my holiday is? *groan*) i so cant believe that the story's a total cut and paste of two fav storylines of mine! Kiss' Because I'm A Girl and A Walk To Remember..dun u think so? I mean, leukemia, dying; injured eyes, blinded, the guy becomes the donor..ehniways..



Nways..i so need to get my holidays a new plan..

Sue's already back in Brunei (not that i got to see much of her this hol..*muke sedih kejap*)..

Zahid’s sitting for SPM,so, no family holiday..and my dad's back to work already..again, not much of a holiday..

Djott's back in college for exams too..CB so0o have to wait til exams r over..(definitely cant wait for the 20th!!) thank god she's only in UTM..hehe boleh je redah bilik dia.

.Iman's back in Mesia for a 4months holiday..have to wait til i get myself back in KL to meet up with her, and that's like in nother 2 weeks time! my god! Hols are coming to an end?!

*stop to appreciate hol*


*continue complaining bout holidays*

hmm..talk about holidays..what kind of holiday would i really call a real 'get away'? as far as i could ever remember, all our family holidays involve places where my dad and siblings could swim, rendam dlm air..meaning, long open-hour pools and beaches..i don't do swimming. I don't enjoy getting myself wet and having to change out of heavy drenched clothes and all..so most of the time i'll spend the hours they're in the water by taking a stroll along the beach..i love the sands and the sound of the ocean, waves and all..sometimes i'll just sit by the pool while my family have helluva time in the pool reading a book.
*holiday tips: never leave w/out a book! they help to kill time.

malls are definitely a must-to-visit..dun matter if i dun gett to buy much. Window shopping's fine with me..(they must have nice salepersons too! Friendly ones! I dun like snobby rude and sourpuss salepersons! Eih..who does..duh) i don't do museums or historical places..(count out Turkey and any other European countries please)..it would be a bonus if the place has gorgeous gardens, nice Coffee shops where i can sit and relax, read my book.The hotels must definitely have beautiful lobbies. I like to sit in lobbies and ither i watch and observe human beings and their activities, it's a really good feeling to read a book n a nice comfy couch in a beautifully decorated place. Your imagination will run wild; wilder if it's already wild haha..


teringat when i was off to Pulau Pangkor for X-Rek sometime ago, me, Djah, Nib, Kinah n Atique walked all around the jetty area while waiting for our boat. We practically went in each one of every hotel that was there. We made friends with the ladies at the lobby, we got lost, we had ice creams in one of the hotels' cafe..we talked to strangers..(that was definitely fun heh) we checked out the washrooms..(the theory is that hotels provide perfect, clean, beautiful, sweet smelling washrooms)
*looking at the framed pic that we took while having ice creams at the hotel where we went inside the kitchen and met the chef*

yeah,we did that. we went inside the kitchen area and met the chefs and some other guys working there..of course, with permission..sigh..i am def'ly missing those times..


p/s: atique, remember when u actually thot the group of guys we met at the jetty were a group of cleaners coz the whole lot of them were wearing the same colored t-shirts? And when we found out that they were actually among the participants of X-rek too, u were soo embarassed? God, i can recall every dialogue we had..every moment of it..every single one..and here i am, complaining about my holiday..aging's not much of a fun eh..haih..*squeeze baby nanim a hug*

The O.C, Tsunami and Bird Flu

this holiday, I've been staying up til 3am just to watch The O.C Season 1 (repeat) which are aired at 2am on Tcs5 every weekdays' nights. Season 2's aired on 8tv on Sundays. How can I resist an every night with The O.C? I can never have enough of Adam Brody as Seth! He is so amusing and hilarious! Although mun says he's a loser (which at times I have to agree haha) With or without Summer. I love Summer and Seth as a pair and I think Rachael Bilson a.k.a Summer is puh-retty plus h0t hot. Obviously I dislike Marissa. I just don't like her. Right from the first episode.


Right now, it's the episode where Seth, Summer and Lisa Armstrong (suddenly I can't remember her O.C name *tgh iklan now*) are in the period of being 'just friends' after Seth chose Lisa over Summer..Summer so need a break. She's obviously trying too hard to prove that she's so over Seth and is okay with everything. Clearly, her understanding of 'just friends' needs to be corrected. Ehniways..owh! owh! Iklan! Iklan! This Saturday Night Movie, Tcs5's showing 'I Am Sam'.. a must-not-miss!


had a chat with ummi just now and she said that the scientists and the geologists had a prediction made after researches that the next Tsunami's somewhere around the next century (mind you, this is just a prediction) but for shur (or so, as they say), the location is JB-S'pore..for real..how scary is that?


with bird flu and such disease spreading around, my mom's friend talked to a doctor. Somehow, we all must feel a little insecure living on Earth and trying to be careful and taking every precaution to avoid these fatal diseases. So, yeah, she asked whether it's safe to at chickens (poultries and those related) and the doc said that the truth is, so long as they are well cooked, there should be no problem, as the germs will be killed. The same goes to the time when Mad-Cow disease was around, should the meat be well cooked, no worries..(so the doc says)


now C.S.I's on, how can I sleep? And plus, I can hear baby nanim's giggles..she's not asleep yet?!? *gone to get baby nanim*


say hi baby..(she's sitting in my lap ryte now, watching CSI)

"daa..da" that's her saying hi



reminds me of my maktok. Because of Tsunami, for sometime she insisted on not eating fish. She'll cook for other people but she won't eat it. She was grossed out by the idea that fishes caught from the water around our land might have eaten parts of the Tsunami victims that are lost swallowed by the deadly waves. Try convince her; you'll fail. Hmm..i'm not shur if she still dun eat fish now or she's over the period already..

what's with babies?!?

Baby Tasnim's now a year and two months old. She's like everyone's 'apple of the eye'. Everyone loves her and can't wait for her to wake up every morning. She makes so much noise now. She has a really charming smile and big round shiny eyes! She doesn't cry much meaning she don't throw tantrums much but then again, all healthy babies must cry. She loves to read! She makes this noise (with rhythm) so we know that she's reading (definitely in her baby language)..it's sumthing like this:


" nggeng..nggeng..nggeng..daa..daa..ah..aah.."

and she would go on and on until she finish her reading.. (sal and kak long heard her when she came across Postman Pat's book at Makcik Sue's house)

Her favorite books are 'My Little ABC' and 'Postman Pat and Jess the Cat'. She really loves cats, which is forbidden coz she's allergic to them. She's really quick in learning new stuff, which I find it to be very amazing! (and definitely amusing)

She calls me 'attak'. of course, it's obvious that she meant 'akak'.. she laughs and smile a lot. But when she gets really active, she has soo much to say til not one of us could bear her 'talking' and we'd all go "shhh!!!! Nanim, shhhh!!!" and she'd just laugh..and then, we'd all laugh along..what is it with babies and we grown ups going all ga-ga over them?!?


I guess the fact that the last baby that came into our family was about 7 years ago, and that all of us definitely did not expect one coming along after Mus'ab so I guess when Tasnim came along, we all got excited (especially Mus coz he dun have adik) and now everyone's so in love with her.


My ummi and abah? It's like they just got their first child..after so long..(I'm still number one oh-kaay ;P) I remember when my dad was out with the baby one day, a lady actually asked my dad "first child ke?" heh..that got my dad believing that he looks super young for his age..heh..either that, or extra attention was to the baby..
oh well..i guess everyone loves babies..like just now, Tasnim messed up our cassettes and CDs rack but everyone was practically going "aloh..loh..comelnye.." haha..cube I try do the same..i'd be left to clear it all myself. My mom would think I was having a seizure or sumthing haha..


oh, by the way, since now I play ping-pong (which I have to mention here that I play by my own rules..as long as I'm having fun, it's a game!), Baby Nanim is now officially my personal supporter. She has to cheer for me and so she's right now in the period of learning how to cheer for me..i'm still trying to put into words for the cheerleading song..sumthing like this:


give me an A,
give me a K,
give me an A again,
and another K,
go0o akak!!


how does that sound? I mean, she's learning..i have to use simple words..mwahaha..

Chickens..and Ping-Pong games

Of all the chickens I have ever had to clean, wash and skin before I cook them, today, I met the worst.
(Chickens, I am so0o sorry. I know I eat u chickens but please don't curse me coz I have no intention of any sort to insult you. I had a very bad experience! Plz..do understand..)



By 'worst' I don't mean ugly, smelly (coz they all are, usually) or whatever that may makes it seem like I'm criticizing God's creations but the chicken I had to clean today was very, very, eiew'iy. It was so full of fat!! And I mean a lot of real fat. I could picture the chicken when it was alive and kicking! It must have been a-was real big fat flabby chicken. It made me lose my appetite for the day..huhu..seriously..


I was instantly reminded of kak aliya and her first experience operating, or rather, 'opening' up a human (hmm..that sounded inhuman. I meant a corpse.. The being was already dead). She got a man-corpse and he was, well, obese.(right kak aliya?) and god, all kak aliya did was, she described the smell and the experience, on mail, in words, but I could imagine and picture the scene clearly in my head. I told so to her (remember kak? Heh) when I was reading the mail, I felt like I was in the operation room myself! Well, she said that the smell lingered for days..and the rest; you people would lose ur appetite too so lets not go there.


and so, the conclusion is, I am definitely shedding all the extra lipids, the extra.. what's the other scientific names for fat? Hmm..*raking my brains* ..fat? Yeah, fat. I know this is a sensitive issue for a lot of people especially gurls but heck, it's the chicken!! Blame it! I don't want the doctors going all yucky when they have to (if they have to) do a post-mortem on me when I die!urgh.. sorry people, I hope I haven't grossed you out crapping about chickens but, well, u just have to be there! And you'll feel the same! Sheesh..i will never look at a chicken the same way! Ever again!


*okay..'ever again' will depend on circumstances hehe..oh well, I'll so get over it..
owh god..let's see how long this 'lose-weight-spirit' will last..aduuh..


*ryhn rolls her eyes and groans loudly too*



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I have found a new interest for the holiday!! Believe it or not, ping-pong is now on my list!


*shopping's moving down due to the lectures that my parents gave especially for me..ehheh..


hmm..well, this may sound really dumb but for 3 years our family ping-pong table has been 'residing' on our front porch and I have never ever paid any attention to it. I never even said 'hi' to it! As all know, I have many guys in my family (to be precise, 5, inc my dad) and so when my br0s get all excited bout one game, my dad'll get the equipment, being a very supportive daddy..the same story goes for the ping-pong table. 2 of my brothers are playing ping-pong for their school so they play a lot and since my dad's into 'living life healthily', the ping-pong table was bought.


as far as I could remember, I had a really bad relationship with ping-pong games. I hated every sound the game makes. I cringe at the sound of the ball bouncing off the table everytime the guys play..i had soo much against it..and I have no idea why..and now? I am soo into the game! Yesterday, I saje je nak kacau2 my bro playing so I gave it a try and..i am definitely enjoying the game now! Ping pong spells f-u-n! I mean, I've always enjoyed squash (not that I play it often) but I really love the idea of having to go after a bouncing ball, keeping up with the pace and stuff; and well, ping pong definitely have the same catch as squash does! *can u feel the excitement?! Huh?huh?*


I just wish my dad would allow me to move the ping-pong table inside the house so that I don't have to wear tudung whenever I wanna play! I've been working really hard in talking my dad into doing so. There's space for it in our living room for god's sake..but he just won't listen waduuh..*groan again*


oh well, let's live life healthily people!

mamak foods and kopi instant

I am missing my gurlfrens soo much..fara, maz, widaad, wahid, dora..
I had cheese nan the other night and it got me thinking of them..those gurls go crazy for mamak stuff..the cheese nan was one of the 'for shurs'..so, I messaged fara, maz, n widaad


Ryhn: I had cheese nan and thot of u gurls..m really missing u people lorh..pakai mask tadi pon teringat2 kat korg..heish! bahaya..heh..sending u gurlz hugs! *hugsies*


Then we al started chatting via SMS..


Maz: o0..bab makan br nak ingat I ek?haha..gd to know m still on ur mind..i seriously cant wait for uia to open balik..At the risk of sounding like a dork..eheh..gue rindu loh banget..*returns ur hug*squeeze ryhn tightly til she's all gooey*


Daad: I dah buat conclusion, we dun really need guys (n the 'really' is for fara..the rest cancel it out) *haha* coz we're in love with the whole lot of us..mkn, mnm,tido, tgk tv, tgk makeup, antar message, pakai makeup, sume lah ingat kat u gurls..


Dora: nothing can be truer thant that. Guys r like candy . sweet but bad for ur teeth ;) we r happier n better all the same w/out them..


Maz: s0bSobs0b...daym the hols..i wont give any of these up even if I'm married to nada.(raul len citer)haha..nah, not for all the riches in the world, I wont give it up..suwerr. its more than a lifestyle. It's a belief. That we cant live w/out each othr!


Mun: how 2 do? Mengira masa sampai bertemu kembali..kerna kita adalah satu..


Oh well..we're soo attached to each other..(mind u people who have thots that we are lesbians (god forbids!!) or whatever! We check out guys a lot too okay..*oh'0h..that sounds so wrong..but u get the idea ryte?* til we get sick of em haha..we just check 'em out but we do nothing more that that..its fun (n better that way..huhu)


When its not holidays, we dream of having long holidays..(ohkay, exceptional to maz) and when its holidays, we wanna go back!!! Waduh..hmm..i miss all the nights we stayed up, talking about everything and go all dramatic and crazy..i miss the nights during xm weeks where we'd stay up, go frantic 2gether, eat mee ruski berjemaah at 3..all night muching ..wear makeups
*konon nak lift mood to study haha*
..wahid doing our hairs, wear masks, all the gurls stuff..sigh..and when its holiday, I have to do everything alone..how can I not rindu banget sama mereka!! Even if I walk by any shoe shops, I'll go thru at least a minute of my mind thinking of my gurlfrens..they stood by me, thru thick and thin, and I hope it'll last..tho things will come up in days to come but, hey, that'll make life more exciting..and we learn to appreciate each other more definitely..



Then there's my neighbours, lubbiey, kak shara, yani, kak laila..they're like among the reasons that kept me sane during my whole stay of my first sem..and I hope they'll continue to stay with me for the rest of the sems that I have to go through til I grad..



Lubbiey, I miss u doing my hair! Really I do..*until now, I try to get it the way u do it with the hair comb thingy, still xjadi huhu..*all the 'kopi instant' that u provided, m so sorry u had to bear with me all the hours I was hyped..(err..ohkay, I mean, hyper than the usual..) kak shara n kak laila, new people I befriended whom I love soo much..they are soo much fun..i love 'em..*sending tight hugs to them* they always leave the door open for me..
(ohkay..hmm..even if they dun open it for me, I'd open it for myself..)
ehniways..and yani too..all the days and hours these great neighbours of mine had to bear with me coming around every hour *definitely exaggeration's here* and layan me (especially time puasa! I miss berbuka'ing with u all!!!) owh! And definitely for bukak'ing (heish..rosak bahasa) pintu and layan me even at 3am in the morn when I get my cravings for peanut butter spreads hehe..
thanx soo much for keeping me company..


I miss them all..cant wait to meet up again. Enuff said.

Dedicated to Duha!!

Happy 16th Birthday to Duha!!
I wish you all the best, for the rest of the years of your life.
May Allah’s blessings be with you for always..
semoga kekal menjadi anak yang solehah and berjaya dalam hidup…
may you enjoy a blessed 16th year of your life..
*hugs*

a day out at the bay..

No matter how embarrassing this fact may be, it is a fact that I have never been to Danga Bay although I have lived in JB for so many years..hehe..until yesterday.



Djot was going back to her college yesterday since she got exam tomorrow so we thought of hanging out at Danga Bay.. we were so smart to have went to tepi pantai at midday..the heat was..GOD! I think my blood was boiling in its vessels and my skin, not that I mind being tanned but just to describe how blazing hot it was, I got a belang at my wrist ohkay!!

(the skin area protected by my watch haha)..

but Danga Bay's beautiful.. Yesterday was a working day so there weren't many people except for those who were holidaying so we had the place all to ourselves. Cantik bangat tempat itu..i've already chosen a spot for PaLS' jamuan raya!





Nways, after we got bored of going around the bay, we left for Angsana..
Alkisahnya, the niat was to just pray zohor. But then I somehow found myself trying out shoes..and well, you can guess how the story goes next..



I was waiting for our lunch to be served when the thought of paying Pura a visit crossed my mind. So I was like, 'Djot, since we're so near to Pura's house, let's raya her rumah'
She's like, 'yeah'. They knew each other coz everytime I went to Pura's place, I'll always take Djah along. And plus, I talk bout djah enough that my roommates (ohkay, ex-r0omies) should know her..hehe..




Whatever it is, I'm glad that the thought crossed my mind that very minute coz she was planning to go out and should have missed paying her a visit then, I won't get a chance to ever meet her this holiday. She left for KL today coz of some training for some competition til 28th. By that time, I don't think I'll be around in JB anymore..





So I was very happy to have met her yesterday..god, I miss her. And afie and lem too..afie'll be leaving for kuantan nex sem..too bad Allied Health's students pon have to stay in kuantan..lagi lah susah nak jumpe afi..at least now, I can go to pj to meet up with them.. if only I get to go to afie's and lem's place just like I can go to pura's..sedih bangat..kangen sama mereka..ehniway..til laytah..





P/s: my fren's gonna burn me DVDs of the first 2 seasons of 'The O.C' !!!!! say yippee out loud people!!!

person i missed...

Maybe I'm just being emotional, crybaby or whatever. But right at this moment, I thought of someone whom I haven't met or heard of for a long time. Someone who hasn't crossed my mind for sometime, and right away I knew that I am missing her and have missed her. So much, that I dropped tears.



The saddest and most upsetting part of it all is the fact that I have no idea how I can ever see her or get to talk to her ever again. It's my aunt. Probably labeled 'x-aunt'now. Her husband's
my mom's older brother so when they got divorced, she left.



They were married for more than 13 years and had no child. The doctor confirmed the fact that it's not that one of them is sick or anything. Just takde rezeki I guess.. they did adopted 2 kids. One lil arab boy and one pretty baby girl (my aunt's niece). They divorced without difficulties and with consent. The divorce went well. That's all I knew. I was in matric when they separated so I knew nothing much. All I know is that she went back to her hometown, Kuantan.



She was (and still is) my favorite aunt (among yg 'org luar' lah).. It seems so comforting to remember the fact that wherever my family resides, my uncle and her would always be residing in the same city. When we move away, somehow, my uncle would be transferred to the same city or state we moved to. Of course, excluding the time when our family stayed overseas la. I guess the fact that they had no child of their own, and that my family's the only relative living nearby, our relationship was great. I can still recall and remember quite clearly all the trips we made to the malls, parks, recreation parks, picnics and all outings that she and my uncle ever took me along with them; just me alone, with my brother, or with the whole family.



She was so gentle and so kind and loving.. and I felt her love deeply.. Again, maybe because she has cared for me since I was small. My family have always made regular trips to their house, even when they were living quite far away even though in the same state as ours. The last time I saw her was before I left for matric that now seem like so many years ago. We went over to her place for dinner. The husband and wife seemed fine.



Later, my uncle got transferred to the residential area we're staying in. I can remember being excited hearing 'rumors' that they'll be living in our area, in our neighborhood. I got excited at the thoughts that I can now hang out at my uncle's place with her during weekends or anytime I want (note: she doesn't work). They did move, but not in our neighborhood. Somewhere 20 minutes drive away. I was in matric so I missed out on a lot of trips to their new place. Whenever I came back for the weekends or holiday breaks, I never made it to their place. I was disappointed but never gave much thought to it. I guess, my mom and dad was busy or something. it was only later, after a month after their divorce only my mom told me that my aunt has left for her parent's. I was shocked. But I guess no one noticed the wound and the scar that the news and fact has left me. At least it explained all the times when my mom avoided my requests and questions on 'when are we going to their place?'..



And right now, as I thought of her and her where about, I am most upset by the fact that she never bid me farewell, that I never got the chance to say goodbye, to thank her for everything. It would be fine if she wouldn't ever want to meet us again or whatever if only I got to say goodbye. I don't even have her number!!!! I guess I took it for granted that she was my uncle's wife. Maybe its because my mom's family had no history of divorce cases so I was..well..unaware? sigh..



All I need right now is her number. Or her address. Even though she has separated with my uncle, I don't think it's wrong if I continue my relationship with my aunt. My uncle has now remarried. It makes it soo much harder and awkward for me to ask around for my aunt's number. Not even from my m0m. I cannot look in his face without thinking of his ex-wife. I'm glad he has found someone new and I am happy for him that he's going to be a father soon. But..i don't see anything wrong in me being friends with my aunt tuh.. when I look at my uncle and his new life, I makes me sad. He's living such a different lifestyle compared to before..I guess God has made better plans and that there's wisdom behind all that has happened. But I really miss my cik kiah. I have no idea what to do..but I really do miss her..



To my cik kiah..

selamat hari raya..raihan rindu sangat kat cik kiah..I pray that God watches over you and that we'll meet someday..

eid..and a call!

Tasneem called from yemen!!!



I am soo overwhelmed..heh..she promised she'd call me on Eid and she did. She called last Eid too. God, I pray I'll get to meet her one day. Real soon. It's soo good to hear her voice. She's still as giggly as ever hehe..hmm..i think we spent most of the second laughing heh..it's funny to hear the gap between our speeches especially when we're laughing..owh! maybe that's why we kept on laughing..


Nways..this year, my family spent our 1st day of our Eid at my dad's side. My mom and dad's place's are only 13 minutes drive away so we never have much problem in choosing where to spend our Eid eve and morning. Usually we get to spend our days at both sides. But this year's Eid day was a bit different. The Eid eve night, we went to both sides' place so I can help out with my aunts and grammas. My dad's mom (maktok) has a bibik so she always manages fine. At my mom's side, my gramma also has help from my aunts and uncles but there's always so much to do and to prepare for Eid and the annual morning feast. It's nice to help around.. After all, I haven't paid any visit to my kampungs for a period of a whole sem..the last time I went back to b.pahat was prolly before I left matric..lama tuh..my maktok always come to KL so I get to see her occasionally but my mom's side; god, don't I feel guilty..



Nways..su made it in time to celebrate Eid with us all in Mesia. She only got the usual 2 weeks holiday but alhamdulillah got the chance to spend Eid together. The policy's in Brunei (or just the place where my cousin works) is that, freshies can’t take long holidays..so I assume, next year, she'll prolly get a month long hols..hopefully..



I'm quite sad and disappointed that I don't get to see much of her and neither do we get to hangout together much this holiday..oh well..iAllah panjang umur murah rezeki we see each other again soon..



Nways, this 12th, PaLS are organizing a jamuan raya! Not everyone'll be able to make it since many are already back in their colleges due to exams.. but still, I'm looking forward to seeing everyone..(whoever lah yg dtg)..it's been sumtime since I last joined PaLS' gathering..Danga Bay here we come..

holy-day

Ramadhan has left and Eid has come.. leaving us only being allowed to look back, reminisce and muhasabah on the ways we greeted and treated Ramadhan, on the ways we spent every minutes of the days in the month of the Holy month; the month that comes only once a year, full of God's blessings, barakah, forgiveness and endless Rahmat..and yet, I, admitting myself a Muslim, had failed a lot of times to perform and observe my obligations towards God the Almighty as His servant..




Every year, Ramadhan will touch our hearts and leave it's marking of its presence in its many, various and different ways. And yet, it all comes down to one thing. A feedback. A feedback on how we appreciate, greet and treat Ramadhan which is no doubt a reflection of our iman, faith, heart and soul..





Of all my 19 years of lives, obviously, I did not get to learn to appreciate the significance of the Holy month since birth. It was only until recently. Before, Ramadhan was only a month when all Muslims have to fast from morning til the azan maghrib. Then there's the rushing to the mosque for tarawih. And that was it. Most exciting part of all is the wait for Eid..Ramadhan was just..well..not felt much.





I dare say that I learnt to appreciate the presence of Ramadhan not only til last year. That was when I sat for my SPM. It was then everyone depended so much on God. It was a period where everyone prayed extra hard with all their heart for success and for God's help. Well, actually, it's so natural for people (being specific; me) to pray extra hard, to depend so much on God when they're facing trouble or hard times or when they just need extra help. (Which is actually a very good thing should it be practiced throughout my every day life and not subjected to only exam periods which; I hope I do now). i guess mankind tend to take it for granted that Allah is Mha Pengampun, Penyayang and Maha Pemurah..





Anyhow..yeah, so after the whole SPM month was gone, Ramadhan passed by, I came to learn that Ramadhan is a madrasah. Get it? I'm shur many have heard people saying Ramadhan as a madrasah (school; academy; institution; you name it). The one-month period should be able to train people. Fasting teaches us to be patience. We learn to control every temptation of ours during the days, people compete to perform ibadah, all the sunnah practices can be observed by so many people in this month, and so many other little things that we might not notice or do with respect o the Holy month. This one-month period should have been able to mould the attitudes, the soul of every Muslims to become better Muslims every time after Ramadhan leaves for the year. And yet, this can only be accomplished when Muslims themselves respect, appreciate, hayati Ramadhan. With all their hearts and beliefs.





This year, I'm happy, sad and disappointed.. and I have also gained new experiences.





Alhamdulillah, I have managed to accomplish doing things that I missed out last year. Whatever it is, it is between God and me. I pray that God will bless and accept all my deeds; and may I be continuous, consistent, istiqomah with all my deeds, amal and ibadah.





I am sad that I did not manage to focus fully in going through Ramadhan as this year; Ramadhan was also the month of exam. I am not saying that exams are to be blamed or whatever; it's just that it was quite a hectic month. I mean, before, Ramadhan was always holidays, and spent at home.
But then again, regardless of how terrible the papers were *triple long groans to all law papers*, its quite an honor and blessing to have been able to sit for exams (tests, ordeals, obstacles –don’t u all agree? Hehe) during the Holy month when God showers His blessings, rahmah and barakah the most..





Disappointments? Well..people tend to take Ramadhan for granted. There are people who just fast and pray so many rakaah of tarawih just because they are accustomed to such practice and not because of menghayati Ramadhan. For that, after Ramadhan's gone, life goes back to as before, no affects of whatsoever. Well, looking on the bright side, alhamdulillah they paid respect as to celebrating the Holy month by being an extra good Muslims during Ramadhan.




There are also people who fast only just because everyone around them do and yet, the obligatory prayers were not performed. God's laws and orders were not obeyed. How can Ramadhan leave such affects to these hearts? May Allah layyin their hearts and shines His nuur and Hidayah to them...






Even those who are already good Muslims sometimes fail to appreciate Ramadhan, fail to compete with all others in grabbing all the opportunities that God gives during the Holy month in drawing closer to Him, to get all His blessings be bestowed by Him. Being ever so busy with worldly matters and daily lives, they put aside Ramadhan's celebration. So many reasons given, so many excuses. I'm not specifying or hinting on anyone or on any deeds that weren't done or missed by anyone. This is very much a reminder to myself. Its all my thoughts, my words, (my blog! Hahhha)..just voicing out my thoughts..





There are so many more categories and so many more thoughts to be shared..but I am no one to judge others. I myself have a lot to improve. My Ramadhan wasn't very much also. Main point, let us all pray that we will be given the opportunity by God to live to greet and appreciate the next Ramadhan better than this year's. let us all regret all the sins we have done, the minutes we have wasted and may we all live today better than yesterday towards becoming better Muslims; All in pursuing Allah's blessings in life..may we all get to dwell in His heavens in the afterlife so we are not among those who are thrown into the Hellfire as punishments for our deeds in this life...




ya Allah..ketemukanlah aku dengan Ramadhan akan datang agar dapat aku mendapat peluang untuk lebih memanfaatkannya..semoga amalku di dalam bulan Ramadhan kali ini diterima dan diberkati...tetapkanlah hati ini di atas jalanMu..jauhkanku dari dosa maksiat agar aku tidak tergolong di dalm golongan mereka yang rugi dan menempah nerakaMU..