...living L.I.F.E and l0ving i.t...

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

stresSed again!!!beyond words!!! ergh!!!

i am soooooo tensed!! so bengaaaaaaaaaaaaang!! so streSssed out..(can u tell???)

i have just finished clearing up my yahoo inbox..which i left clean and clear, spick n span, prim n proper, neat n tidy on saturday morning....n just now i checked my inbox; there was like 435 mails!!! and gowd i am sooooo not excited at all coz i knew it was THE VIRUS!!!!!!! ergh...the virus.. 70% of the mails were the virus! manenye tak marah..ujian menguji iman sungguh!

there's a virus attacking yahoogroups. the worst yg kene attack is kz2's ..sgt frust okeeeyh.. *muke penat delete mails* its like as if there's nothing much taht can be done.. no one knew how to clear it up..habis i pon kene 'fitnah' ngan virus tuh..the weird thing is that, we cant even tell that the mail is a hoax, prank, full filled n packed n crammed with virus..the title's just like any other mails..some were like it was a reply to the previous mails..ntah ape ntah..aku dah tensyen..

i'm out to save the world!! world domination!! here i come!!! m ryte now 'interviewing' and seeking the help of i-must-call-him- sifu ..(bagi credits ikhlas nih..)

virus! here i come! u better watch out!! i'mm aclear n steer u out of my waaaay!!!!

dang u incik virus...

i have tried to think positive..bt nothings working..cant think of anything positive that'll come out of this virus attack huhu..gnyte people..

salam maal hijrah

salam maal hijrah to all my Muslims friends..not forgetting, a very happy new year t0o..Muharram has arrived, marking the beginning of the new hijrah year, 1427. i pray that the spirit and the strength of the ukhuwwah, the sacrifices by both the Muhajirin and the Ansar back in the times of the Prophet somehow inspire and motivate us.

somehow, this year i felt somehow, rather emotional i'd say, greeting Muharram. i have to admit that i have never really felt strongly the presence of Muharram and its 'arrival' in the past years (except of course, my ummi will remind me to perform the solat hajat and doa to seek Allah's blessings for the new year and all that..yeah2..i know..buruk perangai..terukkan me? huhu..) i guess all this new feelings are part of growing up, and definitely self-actualization! (yes, i think so uhuh! well, at least i hope so lah) alasssan..weak justification eh..(scary weih not knowing the reasons of ur feelings. i hate not being in control of myself..) *groan..* drama queen's at it again..

ehnihow, ehniways..ape2 pun, i have a feeling that this year will be different. i want this year to be different!to me, new year's like, a new chance, a new opportunity that Allah grants, as a ni'mah for us.. i mean, it's pretty much the same like waking up to a new day. not everyone gets to live to see and 'meet' tomorrow. being healthy and all. being a Muslim, with iman,islam, taqwa and all.. and so i believe that one must make the most out of the chance to live! to be able to breathe in the air of Mesia (tho polluted haih..); to be able to meet n hug ur frens; to be able to observe and perform ur obligations to God, to other people; to pray for urself and others; to be able to....yeah, u get the idea..

point being; count ur blessings. make the most out of life. we were created not for nothing..Allah's commands and orders are to be our priority. the life that we are living, the air that we breathe, the families and friends that we have; they all belong to Allah and one day, when our time comes, we'll have to return it all back to Him. in fact, there are already things that once we had, once we called our own; are not with us anymore..
(oh well, it never was ours to keep kan..)

i remember, about 5 years ago, an ustaz of mine, discussing on this very same issue, said that man are by nature forgetful. i dun mean man as in gender-wise. i meant man; mankind.

anyways, yeah, he said that we tend to forget that everything that we have today is not ours at all. it does not belong to us. it's all temporary belongings that God lends, borrowed to us..and Allah can take them away anytime, anywhere. at times when we wud expect or least expect Him to do so. like, when one of our family members passes away, we'll never see him/her on Earth again. when our pet dies, we lose a pet to care and to love. when u loses a friend over a fight or a 'growing-up phase of life'; ur friendship is a no more. how very true is all that? and one example that he gave me that made me see all so clear was that he said,
" another example; before, ryhn never had to visit the optician, never had to wear specs; but now she does. God took away the clear eyesight that He once gave her. and now, ryhn has to wear specs as an aid to better, clearer eyesight."

how very true was that. i never saw things that way. that my good eyesight was taken away by God. in fact he even said that people who had to wear specs are among those 'kurang upaya'..and for few years after that class, everytime isi borang OMR exam tuh, i'd always ask myself, or the teachers and even my mom, as to which 'kekurangan' shud i tick haha..i really did..kan ada the option "rabun mata" tuh..once i really did fill in the circle tuh..haha..naseb test biase2 kat skola..kalau sampai pmr or spm pon i buat camtuh..tak ke kene gelakkan ngan invigilator huhu.. loser sungguh..haish..

oh well..so, to a better year, a better life; as a Muslim; may this year there'll be many more opportunities for me that'll give me the chance to contribute to Islam..in anyways, any kinds..i need all the chances i cud get to topup, cover up, fill in all the 'lacunas' (ngeh3), the gaps and the holes yg buruk dlm my book of amal due to my ever so banyak sins and bad deeds..i hope to improve myself and try to perfect all my ibadah..and every other personal stuff that i so know x necessary for me to ramble here hehe..

but i really seriously wanna feel and appreciate the spirit of the Muhajirin and the Ansar during the Hijrah period tau..and i know that wudnt be very much possible until i really understand and know well the seerah..(hmm..teringat blaja seerah kat skola dulu..) ni nak kene baca balik fiqh seerah..btw, there’s this one malay nasheed that i have liked for so so so long but my br0dah cannot find me the song!! i heard it on IKIM (of kos la kan..) banyak2 group nasyid yg nyany nye....so it’s not in any cassette lah i suppose..one of those singles released for certain occassions..but i really really like the song! it touches my inner soul.in a way.somehow.i dunno what the title is but trusting my other siblings who all listen to IKIM n nothing else, it's called '1 Muharram'...but basically, the message is all about the event of Hijrah and going back in time to feel and 'hayati' the true meaning of Hijrah..my favorite part of the song wud be the chorus..it goes like this..

"di sinilah ketabahan umat Islam di uji.
1 Muharram, detik bersejarah,
di masa umat telah berhijrah,
dari kota mekah ke kota madinah,
tinggal segala harta keluarga,
sahabat handai dan yang tercinta"

see..hear..feel their sacrifices. their strength was their aqidah. the ever so firm aqidah, iman n taqwa . and their love and loyalty to Allah and Islam..and where do we ( where do I) stand? may by comparing ourselves to them and all the other Muslims who have really made real sacrifices will help us to be a better muslim..not only soleh, but musleh..(musti Musleh! heh..my mom really stresses like, a lot on this)

oh well..here i also wanna share some 'salam maal hijrah' wishes that i received from my dear friends. they have prayed for me and their prayers are my inspiration. i pray and hope that i will live up to their prayers.. I pray for friends that will always remind me of God, of our obligations towards Him, His deen and all His other creations, and who’ll always remind me and pull me back on ground when I start straying (heh..bak kate maz)…

"i pray that this year will not be short of His blessings and grace. make this life a worthy one for we live it in the honor of Allah and Islam."

“my prayers for you; that u have heart that never hardens, a temper that never rises, a touch that never hurts and love that never fails..”

"may u be tough when u feel ur at a lost; may u be happy when victory is urs to claim; and may u stay humble with every grace u gain..may the new year see u complete ur aims"

"may we lose not our direction in life, our goals, hopes and dreams, and our love for heaven and earth and everything in between"

“oh Allah, touch the hearts of those I care for. Keep them safe, remind them always of Your great love and bless them”

my wishes n prayers for myself and for all my frens;

“may our past sins be forgiven, may our iman, taqwa and amal increases. may Allah sets firm and devote our hearts for Him and His deen only; and grant us the ni'mah of Iman and Islam for always and let us die not without it..may all our good deeds be accepted and may He grant us sincerity in our hearts, accepts and make all our efforts a source of welfare for Islam.."

God bleSs you all and very happy new year...Be proud ur a Muslim!! Be proud of Islam!


*****************************************************

btw, m in college already huhu..all alone..orang sume manede balik awal2..okeh..ye, ade lah orang kat kolej nih..but the fact that i actually balik awal SEBAB nak buat keje and not to meet up with frens, or for any other social engagements; that is s.a.d..huhu.. oh well..look on the bright side of things!! i'll at least start early on trying to adapt n adjust myself back to campus life! huhu..not working..(have to be more n more positive!!) plus, maz's back alredi too..(ryte now she's out with her schoolfrens for dinner jap..me missus u alredi loh!!!)

*gone to 'sentuh' my MLS book..got test this friday..*

owh!! *positive attitude back!!* got 2nd MABIT this friday!! cant wait. i cant really remember lah if i went to the 1st one..hmm..well, if i did, i cant afford to miss the 2nd one. and even if i missed the 1st one, the more reason i cant miss this friday prog...tru dat?? eheh..til laytah!!

Saturday, January 28, 2006

them.i.miss


rindu sama kalian Posted by Picasa

one last note..here's a shout out to my ladies ex-ro0mies kat matric pj dulu....
sungguh i rindu sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat..(u get the idea)

oh well..i drew it tau!! hehe..it looks silly-ly cute. i luv it. so on this, u can not comment hehe..gaa

es0k pulang sudaa..

leaving for melaka 2moro..a nice weekend get away i hope..

help!! i so need to get the law of frustration in my head!! a.s.a.p!!
i soo hope i can focus n get my contract PBL done kat melaka nanti..
coz i have loads more other stuff to do..n i still tak baik2 demam huhu..like daad says, "big bug u got there"..
i hope mr.fever-virus will leave me soon. i dun wanna go back to college feeling sick and having to cope all by myself huhu..

nways..went out with syifa n zubai to angsana after picking em from school. suda tentu makan Hot touch..esok mau pulang suda kaaan...cannot miss ma..then, aftr dat, to kill time, pusing2 la angsana tuh..manyak jugakla kedai baru..body shop ada sudaa!! kecik je tapi..haha..as if jusc0 5mins away from my house tuh tadak Bshop la kaan..

hmm..tadi jalan ngan syifa' ade jugakla membeli..heh, umi bagi duit ngeh3..cuti kali ni sapu banyak braceletes..oh and also plg bes, got meself anor bag!!! Polo House's 70% off ohkay..cannot resist..abah n umi tau..derang dah maafkan hehe..

btw, fulfilling; i bought the bracelete that i promised Ellie i'd get for her. it was the last one on display. it was a bit rosak tho the catch but dgn penuh semangat nye i pegi hanta betulkan hehe...all for u Ellie!! heh..

gtg..havent packed a thing yet. ummi wants us all to leave the house at 8pm for sarapan kat meranti -the-best-place-for-breakfast-ever- then leave for tampoi..ade hal nak kene settlekan ntah ape ntah lupe; then leave for melaka trus..bisa ka esok kol 8 haha..

aite, iA pnjg umur murah rezki kapan kamu dengar kabar dari saya..kat uia jarang sket nak meng'blog2 nih..tp dah ada lapPie iA jalan kot.m planning to reg for the wireless thing...try for a month..haih..kene bayar kaa..we'll see..we'll see..

i'm off to pack

Thursday, January 26, 2006

forgot meh

oh another thing, i just changed my blogskin. tho i'm already missing the old skins, but well, i need one that dun need much penjagaan..bak kata nik, time is now the worst enemy..ngeh3..oh n plus, my blog now look really weird ryte?i mean the gaps btwn paragraphs in the previous posts; ignore all that..pertukaran skin telah menggangu sedikit sebanyak..(waah!! cantik tak my ayat BM?!?!!?! *bangga kejap*)
gtg..gaa


musab n adan..ryhn n sal..bro n sis..frens.. Posted by Picasa

hehe..thats my brodah..mus'ab. and that's rasydan. salwa's brodah. they're frens. me n sal pon frens.
nways, that pic's actually a shout out to all that..i finally was patient enuff n rajin enuff to download hello and so now i can post pics on my blog..i hear a yippee..tho i dun think i'll be posting much..nways..
my bro zahid tadi online all the way from acheh!! hehe..he's ok..at least, in his words; best giler! ngeh3..hebat lah tarbiyah training derang kat sane..my dad's leaving for acheh on the 5th. he'll come back with the whole lotta kids on the 12th. cant wait. btw, zahid passed pics for us all. ade lah dia tangkap gambar kambing acheh (huih, lain tau kambing acheh n kambing mesia!-so my mom says) gamba sayap kapal terbang pon ada, gambar mapley acheh pon ade gak hehe.. (bangge zahid dpt gak nengok Chelsea's game wpun kat acheh)

nways, hmm..well..i'm also posting zahid's pic..balik la cepat!!! we're going to riviera this weekend w/out u..


zahid my brodah Posted by Picasa

ting tong survey-credits to afie-lufie

1.What is your middle name?
-- er..mohd.?

2. Last person you called?
-- sal kot..

3. What are you listening to right now?
-- far away- nickelback.dah berhari2 i dok melayan track nih jek..

4. what are the last 2 digits in your phonenumber?
-- maxis;32 and celcom;18

5. What was the last thing you eat?
-- mee hoon soto (ketagih. satu hari everywhere makan soto je)
6. Last person you hugged:
-- baby nanim!!
7. How is the weather right now?
-- raining


8. Who was the last person you talked toon the phone?
-- abah.

9. The first thing you notice about the oppositesex?
-- perlu kaa..

10. Favorite type of Food?
-- m0mmy's..but defly pastas..italians! nyummy..

11. Do you drink?
-- ofkos..my fave's mang0 juice which is s0o la susah to find!!
*buat muke innocent here*

12. Do you smoke?
-- a firm No here.

13. Hair color?
-- natural's teh best!

14. Eye color?
-- it changes ikut mood hahaha

15. Do you wear contacts?
-- occassionally. when nak tukar spec .optician x encourage nways.my eyes vulnerable so he said

16. Favorite Holiday?
-- hmm..i cant say..


17. Favorite Month?
-- july hehe..

18. Have you ever cried for no reason?
-- definitely..huhu.

19. Last Movie you Watched?
-- alaaa...da lame x tgk..

20. What book are you reading?
-- er..Law of Contracts?

21. Piercings?
-- yep!

22. Favorite movie?-- loads..it wud be a waste of time to name them

23. Favorite basketball Team?
-- i just love the game!! i like any team playing!for real..

24.What were you doing before filling this out?
-- belek photos yg zahid pass dari acheh

25. MSN?
-- full of rubbish. only make use of it for MSN msgr *tee hee*

26. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
-- butter

27. Dogs or cat?
-- both dun wan la

28. Favorite Flower?
-- sunflowerS!!

29.Have you ever been caught doing somethingyou werent supposed to be doing?
-- holla! hehe..udah tentu..banyak kali kot..i dah kate..i ni nakal lebih sket..;D

30.Have you ever loved someone?
-- whats life without love. i have my heart to share and i have love to give

31. Who would you like to see right now?
-- ryte now? i wanna be crammed up atas katil maz with my gurls..hmm..*Sigh..*

32. Are you still friends with your ex?
-- alhmdulillah yes. proudly, a 'yes' here
33. Have you ever fired a gun?
-- computer game punye ade lah..
34. Do you like to travel by plane?
-- opkos!!

35. Right-handed or Left-handed?
-- righty

36. If you can be with someone right now, whowould it be?
-- someONE je ke? many cannot eh..

37. How many pillows do you sleep with?
-- haha..*gone to kira*
38. Are you missing someone?
-- y.e.s

39. Do you have a Tattoo?
-- nope..

40. Do you still watch cartoons on saturdaymornings?
-- not anymore..tak sempat..tu pon kalau dah bgn wahahahaha..

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

kelawar..

its been 3 days since i last slept during the nyte. thats pretty normal i guess when i fall sick. i get all weak and mengade2 during the day and when its nyte time, i'm as fresh as the brocollies in my mom's fridge. i'm feeling a bit nauseaus here tho..



talked to aya yesterday. he said that my hyperness myte not be healthy. whoa..that sounds alarming! tapi tataulah kan..dia dah janji dah nanti bila dah lulus jadi doctor, dia akan buat research keh3..

i dah cut down on coffee/caffeine or high sugar containing drinks dah.
(cut down meaning less. not nil or zilch at all. the last 'concentrated' coffee i had was the CB day. before that, hah, lagilah lame. i dare say a month)

heck, dah la i mmg tak tahan manis. i've been drinking a lot (and i mean A LOT) of air kosong jek. i was hoping air kosong wud dilute all the glucose n sugar. eh, tapikan, mmg nowadays, if i have coffee say for breakfast, i'll feel sick in the afternoon. and later, in the evening aku hyper, then dekat malam, i feel exhausted. haiyyoo..what does all that say?and btw, i'm now learning to reduce the speed of my walking and speech too. people say that when one's actions are real fast, e.g walk fast, talk fast; it shows that IQ tinggi. in my case, i think its the hyperventilated me plus all the sugar rushes huhu..haih..apeaku merepek nih..

*off to ring my pers0nal dietition. Sue!!where u??*



am bored. nak mengade3 during the day, ummi's off to work. abah had sumthing in KL today. i wanted to go with him but he left by flight n with some fren. and plus, i'm sick-so-i've-been-claiming-so-he-said.

its near to 3. i'm going out for a drink with djott n her fren cum-my-new-fren. they'll be finishing class at 3 and so i'll be off to pick 'em.
i so need to keluar. i'd feel even weaker n sick if i stay at home. dah la alone haih..baby nanim kat nursery.so i sungguh takde teman. i think i'mma amek her after this.
i'm hungry..hmm...where shall we go eat eh? *thinking mode*


owh..holy! my asgnmnts and studies for test..

conscience: bila mau mula ryhn?!?!?!

ryhn: tapi i sakit!i cant focus nor can i concentrate! wo lei! wo xiang kun!

conscience: alasan!! keluar boleh plak?!?

ryhn: i'm going out so that i'll get better quicker! and plus to eratkan ukhuwah!!

conscience: whatever!! oh God, why am i stuck with her????
*pleading out of desperation*


x0x off to get dressed and meet up with djah x0x

atuk..

my atuk sakit..

on the 20th the other day, just a few hours before my Torts paper, my mom broke the news that my grandpa (the one n only grandpa i have left alive; her dad) was rushed to the hopital earlier in the evening and that she was rushing back to Muar to go see him. she didnt know that i had a paper that day-my bad- so i guess i cant say it was her wrong to have caused me feeling a little disturbed before and after the paper. alhmd, i want thinking much bout it during the test.

(the paper was soooo ugly and horrible taht i cant think straight huhu..as usual tak cukup masa lah kan..) br>
nways, yesterday, he backed out from a procedure. its sumthing like, they insert a small camera inside ur body..its painful so everyone says.. i feel so sorry for him. many of his frens recently passed away. some also had to go thru surgeries, and all those hospital treatment stuff. most importantly, his sister passed away a week ago. that hit him hard and really affected his health so i heard my mom say..my uncle who' studying in Cairo flew back to mesia almost immediately upon receiving the news. its not the first time my atuk masuk was warded within the period of one month. the last time he was warded, everyone thot it was 'time'. so many people gathered.
( atuk has many many frens. i sangat kagum. kalau raya, tak cukup tgn layan tetamu. altho he cant talk clearly anymore, people still come n talk to him)

they were crying and reading n reciting all that..alhamdulillah he's still fighting well. he really wanted to leave the hospital. awal2 nye, he already signed the agreement to the camera-inserting procedure. but he was crying all day long. i guess he was scared. so my aunty say lah. he's now safely at home. my aunties and uncles and also my nenek's taking care of him. i'm not shur whether they hired an extra nursing care or not. iAllah on my way back to kl this weekend, abah promied to balik kampung and see him..



my mom's sangat sedih and worried. i so can tell. when she comes home from work, whenever she sits down, especially when she's sitting at the dining table for tea or dinner, she'll kinda termenung kejap..and her face will look sooo cloudy. can u bayangkan that? my heart goes out to her..
i can still remember the day she lost her mom. i was 9. it was the morning of the 17th of Ramadhan. i was all ready to go to school along with my bro Zahid. he was in year 1 that time. we got a phone call. it was not so late after subuh. she picked up the phone and it was only after a few seconds i heard her gasped loudly. she placed back the phone and she ran inside her room and she sat at the edge of the bed. and she started crying. i just stood at her room's door. i just stared. and i cud tell sumthing happened to my gramma. she was already under intensive care for quite sumtime. it was her leg so i remembered;vividly. i heard my mom talking to my dad and then my dad left the room
(he went sumwhere i dun remember. but he was
very macho about it.
my dad mmg slalu macho hehe..sempat menyelit puji ayah sendiri)
anyways, later my mom told me n my bro that we wun be going to school and that we were to leave for Bpahat right away. it was only later she told us that her mom has just passed away. i was young, but not too young to understand death and how it could grief sumone. i'm not going to talk about the funeral or how the whole scene was when we arrived in BP..enuff said..

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

against abortion..

here's something i got from kak leni's bulletin..


Day 1

Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all myorgans. I love the sound of your voice. Every time Ihear it, I wave my arms and legs..The sound ofyour heart beat is my favorite lullaby.


Day 2

Mommy, today I learned how to suck mythumb..If you could see me, you coulddefinitely tell that I am a baby..I'm not big enoughto survive outside my home though..It is so niceand warm in here...


Day 3
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl!!I hopethat makes you happy. I always want youto be happy. I don't like it when you cry. Yousound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry withyou even though you can't hear me.


Day 4
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It isvery short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. Ispend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn myhead and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch myarms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.


Day 5
You went to the doctor today. Mommy,he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am ababy..Mommy,your baby..I think andfeel..Mommy,what's abortion?


Day 6
I can hear that doctor again..I don't likehim. He seems cold and heartless.Something isintruding my home..The doctor called it a needle.Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make himstop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!!No . . .


Day 7
Mommy, I am okay. I am in God'sarms. He is holding me. He told me aboutabortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy? Onemore heart that was stopped. Two more eyes thatwill never see..Two more hands that will nevertouch..Two more legs that will never run.One more mouth that will never speak..


against ab0rtion..

with l0ve..

*ryhn*

Alhamdulillah PKN habis suda...and so ends my reponsibility as part of the PC team. overall..all was fine..as always, to stay positive and live in optimisme was always the rule.

there was a lot of last-minute things, overlooked matters and all those other things that usually happens during the actual event, of course la kaan..programme..but everything was in control n turned out fine thanx to the great PKN06 team that i was working with. everyone was very helpful..patient too. that was important. i'd like to forward a word of thanx and appreciation to all who had to put with me before n during the PKN hehe..


its funny how in the beginning when i was assigned to help with the Prog Coordinating team for the event, i was kinda like freaking out, for fear of being an inexperienced, a freshie, lack of time, too much of other things to do and all..but then, once i got into it, things weren't as bad as i thot it wud be..which is very good lah.. i mean, always look on the bright side of things ryte? so yeah, i got priceless experiences, i got the chance to work and meet amazing people. i made new friends.. it was a good experience. there are so many other reasons and wosdoms that i have come to dicovered as to the reason why God placed in me in such position..i believe that Allah knows what's best for His servant and i put all my faith and belief in Him praying only for what's best for me..


i'm actually at home already..i was in doubts as to whether i should just stay in KL or go back home for the holidays. (i know!!weird eh me, not going back home for the hols!!!??) thing is, there's sooo much to do. i've got tests coming up after the hols, assignments to deal with, programmes, and stuff too naik cuti nih..so i have to haf to have to get everything done. but then, abah came all the way to KL and he's coming to UIA to pick me and bring me back to jb..and here i am. plus, i'm down with fever. i guess that's the reason why i shudnt stay back in KL. at least i'm down with the bug at home..the most comfy place to be sick. ever!!


but ryte now no one's at home. everyone's in school or office huhu..so i guess i'm just stuck in front of this lapPie then..and alone..with hot choc. nyumm..nyumm..


baby nanim can really walk on her own now. and the best thing ever is that, she recognized me at an instant when she saw me!!! ngeh3...*bangga n terharu kejap..*

Thursday, January 19, 2006

haih....

am ryte now at the Coffee Beans.
with widaad n adora.
daad's listenning to her loud-as-always-MP3player and reading Tort.
adora's talking to her friend Amy who came to CB to meet up with dora since she lives nearby.
why are we in CB?
for all the reasons one can ever think of.
i'm tensed.
i'm stressed out.
i'm seething.
i'm angry.
i'm sad.
i'm tired.
i'm drained, physically and emotionally;
and no, i'm not blaming all these feelings on PMS.
nor do i plan to complain and rant about it all.
and whats making me feeling even more terrible is the fact that i'm near to becoming heartless, almost totally numb and cold inside .
enuff said.
with a solemn note, i'm off.
my cinnamon n mocha drink is waiting.
so is my chocolate chip muffin.
i must not keep them waiting.
*gone to'uufu bil uqud' (keep my word)*


...sigh... yeah,remind me that sighing's not good. (gOD, I am thankful for the life i have...i really am..)


enuff said -again- i'm off


i'm missing maz. she's not with us due to her heartless ICL paper tonyte..

Sunday, January 15, 2006

friday..

as i've promised, to those who were/are very curious as to what has happened to me and the other passengers of the road-trip back to JB last friday; here goes the story..my Friday, 6th Jan 2006



kak Bie
(my very-dear-seni0r-fren-since skolah lagi)
got to use her dad's car to balik JB..so i guess, since we made plans to go back togetha2 (even if we naik bus), she invited me along..since there was a lot more seats available
(macam lah naik kapal terbang ek..)
kak una, salwa and Dalilah (kak Bie' cousin) joined the party..
(or it cud be that it was me who joined the party. hehe)
..whichever lah..



anyhow, anyways...so we planned to leave at 6pm coz we had to wait for sal coz her class ends at 6 for the day. but then, it was raining and we presumed (knowingly) that the traffic wun be so good on our way out, so, kak Bie, with full authority as the driver decided to delay our 'flight'..




we left our beloved campus nearing maghrib time. since kak Bie had to make a stop at her place in Tiara to pick her mom's dresses, it was decided that everyone's to pray maghrib there, jama' and all. senang settle dah our obligation bila dah mula journey..
(in terms of prayers for the day lah..)

so, after maghrib, we left..
(sempat watch Blast Off's reruns kejap plak tuh..)



it was raining..altho not 'catS and dogS' kind, it was still raining..kinda renyai2..so we decided,
( tho kak Bie drive, as Muslims who holds on to the principles of the Islamic teachings, we always resort to syura..keh2...)
to take our time..bak kate pepatah melayu, "biar lambat asal selamat.." ye tak? hehe..and anyways, by taking our time, we could enjoy and appreciate God's creations along the highway..there are soo many trees, leaves, stars and raindrops to count kaan.. keh2..
(memandailah aku mengayat)
actually,we chatted like nobody's business all the way! hehe..with the company of the radio yg sgt ntah pape thnx to the poor coverage kat highway tuh..



we stopped at Ayer Keroh Jejantas R&R for dinner..yeah, our dinner was actually 'round supper time..1030-ish.oh well, hidup mesti diteruskan..after that, i dare say about 1130 we left the R&R to continue with our journey tO JB..we were like so excited to reach home..especially me and sal lah..we both x balik2 rumah since the 1st day of this sem..yea, iiu nearly every monday dapat cuti..christmas la, new year la, bday sultan la, but still i cudn't balik..there was always sumthing that kept me occupied..



nways, it was raining all the way. we reached JB around 1.20am..we went to Larkin to send Dalilah. making a u-turn dpn umah Dalilah, THE CAR'S FRONT TIRE GOT STUCK IN A HOLE!!! yeah, it did. it was a big hole, and after so many attempts to reverse and all..nothing happened. the smell of rubber burning was very strong and that freaked us out. i guess i was expecting the tyre to suddenly burst or terbakar. and plus, we were standing in the rain. the car wouldn't even budge a little!! then, dalilah's dad came out. he had a go with the car too. makin kuat lah kaan bau tayar terbakor!! salwa pulak tak reti duduk diam la plak. ade dia beria2 nak tolak the car dari belakang. pastu dia nak angkat the car kat bahagian tayar lah. haduih..sayang oi..penat we tried convincing her that it's not working or even helping huhu..i was actually quite bengang (marah) bcoz the neighbour x come out to help. i understood lah its 1 o'clock in the morning but kalau dah terjenguk2 kat tingkap tuh, keluar aje la..haish. but then, later one pakcik from anor house came out to help. (it was a kawasan rumah tanah sendiri. ade 4 je rumah there.)
after much struggle and battle with the tyre, the soil, the rain and the hole itself, the tyre alhamdulillah successfully dapat dikeluarkan..habis planks patah2 in the effort nak keluarkan tyre. tyre's out, brake pulak stuck. we laughed over everything. we were just too tired out to panic.but then, after several pulling and pressing attempt, the brake was okay again. alhamdulillah..



kak bie drove slowly. we decided that the car shudn't go any faster than 60km/h. we had around 30minutes more of journey before we'll reach our residential area.me,sal, kak bie and kak una live in the same area.x jauh mane. so yeah, we didn't even dare to turn on the air-cond. the burnt-rubber smell was strong. and plus becoz the pakcik yg helped tu kate its better that we dun turn on the air-cond. (we took his words la. tak kan lah kot pakcik tu nak kelentong kitorang kaan.) so sepanjang jalan balik tu, we buka tingkap. it was fun! its been so long since the last time i naik car and buka tingkap! (my dad never allowed me to buka tingkap kereta) and plus, driving around dari the city centre to skudai was fun! cantik sungguh. n the jalan wasn't so kosong as we expected which was good becoz, shud anything happen to the car, iAllah there'll be people to notice us and help. but alhamdulillah, till UTM, the car was fine. cume ye lah, bau terbakar tuh, and the slow ride. when we were nearing kak una's house (dlm kwsn UTM), i began to hear some weird sound from the back of the car. i peered at the tyres from my side of the window but saw nothing. there was some mamats on motorbikes belakang us but they didn't seem to give any signal or call out to us as they shud, if they noticed that sumthing was wrong with the car. so we drove on je la. it was laready about 2am. then, depan umah kak una, we decided to turun and, my dear, things just cudnt get anymore exciting for us that night..tayar belakang pancit. flat habis. the sound we heard was the flop-flopp'ing of the tyre slapping on the ground everytime the wheel turned. without much hesitation, we decided on leaving the car there for the night and that kak una will be driving us back home. and so we all pon 'transit' flight ..dari volvo ke waja haha.. ur ryte i'm tired! sangat2 ohkeyh..but we still managed to laugh over our 'road-trip' that day. alhamdulillah i reached home safely. my dad was waiting for me at the door. (sangat chomel ayahku dgn muka ngantuk dia keh2..)



later i found out that ryte away after kak una hantar kak bie, kak bie, her bro and her dad drove back to kak una's house to ganti the flat tyre and drove it back to their home. kuat semangat! they wudn't wait for tomorrow. (i dunno why lah)



i found the whole road-trip back to JB sgt exciting! it was fun! and i wudnt mind doing it all over again. kalau tyre nak masuk lubang lagi, janji ada org nak tolonglah. but please, minus the bau tayar terbakar.



owh! u know what was in my head spnjg pjalanan balik smelling the 'smell'? i was thinking, "my god, this must be the exact mell that the people in Palestine smell everyday when they burn tyres so the smoke'll hide them from the Israel soldiers".. so that got me quiet for a while. muhasabah sekejap.



i have to give credits to kak bie! she's the lady of the mo! she drove all the way to JB alone. no co-pilots taking over.

(i offered ohkey hehe. cume tak cukup umur kot keh2)

for being brave and all! she was like our leader.( yeah! we were like a team competing in an explorace! that's fun..)

for all the stops. thanx a lot..makasih banyak2..lain kali buat lagi? *wink2*



to all the people who kept me company thruout my whole journey back home, Apid, xiansheng, daad, adik (sampai tertidur yeh u waited for me to tiba *xtra hug 4 u* ), my umi n abah, all u people, mentioned here nad not; for ur texts, calls, doa and ape2 lah; i thank God for ur existence! ..hehe..bagi acceptance speech la plak.



with that, i end my 3 episodes story.daa!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

raya haji..eidul adha

this eidul adha's quiet. we were the only family at maktok's place. sgt sunyi. naseb my family can make a noise of our own. my mom's side pun quiet. ramai balik after the prayer. when we were leaving, round 12pm, baru ramai tiba. too bad. we promised lunch at maktok's (my dad's m0m)


eid wud always spell .l.0.t.s.a.-.f.o.o.d. maktok made home made pizzas and a carrot cheese cake. she just got the new recipe. she said she made it for me. huhu..me dun eat carrot cake. but of course i didnt tell her lah kaan..she seems happy enuff that i accepted the cake when she packed it for me to bring back home. *sigh of relief*

in the afternoon, maktok catered nasi beryani gam BP. well, nasi beryani pon i tak makan jugak..so i kinda just ate the lauk with ketupat. i just dun like the nasi. lauk ok je. macam nasi minyak jugak la. me dun like the rice. *i did not decide to be cerewet*


my mom's side as usual, served my fave menu for eid. the ketupat my nenek and cik ani buat adalah yg paling i suke the way its cooked. not so hard, not so lembik. sgt best. kene try sendiri baru tau. then there's the kuah lodeh. a must! with loadsa kacang panjang and tauhu kering (the only kind of tauhu i can eat). also, the ayam masak sambal (ke, merah?) nenek cakap atok nak kari but she cooked masak sambal knowing that's my fave *bangga dan kembang kejap; then terharu* hehe


tok andak' place (my maktok's sister+besfren) is also a must stop. our family and hers are very close compared to the others. sangat rapat my maktok and her. so its like wajib to go to her place everytime we balik kampung. well, they will never serve anything similar knowing that everyone will eat at both houses. so kalau raya puasa, my maktok will serve the ketupat and all and she will cook for lunch. usually she'll serve nasi lemak panas with sambal sotong

(of course, my request terlibat lah kan..*hmm..ramai jugak sayang kat me ek?* keh2...)

well, this eid, tok andak served us laksa penang..nyum..another favorite of mine..


basically thats it. owh, did i mention that on eidul adha this year, i slept my way to 10am? buruk kan perangai..takleh tolong..i have no idea how that cud have happened..so yeah, tomorrow i'll be 'departuring' from JB at 1pm with sal. and we terpaksa turun kat pudu...haha..

*sound of a devastated heart*

turned out that JB buses dun stop at Ampang or Jln Duta anymore..how unfair! unjust! urgh..


*gone to sleep trying to think of all the positive things about Pudu..*sigh..*

part 2..continued...

continue..part 2:
my Thursday? i only had a haf-an-hour class! my Thursdays have an extra hour class compared to Tuesdays (got one tutor class) well, I missed the class at 8 (I was sick remember. Wednesday's story..heh) but I dragged myself, with all my might wishing I could just fly from places to places; to go to the 12pm class. surprisingly, after 30minutes of lecturing, my lecturer said the magic word, "that's all for today.." I was like, did I heard her right? well, yeah, she ended the class..(nak balik kampung dah ka madam? keh2) and since the tutor in the evening's her class, no tutor for the day lah! haiyyoo..ke library lah jadi nye..but alhamdulillah..God had better plans for me..

me, lub and nik settled down in the library after lunch hour to help a friend with sum stuff. altho it was a late notice, i'm kinda glad our help was needed. it was one-of-a-kind of an experience. the work itself, and the people that i teamed up with..it was great and I'm very thankful for the opportunity.
with Nik; it has been quite a long time since i last hang out with her and stuff. and that day, we did.
with Lub too. i havent hd the time to do a lot catching up with her and Alhmd, God planned it that i was to spend the rest of the day with her. yep, all the way to dinner. it was great..

despite all that, the best thing that could ever happen to me for the week has yet to come. a dear friend of mine, kak Al, actually came to IIU with her hubby!and she actually wanted to meet up with me! *terharu..sebak too* she spent the morning at her friend's room and we promised to meet up around 4. since i was still stuck with the work in the library at 4, she came down to the library. Having failed to find empty seats for us to sit and chat at the Nescafe stall, we resorted to the garden benches placed in front of the library..(dapat jugak lah rase air-cond hehe) too bad I couldn't take kak al inside the library thanx to the new matric-card-swiping-system. Bole je, if nak masuk jugak. but leceh la coz they'll 'interrogate' one's reasons to go inside and will have to write down personal details in their log book.

we talked about a lot of things. it was a girl talk alryte. it was overwhelming for me. I mean, we were friends since school days. I was form 1, and she was in form 4. and we made friends (I kinda like and am comfy making friends with the seniors.thank god.so we got on well) it wasn't the pet-sister-ship kind. I had my own pet-sister. But between me and her, it was.. u know; friends. We dun really hang out together. We talked when we get the chance. Then, after she left school, we kinda lot contact; for a while. Later she left the country to further her studies. It was then we talked occasionally thru emails and messengers. And here we are sitting and chatting after so long; her now a married lady and me, already a university student..i was just, let say,hmm.. yeah, again; overwhelmed. I was very overwhelmed that, after so many years, our friendship is still very much alive.
she had to leave around 5. so, we only had about one hour to ourselves. there were somethings said that made me felt sad when she broke the news about herself. but then, we managed to kinda laughed over it. Gowd, one hour je nak jumpe, i cant afford to waste a minute nak nanges2 hehe..oh well, lets blame it on PMS..it was 'the time of the month' after all kikikiki...

oh well, she had to leave. i was so happy chatting with kak al, i forgot that i had left Lub writing the speech all alone
[sorry lub. i had no intention whatsoever to 'abandon' u (as u said it) *pleading cute-eyes-like-Puss-in-Boots-in-Shrek look* but then, we all know u cud manage fine without me hehe ;D]
anyways..after kak al left, as i was walking back to the library, i realized that i was actually holding back tears..again, lets blame it on the PMS. i was actually so worried that i might just suddenly burst into tears that i had to warn Lub incase that happens, she shud just ignore me kahkahkah..now that was funny, come to think about it now.

ehniways, after we successfully finished writing the speech, it gave us a good feeling. (note: it was nik and lub; all over. oh yeah, and aiman. kene bagi jugak credits to him) but hey, who won't feel good when its Lubna who's writing hehe..*Lub, i'm seeing u going all flabbergasted rase macam nak strangle me hehe*

i didn't get the chance to meet any one of my gurls at all dari pagi. they had classes. everyone of them. mun, maz, daad, dora, and fara (rumetku pon tak sempat jumpe dari pagi coz she left early for the morning class) i was shur missing them like nobody's business..(thats the tough side of being so attached to ur gurlfrens. u canNOT not see them dlm sehari) so we promised to meet up at HScafe for dinner. I was planning to have dinner there with Lub anyways, so, to HScafe we headed after Asr prayer. there was a coffee-booth-in-a-lorry. altho it wasn't CB, but shur it was good! wanna know how good? well, daad actually had 2helpings. in a row! after one drink, she went back for another. hehe..it was good and it was only for RM3.95!with a generous serving of cream. sigh..bila lah CB nak jual drinks at that price..

so we had dinner.for more than an hour, i had to wait and queue up. all for the sake of a kuey teow kung fu! for the love of it! yeah! the gurls bought me dunkins anyways, so i had a good nyummy-licious appetizer.

after dinner, Lub left for a meeting. me, daad, mun and maz headed back to nusebah. dora wasnt feeling fine so she went back to her own college. mun jut bought her very-own mp3 player so she wanted to transfer songs from fara's lapPie. thats why she followed us back to our college which i'm glad she did as later that night, i needed a company to go to makdut's place. i drove maz's kelly. it was kinda fun for me n mun. it was good for me to drive around for a while. i luuuurve driving. got my mind of things. (thanx to maz's cassette too).

mak dut was down with fever. she slept already when i arrived. jumpe duha, umay, bibik n anhar je. watched the latest of baby ro0ney's video clips. he shur gives a loud hearty laugh. cute lil thing. he's 6mnths already..(i think).

at the end of the day, i'd say that my thursday was an emotional roller coaster ride.me n daad slept real late that night! we went down n lepak at maz's room. kak aliza's uncle passed away. innalillah.. it was so sedih to see her sad. we all gave her hugs. that was a cute scene. she left for johor about midnight when her parents tiba. kak sasha, kak ayu, kak af and kak masytah stayed in the room. we chatted all night. till all the sistas(who were all actually finishing up their assignment n preparing a presentation for the nex day). i like and enjoyed talking to them. i mean, other than the extra years that they had lived, it was fun sharing opinion, experiences and all. haha..(intellectual discussion eh, xiansheng?) i called it a day around 5am. it was a good day after all believing that "there has to be something positive that'll come out of all this"


friday and the journey back to JB; as requested by some, is coming up soon..

Monday, January 09, 2006

last week-part1

somehow, someway, i wanted to write/share my days of last week..quite a happening week i must say..

my last week was crazy..firstly, monday was a day off. public holiday. again..for the i've-lost-count-th time, monday was a holiday for IIU students..i'm geeting bored with the monday-no-classes days..my monday is packed with 3core subjects classes, one UNGS clas, plus 2 tutorial classes. and for the previous missed classes, no make-up class yet. heck, i dunno if i shud be glad or not. i mean, unlike some other people whose lecturers are constantly giving and calling up for extra classes, i dun have to rush around for lunch-hour, late evening or night make-up classes..i shud be glad ryte? (?) but then again, its a big loss.for me.before we know it, its already the midterm tests season..next, its the final exams..kelas sume tunggang langgang lah kaan..its not like i'm fully focused in class plak tuh..haih..and plus, when u get used to so many day-offs, i worry that i'd lose the enthusiasm and all..u know..its like, momentum nak study tu, fading to gone.. but then again, its all in my mind..haih..*konpius*


well, so yeah, class for last week started on tuesday.
i dun really like my tuesdays (similarly to thursdays). u see, my classes on tuesdays are only 8-9am, and 12-1..do u see the gap? can u count those empty, nothing-filled hours?its quite frustrating if i had no one to meet up with, or nothing to do (which is actually quite impossible coz u myte all say that those hour shud be spent by updating my notes, reading cases and Acts etc..) anyhow, thats how it is. i'm not really a library person. i cant really read, study or do much in the library..the library's just like a den or a hang out place for me...(of course, the free internet access! how can i forget..) it shur takes up a lot of energy and effort as well as perseverence for me to stay alive and focused when i sit in the library..but then, what to do, its the only place for me to seek shelter from the rain or the heat of the sun when i dun have any classes in campus..i cannot be bothered to go back to my room.i x rajin balik bilik..i will balik when all's over and done for the day..after all the classes, meetings, appointments whatever.after all that..

anyways, so, that particular tuesday, my 12-1 class was cancelled!!!! ergh..frust sungguh..for that day, i only had a 1 hour class!!!for the rest of the day, i spent my hours rotting in the library while waiting for my other gurlfrens to 'call it a day'..but alhamdulillah.. tuesday was not so bad.


my wednesday was as normal as usual. usual=hecticly packed and filled. from 9am-10pm, i was, am adn will be very occupied. that'll be my wednesday. classes, tutors, usrah, mandarin class and meetings; its all in a day's work..nothing much happened (no out-of-ordinary happenings)..other than the heavy pouring 'tigers and turtles' rain (which caused HScafe, and the CAC to have been flooded.weeehee..IIUM banjir.what a news)the rivers were all like laut air pasang!but the thunders and lightnings; they were beautifully horrifying..(yes, i am scared of 'em kinds..i think they're beautiful..tapi i petrified dgn the bunyi2..its too loud and really petrifying lah!). oh yeah,i was also kinda sick too. i was sneezing all day with runny nose, and also felt my temperature rising minute by minute.bcoz of that, i had to swallow some pills, which later, caused me to get all drowsy that, time usrah, i was sooo in another planet. i couldnt stay awake. and when i speak, i was mumbling hehe..sorry kak mayam..baguih i dpt naqibah understanding n 'sporting'*tee hee*


...to be continued..(am leaving for grandma's..esok raya haji..)

eid mubarak to all..

Sunday, January 08, 2006

frustrated..bey0nd w0rds..

the things that i do when i'm under such an emotional stress are kinda crazy and plain at the same time. when i'm angry, frustrated, stressed, sad, upset, feeling down n low, and all that kinda negative emotions and feelings, these are the things that i came to learn them to be 'healing' for me..

1>clean and wash MY toilet. MY bathroom. notice the capitalized words ok. MY= i call my own, full ownership. and that was sumthing i enjoyed sumtime ago. bcoz now,

a) i stay in college where students dun get a toilet each that they can call their own,

b)my sister has now taken over the full authority over the used-to-be-my-chamber a.k.a bedroom.and with that also goes the used-to-be-under-my-care-and-loved-bathroom..(i dun think i'll ever not get all emo n dramatic when it comes to talking bout me losing full ownership over that room..u'll just have to bear with me eh..)

and so, this is not practical anymore..and i really do miss this 'practice'

2>i definitely enjoy this the best. washing dishes..i really find it 'refreshing'..sumhow..

3>eat ice cream. this is a bonus..



and now, i'm feeling so much better after i spent exactly 13minutes at the sink, washing dishes and later, indulged myself in ice-creams..(straight from the tub!)



my frustration was, and is beyond worDS!!!!! i was sooo angry that i felt like i was about to burst! i was so angry n tensed n stressed, that i was close to tears, but i cudn't cry! ergh!!! i just wanted to shout n scream out loud..which when i was about to start, baby nanim woke up being shocked at such sound *sheepish grin*



u see, i was just handed a lapPie toPpie..my dad has (finally) given me his permisSion to take it with me back to college..so i began saving n transferring stuff to it lah... (hmm..which reminds me, i still haven't found a name for it..for now it's 'lapPie', the same name i gave to nad's when she x find any name yet keh2..)
anyways, so yeah, later, sumhow, my brother taught me, or rather, demonstrated to me the way to take out the battery (i dun remember if there was any reason for it..hmm..) so when we turned on the lapPie on, the desktop was clear! there was only the basic whatever-they-are on display! all the documents! all the pictures..all MY stuff..they're all gone..huhu...all gone...my brother was himself very much as surprised as i was (kurang sket la..i was all frantic being the drama queen *huff*) it was like, it has never happened b4 , so he says lah..hmm..oh well..lets stay positive..lets say the fave phrase.. "i'm shur there'll be sumthing positive out of this!"..*the tone must be full of enthusiasm and full spirit!* bring it on!!..sigh..it doesn't seem to be working this time around..only God can take away all this terrible devastating emotions....


*gone to get my mind of this mesS*


p/s: its been raining non stop here at home..i dunno if skudai je or the whole JB at large is 'drenched' with the downpour..it has been raining non stop since the 1st minute i reached home! i cant go out at all..i was planning on paying Pura a visit since she's at home now..gowd i miss my matric-roomies..


oh, n the plan to visit my fren's lil sis at the hospital; i'm still waiting for my dad to safely reach home from BP...

prayers for the one in need

my dear friend's 7years old sister fell, causing her to continuously vomit due to the serious head injury. later, it was confirmed by the hospital that she has blood clotting in her head..(m not shur if its the brain or the head. i dun have much details..well, not yet lah)
earlier in the evening, if i'm not mistaken at 4pm, she was taken into the operation room for a surgery. she's been staying in the ICU ward for the past 2days..


right now, i just hope for ur kindness to pray for this lil girl..may Allah protect her, help her recover and heal well fast..
iAllah tomorrow, when my dad comes home from BP, we'll pay her a visit at the hospital..


to my dear friend;

"ur sister will be okay..God is watching over her. He watches over her like no other..whatever that myte and will happen are all according to God's plan..have none, but trust in Him.. "

do know that if, anything, u know i'm only one call away..."

Saturday, January 07, 2006

first,current..n last?

[ First ] thing u did when you woke up this morning?

~ran downstairs to meet the whole family~

[ First ] person/s you talked to today?

~baby Nanim~

[ First ] person you were thinking about today ?

~dj0tt~

[ First ] song you listened to today ?

~like you; cierran bow wow's~

[ First ] movie you watched today ?

~'10 things i hate about u'!
for the umpteenth time ;p~

[ First ] person you met today?

~1st? baby nanim! i woke up to the sound of her voice.
she was standing by my bed (n later cried coz x rec0g me.haih..)~

[ First ] person you hugged today ?

~baby nanim again~

[ First ] person you kissed today ?

~her again :D~

[First ] drink you drank today ?

~h0t nyuMmy m0cha for breakfast~

[ First ] thing you ate today ?

~roti prata yg sangat lembut~

[ First ] website/online game you visited today ?

~yah00 mail definitely~

[ First ] picture you took today ?

~hmm..zilch..nil..not yet~

[ First ] thing you touched today?

~*recalling..recalling..* my hair!~


[ Current ] clothes you are wearing ?

~sumthing very vehry c0mfy~

[ Current ] song you are listening to ?

~Gigi's Andai~

[ Current ] hair ?

~hoho..a mess...

[ Current ] smell ?

~t0mMy gUrL!!~

[ Current ] online users on your msn list ?

~not signed in~

[ Current ] mood ?

~happy n thankful..Alhamdulillah~

[ Current ] desktop wallpaper ?

my br0's sketch of some anime character *roll eyes*~


[ Last ] person you talked to ?

~mi br0 zahid who's away on some xplorace game n needed my help with the internet~

[ Last ] thing you said ?

~why's baby crying?!!dun leave her alone downstairs!!!
*in a sisterly-concerned tone* hehe~

[ Last ] thing you did ?

~updating stuff, n chatting..(am still on it in fact)~

[ Last ] person who you called ?

~Zahid~

[ Last ] game you played ?

~err..YM?heh..~

[ Last ] thing you bought ?

~sumthing from Khazanah~

[ Last ] person that msged you in ym ?

~sedang lah nii..~

[ Last ] thing you touched ?

~wh0a!wat a question kikiki..
sigh..the keys of my keyboard..~

[ Last ] thing you ate ?

~cl0rets' gums..still chewing..am like addicted to it!
owh, btw, i read in one health mag, the 'exercise' of chewing a gum is good for ur brain..sumhow it works n generate ur brain cells! hehe...justifying my habit je kot nih..~

[ Last ] person who msged your hp?

~ ^xiansheng^ n ^aPid-o17^..serentak