*eyes three quarter shut*

i am soooo sleepy and kinda exhausted. altho today i did not have to go thru the daily routines which are the usual kemas rumah, clean the kitchen, get the 3 boys and one girl from school, pick baby nanim from the daycare, and nor did i have to prepare dinner today; nevertheless, today is still pretty much exhausting. prolly coz m used to rushing around busily, so today, not being occupied kinda got me feeling weird. nways..

i gotto be off tomorrow til sunday to facilitate program motivasi KRJ for bdak2 SMK Tmn Daya at Tiram Indah..tiap tahun buat prog ngan their Form5 students. kinda excited and lookig forward to it. nervous gak coz da lame tak participate prog KRJ. and plus, my gurlfrens are coming along! una,nibah n huda. nazifah also! hmm..i miss salwa. usually kalau prog KRJ nih, its always with her, if not me alone. looking frwd to meeting up with kak ims too! lame sgt tak jumpe..

sebonarnye..the reason y i'm forcing myself to blab here is bcoz, altho yes, my eyes are now no more 3/4 shut but 99% -i dare say so- becoz i have to wait for my AVG and real player to finish updating. out of date suda..it's 2AM. have to wake up by 5am tomorrow because..i HAVE NOT yet started packing my stuff!! alaaaa....*groan loudly* malasnye packing...and plus i dunno what not to bring! gowd..i so need a coach to train and tutor me how to travel light! actually, u know, i think it runs in my family. i mean, its gotto do with the genetic hereditary thingymajig (hope i spelt the heredi-word ryte)

oh btw, talk about being busy and being used to playing working mom (which is good cz i now have the experience!) the other day when i went to pick baby nanim from her daycare, i held this very newborn baby yg sangaaat chumil (babies tend to be reaaaly cute due to their baby-ness). nyways, i ws cooing her to sleep while i was waitng for baby nanim to be brought downstairs by the 'cikgu'..then this not-so-old-but-quite-old lady; prolly in her late 40s came up to me (dia nak amek budak jugak) and asked,
"anak ke?"
stunned
"eh, tak. amek adik. tp ni (the baby in my arms) anak org lain..tolong pegangkan kejap"
"owh..ye ke.."
"la..nampak tua dah ke saye ni makcik? *sengih*"
"eish..takla..nampak muda sgt, tu yg tanye amek anak ke..kalau muke dah tua, confirmla amek anak ye tak?"
(kupikir, bijak jugak makcik ini..ada point)
"a'ah..ye kot." *sheepish grin*
"bukan ape dik..zaman skarang ni kan ramai anak muda kawen awal.jiran makcik 20thn dah kawin, skrg 21 dah ada anak dah.."
*senyum sambil mendengar*
"dah jodoh dia makcik.(pandai je i mengayat..hoho) ha, ni adik saya. mak kerja balik lewat harini..balik dulu ye..askm"
*jalan laju2 ke kereta, buckle baby up in her seat and cabut masuk kereta dan drive away*

as much as i naaaaak sangat ada anak sendiri, but at the age of 21? i dun think so la makcik...

k, downloading done..desperately need sleep so that i will at least be conscious enough when i pack my stuff tomoro morn. gowd, i can picture myself tergolek2 tertidur dlm kereta dlm pjalanan ke Tiram Indah already..

' Why She Won't Wear Hijab '

yi started out rambling bout my days but when i came across this piece, i decided that i'll save my waay-less-important life-story for later..here's sumthng i have to share with u all..

"I'm so tired."
"Tired of what?"
"Of all these people judging me."
"Who judged you?"
"Like that woman, every time I sit with her, she tells me to wear hijab."
"Oh, hijab and music! The mother of all topics!"
"Yeah! I listen to music without hijab…haha!"
"Maybe she was just giving you advice."
"I don't need her advice. I know my religion. Can`t she mind her own business?"
"Maybe you misunderstood. She was just being nice."
"Keeping out of my business, that would be nice..."
"But it's her duty to encourage you do to good."
"Trust me. That was no encouragement. And what do you mean `good` ?"
"Well, wearing hijab, that would be a good thing to do."
"Says who?"
"It's in the Qur'an, isn't it?"
"Yes. She did quote me something."
"She said Surah Nur, and other places of the Qur'an."
"Yes, but it's not a big sin anyway. Helping people and praying is more important."
"True. But big things start with small things."
"That's a good point, but what you wear is not important. What's important is to have a good healthy heart."
"What you wear is not important?"
"That's what I said."
"Then why do you spend an hour every morning fixing up?"
"What do you mean?"
"You spend money on cosmetics, not to mention all the time you spend on fixing your hair and low-carb dieting."
"So?"
"So, your appearance IS important."
"No. I said wearing hijab is not an important thing in religion."
"If it's not an important thing in religion, why is it mentioned in the Holy Qur'an?"
"You know I can't follow all that's in Qur'an."
"You mean God tells you something to do, you disobey and then it's OK?"
"Yes. God is forgiving."
"God is forgiving to those who repent and do not repeat their mistakes."
"Says who?"
"Says the same book that tells you to cover."
"But I don't like hijab, it limits my freedom."
"But the lotions, lipsticks, mascara and other cosmetics set you free?! What`s your definition of freedom anyway?"
"Freedom is in doing whatever you like to do."
"No. Freedom is in doing the right thing, not in doing whatever we wish to do."
"Look! I've seen so many people who don't wear hijab and are nice people, and so many who wear hijab and are bad people."
"So what? There are people who are nice to you but are alcoholic. Should we all be alcoholics? You made a stupid point."
"I don't want to be an extremist or a fanatic. I'm OK the way I am without hijab."
"Then you are a secular fanatic. An extremist in disobeying God."
"You don't get it, if I wear hijab, who would marry me?!"
"So all these people with hijab never get married?!"
"Okay! What if I get married and my husband doesn't like it? And wants me to remove it?"
"What if your husband wants you to go out with him on a bank robbery?!"
"That's irrelevant, bank robbery is a crime."
"Disobeying your Creator is not a crime?"
"But then who would hire me?"
"A company that respects people for who they are."
"Not after 9-11"
"Yes. After 9-11. Don't you know about Hanan who just got into med school? And the other one, what was her name, the girl who always wore a white hijab…ummm…"
"Yasmeen?"
"Yes. Yasmeen. She just finished her MBA and is now interning for GE."
"Why do you reduce religion to a piece of cloth anyway?"
"Why do you reduce womanhood to high heals and lipstick colors?"
"You didn't answer my question."
"In fact, I did. Hijab is not just a piece of cloth. It is obeying God in a difficult environment. It is courage, faith in action, and true womanhood. But your short sleeves, tight pants…"
"That's called `fashion`, you live in a cave or something? First of all, hijab was founded by men who wanted to control women."
"Really? I did not know men could control women by hijab."
"Yes. That's what it is."
"What about the women who fight their husbands to wear hijab? And women in France who are forced to remove their hijab by men? What do you say about that?"
"Well, that's different."
"What difference? The woman who asked you to wear hijab…she was a woman, right?"
"Right, but…"
"But fashions that are designed and promoted by male-dominated corporations, set you free? Men have no control on exposing women and using them as a commodity?! Give me a break!"
"Wait, let me finish, I was saying…"
"Saying what? You think that men control women by hijab?"
"Yes."
"Specifically how?"
"By telling women how and what to wear, dummy!"
"Doesn't TV, magazines and movies tell you what to wear, and how to be `attractive'?"
"Of course, it's fashion."
"Isn't that control? Pressuring you to wear what they want you to wear?"
[Silence]
"Not just controlling you, but also controlling the market."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you are told to look skinny and anorexic like that woman on the cover of the magazine, by men who design those magazines and sell those products."
"I don't get it. What does hijab have to do with products."
"It has everything to do with that. Don't you see? Hijab is a threat to consumerism, women who spend billions of dollars to look skinny and live by standards of fashion designed by men…and then here is Islam, saying trash all that nonsense and focus on your soul, not on your looks, and do not worry what men think of your looks."
"Like I don't have to buy hijab? Isn't hijab a product?"
"Yes, it is. It is a product that sets you free from male-dominated consumerism."
"Stop lecturing me! I WILL NOT WEAR HIJAB! It is awkward, outdated, and totally not suitable for this society ... Moreover, I am only 20 and too young to wear hijab!"
"Fine. Say that to your Lord, when you face Him on Judgment Day."
"Fine."
"Fine."
[Silence]
"Shut up and I don't want to hear more about hijab niqab schmijab Punjab!"
[Silence]
She stared at the mirror, tired of arguing with herself all this time.
Successful enough, she managed to shut the voices in her head, with her own opinions triumphant in victory on the matter, and a final modern decision accepted by the society - but rejected by the Faith:
"Yes!" - to curls on the hair - "No!" - to hijab!

"And he (/she) is indeed a failure who corrupts it [the soul]!" [Holy Quran 91:10]

"Nay! You prefer the life of this world; While the hereafter is better and more lasting."
[Holy Quran: 87:16-17]

"You are the best community (Ummah) raised up for (the benefit of) humanity; enjoining what is right and forbidding what is wrong and believing in Allah."
[Holy Quran: 3:110]

perkenalkan..

this is my new driver..juga pesaing hebat dlm merebut hak penggunaan kereta abah hehe..my brother zahid just got his license so he's taking over the wheels now. n i dun mind. as much as i love driving, when he' around i dun really mind him driving. he picks me and munibah everyday after work when we turun kat bus stand. dia juga adalah sangat garang as u can see kat pic itu..haha..slalu kene sakat by me n mun tp payah weh nak tgk dia gelak..totally different eh from his sis eh..hehe..

driver baru yg juga pesaing hebat dalam perebutan kunci kereta dan hak penggunaan kereta..
;D
jgn memain!!i dah ada bodyguard on the wheels now okeh..

summer hols..and i wish i cud be around..*sigh*

holidays..i got 3months of it. yeah, so i got attachment prog for a month, but it's not like i spend my 24 hours on it. hmm..i just went through my list of 'things-to-do' during the hols (call me a geek, whatever, but yeah, i tend to plan my hols beforehand)

so yeah, hmm..i think i'm adding more to the list. so far, attachment has been kind and fun, i've been spending a balance time at home with my family, and hanging out/meeting up with friends. my parents so far takde complain "ur going out again?", or "keluar lagi?" and so far takde kunci kereta kene sorok hehehe..(ehm..pernah ke?) nways..that shows my parents are satisfied with my behavior..my gowd!! okeh, i made myself sound very naughty, with a bad discipline record there..(that was soo high school period. skarang guarantee baik sudaa heh..)

these are some of my plans this holiday..3bulan tuh...

• visit my school. try to meet up with all the teachers in school.
• visit rumah ustzh yg i slalu do time cuti (Ustz. Azimah,Fauziah,Jamilah etc)
• start tailoring!!hehe.i can sew, but tak pro buat baju.ummi said i can scout for a sewing machine. will do soon! i'mma try make one dress of my own. will let u know of the progress!
• catch up with my gurlfrens yg ada kat JB!! or those yg balik cuti ..anyone! i need to see them all. enuff even for one hug! i miss them loads. i plan for a gathering sumday in may.
• go for picnics with my ladies!! 1st up, Danga Bay; breakfast picnic on the 7th may!sapa mau join, sila..
• join car-boot sale. i need to jual all my old stuff. i tend to hoard things,so i need to get rid of the unused shoes, clothes, bags..anything! then i can buy more new stuff!!
• yeah, buy stuff. shopping spree!! ladies' day out at the Tebrau City!!a must. Coffees before we call it a day harus.
• try to participate/volunteer often enough for prog KRJ. organize/plan stuff for PaLS!
• learn more cooking skills and recipes from abah n ummi!
• try to schedule a visit to some orphan home, or the woman's institution that i lalu everyday on the way to bandar.
• plan on stuff for K-Care.
• daily grocery shopping!!! wee hee!!! bestnyee!!..i love groc shopping. choose sayur, fruits, cans, toilet stuff hehe.. heck, shopping kan..
• drive around for my brodah and sis, and friends. yikes, harga minyak naik sudah. teruk pokai my dad..hmm..n i'mma hv to rebut car dgn zahid coz dia dah ada lesen dah..huhu.now he wont need me to drive him around nmore..sob3..
• help zahid with his business. talk him into joining K-Care :D
• tunggu maktok balik dari Cairo and nak balik rumah dia..rihinduuuh sangat..nak balik, lepak ngan dia, tgk movie, blaja masak2 (tho maktok'd prolly do 90% of everything since she loves cooking and cannot stop doing so), pusing2 bandar Batu Pahat, pegi Muar and pegi picnic kat fishermen n port..*baliklacepatmaktok*
• balik kampung Ummi too. lame xjumpe atok,nenek and cik ani..kangen juga..
• tutor Munir for PMR, and help Zahid prep nak masuk U..(tho i dunno la ape yg nak diprep la kan..owh!! help him shopping la ofkos!!duh..
• penting banget, Su balik cuti 2minggu..harus ke KL saya!!
  

hmm..which reminds me, i must make a list of my family and frens' burfday that i've missed and are coming up, and start making/buy their presents..i hope i wun waste my 3mnths. and i realy hope i'll go back to IIU for the new sem fresh and ready for the new status as a 2nd year Law student..

*note, i'm starting to play with the text's color hehe..
**wish my hols x end in july so i can be around in JB july onwards..orang balik for summer hols,and i wont be around..sigh..

susu pekat..haish..

i was out with una, nib and atiq for supper few hours ago. we went for roti at this one place (cannot sebut nama takut kene sue for defamation)

we went to the KRJ meeting sebenarnye before that, pastuh, balik tuh, singgah le meminum. its been sumtime pon since the last time we met up and hang out together..nways, it was not so late at night and the place wasn't so ramai orangla..we ordered our drinks and roti. we all had roti. i ordered for milo ice. turns out that the air that i ordered wasn't as icy as it should be so i asked the waitress for more ice cubes. the waiter later came with a glass of ice, and water. air kosong ais. now, that wasn't what i wanted so i told him that i want plain ice. just the cubes/blocks, whatever it is la..

then, the waiter came again, for the 2nd time around. all 4 us stared at the glass he was holding. i knew immediately what it was but i guess i was stunned. surprised. shocked. all that. u name it. speechless. it was only when una actually took the glass from the waiter and exclaimed "ape nih??" that we all burst out laughing. the guy brought me a glass of ice cubes, with susu pekat!!!!

i was bewildered! mane pulak dia dengar i kate
'ais kosong and susu pekat'?? or 'susu pekat ais'?? or anything of the like that has susu pekat??? i just wanted air batu xtra to make my drink lagi sejuk..itu jeeerrrhhh!!! susah sangat ke??huhu.. frust jugakla dlm gelak2 tuh..haih..apa daa..

musti time waiter tuh tuang susu pekat kat ais tuh dia pikir,
"apekehalnye la minah tuh nak air batu dgn susu pekat?" or,
"haish..gilo ape minah ni mintak benda camnih" or,
"tebiat ape pompuan tuh.."..
yeah, u get the idea..sungguhla..ade ke pon org yg akan mintak such thing??? haiyyoo..

nak kate i cerewet, patutke?? abes tu, was i supposed to amek je and minum jugak the ais+susu pekat tu?? huhu..sob3..sedih..

abah kate akak mmg difficult.."susah org tu nak layan akak"
and he laughed out loud..salah i ke? oh god..ke i cakap laju sgt sampai dia misheard? i dun think SO!! mane ade kaitan 'ais kosong' dengan 'ais susu pekat'. ada ka?? what a supper..

shopping for guys

Zahid got called for Petronas's Educamp in UTP. i am really happy for him. although i really wanted him to study architecture bcoz he's good in drawing and art and bcoz thats what he has always said he wanted to study ever since he was 15.

ehniways..point is; i went shopping with him!!!we were actually on our way to the printing shop but zahid called up the tauke and the print machine dah ditutup suda. so zahid was like,
"akak, hanta zahid kat jusco je la.."
"awak nak buat ape?"
"nak shopping baju nak bawak esok (educamp)"
"yeah? u want me to come teman u shop? alaa..but akak tak pakai proper"
(i was in a kaftan covered by an abaya for i did not plan to get out of the car)
..silence..
"akak hanta zahid then akak balik tuka bajula.."
(yippeee!! he actually wants and needs me to teman him shopping!!!)

hence the speeding and swerving and dashing and running..and there i was in Jusco. helped him choose kemeja and ties and socks, tunggu dia kuar masuk try outfits.. i love the mens-wear department. best tengok the blazers, ironed/steamed shirts, ties and belts..especially 3piece-suits..i was a bit err..malu sket tho when ikut zahid pergi to the guys' underwear section hahahaha *blush*

ofkos la, since he was shopping for his stuff i ternampakla dan ter'lalu lah dekat the shoes department and ter'buy la one pair of black shoes.yippee!!

n now he's away in Tronoh..rindu sudah..itu yg i kene drive tetiap pagi ke huda's kalau tak dia akan send me n nibah..thnk god i LOVE driving hehe..

btw, when i was around in Jusco with Zahid, i was going up the escalator when i thot i heard someone called my name. so i turned, looked down and saw pakcik shamsul..dia rupenye..lame tidak bertemu..he was like,"hahan cuti ke?"
keh3..only he and his wife calls me by that name.
'hahan'.
till now. they've watched over me ever since i was in my mom's womb.seriously. he was my dad's housemate back in US.

major point; i pass shopping for guy stuff!! *grin* laytah!!

High Court JB...and attachment prog

whoah..its been 4days already. so far so good. well, briefly, IIU has set up a new program for their law students where they are to join the L.AP (Law Attachment Prog). its a requirement for graduation. if u show bad behaviours etc, and ur master dun think ur learning etc, u won't pass and hence u'll have to repeat the attachment prog. otherwise, u can't graduate..

lets see..1st day me, nibah and huda pergi together to the court..every morning huda's dad will drive us to the court coz his office's nearby. nyways, well, i was told by makcik zainab jan(ummi's fren, a lawyer) that the court's in the process of moving to another building so, we weren't very surprised (or shocked) at the sight of the almost 95% empty registrar office. sangat kosong!!mcm abandoned room. there was only we-assumed-will-be-disposed desks and chairs and few cabinets..empty of course.

well..the master..he's the Deputy Registrar..VIP tuh..IIU graduate heh..he's a reaaaalllly nice chap..sangat generous, slalu share experience dia...he took us around the building. we dropped by the cell where the tertuduh semua are placed at before their hearings..there's this one guy who looked at us in the eyes, like bore deep into them in a really scary way, sengih2..tahkuut..

nways.. we were invited for lunch on our 1st day at the Pan Pacific Hotel.buffet..all u can eat meh! kenyang nye.. after lunch, we continued on chatting and Sir Kris (master) voiced out his ideas and suggestions of what we can do to make full use of our attachment program. here's some:

• visits to other lower courts (and syariah too prolly)
• visits to the legal aid bureau
• watch the auctions
• meet the judges
• watch the registrar hearings

for a 1st day, u bet this all sounds soo exciting and promising..but, my goodness the hearings sangatlah dull..today we heard the civil cases only..there's like soo banyak divorce cases which is menyedihkan.u kno, keruntuhan rumahtangga..anyways, we were allowed to go home after lunch..which ofkos we did ehhe..

2nd day

we came quite early. but sadly, and frustratingly (erk..is there such word?) teh hearing started pretty late. well, the open court ones la.banyak cases was heard in the chambers (closed room) and so we cannot tengok..and again, there was queues of divorce cases..then it turns out that there was going to be a criminal case's hearing later that day.a drug trafficking case. (the whole procedure is soo slow..huhu..sungguh la benar kata2 lecturers on how we are all fooled and deceived by the happening court hearings and trials and procedures as shown on TV dramas and movies..sedih..boo hoo..) me and my gurl was practically tersengguk2 okeh tertidur!! we did, yep, in the courtroom! i am so thankful that the judge x perasan or else he'd prolly sound us and kick us out of the court huhu..

after the criminal case's hearing, the PP (Public Prosecutor/pendakwa raya) tegur us.. and we got into a really long (one that got us glancing at our watches and the elevator's door) conversation. he was also an IIU graduate. he kinda got on our nerves a bit memula coz he was like, "kenapa 1st year nak ada attachment prog.tak payahla nak attachment..yadaa yadaa.."
huda later was like, "nak cakap je; bukannye saya nak pon!! " haha.. but later the conversation went smooth and fine la..

one thing i noticed, alhamdulillah the lawyers and the people in the court are nice people. they dun make us feel awkward and infact i dare say 80% of the people that we had nice chats with and made friends for the past few days were all the ones that tegur us dulu..they are friendly and sgt motivating in a way. and generous with informations and sharing their experiences too.

again, today, we were allowed to go home after the hearings are all done; which is by lunchtime. (hearings xslalu lanjut sampai ke petang) well, we had to take the bus to balik and turns out that tetiba hujan tigers and turtles and so, we cannot walk to the bus stand and since ayah nibah's coming to pick us not til after 5, maka, stuck we were lah in Kotaraya (its a mall :D the courts is attached to the mall.) so, after lunch and solat, we raided the mall!! hehe..we checked out boutiques, tried on outfits that we liked, checked out shoes, played with the cosmetics, and paling penting, we found rails of LONG JACKETS and Coats!!! the prices were very 'kind' but tough luck, there were no black colored ones. haih..i think i'm still gonna get one la..it shur'll come in handy one day. i'll make shur it will;if i do buy it later..

nways, well..after penat berpusing2, we went for tea after solat 'asr. we ordered chips and bought some pisang goreng..setelah begitu lamenye we lepak2 there, later when nak pay for the chips, we called on the waiter and he said, "owh..ni dah da orang bayarkan.."
me,nibah n huda was..flabbergasted! mystery guy paying for our food? we were like,
"eh? sape?"
"oh..mane ntah dia..dia pegi toilet kot"
"eh,takpelah, amek je lah duit nih.."
after much were being said, the waiter refused to take the money. then ade la pakcik kat meja sebelah tu menyampuk, "takpelah dik, org nak belanja..dia ikhlas tuh.."
"lagipun, siapa taknak belanja ustazah2 nih."
perlu lah kan dia sambung ayat tuh!! whats that supposed to mean??? haih..
tu yg nibah kate, len kali, dtg bawak tasbih ke, Quran ke, boleh dpt mkn steak free hahaha..

we left straight away..segan weih nak duduk situ lagi..haih..kalau nak belanja pon, bgtau la mamat oi..dah la tiap hari nak kene lalu situ..ni nak kene cari route lain masuk Menara Ansar tuh..

enuff for now..i posted pics already of our 1st and 2nd day already btw..we havent gotten teh chance (or the guts) to take pic inside the courtroom yet..takut kene marah..macam kat boutique, when trying out outfits, derang tak bg amek gamabr..so we assumed courts, ape lagi la..tgkla nnt we curik2 amek gambar..

p/s: did i mention that we were invited to join the chambering student's "graduation day"? heh..5 chambering students have finished their 9months period of pupilage (practical/industrial training that law graduates have to undergo before they get to practice) and they will be 'called to the bar' (given the official green light to practice as lawyers) on Monday. we're also invited to the reception which is the 'after party'. just a small party..social event!! cannot wait!!

Part 2- babysitting!!

Listening to M.J.Blige.. "iwannabewithyou..gottabewithyou..gonnabewithyou.."

today my mom and my adik2 sekolah rendah spent the day at their school's Sport's Day hence i had to stay at home and jadik babysitter baby nanim. abah was invited as the VIP so dia pun tadak..and my other brothers were off for their Ihtifal's raptai..

I have yet again set a record as being the number one babysitter huahuahua..
(that's both crying and lol)

thank god my sister's not that difficult to deal with. all i have to do is get her to sit on my lap, give her a piece of kerepek ubi which she loves sangat2 just like me and manggo puddings; and she'll be happy watching CSI season 4 with me hehe..i was ber'marathoning 23 episodes of CSI..hmm..so if one day nanim becomes a member of the CSI team, she must thank me for all the encouragement and exposure dari kecik keh3..even if she fell asleep halfway thru one episode..haih..

i learnt quite a lot about my sister which is good and plus, it is necessary that i get to know her better since i will be on hols from campus for 3months, and i am now officially her babysitter like, whenever my mom needs me to be one la..heh..after all, i have been away for sometime, and have missed quite a lot already..

she can say a lot of words now tho she tends to just repeat or pick up the second part of the word. she knows 'horse', 'fish' and 'bird' well thanx to my dad yg rajin bawak dia gi stop at the UTM's horse stable pepagi on the way to her daycare..she's a drama queen too! if she falls and land on her butt, or terlanggar sumthing, she'll go "ow..ow..ow.." and give u a facial expression as if she's really in pain and will pout her mouth..sungguh kelakar..

she loves pasta! without the sauce tho. she likes them plain and long..she'll eat one strip at a time..so my dad now is buying different kind of pastas lah..making meals fun for the lil gurl. the other day she had fettuccini and she was really enjoying herself 'slurp'ing the long pasta strip in..
today, my dad prepared the normal spaghetti. she ate few on her own with her little fingers but after a few mins she kinda lost interest in her meal coz i was eating something else and was using chopsticks. i guess she was attracted to my food and refused to finish her food. then my bro munir suggested that i suap nanim using the chopsticks. surprise2! she went for the 2nd and 3rd helping! lil kids..cute..

she, as expected, is now everyone's sunshine..the way i see it, God sent her as a gift to cheer us up. i mean, when my mom n dad comes home from work, tired and all, she'll get them laughing; she gets all of us laughing and entertained! heh..i guess my mom needed her..
and btw, i taught nanim to use the toilet bowl today when i had to clean and mandikan dia; which got my mom speechless when i told her so hehehe..

part 1- superwoman..superdad

two days in a row; plans made had to be cancelled. yesterday, i was supposed to spend the day hanging out at Tebrau City with kak suwah. Tebrau City (TC) is the new mall in JB. It's kinda like OU (One Utama) versi JB. all the good shops, tho not as big. n i haven't got the chance to go there yet so, this hol, it's definitely in my 'things-to-do-in-my-3-months-break' list. and it so happens that i was talking to kak suwah the other day and she was like, "lets go out" and i'm like, "yeah shur". i was actually planning on spending a day with her and kak Bie sumtime this hol. that plan is too, off the list *sob3*. i forgot that kak bie will be taking the shortsem (beginning in 9days time) and since my attachment program's gonna start this monday, no way our day out's gonna happen.

nways, so the plan A was that i was to drive to TC with Kak suwah. i was gonna drive her bro's car. but then for me to get to her house was quite difficult. my dad's pretty occupied for the day so he can't drive me there. i dun mind taking the bus (for yesterday's plan, i wudn't mind!) but then i'mma have to take a cab to get to the house and if i were to balik lewat petang, i dun wanna balik naik bus!! JB's buses are creepy in the evening. i akan naik bus to go to CS jeh..tu pon dgn djah..then, there's my mom, she wun let me get a cab ride alone. so after negotiations and pujuk2, my dad agreed to let me use the car hence the Plan B. i'd have to drive my mom n everyone else to school and pick them after school hours. hehe..7am-530pm, shur that wud be enuff for me to check out TC. dah siap plan2 sume, turns out that my mom would be needing the car..haih..frust nyer...sedih jugakla..but then, as usual..kene yakin there are reasons and wisdoms for all that happens and so, it turned out that God wants me to stay at home all day yesterday so i could enjoy a day having my mom around at home on a weekday. my brother Munir and baby nanim 'MC'..Munir skipped school, and baby nanim skipped day care. hence, resulting Ummi to skip work too..alang2 dah ramai kat rumah, my dad pun kerja half-day je..

it's been really long since the last time i spent a weekday with Ummi around in the house. altho i was busy 'online' and doing my own stuff, knowing that i can just call out to her anytime is shur a great feeling. i really did tau. i mean, the 'calling out' to her part. i spent most of the time in my room upstairs and i'd from time to time just call out "UMMI!!" from my room and she'd answer from wherever she is "yeah? nape?" and i'd either go,
"ummi katner?"
"what r u doing?"
"baby buat ape?"
"oh, takde pape"
"takpe2"
...gedik tak?(she so must not know this..musti dia annoyed hehe) huhu..i was supposed to cook for lunch but since she was around, the plan changed and my dad took home some take aways. to celebrate her being at home for lunch during weekdays? maybe..heh..i guess i miss the ummi who doesn't work 24/7 and is always around at home..*sigh*


i voiced out my 'proposal' for umi to quit her teaching job. mind you, she teaches in a private school. A SRI plak tuh..teaching in a private school is totally different from any other teaching job. and i pity baby nanim. i really do. that's one of the reasons i'm always complaining about the daycare that my baby sis goes to. and when my mom's scouting for a new place, i'd always find the flaws of the place/management to complain and comment on. i just thought that would push her to quit her job.

the other day, when i was chatting with my dad, he mentioned that he suggested ummi to quit teaching and to take over his business. she can work at home. and it won't take up much of her personal life as her job now does. turns out that she's been working for some time and so she's very much attached to her job. she just couldn't give up on it; yet."the society needs me." that would be her answer.


it's not that i don't understand her job and her commitments. dulu pun mmg i yg beria nak dia kerja..i'm selfish kan..*sigh*


ape2 pon, i have to state here that i'm thankful and VERY grateful to Allah for the parents that i have. They are the perfect definition of life-partners, parents, and love itself. in my eyes, they compliment and complete each other perfectly. i cant picture life without either one of them. for the busy-superwoman mom that i have, i have a super-dad. thank you Allah..i think my dad is the most fun, understanding, responsible, tolerant guy ever..he can do all the housework, chores, cooking, u name it..

**i guess me having a super dad explains my high expectations on life-partner eh? i dun think anyone can blame me for that..
gotto stop here.. part 2's up layter..

a car and chopsticks

so much for me wanting a Kelisa, it turns out that my maktok's gonna be the lucky one!! she's gonna get one prolly once she comes back from Cairo..huhuhu...i think i'll have to go draft a resume for my application to be her chauffeur-ette..btw talk about maktok, she sms'ed my dad complaining that the price of ikan kembong there is really expensive. heh, shur i could bet the first place that she wud first check out would be the market. talked to Rau today on YM and she shur's having a blast of a time for the ladies are always cooking hehehe..so lah my maktok..i miss her la..one of my holiday plans was actually to go back lepak with her at her place..guess i'll have to wait for a month before i can actually carry out my plan eh..

nways..if i could eat porridge with a pair of chopsticks i would tau..thats how 'into' eating with chopsticks i am..and the other day, i was watching the news and i was eating (without chopsticks mind you) and i choked upon hearing the lady saying
"kerajaan negara cina berusaha untuk mengurangkan pengeluaran dan penggunaan copstik.."

the first thing that blurted out of my mouth was
"My god! chopsticks are cancerous too??"

big laugh here coz it turned out that the reason was because China produces a real large number of chopticks pakai buang nyer made out of wood. and so, it kills a big number of trees and that's not good for the environment and after all, "mother nature's beginning to sound like rudy.."(lol..only those who listens to Hitz' ad would prolly understand) oh yeah, and the other factor was because China wanted to bridge the gap between the rich and the poor. that, i don't understand how, why and the whole issue.

*sigh of relief that chopsticks are not cancerous*

the lil' gurl.. 

moving out..n things i figured out

its been a while. a lot has happened and to get it all down would be ihm-poh-sibb-leyh..go figure :p

sem 2's over and done with..the papers was;let me be frank on this. it was better than last sem's..i have my expectations (depite all the talk on disliking expectations eh?) well..i don't mind the fact that i had one 2-papers-a-day (thank god both weren't cores tho i dun believe there'd be much differences even if they were) the timetables were somehow both fair and yet, cruel at the same time. how's that; i cant be bothered to explain..plus a totally unexpected visit from mr.Fever which was so totally at the wrong time and some headaches too..finals just couldn't be any better. really glad its over. looking forward for next sem's. blergh *bite tongue*

my maktok left for Cairo on the 1st. she left for a month holiday with her sister cum best friend and another friend. recalling a conversation i had with my maktok a day before she left Mesia,
"maktok buat ape sebulan kat sane?"
"lepak-lepak.."
those were her words..i hope the energy and spirit is something that 'runs-in-the-blood and is passed-down' to her family members, of course; specifically her grand daughter; being more specific, the first child of her youngest son. i don't think it was even 6months since her last 'outstation' trip which was to Brunei! umayr's flying off to syria in a few months time and alit's off to japan for his final year project-i-dunno-in-details-thing so we all assumed that my maktok's next holiday destination would be either be Syria or Japan..seriously!
>>oh heck! i forgot bout one thing! i shud have offered to take care of her car while she's away!i wonder where the car is now..(missed an opportunity there)

oh well..hmm..oh yeah!!! experience of a life time!! moving out for the semester break, all by myself!! where do i start?

hmm..well..i went back to my aunt's last sunday and on yesterday i drove back to college to check out and to hangkut everRRything out of my room. u see, students will stay in one room for the period of one year, and after that period ends, they'll be transferred (or moved,dumped, placed, whichever verb u prefer) in another different room. and for that very reason, i am forced to take everything back to JB. some of my stuff will be left at makdut's la..but point being; my room had to be cleaned out. for ur info, if u didnt kno, my room is on the 4th level (and btw, no, i 'm not complaining.). i had like, 3 big bags, one big box, more small bags, 4-5 piles of books, all tied up (thnx kak laila for the great idea. and the tali too of course), a mini standing fan (which i forgot to return to widaad.-padan muka ryhn),more small bags..and small bags..not including my bedding set and pillows. aite, enuf of the details..now imagine the ever so many-that-i-lost-counted trips i had to make up and down the stairs, from the room to the car! in heels!! thank god i didn't fall, not even once. okayh, so i changed into one of my flats after my 3rd trip. mak kak aliza was like,
"risau makcik tengok awak naik turun dgn barang2 tu semua. dah la dgn heels pulak tuh.."

hehehe..guess i managed but then, they say prevention is better than cure. so i thought it was better that i prevented a fall-that-would-prolly-cause-broken-or-fractured-bones-of-the-body rather than having to rest for weeks waiting for the broken or fractured bones heal.smart decision eh?

nways, did i mention anything about a locked locker with my laptop inside it and which it's key are somehow...l.o.s.t? well yeah, i was panicking but i managed to relax and hence i from now on choose to learn and make a habit of staying calm and relaxed whenever bad things or accidents occur learning from experiences. it helps a lot! i kinda lost my key to my locker on saturday (which i must state here that such things has never happened!) and i was stressed out and all trying to think of all the possibilities that i myte have misplaced it which resulted a zilch because i was vEHry shur that i placed it in my wallet and so i concluded that the couldn't-be-any-smaller key must have fallen out of my wallet somewhere sometime when i was taking out coins from the wallet. so when i had to go back to my aunt's on sunday, i knew i had to give myself a break and deal with the locked locker on monday (the locked locker with a laptop in it!!!). and luckily i happened to find myself and kak aliza in kak ayu's room somehow (long story there actually) and kak ayu shared an experience of hers and the skill of mengumpil-ing a padlock-that-has-no-key using a screwdriver. so i decided to give the idea a go and so on Monday i borrowed bibik imah's screwdriver, and with strong determination i drove to college and climbed up the stairs to my room and gave it a go with all my might and wallaa!!! one go, whack*thump*bang the padlock gave way and Lubna came popping her head into my room..the sound of violence brought her to my room..keh3..

*sigh of relief* made it through all the ordeals i had to go through hehe..*lets allow some drama here ohkayh..* i have to thank makdut for the car. and Lub for the company! hehe..the 'after party' milo and orange juice was good for us wasn't it gurl? and like she said, i have to admit i felt pretty good back then after all the naik turun tangga angkut boxes and bags sampai rase nak bergolek2 je turun tangga and baling je all the stuff down through the windows. i mean, i managed to pack everything! everything by myself, and later carried EVErything into the car and later up the stairs again to the attic room at my aunt's. without my dad!! hehe..i am now a fully independent gurl!! hoho...after my third trip up and down the stairs, i was actually hoping that my dad would pop his head into my room going, "ape lagi nak kene angkat?" owh how i wish..but that would be scary wouldn't it? i mean, him not being in KL and suddenly in my college.haha..

things i learnt and figured out from the moving out experience:

1. i will never learn to not be dependant on my abah. in fact, i dun wanna learn to not be dependant on my dad. its comforting to know that i have a dad that will always respond to my phone calls or texts or whatever; and i like the feeling of it.
2. i am one strong independent lady!haha..what a contradiction of a statement there..other than the daddy-factor, m one independent lady! i could move out on my own!! what an achievement!
3. i shall rent a truck and hire labourers when i graduate to help me move out and take everything from my room back to home in jb. takyah tunggu graduate! prolly nex sem!
4. stay relaxed and calm when u say to urself "i lost my key and my laptop is in that locked locker"
5. violence to a property is sometimes necessary.
6. i want a kelisa. no,let me rephrase that. i need a Kelisa. nothing else but a Kelisa pleez..
7. the next time i buy something, stop and say to myself

   "if i buy this, it will add up to the number of things i own and will have
   in my room,and later when i have to move out at the end of the year i'll have to carry more boxes and bags of my stuff up and down the stairs alone in case baba cannot make it to come and help due to work stuff; and so, do i really wanna buy this?"

   whoa..that wud also give me a positive financial record.
8. i miss my gurlfrens already..
9. at the risk of sounding like a dork or geek, i am already missing my campus. the smell of the air, the feeling that i get waking up to a beautiful view when i look out of my window, the cold water in the shower that always get me menjerit terkejut sebab sejuk sangat..all the little things..u get the picture..

that should be enough..