which would you prefer?

• to be stuck in a traffic jam that would prolly take you an extra mile and longer time to reach your destination; or
• take the alternative route but you'll have to pay the toll?
  

me? depend on circumstances. if i'm rushing or in a hurry, definitely i'll opt for the toll paying route. why waste time being stuck in the traffic that might consume 2 hours of your lifetime especially when you're in a hurry to reach the destination?? there are people who are against toll (i am too at times. especially when travelling from one state to another. manyak betui harus bayar!) i'm not saying i'm ok with the fact that our country burdens and impose on its citizens and road-users the obligation to pay tolls in return that we get to use the highways..its just that, well, its the rules and law, and it doen't seem like we can escape from it unless u tau some jalan laluan org asli ke, tembus memane hutan ke, and ofkos u must have a 4WD lah kaan..

hmm...also lah kan, u waste ur time stuck on the road, u waste fuel also meh. so dari u elok2 kene bayar round rm1.50 jek, you'd have to pay more for ur fuel.

so some might say, its a good time to relax, listen to the radio, appreciate the view and the beauty of nature yadaa yadaa..that i agree jugakla..sometimes, if i'm out driving with a friend or just alone, sometimes, i'm okay with the traffic. true, i can munch away, more time to chat with the friend, or read while listening to the radio; and watch the people and the blue sky, the raindrops on the screen, the leaves falling from the trees...yeah u get the picture. but that's only sometimes!! and vital fact, i am impatient thus tak slalu lah i'm okay with the traffic heh..

one more thing, when ur stuck in a traffic you'll have to bear with all sorts of drivers' attitude and ill manners and selfishness!! haiyyoo..sakit jiwa sungguh!! like they're the only ones in a hurry! paling sakit hati kalau those big konon-luxurious cars berlagak like they're so big and VIP so they must be didahulukan!!! nih yg rase nak bawak lori tanki minyak! besar mengalahkan segala kenderaan!

*my mom always say it's better to opt to spend your money than waste time or put at stake ur safety..

** terkilan coz when Tim from Red tried to call me back for a chat on this topic, my phone went dead and it was that very moment then i discovered that my charger rosak!! *huff*

la da di da la di daa

i had a dream yesterday. about my mak tok. i miss her. i am worried. but i'm praying to God. Full faith and trust in him..i pray.

nways..my routine has changed for the past two days and i think i have discovered for myself a working, effective, fun and different way for me to study for finals. i have always membebel bout how between the library n me, the only relationship that exists between us is only, well..not intimate haha..yeah, i used to tell people that i was engaged to the cubicles in the library but i guess jodoh tak panjang..i cant get along with the library to study. i can n will go to the library to meet people, get materials and to read the papers only. owh not to forget, free use of internet. i get distracted sooo easily seeing people walk by, come in and out, people saying hi, dropping by for a chat..cannot meh..so i resort to staying in my room..ooh..such comfort.

but then i gave it a try. angkut all my stuff, park myself in one of the empty classes in my kuliyyah and walla..its great. the cafe n shop dekat(hence i cud get the never ending supply of gums!!).the loos are around. the musolla's nearby. plus the air-cond. all's good. no disturbance.n m cool with that. my attitude tho needs a lot of changes. i tend to be busy making notes for the whole subject at the earliest, 2 days before the paper. but then!!!!! what if thats the only way and method that works for me???? at least i think it does..hmm..need to hire sumone to figure what method's the best for me...

*gone to 'surf' thru the yellowpages*

time to say goodbye...

as u can see, the chatterbox on my page's gone..gohhhooone...
i had to delete it off my page due to some reasons...
so yeah, say goodbye..if anything..just leave a text at the comment box..

psst, 3 more papers to go! n i'll be done n thru with sem2!

playing "time to say Goodbye-Katherine Jenkins"

HOW TO RESPOND TO SOMEONE WHO HURTS YOU.

When someone hurts us we usually tend to respond in a way as to hurt that person twice as much and this vicious cycle propagates. This can destroys human relationship what then is the Islamic ruling in such circumstances?

Islam has given us the right to defend ourselves against one who hurts us and a part of the sharia ruling is to punish wrong doers. At the same time, Islam is built upon the foundation of justice and calls for forgiveness. Allah (SWT) says in Surah Nahl V.126
[and if you punish (your enemy) then punish them with the like of that which you were affected. But if you endure patiently, verily it is better for you.]

In Surah As-Shura, V.40
[The recompense for an evil is an evil like thereof, but whoever forgives and makes reconciliation, his reward is due from Allah, verily he like not the transgressors,]

and Allah (SWT) has revealed in same Shura V.39
[and those who when an oppressive wrong is done to them they take their rights] -
hence taking one’s right in this context should not be considered as bad.

Regarding these 2 verses Al-Khutubi said that there are 2 types of wrong doers i.e.
one who is an evil person and hurts everyone. For such a person - Ibrahmi An Nakkaiy said that one should takes one right and punish such a person so that he may give up such a bad behavior.

The 2nd type of evildoer is someone who rarely hurts people and he confess his/her mistake and asks for forgiveness and for such a person Allah (SWT) said in Surah Al-Baqarah V.237 (later part).
[And it is better to forgive and forgiveness is nearer to Al-Tawqa. (Purely and rightousness) ]

In Surah Nur. V.22 (2nd part)
[Let them pardon and forgive. Do you not love that Allah should forgive you? And Allah is off forgiving most merciful.]

In a Hadith given Tirmidhi.
Aiysha (RAA) narrated that a man sat in front of Prophet (PBUH) and said I have 2 slaves who are disobeying and accuse them for lying and being dishonest & unfaithful. I am screaming at them and hitting them so what is my situation in this mistake. The Prophet (PBUH) said if their bad deeds equal yours then you do not lose anything but if their bad deeds exceed yours then you will benefit. However, if your bad deeds exceed their mistakes then you will stand to lose. Then the man went aside and started to cry and the Prophet (PBUH) said don’t you read in the book of Allah: “And we shall setup balances of justice on the day of resurrection, then none will be dealt with unjustly in any thing. And if there be the weight of a mustard seed, we will bring it. And sufficient are we as rectoners. Surah Al-Anbiya V:47.

*feel better*

more n more..complaining?

i soooo cannot focus and so i must must musti stop for a minute and 'talk'.

i'm so freaked out and in a way quite worried. (bah!! fuhney. quite?! banget2!!) and i dun care if i sound psychotic or half-lunatic!!!! i think i'm turning into an insomniac. for the past 4 days its been the same routine. i'll only feel tired out and a bit sleepy when the clock ticks at 3am. then i'll get myself ready for bed. turn off Lappie, set my alarm, clear up my books n stuff, switch off the light and in bed i'll be. by 330 i'll doze off. and get a bad or weird dream that'll get me waking up at 415. it's like scheduled! i'll wake up and toss n turn and cover myself under my comforter, and round 5 will i doze off again; this time peacefully. sudah tentu sudah mau siang dan harus bangun..so in the end, i'd opt and prefer to not sleep BUT i cant do that!!!! i need sleep. we all need sleep! and my finals are starting tomorrow! first paper's at 9am and the next's at 3pm. and i'm soooo not okay with that!!!

haih..my last paper will be on the 4th. anyone concerned or interested in knowing the going ons with my sanity by then can check on my sanity then hahahahahha..lol.. *forced laugh*

its the same thing over and over again kan?kan?kan? every semester,asal finals je,
"i'm freaked out!!!"
"i'm gonna die!!!!"
"kamikaze!!!"
"nak mati syahid"
*faint dramatically n tragically*
*dead* sigh...
bila hidup mau lebih menarik dan teratur ah ryhn?

btw, tho by the 4th i'll be over and done with 2nd semester, i'm planning on staying in KL and leave for JB proly on the 12th. kak bie just texted me saying that she'll be leaving for JB not til the 13th. meB i'll balik with her. planned on getting myself stuck in one of those ever-so-comfy sofas in Boarders with the good jazz background music. (minus the coffees.i dare to promise that!)

back to my notes
*feeling sick*

...C.h.a.n.G.e.S...

here i am, yet again, taking some minutes of my-so-claimed 'supposed-to-be-study-hours-since-my-finals-papers-are-due-in-two-days'..well...so i said the other day that i'm moving out to multiply ryte? well, it seems like it doesnt seem to be very convenient after all..
[note to parties yg berkenaan : complains and suggestions heard!!]

so...i have decided to stick to blogging here but for photo albums, reviews and musics; u can find me at my multiply's page click here
(if u cant get to the page, click *mine* under 'pictures' at this page's sidebar)
aite..to all who are in their finals' season, all the best..bittaufeeq wannajaah..
*g0d bleSs*

God witnessed it all...

i feel sooo bad no matter what she says; no matter if it's okay with her..and the huge heavy load of guilt and x-senang-hati is on my shoulder all day, even til this very minute.. i dunno what to doooooooooooooooooooh boo hoo.

u see, Atique had some drama-show on today. apparently it's kinda like her final project/presentation thingy (BEN stuff). i met her up before halaqah exam and she told me that she wants me to be there when she performs. i watched Ezryn's group the other day. they presented Shakespeare stuff and it was fun. so i was very much looking forward to go watch Atique's (tho i had no idea whatsoever what's the theme..)

the thing is, *sob3* i kinda heard (and thot i had confirmed it with her) that the drama performance will be Monday 1030 PM and that's the exact time i saved in my schedule. plus an alarm okayh! i really did plan on going. then this morning at exactly 1025 AM she called me up asking
"are u coming or not?" and with full excitement and enthusiasm i answered
"OFCOURSE!! its tonyte ryte?" and she's like,
"er..no, it's ryte about now." and i'm like,
"huh? i thot it's tonyte!" and she's like,
"no, it's now.." (sensed disappointment in her voice)
"ohmigod!! atique!!i really thot n believed it's tonight!!....." yeah, u get the picture..

so i rushed and got dressed and rushed down to maz's and took her car keys (with permission) and sped to the experimental hall, which was the place i believed and thought the venue is and *buff* i rushed up all the stairs all the way to the hall and it turned out that naah, not the place. i asked around and no one knew about any drama presentations..

sigh..realizing that i had carelessly, negligently -and-all-that left my phone in my room, i had no means of communication. but thanx to the inventor of public phones, i gave practically everyone, regardless of the states they are in, whom i believe and think that they myte have Atique's number and GOT NO ANSWER!! everyone's against me huhu..then i thot of calling Atique's home in JB and her sister-thank god- picked up the phone and gave me the number (and now, hehe..atique! i hafal ur number sudaa)..after numerous attempts calling her and failing to be answered, i left a message in the voice mail..tuff luck..what to do..

hmm..so she says its okay..so i apologized..but it doesn't help. meB i shud have tried explaining but i cudnt be bothered. i believe that people cant be bothered to hear other people's explanation. it'll end up like ur giving excuses and i dun like giving excuses and i shur am not good in explaining for myself and shur i know that as a fact! hmm..atique says she recorded the whole show and she will make me watch it. goody!! i cant wait!! :D but she really sounded down, disappointed, kuciwa, and a lil sad. and when i asked her, she said, "yeah, well, i really wanted u and nib to be there. but its okay.."

i am so disappointed with myself. one simple mistake! it's AM!!! not PM!!!! haih..no eletronic organizer cud have saved or helped me aih..hmm..another crap-friend-disappoint-others day..

so Atique, i'm sooo sorry..but let's believe there's a wisdom behind the
scene me not being able to make it to ur show ( think positive!!!) BUT
insyaAllah! there'll be another time ryte?? and God willing, i'll be there! and
plus, no matter what, present or absent, i support u all the way n u have my
love!! *hugs*

*feeling better*

..snip snip..

since i watched 'Beautiful Life' which starred Takuya playing as a hairstylist, it got me thinking. this semester i had managed to cut 11 persons' hair ( with one more appointment to go before this hols). and i did my own hmm..3 times within a month.

(i knoooooooowh..huhu..sape suruh tinggalkan i sorang2 kat dlm bilik with nuthing to do? sape suruh?? i was bored, and i thot i heard the scissors calling out to me, and hey, a new look shudn't be any harm ryte?)

hmm..my friend's ryte,i shud buy a proper hair-do set (especially the gunting. perlu) if i'm gonna start doing people's hair as a service and seriously. and shud i start charging people? hehe..*grin*..one encouraged me to start charging for every haircut but then, come to think of it, it's not like i'm qualified enough to demand for payment. i'm nowhere near a profesional, no certificate or ape2 la..it all started out with me finding satisfaction in cutting and styling my own hair, and then a friend asked me to 'do' her hair during high school dulu; then, other friends found out, started calling me up, and since then, i've started on the unofficial profession as a hairdresser. oh well, honestly speaking, i do enjoy myself when i do people's hair..is that a sufficient consideration? hehe.. well, as long as the person has confidence in me, and trust me, i'm okay with that. snip snip i'll go..

loohooozah

mommy daddy and the whole family's coming!! we're prolly gonna go eat out celebrate over dinner. oh yeah, my bro zahid got his SPM result. (i'mma proud sistah!) i dun think i'd wanna give away the result here..(respecting his privacy) but hey, we're gonna go celebrate. that shur's a hint he did great. and yeah, i'm one proud sister.again.

nways, my bro munir lost his phone. no, let me rephrase that. his phone was stolen. he was sleeping at the surau annur for qiam or sum sorta prog and the next morning, the phone lesap sudaa..looohoooozah punye pencurik. phone budak kecik pon nak curik!! desperado! so, since zahid's getting a new phone, he's giving his current phone to munir and i'mma pass my celcom number to him since i now am using one phone only, and am using maxis number.. erk..which reminds me of the fact that my phone was stoohhooolen..*sob3* kangen banget samanya..

enuff for the day. going off for lunch. and later bury my one nose in my many notesand books!
finals are calling out for me!

..: life; a test :..

this life that we live in*wasn't made for nothing*life is a test from Allah the Almighty*there are many times *when Allah will test you*to see if you will obey or betray*

this life is a life of test*needs patience for success*so is your iman strong enough?*or would you fail just like the rest?*obey for Allah's love*betray, be sorry for yourself*when your standing helplessly in front of Allah the Almighty*

this life is a life of test*believe it*you must strengthen your faith*and don't you fail like others*Allah created us*gave us everything*so be grateful and don't betray*

laugh at me if you wish*say i'm crazy if you want*you'll bite your fingers one day when you find out the truth*believe me or do not*its a chance for you to choose*just don't you cry one day when it's already too late*

you would be sorry if you choose to betray*there is no one there to help you*if you follow Allah's way you'd be safe in paradise*if you listen to me i could lay my mind to rest*you'd then be happy*there's no need to worry*you would live forever happy*

so, lets all check on our iman and faith..speak and stand for the truth..and have complete faith and trust in Allah.
may we be among those who deserve Allah's mercy and jannah...

birthday wishes..

listening to Aqualung-'Easier To Lie'

it's kak mas' birthday today...we threw a surprise party! ni baru habis la nih.. me, maz, dora and daad went out to buy stuff ptg tadi. last minute plan it was. maz's the 'PC' this time around. ofkos, since we went out to shop for the party preps, sempat la kan i took the opportunity to go for an express-shopping-spree at Guardian although i have already made plans to go out with Mun to KLCC this friday just to go to Guardian and Watson. nvm, i didn't find everything i wanted so prolly,if God wills, friday's plan'll still be on.

nways, yeah, birthday party kak mas. it was great! (minus the throwing eggs and flour..i disagreed on that sob3..) we actually requested for 21 candles from the bakery guy!! keh3. and we had it written on the cake
'for the ribbons we couldn't tie, here's a CAKE'..hahahhaha..
*hanya orang yang berkenaan sahaja akan memahami ayat dan maksud2 disebaliknya keh6*

the place where we actually had everything set up was dark. we planned on having an outdoor party at one of the huts nearby the carpark area in our college but sumhow, the electricity wasn't good and the lampuS kat luar sume tak berfungsi so we had to move away and we all crammed ourselves inside maz's room. hah. all 9 of us in one nusaibah's cubicle. if uv seen nusaibah college and the compartment rooms then you'll know what i'm talking about.

the best thing about tonyte's party was that i was allowed to hog the mango pudding packet!!! i love kak mas for saying,
"takpe ryhn, u nak amek 60 pun boleh!" ngeh3..
i couldn't help myself from taking one after another. afterall, it seems like everyone was involved in the conversation, taking pictures; and, the pudding was ignored! pastu tetibe kenelah maz n daad jerit "ryhn curik pudding!!!" hahaha hohoho pastu sume orang pon perasan lah kewujudan pudding tuh..kuhm0wn la..sape suro serve pudding. mango pudding! tuff luck people.(and sape kate it's hard to please ryhn? tsk3)

hmm..teringat hari tu time birthday maz.it was great. we wanted to throw her a surprise party. and it turned out that she had a bad weekend so we really wanted to make it up to her hoping that our party'll get the weekend of her mind. it was soooo cute. we made up a whole 'party committees'. kak mas was the Project manager. kak tina was the assistant manager. me n daad was the PC. mun n dora was the prep n tech committees. *tee hee*

kak mas and kak tina took maz's car after asr and left to do the shopping. they had to lie to maz saying that kak mas had to go pay emergency visit to her aunt and needed to borrow maz's car.huhu..then maz was bengang coz they didnt make it back in time and she had to walk back to college. mengade!! dah ada kereta tak gheti nak jalan!! she was like,
"i had to walk back to my college on foot on my birthday!!!"
we all layan je lah...after all, it was part of the plan kui3. marah sungguh dia that time. she slept straight away when she reached her room. we planned to go to the talk "save al-aqsa" that was to be held in the main audi that night round 8pm. it was planned that we'll go a bit later coz ofkos, nak kene settlekan dulu bufday party that miss maz of ours. since maz was fast asleep, and kak mas sudah tiba and done with all the shopping, it was daad's and my job to get maz in the car and get her away from college area coz prep n tech committee (mun n dora) had to prepare and set up everything.
(the party venue's depan bilik maz je so nak kene bawak dia jauh2 sket)

sooo0o....what me and daad decided to do was to wake her and pretended like radziq has called u up and told us to get ourselves at the talk like, there and then coz the whole talkshow was starting straight away. and so we did. and she acted as predicted. she was rushing and all, getting ready. i offered to drive since she was sleepy and was a bit too groggy. i got the key. all was as planned thank god. widaad was ready with a scarf to blindfold maz once she got in the car. and so, when maz was inside the car, and we were outside the gurl's college area, daad blindfolded maz from behind and hence, the whole drama started.

maz started to whine and scream and acted all dramatic like she was being kidnapped and abducted by rapists or some convicted murderers and kidnappers! haih..sungguh..she drove us crazy! i was behind the wheels ofkos so all the time widaad was the one who was struggling with all her might to literally shut maz up! keh3.. i drove round and round the iiu ground. then i took her outside iiu, just to kill time so that the other gurls could get everything ready.(ofkos that was before harga minyak naik huhu)

maz sungguh went crazy! she opened the car's window and jerit2
"bang...tolong saya..","pakcik...tolong saya..saya kene culik!"my god! i was actually worried incase some car or guy on bike myte chase us or call up the cops believing what maz jerit2 was true! haiyyo.

nways,setelah berhari2 pusing2 tunggu the gurls call and tell us that they're done with the prep, finally they did. maz dah ingat we reached bukit antarabangsa's area sudaa. (tuff luck. al-kaffah food court nother time lah eh.)
even daad pun dah tak larat nak diamkan maz. kejap tadi ngantok pastu tetiba aggressive semacam. tak paham..hehehe..

o well, after we got the call, we headed straight back to college. The moment we opened the door for maz, she guessed it right when she said,
“we’re back in nusebah kan??”
huhu..i guess, dia sangat kenal lah kan bau nusebah.

The weather was good only a bit too windy for us to light the candles which positioned to shape the letter ‘M’..sedih that plan didn’t work out. Nways, me n daad had to lead maz to the hut where the ladies had prepped everything. The moment we took of the scarf that was covering maz’s eyes, the other ladies who was all well equipped with streamers and party poppers started popping and spraying everything on maz.

the cake was good, the 'manisan' was good. everything was great. we had millions of pics. the best thing was that it was glaringly obvious that maz enjoyed herself and that she was very the very happy with the party.
(maz, i really hope it can compensate for the sunday occassion. i really understand how terrible and horrible it was for u. monday explained and showed.even contract class didn't help. yes yang, it was that obvious)

nways, it was certainly memorable. sangat. maz and kak mas. next up, adora's. sigh..it's during the finals.
(confirm in the list of my future careers, event planners!)

oh! alert!alert! gotta check the final's timetables! gotta start studying..welcome days of no sleep and strong coffees..nevertheless, i vow to not consume livita and hot-choc-mix-with-nescafe in a row. actually, not even separately. it was bad. i learnt fine from my matric days. murderous they are. i encourage you people to not even think if trying out such drink, what more the practice. love urself, ur body has rights too!

oh well..happy birthday to all those people who are celebrating their birthdays.
ur now one year older, and hence, may the days ahead of you be filled with joy, happiness, success, and most importantly, may u will continuously be blessed with iman and islam, and that u will become better muslims. musti soleh wa musleh! (haih..so easy to put in words..)
may this year be better than the previous, and may this year be filled with more and more good surprises. for all the hard times, may u learn from mistakes and such experiences and make the most out of life..
god bless you all..

about me

as an answer to a fren's question;
"in 5mins or less, tell me about urself. say all that pops out of ur mind the very second."

i like eating with chopsticks * i love mango puddings and juices* i love anything that smells and tastes of peach* i will not consume anything that has elements of soya beans, cincau and teh susu* i cant stand extra strong mint stuff.spearmint bearable.ironically,i love choc mint, mint biscuits and mint ice creams* a chewing gum addict* coffee addict but working on cutting that down* i love driving* i am picky and choosy when it comes to food and places to eat* i can't sit still for too long* i keep myself busy to get unwanted things off my mind* eing busy and occupied keeps me going.no matter what people say* i believe in optimisme and that positive thinking will take u far* i love juices with aloe vera* i drink only real hot drink, and real cold drink. nothing in between.takde suam2 tenkiu* i like spicy food but i cant tahan pedas* i think food tastes the best when it's hot (heat-wise) straight from the stove (except icecreams and yg sekeluarga dengannye lah kaan)* i love books. they take me to a different world!* I love reading a book with a mug of hot drink when it's raining cats n dogs* I prefer making handmade gifts for friends (really need more time nowadays* I am temperamental* My mood changes easily* i enjoy being on the road with frens and later find ourselves lost but jarang since i dun have much trouble with directions and finding my way to places* i love cinnabons!* i vent out my anger and frustration by washing dishes. such pleasure and calming activity* I have a 9years old sentimental belonging of mine* i dun have problem adjusting and adapting myself to new places*i can be very dramatic at times * i am turning 20 and will be bidding farewell to my teen years soon*

..:honesty is a virtue:..

i was off to discharge my obligation as a university student this morning right after class. on such fine intention, i went to the ATM machine and dengan sedihnya, i withdraw lah such n such amount of cash to pay to the finance dept. it was quite difficult for me to walk straight to the bank and not to ter'sesat' to the bazaarS n stalls haha...(naseb tak bukak lagi)

nways, the story is that, when i was at the Bank, (the bank tak bukak lagi so i decided to go for breakfast kejap) next to the door, ade lah kan ATM machines. well, as me n my fren was walking away from the Bank, a lady called out to us. she was prolly in her late 30. she was actually looking for someone to help her use the ATM machine to withdraw some cash. thank god i had before encountered such similar situations and so, i wasn't as gelabah as dulu2..

i still remembered the 1st time an indian lady asked for my help to help her withdraw her money, i was actually scared and was actually contemplating as to whether i should help or call for the authority (pakguard je lah kot) ape2 lah! haha..hari2 muda dan innocent dulu..(skarang innocent lagi masih..ngeh3)

nways, so yeah, we helped her and she got her cash. then she started talking and telling us that she never went to school, had no money to pay for the fees and there she was as we were walking, telling us her life-tale..saya sangat bersimpati dengannya..then, as we were about to go our separate ways, she thrusted a one ringgit note in my hand..h.o.l.y! me n my fren was like, 'never mind..takpe..takpe..' and she kept on insisting..so when she gave the note to my fren pulak, she just accepted it. she was like, may god bless u and stuff. the end.

thing is, it crossed my mind just a few mins ago. what if all this while, since she always need someone to help her withdraw; what if, (god forbids!) some dishonest person were to cross her path? what if? and the fact that she just writes her pin number on a tissue paper and just hand her ATM card over , just like that!

I pray that the people that will cross her path whenever she needs help will always be those who are righteous and honest..

i'm not saying that i'm thinking negatively of the people that exists in our society but you know what i'm saying ryte? today's world guarantee us nothing. oh well...gotto run..class!

hyperventilated..huh?

i swear to God i did not take coffee OR anything with sugar this morning for breakfast. i promise! then why and how in the world did i get so hyper this morning?????

and i really thot i got myself alryte these days..huh..perasan sengsorang!

seriously..i went to class this morning, i was okay. it got cancelled coz there was only 3 of us that came for the tutorial (kesian sir). huh! and iwas sooo excited and semangat lah kan to go to the tutor today! (walaupun on the way i realized that i was actually not prepared for the tutor haha..fuh-ney.)

nways, yeah, so then i met up with the gurls at the cafe..and i trus got hyped. it's the surroundings kot. tetiba mcm xtra ramai orang and i got excited kot. pelik weh.. i couldn't eat coz mcm teh excitement stole my appettite. my hands was literally shaking!! so i guess it was agood decision to not eat coz i'd prolly get my food all spilled off the spoon..huhu..i got myself peach tea n some fruits tho.which was good..hmm..i threw some act. shur i did. haih..buruk sungguh come to think of it..

*Suee!!! help me..balik mesia cepat..check on me!! was it sumthing i eat?? do i need to start making my own meals and eat only veggies and nuts n fruits??? (defly not nuts coz i'll prolly get nuttier keh3..*see???? m nuts alredi!!*)

but note, i am sane. hmm..and come to think of it, sangat bertuah diriku mempunyai teman2 yang masih setia bersama haha..teruk derang kene layan me..abah's coming tomorrow!
*excited lagi*

i ajak him to go to KLCC..i was like,
"me take you buy nyummy milkshake, u buy me new shoes? okay?okay?"

and he tanak reply that particular mesej..wahahahaha..*sob..sob* tak layan..

nways..cant wait..got a date with abah!!! plus the electronic organizer! and got my number back..but no new flip phone..haih..

have a verrrry good day people!!

*sheeesh..got 'academic writing skills' program today..forgot bout that. and MABIT too..pergi tak pergi..pergi tak pergi...gotto go and think and decide..and m hungry too..gotto go eat eat!*

p/s: nib's kak yung's due to give birth in two weeks time!!! cannot wait..anak buah baru sorang lagi on the way! *feeling bad coz lama suda tak visit her and yeop..*

*happy*happy*happy*

my sincerest thanx and gratitude goes out to Elyna binti Kamaruzzaman, no matric ******* ngeh3..
me luv u sooo sooo muchos..makasih..

she went out to KLCC earlier in the evening and she actually went to Maxis Centre there to claim my old number back for me!!! ofkos la before that sudah i bagi her a list of my Activ5 numbers and the numbers that i slalu contact.
sangat bahagia kau buat ku..(er...that made sense ryte?)

nways..yeah, so now i got my number back..told ya i'mma get it back..but *sigh* ...
if only i can go to Samsung Centre and do the same..apply a claim for the lost phone and to get it back; that would be more than great. superb0..*d.r.e.a.m on ryhn* haih..

nways..most importantly, i got my old 012 number back!!! so yeah people, gimme a call or message me coz i'mma need ur numbers to be saved in my Contact List. sungguh i tak hafal all my frens nye number..ampuun..

btw, nother good news; my dad's coming over to KL for some work stuff..and he'll be bringing me an electronic organizer!!! and when i do get that organizer, i'mma save a copy of all my frens' numbers in there. in case anything happens to my phone ever again..*na'uzubillah lah kaaan..huhu..neevr again pleez*

(tuff luck celcom number..i'll be sedikit menyisihkan u coz now i only have one phone and ofkos i'll be using that number..but i'll still gune u ape!! )

.:Marah kerana Cinta, Bukan kerana Benci:.

*got this to share..received from one of the YGs..*

Oleh: Pahrol Mohamad Juoi
@ fitrahperkasa.net

Saya masih ingat sikap `unik' (aneh) sesetengah orang-orang tua kampung dulu-dulu.
Ruang di bawah rumah mereka selalunya diperuntukkan untuk meletakkan barang usang yang `kurang' atau tidak perlu. Selalunya botol-botol, tin-tin atau papan-papan buruk. Entah kenapa semua itu tidak dibuang. Hanya di letakkan begitu sahaja. Diguna tidak, dibuang pun tidak. Peliknya, apabila barang-barang `antik' itu hendak diambil oleh orang lain, cepat-cepat pula mereka melarangnya. Tak boleh – nak guna, sayang, dan macam-macam alasan.

Itulah sebuah analogi yang terlintas di fikiran bila saya ditanya tentang kemarahan umat Islam terhadap penyiaran karikatur menghina nabi Muhammad s.a.w oleh akhbar-akhbar Eropah khususnya Denmark.

"Encik tidak marah?" tanya seorang siswa sehabis sahaja majlis diskusi tentang topik berkenaan.
"Marah," akui saya perlahan.
"Tak cukup begitu sahaja. Esok kita berarak, bakar bendera Denmark!"
Saya senyum.
"Kita ada cara yang lebih baik. Ada senjata yang lebih hebat. Doa," balas saya.
"Kita kena tunjuk kemarahan kepada mereka yang menghina Rasul."
"Menunjukkan kecintaan kepada Rasul lebih utama."
"Marah itulah tanda kecintaan kita…"
"Betul. Tetapi membuktikan kecintaan dengan mengamalkan sunnahnya jauh lebih utama."
"Encik takut?"
Saya renung matanya.

"Mengamalkan sunnah Rasul memerlukan lebih keberanian… Tentangannya lebih hebat. Bahkan daripada orang Islam sendiri," tusuk saya perlahan.
"Kita bakar bendera mereka!"
"Kita `bakar' cara hidup mereka. Itu lebih relevan."
Giliran dia pula yang diam.
Mungkin siswa yang `terbakar' ini mula mengunyah maksud kiasan saya.
Lalu saya ceritakan analogi awal tadi. Alhamdulillah, dia mendengar teliti.

"Kita dengan sunnah, seperti orang tua-tua dahulu dengan barang-barang usang di bawah rumah. Nak digunakan tidak, nak dijunjung jauh sekali, tetapi bila ada orang lain nak mengambilnya, barulah heboh konon nak digunakan."
"Bagaimana kita hendak tunjukkan perasaan marah?"
"Demontrasi depan manusia. Depan Allah, kita berdoa. Kita muhasabah, sejauh mana kecintaan kita kepada Rasul-Nya. Mungkin provokasi Barat membawa pengajaran tersirat."
"Pengajaran tersirat?"
"Ya, tersirat dari Allah… agar kita menilai semula benar-benarkah kita mencintai sunnah Rasul-Nya selama ini."
"Kemarahan ummah inilah buktinya," ujarnya bersemangat.
"Kemarahan cuma bermusim. Hanya luapan sentimen berkala. Namun kegigihan, kebijaksanaan, perancangan dan ketabahan jangka panjang amat perlu."
"Maksud encik?"
Jelas dia terpancing dengan kilasan dan kiasan kata-kata.
"Jangka panjang, sudahkah kita mendidik generasi muda mencintai Rasul dan keluarganya? Saya risau generasi muda yang mabuk hedonisme kini tidak akan punya kemarahan yang sama seperti yang saudara alami."
"Saya ada kawan-kawan sebaya yang hidupnya lintang pukang, tapi masih marah bila Rasulullullah dipersendakan. Mereka akan turut berarak esok!"
"Hidup lintang-pukang? Macam mana tu?" tanya saya minta kepastian.
"Rock habis. Sembahyang tidak. Bergaul bebas biasalah… tapi cinta mereka terhadap Rasul tak luntur."
"Ajak mereka sembahyang dulu. Tak berarak pun tak apa. Cinta dulu, marah kemudian. Bila ada cinta, pasti ada marah bila kecintaan dicela. Tapi kalau marah saja, belum tentu ada cinta… "
Dia diam lagi. Kali ini diamnya lebih panjang.

"Agaknya orang tua tu marah tak kalau kita ambil barang-barang berharga di atas rumah?" tanyanya tiba-tiba.
"Orang tua mana?" tanya saya semula. Hairan.
"Orang tua dalam analogi encik tadi itulah!"
"Soalan tu kurang umph," gurau saya.
"Habis soalan apa yang umph?"
"Agaknya orang berani tak hendak minta barang di atas rumah? Berbanding barang usang di bawah rumah?" balas saya.
Termenung lagi dia. Seronok rasanya `membimbing' siswa ini berfikir. Terimbau luapan semangat saya sewaktu di kampus dulu. Beginilah pola berfikir saya. .

Tiba-tiba dia bersuara,
"tentu tak berani, kerana barang di atas rumah tentu lebih berharga."
"Begitulah sunnah, jika dihayati, diamalkan dan diperjuangkan. Ia nampak sangat berharga di tangan pencintanya. Musuh tak kan berani mengusiknya, apalagi nak menghinanya…"
"Encik ni, tak sangka ke situ pula kiasannya."
"Kita orang Islam mesti menghormati diri sendiri terlebih dahulu, barulah orang lain akan menghargai kita. Justeru, jika kita marahkan musuh yang mengecam Rasul, marahkanlah juga diri kita yang tidak benar-benar mencintainya!"
"Dan… bukti cinta amalkan sunnah Rasul. Itulah cara paling berkesan mempamerkan `kemarahan' kepada musuh-musuh yang menghinanya."

Alhamdulillah, saya yakin, kini marahnya kerana cinta bukan kerana benci.
Dominasi cintakan Rasul bukan emosi bencikan musuhnya!

*takbeer!! Allahu Akbar!!*