Ok, I’m back in Kuantan. I arrived at 5.00 a.m. his morning. Tired and sleepy, I went back to slumber land till 7.00 a.m. I had to prepare for class. Whilst taking my bath, I had to hold my breath to prevent the stench of cat shit from entering my nose. The whole toilet reeks the smell. I absolutely do not like cats especially cats which leave their marks everywhere.
A new block, a new spirit. This block I’m studying microbiology including bacteriology, parasitology, virology, mycology, and more pharmacology. Our first lecture was by Dr Quazi, a soft-spoken yet extremely knowledgeable lecturer from Pakistan, I think.
Then, we had quite a long gap to settle ourselves before the next lecture by Dr Tariq on introduction to pharmacology. I took the opportunity to read “Endless Night”. I was already half-way through the book. At noon, iwent back to my dorm and continued reading the book. Finally I finished the book. I’ll write the synopsis later but on the whole, the book ended with a twist with an unexpected turn of events.
At 2.00 p.m. I had to go back to the kulliyah for the PBL first session. We had Dr Quazi. He’s absolutely wonderful because he explained what we had to do in sequence and chronological order. The diagnosis of the disease was Salmonella typhi . Next time it’s Prof Pakeer.
Petang, I went with sibah, nik and Ina to Mydin and bought all our stuff. We came back around maghrib. My room is an absolute mess although I’d already cleaned a bit before going home. while I was waiting for he food to arrive, I cleaned some of my stuff and stationeries. After collecting the food, I continued to clean, clean and clean. Next came the fan.
Ok, gotta catch some sleep. I’m dead tired.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Courage..Anastasia's song
i got this..or actually copied it from kak aliya's blog. i totally love this song.. it's really inspiring..
Heart don’t fail me now
Courage don’t desert me
Don’t turn back
Now that we’re here
People always say
Life is always full of choices
No one ever mentions fear
Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage, see me through
Heart, I’m trusting you
On this journey
Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here
When your world starts to fall
Young girl
It’s alright
Your tears will dry
You’ll soon be free to fly
Just like the closest friend
Trust the voice within
Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’ll see a brighter day
Heart don’t fail me now
Courage don’t desert me
Don’t turn back
Now that we’re here
People always say
Life is always full of choices
No one ever mentions fear
Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage, see me through
Heart, I’m trusting you
On this journey
Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here
When your world starts to fall
Young girl
It’s alright
Your tears will dry
You’ll soon be free to fly
Just like the closest friend
Trust the voice within
Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’ll see a brighter day
nibah's birthday
owh..i forgot to write about nibah's birthday. yesterday,27th nov was her birthday.. we didnt celebrate much..
it was quite a slow day..we woke up late..me,beselah..coz i slept late chatting..
then i woke up,had a bath,and helped adeq basuh ayam...she whipped up a batch of pancakes and i cooked 'em.
we didn't go to Gazebo Nahnu's "open restaurant"..me and chik wanted to go and dine on all the food prepared free-of-charge, but ninah wasn't awake yet so we cudnt go without her.
tengahari we went to kak ida's wedding..she's kakyung's highschool friend...went back home n slept..
around 4pm kakyung and yeop arrived..we went to pakcik halim's openhouse... there were all types of laksas prepared.
at nite...me n chik stayed home,mak n ayah went to NC's house, yung and yeop and nibah went to kak ida's house.
they brought back a few different cakes from secret recipe to celebrate nibah's birthday..
that's practically everything that happened.
it was quite a slow day..we woke up late..me,beselah..coz i slept late chatting..
then i woke up,had a bath,and helped adeq basuh ayam...she whipped up a batch of pancakes and i cooked 'em.
we didn't go to Gazebo Nahnu's "open restaurant"..me and chik wanted to go and dine on all the food prepared free-of-charge, but ninah wasn't awake yet so we cudnt go without her.
tengahari we went to kak ida's wedding..she's kakyung's highschool friend...went back home n slept..
around 4pm kakyung and yeop arrived..we went to pakcik halim's openhouse... there were all types of laksas prepared.
at nite...me n chik stayed home,mak n ayah went to NC's house, yung and yeop and nibah went to kak ida's house.
they brought back a few different cakes from secret recipe to celebrate nibah's birthday..
that's practically everything that happened.
An Inspirational Du'a
by Imam al-Ghazali - translated by shaykh Seraj Hendricks
O Allah , of Grace I ask You its perfection ;
and of protection its duration ;
and of mercy its completion ;
and of health its attainment.
Of livelihood , I ask its comfort ;
and of life its happiness ;
and of virtue its completion ;
and of blessings its totality ;
and of graciousness its sweetness ;
and of benevolence the nearest.
O Allah, terminate with happiness our final end
and fulfil for us our hopes beyond expectations .
Join with well-being and good health
our early mornings and dusky evenings ,
and set Your mercy as our final end and outcome.
Pour the abundance of Your Forgiveness
upon our sins , and favour us with the
removal of our faults.
Give us piety as a provision and place
our efforts in the strengthening
of Your Religion.
In You is our trust and upon You our dependence.
O Allah , strengthen us on the road of sincerity
and righteousness and protect us
in this world from that which will be cause
for regret on the Final Day.
Lighten for us the burden of our sins
and bestow upon us the blessings of those
who live a life of Righteousness ,
and be sufficient for us and avert
from us the evils of those who do evil.
Free us and free our fathers and our mothers
and our teachers from the fire of hell by
the grace of Your Mercy.
O most Mighty , most Merciful , most Generous;
the Veiler (of faults) , the Gentle One , the Potent.
O Allah...O Allah...O Allah...O Allah...
O Merciful... O Merciful...O Merciful...
O most Merciful of the Merciful...
the First of the First and the Last of the Last.
The Possessor of unshakable Power.
The most Compassionate to the poor
and the destitute.
O most Merciful of the Merciful.
"There is no God except You.
Glory be to You. Indeed I am amongst
those who have done wrong" (surah Anbiyaa :87)
May the blessings of Allah be upon Muhammmad ,
his family and all of his companions.
And praise belongs to Allah alone , Lord of the worlds.
O Allah , of Grace I ask You its perfection ;
and of protection its duration ;
and of mercy its completion ;
and of health its attainment.
Of livelihood , I ask its comfort ;
and of life its happiness ;
and of virtue its completion ;
and of blessings its totality ;
and of graciousness its sweetness ;
and of benevolence the nearest.
O Allah, terminate with happiness our final end
and fulfil for us our hopes beyond expectations .
Join with well-being and good health
our early mornings and dusky evenings ,
and set Your mercy as our final end and outcome.
Pour the abundance of Your Forgiveness
upon our sins , and favour us with the
removal of our faults.
Give us piety as a provision and place
our efforts in the strengthening
of Your Religion.
In You is our trust and upon You our dependence.
O Allah , strengthen us on the road of sincerity
and righteousness and protect us
in this world from that which will be cause
for regret on the Final Day.
Lighten for us the burden of our sins
and bestow upon us the blessings of those
who live a life of Righteousness ,
and be sufficient for us and avert
from us the evils of those who do evil.
Free us and free our fathers and our mothers
and our teachers from the fire of hell by
the grace of Your Mercy.
O most Mighty , most Merciful , most Generous;
the Veiler (of faults) , the Gentle One , the Potent.
O Allah...O Allah...O Allah...O Allah...
O Merciful... O Merciful...O Merciful...
O most Merciful of the Merciful...
the First of the First and the Last of the Last.
The Possessor of unshakable Power.
The most Compassionate to the poor
and the destitute.
O most Merciful of the Merciful.
"There is no God except You.
Glory be to You. Indeed I am amongst
those who have done wrong" (surah Anbiyaa :87)
May the blessings of Allah be upon Muhammmad ,
his family and all of his companions.
And praise belongs to Allah alone , Lord of the worlds.
Gone are the doubts...
i don't really know what i'm feeling rite now...but i think i'm somewhat relieved...a load of my mind... i now know what to make of the issue that has been weighing on my mind.
after chatting with him for three consecutive nites...finally i'm clear of where i stand and gone are the doubts and grey areas that had been there before...
it was sweet while it lasted (although there were many awkward times)... it was just not meant to be...Allah has other plans for me...
whatever it is...i'm absolutely curious to find out... may He guide me on my path of seeking His pleasure and blessing.
my main focus now is my studies and becoming the best doctor i can be...
after chatting with him for three consecutive nites...finally i'm clear of where i stand and gone are the doubts and grey areas that had been there before...
it was sweet while it lasted (although there were many awkward times)... it was just not meant to be...Allah has other plans for me...
whatever it is...i'm absolutely curious to find out... may He guide me on my path of seeking His pleasure and blessing.
my main focus now is my studies and becoming the best doctor i can be...
Friday, November 26, 2004
home sweet home
I’m writing this from home on my brand new computer. I get to rest at home for four days after my hectic exams. After the susah gile PBQ paper and OSPE, and somewhat ok MCQ’s I came home last Wednesday. Bought a ticket on the spot with me frenz and arrived home around 8pm. I missed uswah’s open house that night. Anyway, we bought tandoori and roti nan and ate at home. Then huh..terus hit the tv. Something I didn’t do much in kuantan. Bukan takde, just not really interested to watch it. I slept late watching mercury rising and How to lose a guy in 10 days.
I had to wake up early though coz me, adeq,hammad and mak planned to fast. But I just had to catch on some sleep. Then I woke back up coz I had to follow ayah and mak to Impian Emas Medical Centre. It’s a place which practices alternative medicine. Ayah wanted to try it since he couldn’t stand his allergic rhinitis anymore. They do Detox and infrared and prescribe medication other than the conventional ones. Kinda like a holistic approach. Ayah and mak did some detoxing while I underwent an infrared radiation treatment for a condition that I have. The visit to the centre cost ayah a bomb. It didn’t just burn a hole in his pockets, the whole pocket was burnt.
After that, I followed mak to her office coz she wanted me to be there when the computer guy came. But he didn’t turn up. So we went home, rested for a while and prepared for iftar while watching a Korean drama. Nasib it was the last episode, I can’t afford to be hooked on it. Anyway, the guy came to our house during this time. He setup the computer stuff and all and then wanted to show me a few things. At that time, I was feeling faint. I saw black dots and was on the verge of passing out. I don’t really know how it started or anything. I just felt like fainting so I immediately sat down. It was quite embarrassing, happening in front of that guy and all. I couldn’t eat or drink anything to regain my strength since it wasn’t time to break the fast yet. It was total agony waiting for those few minutes to iftar. Munibah couldn’t help teasing me about that incident after that.
I tried to figure the cause of my near-faint condition. Mak said it was because I was fasting. Ayah said it was due to the infra red treatment. It dehydrates you because the molecules are carried through the body by the body’s water content. Plus I was fasting, so I couldn’t replenish the water lost. Actually, I’ve experienced this faintness several times before. I can recall some incidents during high school. Even during the practical class where we had to stand for so long observing the organs of the cadaver, I felt slightly faint. I don’t really know how I’m gonna survive the bedside teaching during my clinical years. I certainly have to take some supplements to survive.
Last night I explored the uses of me brand new comp. logged on to the internet and found several old friends on line. Twas nice chatting with ‘em. Really nice.
Aishah came this morning and we caught up on old times. Updating each other on our happenings in life.
I had to wake up early though coz me, adeq,hammad and mak planned to fast. But I just had to catch on some sleep. Then I woke back up coz I had to follow ayah and mak to Impian Emas Medical Centre. It’s a place which practices alternative medicine. Ayah wanted to try it since he couldn’t stand his allergic rhinitis anymore. They do Detox and infrared and prescribe medication other than the conventional ones. Kinda like a holistic approach. Ayah and mak did some detoxing while I underwent an infrared radiation treatment for a condition that I have. The visit to the centre cost ayah a bomb. It didn’t just burn a hole in his pockets, the whole pocket was burnt.
After that, I followed mak to her office coz she wanted me to be there when the computer guy came. But he didn’t turn up. So we went home, rested for a while and prepared for iftar while watching a Korean drama. Nasib it was the last episode, I can’t afford to be hooked on it. Anyway, the guy came to our house during this time. He setup the computer stuff and all and then wanted to show me a few things. At that time, I was feeling faint. I saw black dots and was on the verge of passing out. I don’t really know how it started or anything. I just felt like fainting so I immediately sat down. It was quite embarrassing, happening in front of that guy and all. I couldn’t eat or drink anything to regain my strength since it wasn’t time to break the fast yet. It was total agony waiting for those few minutes to iftar. Munibah couldn’t help teasing me about that incident after that.
I tried to figure the cause of my near-faint condition. Mak said it was because I was fasting. Ayah said it was due to the infra red treatment. It dehydrates you because the molecules are carried through the body by the body’s water content. Plus I was fasting, so I couldn’t replenish the water lost. Actually, I’ve experienced this faintness several times before. I can recall some incidents during high school. Even during the practical class where we had to stand for so long observing the organs of the cadaver, I felt slightly faint. I don’t really know how I’m gonna survive the bedside teaching during my clinical years. I certainly have to take some supplements to survive.
Last night I explored the uses of me brand new comp. logged on to the internet and found several old friends on line. Twas nice chatting with ‘em. Really nice.
Aishah came this morning and we caught up on old times. Updating each other on our happenings in life.
Monday, November 22, 2004
2 down 3 to go
i've just finished my essay and short notes paper..
the essay paper wasn't as hard as last time..heh that time i left my answer sheet blank on cholesterol metabolism..nak gorang pun takde bahan..
the questions this time were all that i had prepared for cume ingat2 lupe jeh..except the islamic input and stress question..terkulat2 gak nak jawab..
ok..turn 180 degrees from exams..yesterday i heard from a friend of mine that her roommate whose sister is my senior's classmate in UTM said that he said something and she associated it with me..huh pelik betul..dah le info mesti dah pass thru berape pihak entah..so it's hardly believable..and yeah its a small world..everyone u know is connected somehow or another..
okeh..kena prepare for PBQ(problem-based questions) and OSPE (objective structured question examination) for tomorrow..
the essay paper wasn't as hard as last time..heh that time i left my answer sheet blank on cholesterol metabolism..nak gorang pun takde bahan..
the questions this time were all that i had prepared for cume ingat2 lupe jeh..except the islamic input and stress question..terkulat2 gak nak jawab..
ok..turn 180 degrees from exams..yesterday i heard from a friend of mine that her roommate whose sister is my senior's classmate in UTM said that he said something and she associated it with me..huh pelik betul..dah le info mesti dah pass thru berape pihak entah..so it's hardly believable..and yeah its a small world..everyone u know is connected somehow or another..
okeh..kena prepare for PBQ(problem-based questions) and OSPE (objective structured question examination) for tomorrow..
Friday, November 19, 2004
back to exams
okeh..i'm back from kampung and taman..coz there's no more kampung baling..just rumah taman in sungai petani..and kuale kangsar..bes..bes..sedih je sebab kena balik awal..tak dpt lelame ngan family..cuti sakan macam takde pekse jeh..
can't write much..there's loads of chapters i haven't covered yet.. tak pe kakyung will surely narrate all the happenings of raye this time around..
can't write much..there's loads of chapters i haven't covered yet.. tak pe kakyung will surely narrate all the happenings of raye this time around..
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
a new day
my depressed state yesterday cost me a few precious tears which were shed involuntarily before dr.khurshid..after that,straight away i headed for the hostel regardless of the raining weather..alhamdulillah a short restful nap was all i needed and my spirits were soaring again..
yesterday's iftar was absolutely lovely..all five of us;cbah,nik,asma and azza went to dr melur's and had a hearty and scrumptuous meal as expected..pakcik husni who usually makes his famous air tembikai thought that he'd try a new recipe..air limau..it looked quite delicious but the our tastebuds disagreed..he'd blended limau kasturi dengan kulit sekali.healthy he said.the rest however was dandy.
after maghrib we all went back to uia including pakcik husni,dr.melur and khadijah for tarawikh prayers and a talk by ust.azmi from KUKTEM on the sunnah approach of eid..it was menginsafkan..then we all went back to dr.melur's and had ice cream cocktail for desert..
last night me and nik slept over at cbah's room and chatted till quite late..alhamdulillah we still woke up for sahur and had heated what dr.melur had supplied us with..
this morning..my spirits high,i went to join my friends at the library..i have many reasons to be smiling..one,it's my bithday according to the hijrah calender..my dad said that i was born on the 27th of ramadhan and since it fell on the last 10 days of ramadhan it was among the blessed days so he named me AWLA.. bangga gak ngan my name..sape tak, kan..
two,i'm going to see my family tomorrow..mak,ayah,kakyung,yeop,nibah,chik and hammad..
three,the results will finally come out..tapi tak kesah sgt dah..can't affect me much..
forth,there's the iftar at pakcik azzam's house to look forward to..
anyway..the results have finally been posted after much hassle..i got okay..so did my friends alhamdulillah..i'm getting an ice cream coz i beat this one guy..heh.. can't wait to claim it..
ok that's all..3 alhamdulillah's in this post..there's much that i am thankful for..
hari raya here i come...heh
yesterday's iftar was absolutely lovely..all five of us;cbah,nik,asma and azza went to dr melur's and had a hearty and scrumptuous meal as expected..pakcik husni who usually makes his famous air tembikai thought that he'd try a new recipe..air limau..it looked quite delicious but the our tastebuds disagreed..he'd blended limau kasturi dengan kulit sekali.healthy he said.the rest however was dandy.
after maghrib we all went back to uia including pakcik husni,dr.melur and khadijah for tarawikh prayers and a talk by ust.azmi from KUKTEM on the sunnah approach of eid..it was menginsafkan..then we all went back to dr.melur's and had ice cream cocktail for desert..
last night me and nik slept over at cbah's room and chatted till quite late..alhamdulillah we still woke up for sahur and had heated what dr.melur had supplied us with..
this morning..my spirits high,i went to join my friends at the library..i have many reasons to be smiling..one,it's my bithday according to the hijrah calender..my dad said that i was born on the 27th of ramadhan and since it fell on the last 10 days of ramadhan it was among the blessed days so he named me AWLA.. bangga gak ngan my name..sape tak, kan..
two,i'm going to see my family tomorrow..mak,ayah,kakyung,yeop,nibah,chik and hammad..
three,the results will finally come out..tapi tak kesah sgt dah..can't affect me much..
forth,there's the iftar at pakcik azzam's house to look forward to..
anyway..the results have finally been posted after much hassle..i got okay..so did my friends alhamdulillah..i'm getting an ice cream coz i beat this one guy..heh.. can't wait to claim it..
ok that's all..3 alhamdulillah's in this post..there's much that i am thankful for..
hari raya here i come...heh
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
a depressing morning
i am so depressed rite now i don't know whether to cry or just scold someone.i feel like strangling a few people.what the hell is their problem.i was controlling and rationalizing myself but finding it difficult since their actions ain't rational at all.
ok the story goes like this..last friday we had our 2nd minitest.me and my studymates worked hard for it although we were still blurrish on a few chapters. alhamdulillah we made it through.after the 2nd minitest is our revision week for our end block exam.since our exams which was postponed from 2nd raye to 22nd after raye..we have two weeks of holiday.so some of my friends have gone back home already. however most of us stayed back with the intention of doing some early revision and then just catching up when we come back from kampung. we,especially me, know that going home is equivalent to not studying. its jut been programmed that way,maybe ever since my matriculation days. we had this planned a month ago.
but now that we're actually going through it,it doesnt seem so enjoyable. as each day goes by, it gets more depressing. at first we had the programme at polisas to look forward to. and then we knew it was serious studying all the way.(serious doesnt really dscribe my studygroup..it's 50% laughter,20% gossipping and a mere 30% studying excluding the eating and breaks). however being a part of a group really provides me with the moral and social support adequate to sustain my sanity here..
ok,back to my main frustration. its concerning the minitest results. today's tuesday and its still not out yet. previously it would have been out the very evening we took the test.or maybe the next morning. but this time..huh..4 days have passed and its still not out. the results have been one of my motivating factors keeping me here these few days otherwise i can go back home and be with people i love..my family. everyday when we go to the library i make a detour firat to the BMS board to see if its out and every time i am disappointed. its not that i did extremly well, its just that i want to know my results. if i did bad then i must work harder and if i did okay, then i should keep it up. but it's just not out yet.
i've already met with dr.khurshid,our course coordinator yesterday and he said that there was a problem with the kulliyyah admin..and he went on saying that if these people make fasting a reason for their lack of production this ramadhan then might as well they dont fast at all. but he assured me that this morning it will come out. okay i could accept that.
this morning i was excited coz it was finally gonna come out just to be crushed and disappointed again. so i straight away went to ask sis. fiza,the secretary of BMS dept but she didnt know anything about it. so i went to dr.khurshid who called the kulliyyah admin people or specifically sister munirah who was handling the matter. she said that the results have already been processed 2 days ago (tensyen je dengar). someone just had to pick it up. but according to the BMS people it is not their job to be going after results and picking it up themselves,the secretary has to do it but the secretary doesnt know anything about it... huh tensyennye..derang gaduh and we're stuck in the middle..cam malcolm in the middle plak.
i went back to my friends and revised a bit.. then my friends went to see if what i did got us somewhere just to be disappointed again. so they decided to see prof nasa the head of BMS. he said that he was waiting for someone to send the results to him coz he's not going anywhere or doing something that he wasn't supposed to.. although frustrated,we managed to go through 2 subtopics..then i just couldnt stand it i went to check again..it was as expected. nothing there. so this time i asked sis fiza the prof nasa whose answer further exacerbate my misery and destroyed the little sanity and control i had left. he said he cant do anything about it and told us to wait for it..
i know we should be patient especially since it's ramadhan and all..but it's just so hard to do..and the circumstances being as it is..
so here i am.at the computer lab..pouring it all out..still feeling miserable..i just pray that things will get better or i might just breakdown and fall apart..potentially hazardous to myself and others..
at least i have iftar at dr.melur's tonight to look forward to..the food she prepares are always yummylicious..
ok the story goes like this..last friday we had our 2nd minitest.me and my studymates worked hard for it although we were still blurrish on a few chapters. alhamdulillah we made it through.after the 2nd minitest is our revision week for our end block exam.since our exams which was postponed from 2nd raye to 22nd after raye..we have two weeks of holiday.so some of my friends have gone back home already. however most of us stayed back with the intention of doing some early revision and then just catching up when we come back from kampung. we,especially me, know that going home is equivalent to not studying. its jut been programmed that way,maybe ever since my matriculation days. we had this planned a month ago.
but now that we're actually going through it,it doesnt seem so enjoyable. as each day goes by, it gets more depressing. at first we had the programme at polisas to look forward to. and then we knew it was serious studying all the way.(serious doesnt really dscribe my studygroup..it's 50% laughter,20% gossipping and a mere 30% studying excluding the eating and breaks). however being a part of a group really provides me with the moral and social support adequate to sustain my sanity here..
ok,back to my main frustration. its concerning the minitest results. today's tuesday and its still not out yet. previously it would have been out the very evening we took the test.or maybe the next morning. but this time..huh..4 days have passed and its still not out. the results have been one of my motivating factors keeping me here these few days otherwise i can go back home and be with people i love..my family. everyday when we go to the library i make a detour firat to the BMS board to see if its out and every time i am disappointed. its not that i did extremly well, its just that i want to know my results. if i did bad then i must work harder and if i did okay, then i should keep it up. but it's just not out yet.
i've already met with dr.khurshid,our course coordinator yesterday and he said that there was a problem with the kulliyyah admin..and he went on saying that if these people make fasting a reason for their lack of production this ramadhan then might as well they dont fast at all. but he assured me that this morning it will come out. okay i could accept that.
this morning i was excited coz it was finally gonna come out just to be crushed and disappointed again. so i straight away went to ask sis. fiza,the secretary of BMS dept but she didnt know anything about it. so i went to dr.khurshid who called the kulliyyah admin people or specifically sister munirah who was handling the matter. she said that the results have already been processed 2 days ago (tensyen je dengar). someone just had to pick it up. but according to the BMS people it is not their job to be going after results and picking it up themselves,the secretary has to do it but the secretary doesnt know anything about it... huh tensyennye..derang gaduh and we're stuck in the middle..cam malcolm in the middle plak.
i went back to my friends and revised a bit.. then my friends went to see if what i did got us somewhere just to be disappointed again. so they decided to see prof nasa the head of BMS. he said that he was waiting for someone to send the results to him coz he's not going anywhere or doing something that he wasn't supposed to.. although frustrated,we managed to go through 2 subtopics..then i just couldnt stand it i went to check again..it was as expected. nothing there. so this time i asked sis fiza the prof nasa whose answer further exacerbate my misery and destroyed the little sanity and control i had left. he said he cant do anything about it and told us to wait for it..
i know we should be patient especially since it's ramadhan and all..but it's just so hard to do..and the circumstances being as it is..
so here i am.at the computer lab..pouring it all out..still feeling miserable..i just pray that things will get better or i might just breakdown and fall apart..potentially hazardous to myself and others..
at least i have iftar at dr.melur's tonight to look forward to..the food she prepares are always yummylicious..
Sunday, November 07, 2004
sigh
i don't really know what to write..all i know is i wanna write something..
i'm just staring at the monitor thinking of the 3 days ahead of me that i have to spend revising for my final exams..then a silver lining appears..come deepavali and off i go to kl to meet my family..then terus balik kampung..yeye..can't wait..
but the revision period ain't too bad considering i have a wonderful studygroup..bonus points coz these are my bestest friends cum my usrah mates..
lemme pen down some of the happenings yesterday..i missed sahur coz i slept a bit late but alhamdulillah managed subuh fairly..then i went to asma's room to discuss on STD's for the programme that day.. we were worried that the participants of the kesihatan reproduksi program at POLISAS would ask those questions so we might as well be prepared...
then
i'm just staring at the monitor thinking of the 3 days ahead of me that i have to spend revising for my final exams..then a silver lining appears..come deepavali and off i go to kl to meet my family..then terus balik kampung..yeye..can't wait..
but the revision period ain't too bad considering i have a wonderful studygroup..bonus points coz these are my bestest friends cum my usrah mates..
lemme pen down some of the happenings yesterday..i missed sahur coz i slept a bit late but alhamdulillah managed subuh fairly..then i went to asma's room to discuss on STD's for the programme that day.. we were worried that the participants of the kesihatan reproduksi program at POLISAS would ask those questions so we might as well be prepared...
then
Thursday, November 04, 2004
thanks yung
heh..so i get to hav a blog of me own.now i can write and post all the stuff that has been happening in my life. menarik jugak tengok orang lain punye..thanks yung for creating this one for me.. maybe when i have time i'll update later.. i hav to study for minitest tomorrow..still quite blurrish..k,thanks again yung.kena gi discussion balik ni.bye.
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