life outside of the hospital

i guess it helps a lot in maintaining my sanity.

when i go home to my husband and in-laws, i forget about the patients, the scoldings by m.o's and specialists, the great expectations, the plentiful rounds and my many inadequacies.

life at home offers that change of environment and relief.

i do like going to work. its just some times when i screw up and get depressed that i feel like running away and quitting. jealous jugak tengok my friends enjoying their job.

sometimes i just feel numb and blur.

a colleague of mine is taking an online course in finance from harvard while doing EOD calls.. he says it keeps him going through the tough times.

moral of the story: one needs another life apart from the medical world to remain balanced.

i cant wait for raya holidays. i get 3 days plus another 4 days after that. something to look forward to on bleak days hehe.

no complaints

i think i've been whining and complaining too much without realising why i have to work so hard.

when i go to work and do my job well, i become the medium for a sick baby or child to become better with Allah's will. and that satisfaction is priceless.

i cant imagine myself other than a doctor so i have to be a great one.

Ya Allah, please give me the strength and ability to do my job well and remain focused on my goals in life. Amin.