27th June 2006, another simple, plain, ordinary, mundane day. it just signifies that i have lived on this earth for exactly 21 years according to the solar-based calender. i'm much older than that when measured by the lunar calender.
it's not whether ppl remember it or not, it's how one feels about themselves that matter right? (trying to console my own forlorn cardium)
this morning's lecture on altered bowel habits was so-so. yeah, biaselah tu changes from the norm once in a while. only when it deviates drastically should we start to worry.
then there was one on ENT in general medicine; all those runny noses and sore throats and ear problems. the ENT specialist delivering the lecture was mumbling and his pace was very, very fast. i had to focus hard on what was being said and couldn't really retain much info. at the end, he asked for feedback from us, i doubt anyone had the heart (and prolly courage) to point out his weaknesses.
i'm feeling rather down now because i have planned to go to the dentist this evening since we have no class and all but that doesn't seem likely to happen. it's disheartening when ur plans do not materialise. well, Allah knows best.
p.s. KAK YUNG, thanx for the modified birthday song :P and CHIK thanx for the msg
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
the indonesians and my happy moment
Just now, the 1st batch of Indonesian students doing their elective here arrived. I’m such a panicker. I’m always kelam kabut when I have to handle important things. There was also a session of the MSC main board with the 1st years. I kecoh2 buat slide tah pape. I was babbling away like I always do sampai MC nak bg a warning note but I finished just before he could give me one :P
One thing that I noticed was my “lah”s. I just can’t seem to discard them. when I think, they don’t come out but when those thoughts are spoken, the “lah”s just flow out involuntarily. I must do something about it.
Hmm, when I got back to my room it was nearly 12.00 am. Munibah called and was the first to wish me a happy birthday. Ayah sang me the birthday song in the background. Niebah said that Hammad was practicing for his English pidato competition. Fuyoo, hammad masuk these things. I’m really surprised. Then I received messages from Amirah, mak, Lead, Azira, Saidat and the guy I have learnt to tolerate his presence. Kitorang kenelah same group posting la kan. how ironic! Asma’ gave me a card and chocolate from New Zealand.
I’m a very, very happy 22- year old right now!
Eheh, I’ve actually pampered myself by buying some chocolate this afternoon.
1.00 am
27th june2006
One thing that I noticed was my “lah”s. I just can’t seem to discard them. when I think, they don’t come out but when those thoughts are spoken, the “lah”s just flow out involuntarily. I must do something about it.
Hmm, when I got back to my room it was nearly 12.00 am. Munibah called and was the first to wish me a happy birthday. Ayah sang me the birthday song in the background. Niebah said that Hammad was practicing for his English pidato competition. Fuyoo, hammad masuk these things. I’m really surprised. Then I received messages from Amirah, mak, Lead, Azira, Saidat and the guy I have learnt to tolerate his presence. Kitorang kenelah same group posting la kan. how ironic! Asma’ gave me a card and chocolate from New Zealand.
I’m a very, very happy 22- year old right now!
Eheh, I’ve actually pampered myself by buying some chocolate this afternoon.
1.00 am
27th june2006
Intro to HTAA and developmental milestones
What’s HTAA?
Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan. The teaching hospital we’re doing our practical at.
We had a session this morning with the Hospital Director. He explained stuff about the hospital; it’s history and structure etc.
I was sooooo bored and missing Nawaz that the only things I jotted down in my notebook were nonsensical thoughts of my boredom and my annoyingly diffuse and bilateral headache. I really believe that time practically dragged on as he spoke. I kept glancing at the watch every 2 seconds.
I guess some people just have mesmerizing voices. He was practically rocking me to sleep.
BUT, I did manage to get some cool facts from him. There are 9,000 deliveries in HTAA annually. That’s 750 births a month. Wow!
There’s also been an increase in the lab investigations ordered. Prolly cause everyone needs to be very, very confirmed of the diagnoses. And, the admission to the hospital has decreased from 2002. one reason was the dengue outbreak that year and secondly, may be the pertinent medical students buzzing around causes some discomfort for the patients. Hehe…
Okay the stats are;
MOPD - 18,612 > eye check up - 16,289 > orthopaedics - 16,413 > SOPD - 15,829
(medical outpatient dept, surgical OPD)
After that was an interesting lecture by Dr Siti Nor, a paediatrician. It was on the growth and developmental milestones of children. I was thinking of Nawaz all the time.
Some cool facts Yung,
• at birth babies look chubby coz of water. Then they lose weight when they lose this water. Within a week, they regain the lost weight.
• Nawaz will get stranger anxiety at 8 months old, that’ll be in November. U better make sure he recognizes his mak yang…
• At 9 mths he’ll be able to crawl, the commando crawl followed by the bear crawl
• 11 months baru die bley main “cak, cak” and jalan supported by the railings
• At 18 months baru his handedness develops. Means he starts using either his left or right side predominantly.
Banyak lagi but mestilah malas nak salin. I was just interested in what I’ll be looking forward to.
Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan. The teaching hospital we’re doing our practical at.
We had a session this morning with the Hospital Director. He explained stuff about the hospital; it’s history and structure etc.
I was sooooo bored and missing Nawaz that the only things I jotted down in my notebook were nonsensical thoughts of my boredom and my annoyingly diffuse and bilateral headache. I really believe that time practically dragged on as he spoke. I kept glancing at the watch every 2 seconds.
I guess some people just have mesmerizing voices. He was practically rocking me to sleep.
BUT, I did manage to get some cool facts from him. There are 9,000 deliveries in HTAA annually. That’s 750 births a month. Wow!
There’s also been an increase in the lab investigations ordered. Prolly cause everyone needs to be very, very confirmed of the diagnoses. And, the admission to the hospital has decreased from 2002. one reason was the dengue outbreak that year and secondly, may be the pertinent medical students buzzing around causes some discomfort for the patients. Hehe…
Okay the stats are;
MOPD - 18,612 > eye check up - 16,289 > orthopaedics - 16,413 > SOPD - 15,829
(medical outpatient dept, surgical OPD)
After that was an interesting lecture by Dr Siti Nor, a paediatrician. It was on the growth and developmental milestones of children. I was thinking of Nawaz all the time.
Some cool facts Yung,
• at birth babies look chubby coz of water. Then they lose weight when they lose this water. Within a week, they regain the lost weight.
• Nawaz will get stranger anxiety at 8 months old, that’ll be in November. U better make sure he recognizes his mak yang…
• At 9 mths he’ll be able to crawl, the commando crawl followed by the bear crawl
• 11 months baru die bley main “cak, cak” and jalan supported by the railings
• At 18 months baru his handedness develops. Means he starts using either his left or right side predominantly.
Banyak lagi but mestilah malas nak salin. I was just interested in what I’ll be looking forward to.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Common things
"When you hear hooves, think of horses first, not zebras"
i'm not really sure of the source of this saying but it's a principle in medicine. it means that COMMON THINGS ARE COMMON. some of u might be rolling ur eyes and saying "well now, that's obvious".
but in reality, we, med students tend to think of the most interesting things first and those would always be the rare and uncommon diseases.. and the doctor would say "common ones first please".
if i had a penny for every time the word common is said by the lecturers, i'd be a millionaire by now =P
in my pre-clinical years, i used to get tired of hearing them say this phrase. believe me, u can even find it in the books but i can't remember which one. how are we supposed to know what's common. the books' statistics don't help much esp not in the health statistics of malaysia. asyek kene gune statistics US or UK je.
only now, when i visit the wards can i know the actual frequency of the occurence of the diseases. just yesterday when me and asma' were practising clerking patients in the female surgical ward, we clerked two cases of cholelithiasis (stones in the gallbladder)one after the other. macam deja vu plak. pastu my friends said there were also cases of cholecystitis (inflammation of the gallbladder) and choledocholilithiasis (stones in the gallbladder wall).
hmm, i'm convinced now that females are very susceptible to suffer from stones in their biliary system.
common things ARE common. now i can know what those common diseases are :)
i'm not really sure of the source of this saying but it's a principle in medicine. it means that COMMON THINGS ARE COMMON. some of u might be rolling ur eyes and saying "well now, that's obvious".
but in reality, we, med students tend to think of the most interesting things first and those would always be the rare and uncommon diseases.. and the doctor would say "common ones first please".
if i had a penny for every time the word common is said by the lecturers, i'd be a millionaire by now =P
in my pre-clinical years, i used to get tired of hearing them say this phrase. believe me, u can even find it in the books but i can't remember which one. how are we supposed to know what's common. the books' statistics don't help much esp not in the health statistics of malaysia. asyek kene gune statistics US or UK je.
only now, when i visit the wards can i know the actual frequency of the occurence of the diseases. just yesterday when me and asma' were practising clerking patients in the female surgical ward, we clerked two cases of cholelithiasis (stones in the gallbladder)one after the other. macam deja vu plak. pastu my friends said there were also cases of cholecystitis (inflammation of the gallbladder) and choledocholilithiasis (stones in the gallbladder wall).
hmm, i'm convinced now that females are very susceptible to suffer from stones in their biliary system.
common things ARE common. now i can know what those common diseases are :)
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
A perfect lover?
okay this is just to entertain 'Umayr.. since he's tagged me and all... how this thing works i'm not so certain... malas nak sambung but this topic memang lah best :P
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I don’t believe there exists a PERFECT lover so i have no delusions of having one. If there is one, he or she must be lying. Everyone has his or her own Achilles' heel. But everyone also has their own strengths and capabilities. All this added up makes that person unique. I’d rather someone who has flaws and faults since I am far from perfect myself.
But I do have some ideas of the person I wish to spend the rest of my life married to.
He must ...
1. ... be a mu’min first and foremost.
I don’t think this point needs further elaboration.
2. ...not only be a soleh person but also musleh
What’s the difference? A soleh person is good for himself; a musleh person invites others to do good too.
3. ... be someone who perceives life through the glasses of Islam
When someone makes Allah’s Shariah his measurement for his every decision, then he can do no wrong. Okay, maybe not all the time, but at least he tries and that’s good enough for me. That way, I’ll have someone to remind me lest I go astray.
4. ...accepts myself for what I am with all my faults and limitations and supports me in my own dreams and goals
He must realize that he’s married a doctor and I have my obligations and responsibilities that come with the profession. And if he’s married me, then I’m positive he’s not superficial. He must also believe in me and my potential and that I can improve on my weaknesses and difficulties in due time.
5. ...have vision
I don’t mind if I marry someone penniless as long as he knows where he’s headed, what he wants in life and has a plan for the future. Even a rough idea would do. Then I’ll certainly go all out to support him. We must also share the same vision, kalau tak mesti susah kalau nak gi two separate ways.
6. ...be brave and patient
Hey, if he is my husband, he really is brave. I realize that I’m not the easiest person to deal with :P
7. ...accepts my whole rowdy clan and also is accepted by them
Hmm susah ni nak approval kakyung and yeop. Yeop vows to interrogate whomever I end up with since I teased him terribly dulu :P
8. ...be someone I can talk to and tell everything to.
At the end of the day, all I want to do is tell him everything so he has to be a good listener. When that day comes, I might not need this blog anymore. Owh, and being good in English is an absolute bonus.
My husband might not be everything I wish for, but if he’s the one Allah intended for me, then he must be the best person for ME.
My friends and I, we think that our previous naqibah’s husband is absolutely wonderful. She is truly blessed to have married him. This is merely my superficial observation. He’s a great da’ie, does everything and is rich too. He can get along with everyone. He does the shopping, pays the bills, and even makes lovely drinks. He goes all out to support her in her profession as a doctor although I doubt he understands much of it since he is not in the same field. They don’t always agree on things, but then they agree to disagree. How cool is that?
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btw, yesterday, i witnessed a baby being delivered for the first time. it wasn't as horrifying as i imagined it but i could see that the orang asli lady was in extreme pain even though it was her 13th delivery but tenth child. there was also a 20-year-old unmarried female waiting to go into labour. she was all alone. a part of me thinks 'sian dia'. the other part doesn't know what to think. the nurses didn't allow students to conduct the delivery because it was a high risk case for her previous medical status were unknown. i didn't stay on to observe the delivery.
i am still not confident in clerking a patient and history taking. yesterday there was this ex-IVDU (intravenpous drug user) patient who had just had a surgery to remove a mycotic aneurysm on his thigh. after reading his bed ticket, i'd felt somehwat differently toward him..
i have a long, long, long road ahead.
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I don’t believe there exists a PERFECT lover so i have no delusions of having one. If there is one, he or she must be lying. Everyone has his or her own Achilles' heel. But everyone also has their own strengths and capabilities. All this added up makes that person unique. I’d rather someone who has flaws and faults since I am far from perfect myself.
But I do have some ideas of the person I wish to spend the rest of my life married to.
He must ...
1. ... be a mu’min first and foremost.
I don’t think this point needs further elaboration.
2. ...not only be a soleh person but also musleh
What’s the difference? A soleh person is good for himself; a musleh person invites others to do good too.
3. ... be someone who perceives life through the glasses of Islam
When someone makes Allah’s Shariah his measurement for his every decision, then he can do no wrong. Okay, maybe not all the time, but at least he tries and that’s good enough for me. That way, I’ll have someone to remind me lest I go astray.
4. ...accepts myself for what I am with all my faults and limitations and supports me in my own dreams and goals
He must realize that he’s married a doctor and I have my obligations and responsibilities that come with the profession. And if he’s married me, then I’m positive he’s not superficial. He must also believe in me and my potential and that I can improve on my weaknesses and difficulties in due time.
5. ...have vision
I don’t mind if I marry someone penniless as long as he knows where he’s headed, what he wants in life and has a plan for the future. Even a rough idea would do. Then I’ll certainly go all out to support him. We must also share the same vision, kalau tak mesti susah kalau nak gi two separate ways.
6. ...be brave and patient
Hey, if he is my husband, he really is brave. I realize that I’m not the easiest person to deal with :P
7. ...accepts my whole rowdy clan and also is accepted by them
Hmm susah ni nak approval kakyung and yeop. Yeop vows to interrogate whomever I end up with since I teased him terribly dulu :P
8. ...be someone I can talk to and tell everything to.
At the end of the day, all I want to do is tell him everything so he has to be a good listener. When that day comes, I might not need this blog anymore. Owh, and being good in English is an absolute bonus.
My husband might not be everything I wish for, but if he’s the one Allah intended for me, then he must be the best person for ME.
My friends and I, we think that our previous naqibah’s husband is absolutely wonderful. She is truly blessed to have married him. This is merely my superficial observation. He’s a great da’ie, does everything and is rich too. He can get along with everyone. He does the shopping, pays the bills, and even makes lovely drinks. He goes all out to support her in her profession as a doctor although I doubt he understands much of it since he is not in the same field. They don’t always agree on things, but then they agree to disagree. How cool is that?
....................................................................................
btw, yesterday, i witnessed a baby being delivered for the first time. it wasn't as horrifying as i imagined it but i could see that the orang asli lady was in extreme pain even though it was her 13th delivery but tenth child. there was also a 20-year-old unmarried female waiting to go into labour. she was all alone. a part of me thinks 'sian dia'. the other part doesn't know what to think. the nurses didn't allow students to conduct the delivery because it was a high risk case for her previous medical status were unknown. i didn't stay on to observe the delivery.
i am still not confident in clerking a patient and history taking. yesterday there was this ex-IVDU (intravenpous drug user) patient who had just had a surgery to remove a mycotic aneurysm on his thigh. after reading his bed ticket, i'd felt somehwat differently toward him..
i have a long, long, long road ahead.
Friday, June 16, 2006
a whole new world
clinical years... it's a different world altogether, the seniors say .
a week of elementary doesn't really show much but it does give some insights on the days ahead. the first day at the ward i was already on the verge of fainting since i didn't take my lunch beforehand. the funny thing was that my roommate also experienced the same thing. balik je terus collapse.
there's soo much to learn and soo much to read.
three weeks more of elementary and then i'll start my fisrt posting... surgery.
owh.. if anyone would like to view my pics, they can just go to drlola.fotopages.com but u need a password. so if ur really interested in seeing my self-obsessed pics and some pics of nawaz and others, leave ur email and i'll give u the password.
i can still deal with strangers reading my nonsensical entries, but pictures are personal i think and only close people should have access to them.
having said that, have a nice day :P
a week of elementary doesn't really show much but it does give some insights on the days ahead. the first day at the ward i was already on the verge of fainting since i didn't take my lunch beforehand. the funny thing was that my roommate also experienced the same thing. balik je terus collapse.
there's soo much to learn and soo much to read.
three weeks more of elementary and then i'll start my fisrt posting... surgery.
owh.. if anyone would like to view my pics, they can just go to drlola.fotopages.com but u need a password. so if ur really interested in seeing my self-obsessed pics and some pics of nawaz and others, leave ur email and i'll give u the password.
i can still deal with strangers reading my nonsensical entries, but pictures are personal i think and only close people should have access to them.
having said that, have a nice day :P
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